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「 bouncing away 12:46 PM 」

was looking through other people's blog- invading their privacy- a few days ago, and i came to the conclusion that in order to improve my english aka gp, i should blog in proper sentences with punctuations. so here it is. :) as you can see, its rather hard since im used to dotting, and my fingers are aching to start dotting, but oh wells, for the sake of my language and results, my fingers will ahve to suffer and my willpower will have to undergo severe testing.
sunday
kawing's birthday. however, the stupid stephanie from venture begged us- me and valerie- to go for some silly scouts carnival at some special school in redhill and started nagging about our responsibility to venture and all that crap. in the end, me and valerie had to go and perform lindy hop on stage for some silly item. i got to partner up with kehan (he seriously resembles hanxiang - so scary) whereas valerie partnered with hasim, then bothe of us and julianna, together with partners, had to perform on stage- it was utterly embarrassing! after that, valerie and me went to ikea to buy boxes for kawing's pressie. on our way to ikea, it started raining and both of us had to walk in the rain. while rushing to buy the boxes in ikea, val suggested that we should buy something else for daddy, so after buying the boxes, both of us went to ikea to find tshirt for kawing. after about 2 hours of searching, finally found a nike hoopline tshirt for him, but then in the end, both of us had to go late because of that. (while looking for THE SHIRT, we went to the cute guy's shop haha and saw him! valerie says he's rather cute but said that i acted very 38 in front of him :( ) meanwhile, bernie, yingli, hweehou, malcolm and kawing met up and did their stuff while both me and val rushed home to bathe and change as we stink of rainwater at that point of time. after bathing, i took a cab down to orcahrd as i feared that i was seriously running late. -.- spent 8 bucks on cab. after that i went to paragon to buy cake for kawing- couldnt find any polar cake shop so had to end up buying 5 of the small breaktalk cake. totally lame -.- went to meet up with them after that at pastamania and "surprised" kawing. however, the atmosphere just wasnt there coz apparently the guys pissed yingli off. we split company soon after that.

monday
somehow was bored enough to look through frienster. chanced upon stephie's ex -alex account, and out of curiosity, decided to be bored enough to look at his blog. was reading through his entry and realised that actually im a rather imfluencial person. seriously dont know whether what i did was right or wrong. somehow once i made up my mind of something, im very fixated over it and will go to the extent of propaganda-ing. so BE WARNED!

tuesday
today was a bloody slacker day. slept during lectures, zaoed tutorials to go and eat. basically was being a total slacker. didnt actually want to turn up for school today as it was raining so heavily in the morning - perfect day for sleeping- but being the guai me, i went to school in the end. didnt do anything constructive. came home, cycled to ecp to book bbq pit. realised it had change to axs machine and the axs machine sucks at ecp!!! NOTICE: BOOKING OF BBQ PITS CAN BE DONE AT AXS MACHINE!!

-take a deep breath save your sigh
this might not be the last goodbye
save your tears and embrace tight
bear in mind that he`d be alright
unlock that heart and let him go
deep inside it hurts i know
until that day till we meet again
up all night is when i`d stay. -

Signing off, zhuhan.

crapilicious. always crappy.

「 bouncing away 4:18 PM 」

lots of anticipation
great bundle of nerves
full of hopes
high expectations
all this will lead to bitter disappointment...
was rather disappointed today.. afterall i had planned it all out so well.. all of them will come at 730.. all of us will go in sit and start watching the concert.. ahzai wun feel bored cos there's ying, donna, geraldine and worse come to worst-kawing, kaitian wun feel left out cos i will make sure she doesnt.. kawing and val they all will sit with us.. introductions will be made and conversations will last.. what a perfect scene.. too bad it aint meant to be. i ought to be a script writer, only lacking in the writing area since i always like so visualise things.. hope great things for the future.. everything will always have a perfect ending.. but sadly its not meant to be. i nv seem to be able to learn my lessons.. in some past entries i swore not to hold great hopes for what has yet to happen.. cause it will always end up in disappointment.. yet this happen once again- tis time... donna came late.. chiam came laer.. missed the first few dances.. and din get to sit at the stall seats till second interval.. val, kawing and bernie went to sit with their ex class... sighh....
to val, kawing and bernie: sorry if i've made you all felt that i have pang-sehed you... so sorry
while waiting for the latecomers to come.. was feeling resentful at myself.. why in the world did i go and create all this trouble? why carn i just buy the tix and go with my class.. no hussle no trouble.. free and easy.. no wastage of time and all... today was in a frenzied hurry- travelled to tm to buy yingli and heon's pressie.. sighh.. in the end onli managed to reach hom around 5.. then bathe and changed.. by the time i left my house with geralidne and kaitian it was already 530 plus.. running ultra late.. only to realised we were the first to arrive... went macs to eat dinner.. -.- was joined by ahzai after a while.. felt qte bad.. din expect the reaction from kawing and val.. din even bother to talk to him.. carn say im not disappointed.. but yet.. however.. uessi could only blame myself for assuming... ASSUMPTION IS THE MOTHER OF ALL FUCKED-UPS... should have known.. but guess now i noe.. sighh... after that hurried to kallagn theatre.. took 2 cab.. went there.. shooed the rest in and i was left outside standing like some charcharred pangseh-ed kia.. -.- felt so foolish at that point of time..
concert was nice however... above expectations.. even the cheena dance was nice!! *gasp* summore saw mel dancing haha.. shock of all shock.. din expect to see her... bio and gp teacher also performed... carn really say they did a good job.. but oh well.. points to them for trying.. making an effort...
after the concert.. wanted to go for supper.. was first pangsehed by kaitian and ahzai.. followed by chima and bf.. alstly by ying and.. kenn.. hais.. seriously no comments bout it.. by then guess i really have lsot most hopes of a great time together... kina expected it cos it din really came as a shock.. was just.. calm cool acceptance of my own silly assumptions and screwups.. felt rather let down.. gotta admit im sad bout it.. really sad.. but guess im so tired and far gone there's isnt much that can affect me now in my current state.. let all the resentment build up within me and just continue calmly accepting till the time came when my patience wore out and the dam burst...
felt like crying several time today.. nothing new bout that.. most prob is due to pms.. not to say that the let down isnt a factor... guess i owe an apology to kaitian and ahzai: sorry for making u come.. shouldnt even have thought of it.. silly me.. what has possesse me at that time.. sorry for not caring bout ur feelings and dinr eally care much bout how u will feel.. sorry bout being such an insensitive brat.. sorry...
realised today that things no longer remains the same.. nothing ever will be.. i have been a big fool in believing otherwise.. time for me to grow up... big time.......................................

Signing off, zhuhan.

crapilicious. always crappy.

「 bouncing away 12:57 PM 」

haha... think tis entry is long overdue.. actually not THAT long just bout one day.. but since its about a rather impt topic.. it can jolly well be deemed as long overdue.. anywae.. think most of u already know by now... i went queensway shopping centre yesterday!!! ( yups.. AGAIN!!) cos chiam wanna buy a pressie for her bf.. so apparently went queensway shopping centre to find shirt for him.. then i intro chiam to HIS shop.. aha.. and apparently she bought a shirt from his shop lar.. but that's not the point.. the point is when i went into his shop, he came and ask me "just ended sch ar?" in cheena larh obviously.. then apparently at that time either i was a) shocked over him talking to me b) shy because im near him.. or something like that.. anywae couldnt really processed what he said.. so i said "huh" in that charcharred way of mine.. then after that he repeated his question.. and i stone for like dunnoe how many donkey years before replying "yea.. sorta" or something like that.. apparently my wits leave me whenever im near him -.- yea.. then after that apparently he left or something then his fren came.. and all..then chiam bot a shirt from him.. when she's paying that time, he came in and asked whether i wanna eat chocolate!!!! so touched!!!! aha.. but i said.. "nah.. no" in that witless way of mine.. gee.. i mean how dumbwitted can i get?!!?!? -.- so utterly embarrassing lar.. then after that said bye to him before zaoing.. sighhh... and chiam said qs looks better than him!!!!!!!!!!!!! :( sobx.. but then again, chiam and me have diff taste.. *whew* thanks god..
then apparently today.. i went with val and kawing to... guess where.. QUEENSWAY again!!!! sigh.. but unfortunately, even though kawing kinda coerced me into walking past his shop.. i din get to see him.. sigh.. saddening.. 3rd time going queensway this week.. think queesnway gonna be my latest hangout place or something -.- then after that went to ikea before going to bugis and meet bernie and eunice.. bot yingli pressie for her concert.. got a bit screwed up during the choosing of pressie.. lazy to blog bout it.. anywae its more or less done le.. all that is left now is for tml to come and the concert to finish so we can ass yingli her pressie.. aha.. :P carn wait for RAPTURE!!! gonna see steph, geraldine, kaitian, donna, ying, ahzai and their bfs (if have) aha.. hmm.. gonna charge my cam tonite.. ^^
anywae, think chiam going to queensway again tml.. but doubt she's gonna wait for me.. so yea.. -.-
oh.. today there's bio test.. aha.. passed .. got 18/24 for mcq.. then the two structured think i screwed it up.. but oh wells... wad's over is over....
hmm.. think im having pms now.. can feel my mood swings.. hope it isnt obvious.. sighh.. think im just a huge gargantuan lump of conflicting cells..it must have something to do with my double personality- what's with being both and libra and a scorpio... sheesh.. its bad for me.. and my life.. buttt.. I LIKKKEEEE... being the way i am.. even though it irks the hell out of me sometimes...( see.. im contradicting myself -.-) hais... think i better end here.. realised how long i've typed.. hmm.. tml got schh.. dreading it.. hell....

-am i really truly seriously over yuuu..?-

Signing off, zhuhan.

crapilicious. always crappy.

「 bouncing away 11:26 AM 」

heys all.. sigh.. really at a lost of wad to type.. loads of things to say.. but somehow just too lazy/tired to organise it properly and type it down.. yeayea.. i know all of u will say i NEVER organise my thoughts. butttt... i can try.. lols.. haha..
anywae went to queensway shopping centre yesterday with vanessa. then aha.. showed her my cute guy.. then the cute guy waved to me lorh.. i din make the first move.. haha.. then he was like " you lai zuo zuo ah?" or sumthing like that.. then i said yea.. before walking away.. -.- and the best thing is that VAN SAID MY CUTE GUY IS CUTE!!!!!!!!!!!!! aha.. totally made my day.. so happy lar.. not even the hour and a half long bus trip home can dim my mood.. haha.. :)
okie.. carn really remember aything else.. oh saw wendy today.. haha.. she grew prettier lar.. gee... look super nice in her rj u.. -.- lol.. yea.. anywae. seriously cannot think of anything else le.. zao 1st.. ciao~

-not point chasing after something that is never meant to be urs..-

Signing off, zhuhan.

crapilicious. always crappy.

「 bouncing away 2:15 PM 」

yea.. for one thing.. i can happily say that im not pmsing anymore!!!! yippie!!! my derdum's over.. OVER.. yeay!! about another 20 days free of bloody stains and pads.. woohoo!!! *jumps for joy* haha.. anywae.. can gladly say that i dun really use much of the comp nowadays cos 1) maple lags on me 2) nothing much to blog bout my mundane life.. 3) too busy reading books.. and lastly 5) im always too tired and lazy to blogg!!!! haha...
anywae just wanted to share my good news to all of u out there (although its qte late).. haha.. i passed my maths!!!! haha.. got a b after much begging for a pathetic 1/2 mark.. thus rising from 64% to 65%.. aha.. so happy!!! ^^ then now im the second in class!! yippie.. for once.. ONCE... my results are satisfactory.. yups.. butt.. still have yet to get back my econs paper.. so till now.. i still fail to meet the promotion criteria.. *hope i get minimun an E for econs.. *
oh yea.. also came to the conclusion that sa's commendation.. is SUPER DUPER nice.. its FANTABULOUS.. yea.. its like damn cool and all.. the bishops and everybody decked out in their nice nice outfits.. then everything's so coordinated and all.. the counsellors even sat down all at the same time!!! and the entire action of sitting down is also coordinated very well... simply an eye-opener... however.. there's this part that still befuddled me.. that is why sa- being a christian sch- said " in the name of the father, the son and the holy spirit..." i thought only catholics says that? -.- geee.....
yups.. anywae went to orchard with bernie, val and kawing.. then later was joined by shane.. then all of us ate lunch at taka.. haha.. finally get to satisfy my week-long craving for tako pachi.. and my insatiable yearning for mos' vanilla shake was temporarily satisfied.. haha.. so happy.. then after that went walk walk.. then shane was telling me what products are good for my face and all..gee.. and all cos of a stupid pimple... -.- haiz.. derdum just finish mar.. sure will ahve pimple outbreak one.. very normal.. no fuss.. :)
but then nevertheless, came to the conclusion that i should go see doc tml... tentatively.. due to my laziness and all.. so yet to be confirmed.. haha.. hais.. dreading the coming week of school.. sian diao.. jsut the thought of it ruins my entire weekend.. -.- geee.. :(
anywae.. donna ar.. haiz.. not really angry with u lar.. just pissed at that time.. plus derdum and all.. sighh.. also dunnoe how to say.. but then u can be assured that im not pissed niemore..!!! :)
anywae.. think i zao 1st le.. couldnt tink of anymore to write.. -mindblock- adious.. ciao babess~~

-thinking of yuu ceased to be a daily occurence... when will the day come when i no longer thinks bout yuu??-

Signing off, zhuhan.

crapilicious. always crappy.

「 bouncing away 11:53 AM 」

sighh.. seriously.. i dunnoe what's wrong with me.. gee.. flunked bio again.. gee.. -.- 32/100 carn even get o level pass.. wad the fuk? -.- sian diao.. anywae.. i tink its my hormones working overtime or something.. even the tiniest weeniest thing gets on my nerves.. sometimes.. i also dunnoe what's wrong with myself.. all of a sudden throwing tantrum.. -.- sian diao.. its all the derdum's fault.. and i aint joking bout it...
anywae paid attention during chem lect today.. then when i predict the names of the organic molecules.. shane and bernie started luffing at me.. -.- geee.. is it really that funny?! sighhh.. anywae.. tml's econs mcq test.. think im so gonna be dead.. no mood to study.. seriously.. i tink i should jsut go poly.. better for me and everyone else....
getting really sick of my class... just when i think the class was qte nice.. ten wayne made some silly comments and i think that my class is really mean.. sian diao.. dunnoe lar... -confused-.. aint no sure what and how im feeling after all... so longg.. -.- im losing myself!!!!!! sighh...
anywae.. i think im getting worked up even over the slightest thing.. but then.. seriously yingli.. i aint joking bout u being.. bully-able.. so sorry for being so direct with you.. but i guess.. since we are close frens and all.. no harm saying that.. :) since u wun get angry or something.. yea.. so sorry if i've hurt ur feelings or something.. hmmzz.. yingli said something bout me being heck-carish.. and not giving a damn bout others' feeling.. what im trying to say here is that... i tink there was a time when i cared bout what others say bout me.. cared bout how others feel..but i guessed i finaly gotten sick of all the lies and hypocrisy and all.. so that's when i become heck-carish.. guess there was this time that i feel hurt over what others say bout me.. gotten really worked up and all.. but now.. i gues si couldnt care less.. at least i noe that no matter what.. there's still frens out there whom i can rely on when the rest of the world detest me.. : chuse, 4some, shane, van, sinyee, and my family!!! yea.. guess tt's mainly the reason..
aint no sure nie more whether my perception of others is biased on my own opinion since i can be very biased on certain stuff.. is there really super ultra nice people out there.. so nice that even others would think its fake? or is it just the differing views of different sexes?.. am i really biased in my views on certain people? sighh.. aint no sure niemore.. -.-
had a small pw meeting today..then valerie came and join us halfway.. she said that me being so anti-social with the rest is bad for me.. sighh.. i also cannot really help it actually.. know its bad.. but i guess its jsut that i have nothing to talk to them about.. no common topics.. am i just a weirdo? or is it cause of different frequencies...? sighh.. really carn blend in with them seriously.. carn sad i din tried.. but also carn said i tried very hard... -.- sian...
all these probbies coming up.. popping out... just nv seem to end.. endless pondering over stuff... sighh.. no wonder my results sucks.. my brain cells are dying so fast at the rate im mulling over stuff.. -.- geee... -.-
talked bout qs to bernie today... how i noe him and all.. realised that it's been really long since i've first crushed on him.. sighh.. the moodss.. the changes that has gone through for the past dunnoe how many donkey years... dun even noe how i will feel when there comes a day when i can be sure that i dun like him niemore... dun even wanna noe... lots of different choices made cause of my crush on him... big mistakes, small mistakes.. lots of crossroads i've walked past.. choosing paths with him in my mind... may took some wrong turns.. so right turnss.. but guess it just simply all leads to where i am now aint it? guess that no matter what decisions ive made now.. i gotta live with the past... carn regret it.. just have to accept it as part of my life... part of my being.. part of who i am now.. it all sums down to one thing.. -acceptance.... butt.. seriously.. do i wanna make the decision? doubt so.. guess i will just put it off as long as possible.. and only will come down to doing it when im in the mood to..

-lost in a world where there's only yuu and me and no one elsee.. -

Signing off, zhuhan.

crapilicious. always crappy.

「 bouncing away 1:00 AM 」

yoossie everybody.. haha.. onve again.. there's a long time lapse between my entries.. haha.. and i bet all of you noe why.. lol.. MAPLE!!! haha.. glad to say that chiam has join the maple family.. lol.. so now she's also busy playing maple.. ^^ so to the rest of you: HURRY AND SIGN UP FOR MAPLE!!! ^^ lols.. okie enough of advertising for maple.. hmm.. blogging...
actually nothing much to blog lar.. cos now my life is just eat, sleep, maple, eat, sleep, maple, eat, sleep, maple.. sighh.. vicious cycle.. buttt... I LIKEEE... :) lols.. alrightys.. hmm.. now using school comp since yingli wanna update her blog.. so here i am.. since sch comp carn play maple.. sad but truee... yups.. so hmm... anywayss.. have yet to get back my maths, econs and bio results.. *cross my figners* hopee that i will passs? gee.. seriously hope so lar.. donna ar... seriously how bad can ur results be? i mean.. mine's sucky enough... ^^
anywae.. hmm.. oh yea.. wanna scold that donna.. sheesh you.. last minute tell me you cannot go for the dance.. WAD YOU WAN ME TO DO!?!?!? sheesh.. -.- last minute can.. if i nv tell you to pay up will you even bother to tell me you cannto make it? so now what you wan me to do with the extra one tix?!?? my sis already settled her tickets probby.. now waiting to collect money.. and you wan me to tell her got 1 extra tix?!?! how could you!?!?!? meano.. -.- summore.. it's suppose to be a CHUSE OUTING!!!! sighhh... -.- but then.. actually.. i should've expected it... different schs now.. ahrd to stay together.. sighh.. -.- oh wellsss.... BUT STILL.. DONNA YOU WILL HAVE TO SETTLE THE ONE TICKET!! I DUN CARE!!!
ookie.. now that im.. calm cool and collected.. i shall bid the rest of you goodbye whilst i surf the net and intrude into your privacies... ^^ ciao babes~

-not sure what to think.. not sure whats my feelings for yuuu.. -

Signing off, zhuhan.

crapilicious. always crappy.

「 bouncing away 10:12 AM 」

REVELATION FOR THE DAY: do NOT.. absolutely do not.. plan anything to do upon reaching home after a day at school 'cause you'll never know when your bitch of a fucked up ass sister is home, hogging up the comp when usually she'll be out till god knows what time.. *pace around muttering*
anyway.. all in all today's a horrid day for me.. firstly, my bitch of a sis is being such an ass by telling me she has eaten up all the tako pachi 'cause she didnt know im coming home so early.. if she has the heart or the brain she can call me... i have a goddamn phone for god's sake... secondly.. i got back cheena and chem paper.. double c... flunked both with a F for cheena and O for chem.. gee.. how great is that?! thirdly, im having violent mood swings.. ranging from extreme anger (all thanks to my fucked up sister) to emotional breakdowns.. gee.. this is like a sure sign of the arrival of my derdum.. gee how great can life get? -.-
by the way, here's a public apology to all my avid readers for the lack of updates as i see no point in depressing all of you of my horrible attempts on my cts and also, i've found a better way of utilising my time online.. - maple-ing!!! haha.. seriously, all of you should get a maple account, THEN you all will know whats the fascination of it all. :)
hmmz, anywae ct was over since last week. sad to say, couldnt find anyone to go out with on friday so in the end had to buay paiseh-ingly drag kaitian to go out with me.. aha.. but then glad to say i did stick to my initial plan of going back mbs.. which is a very very good choice cause it was till when i've reached mbs did i realised how much i've missed it and AUNTY!! haha... chatted with aunty for a while.. then hang around before going home.. and surprise surprise chloe's at home and for ONCE, she willingly let me carry her around.. so fun.. then after that went to find kaitian at tm and watch " a lot like love" so damn nie lar the show.. i strongly recommend it.. jsut that it's better and nicer to watch with ur spouse/stead if you have.. hehehe.. then after that sat was one boring day.. was stuck at home.. read books and played maple again ^^ sunday i went ronald's house to do pw.. then on the way detoured to queensway library to borrow books.. WAH queensway library is very the nice too.. ^^ haha.. better than bedok and parkway. :P then chiong finish pw then watch the guys play ps before going home.. yupsie.. then monday went out with chiam to play pool and watch movie.. haha.. finally got to watch initial d!! super nice.. eidson is one cute guy.. and i finally realised who's shawn yue.. he's alright lar.. rather cute 'cept for his goatie.. then at ps saw jiayi, kaitian, nursila, joleen and ode.. haha.. all celebrating nursi's bday.. lol... had bio spa on tues.. screwed it up big time.. oh wells.. carn expect much from someone like me.. so anywae.. realised what a sad life i lead when i have to go home after the spa paper cos NOBODY WANNA GO OUT WITH ME!!!! *whines* so anywae, went home.. pig out with my beloved sis (older.. DUH~) then played maple with her throughout the entire day..was rather fun.. hehehe.. *grins* so yups.. tt's all for my post-cts activities.. lols... ohoh.. btw saw ms tng on channel 8 news last nite.. bout the public's preference on the country holding the olympics 2012.. lols.. got a shock of my life... :)
okie.. anywaes.. hmm.. think i got this major and i mean seriously major, huge, gargantuan addiction for mr softie chendol.. damn nice.. esp when its at an all time cheap price of 50 cents!! go get it!! it rocks.. haha.. then.. just a fair warning to all you darlings out there to try not to piss me off..though i dunnoe what will piss me off.. cos im in a major moodswing now.. sighhh.. all thanks to my *ahems* sighhh.. ssaddening aint it? hmm.. now waiting for my maths paper.. tt';s the only paper i hope to pass.. yea.. tt's all.. my bio's as good as gone.. econs.. MAYBE got a bit hope.. gp.. dun even wanna think bout it.. yea.. tt wraps up bout all my subjects... -.-
oh wells.. guess i better get back to editing my links and some other stuff.. and also.. update myself of you ppl's life... adious~
oh btw.. got tis song stuck in my head.. rather nice, by natasha bedingfield:

Oh...yeah
My skin is like a map, where my heart has been
And I can't hide the marks, but it's not a negative thing
So I lay down my guard, drop my defenses, down by my clothes
I'm learning to fall, with no safety net, to cushion the blow
I bruise easily, so be gentle when you handle me
There's a mark you leave, like a love heart carved on a tree
I bruise easily, can't scratch the surface without moving me
Underneath I bruise easily, I bruise easily
I found your finger prints on a glass of wine
Do your know ur leaving them all over this heart of mine too
If I never take this leap of faith I'll never know
So I'm learining to fall with no safety net to cushion the blow
I bruise easily, so be gentle when you handle me
There's a mark you leave, like a love heart carved on a tree
I bruise easily, can't scratch the surface without moving me
Underneath I bruise easily, I bruise easily
Anyone who, can touch you, can hurt you, or heal you
Anyone who, can reach you, can love you, or leave you
So be gentle
So be gentle
So be gentle
So be gentle
I bruise easily, so be gentle when you handle me
There's a mark you leave, like a love heart carved on a tree
I bruise easily, can't scratch the surface without moving me
Underneath I bruise easily, I bruise easily
I bruise easily, so be gentle when you handle me
There's a mark you leave, like a love heart carved on a tree
I bruise easily, can't scratch the surface without moving me
Underneath I bruise easily, I bruise easily
I bruise easily I bruise easily

-aint sure bout me feelings no moree...-

Signing off, zhuhan.

crapilicious. always crappy.