Maybe I am and will never be good enough.

these two days are horrid. i hate what i am doing now yet i dont have the courage to pursue what i want. outcome? rage, with myself.

i need a glass of wine or two and some sleep. and maybe, just maybe, tomorrow will indeed be better

2012 in review

So...it's the last day of 2012 and in 10 minutes' time, we'll usher in the new year.

To sum 2012 up in one word: Bittersweet.

On the 18th of January 2012, I lost my paternal granddad. It all started with coughing and that escalated to pneumonia and we lost him to that. The pain was unbearable, I still miss him everyday. On days when the loss gets too much, I cry myself to sleep. His death was too sudden, nobody expected that to happen. One of life's greatest lesson was taught to me then. NEVER take anyone/anything for granted.

Things picked up after that with me being busy with school, internship, meetups with friends. The highlight of 2012 had to be Summer, from June to September, where love came back from the UK. We went on many wonderful dates - lunches, dinners, movies, plays, staycations.

Fast forward to December and here I am, typing this as the fireworks go off. For 2013, I wish for good health and happiness for my loved ones. The other more superficial wishes shall wait.

And if anyone's still reading this page, happy 2013 to you <3 p="p">