cant believe the first post of the summer will be one full of angst. then again, whats new?

sometimes i really dislike talking to my mum. everything comes back to one fucking topic - money. unfortunately, it's something that im lacking (no, honestly). she's always asking me to save and of course, i know the importance of it BUT whats there to friggin save when i dont even have income at all? okay, i do, if you call that miserable tuition takings an income. so she expects me to use whatever that i have/earn and not take any from her. i know im an adult and it's embarrassing to do so but do i have a choice? we're not living in the 60's where everything costs like, 50cents. and trust me, my allowance is PEANUTS compared to other pple (i didnt ask arnd but im pretty sure). im all defensive but i think i have a reason to be. im not trying to sound like a brat but many parents would love it for their children to study further but somehow i think my mum thinks otherwise. to her, everything's about money. and then there's traveling. i told her of my plans and she merely mentioned that i only ought to travel when i start work since money is an issue now. oh yeah, like it wouldnt be then.

honestly, i tried seeing things from her perspectives but no, i cant.  really, puzzling question of the year, how the fuck am i supposed to save? how? not as if i fucking dont want to. who wouldnt like some savings? and to whoever who's reading this now, lucky you.

keep calm and tumblr *breathes in and out*