Twisted.

Unexpected.

How it happened.

I think,

unknowingly,

i fell for you.

I love your companionship.

You took me places.

You looked out for me.

You made me smirk.

And yes,

there are alot of songs

that simply reminds me

of you.

We, emorock.

And sometimes,

i think i may be thinking too much.

But now, I sit here.

And i think, i want to forget about you.

Because.

I bumped into Amanda

at parco.

I had a great day.
Polymates are a riot.
Bugis is still our port.
And mealtimes,
would also be biology lessons.

Not a word.

Another night

has passed.

Pointless, i say,

to wait.

But still,

I do.

And again,

I hope.

Crash & burn.

& damnit,

i think
i miss you.
:(

a break from work. like, finally! and work has been fine. just fine. (:

& im hooked on the academy is.

ok, fine, im too lazy to blog. partly because im deadbeat. partly because of exhaustion frm the 4hr phonecall. partly because my bar of chocolate is gone. and lastly, partly because of you. ahh, damnit. i cant believe its partly because of you. like, waddahell? hmph.

"I'll be with you wherever you go,

through the eyes of a fly on the wall."

on the verge of.

i dont want to cling on.

anymore.

whoa.
this is my 151posts.
ok, i just realised it.
hehs.

havent been updating much since i've bin a busybeeee!
bin out the whole of last wk,
work started last friday too.
so.. yes.
i've not been online much.

alot has happen since my last post.
not all is happy
& not all is sad happenings.
but im stil living my life.
im stil taking it day by day.

however hurt i am from the words tt came out frm ur mouth,
i choose to hide my feelings.
i heal.

& i am still confused,
i am scared.
somehow, i revealed something to you.
i gues in some ways, it was a step.
& everything changed.
it scares the shit outta me.

& yes, i am happy,
for those catch up moments.
over the phone, with various besties
or for those mit ups with close frens
or those quick cheerful text msgs.
im thankful.

damn,
its one heck of a roller coaster ride.
and in some ways,
im still reeeling from those significant events.

with that,
im off to work.

"With nowhere to go.
Have come to an end."
(:

i need

my daily dose

bsb's inconsolable.

this is a

pathetic

post.

a much

happier&fuller

entry

next time.

oh,

& this waiting

has got to

stop,

damnit.

till next time,

so long.

walking the same winding route home
wont be the same anymore.
looking at mickey mouse logo
gives me a whole new perspective.
caps is given
attention for once.
the 'silent hill' vcd
is sought after.

cos, baby.

waileng, my twinnnnnn. (:

oh man. i musta look like a psycho smiling, laughing & singing to my lappy screen. i was having very amusing convos with both waileng & stacy. they sure can crack me up.

and i found my twin in a toy store. waileng, it still amaze me how we got to know each other. how we share the same taste in music. how we think alike. im so thankful we met a few mths back. i rly am. and dearest twinnie, i will never wna lose someone like you. (:

i cant stop this urge to have a look at the pictures again. surprisingly, it doesnt hurt anymore. and i have to give a big thanks to siuwen for the free counselling on the phone. it helps alot darl. and not forgetting stacy who texted me. yes, we're all special in our own way. i have to agree. (:

maybe another sleepless night tnite? who knows.
its becoming a habit, these 4, 5 hrs of slp.
restless.
very restless.

i was looking thru friendster.
i stumbled upon a friendster profile.
the primary pic caught my eye.
i looked thru all the pics.
and there were very familiar faces there.

"wat was i thinking? i am nothing compared to her.
nothing."

wat a way to end the night.
and i cant get the image out of my head.

how i wished i didnt know.
how i wished i didnt click on the profile.
how i just wished.
ignorance is bliss after all.

The very phrase that we sang to.

At the same time.

"I wanna rock your world".

This very song.

School sheltered us from the traumas of the outside world.

It kept us safe, those gates.

And now, we're out there facing it.

Head on.

And these awesome people are those who know me so well.

Who have been there with me thru watever, whenever.

These shoes is the witness to the places that we have explored.

The endless road we walked.

And i hope, this happy bubble doesnt burst.

dont burst.

Red looks so much better on a sports car than yellow.

Not all girls go super duper ga-ga over superstars.

Nuts taste good on cookies lah.

Yes, it does take a lifetime to understand us, girls.

And, I fear that too.

- the never ending debate in cineleisure.

neither of us won. (:

my wallpaper.

im so shagged.

but as my brain starts to wind down,

and i start to drift off to dreamland,

i replay the beautiful moments of this faithful friday.

...

when i was bombarded with a series of "u treat all of us to lunch arhhh!"

when i got smacked for screaming "your ass ar/my ass ar!"

when the e2s took pics in the canteen.

when all of us played at the arcade.

when we started blowing those bubbles & made a molecule family.

when we took emo-ed pics.

when me, jiayuan & mabel started talkin abt weird random things.

when i first saw waileng approach me at city hall.

when we talked like how we always used to.

when she excitedly showed me her newly pierced ears.

...

and with that,

i'll fall asleep,

with a smile on my face,

cradled by these sweet significant memories.

(:(: