12:31 AM
Thursday, March 05, 2009
I'm so sorry for breaking my high mood but today was just devastating. I don't know it's as if I jerked out of myself and have become another person. I don't know why I keep doing this to myself but sometimes I can't help but feel helpless amidst my predicament. everything seems to crash down on me and there's a right time for everything including misery and so I feel like I need to cry and I just did. I mean ok I might be high but deep inside I'm just another boy and not a man because I believe a child lives in everyone. And it's at times like these when I realised who my true friends are and who are the ones that come and go like falling leaves of an autumn maple. Even the craziest of characters have emotions, just so you know. If the ones judge you by your friends or even the person you portray to be but not know you, thou beest distanced away from them I must be.
We may not be tough enough to live on the truth alone, but you know, we don't need to be.
8:41 PM
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
Hey peepies! Haha didn't think I would actually start blogging again but ya here I am looking for an avenue to vent all my anger, frustrations and emotions! Haha ok I used to think blogs are pretty pretentious since I felt like I was writing to nobody or a group of audience I didn't know and I still do! Perhaps being myself and saying what I feel like saying without bottling everything up would somehow make my everyday brighter so ya, we'll see how it goes! And on top of that this could probably raise my english standard so why not! I know my skin might be inappropriate for a guy like me but it attracts me so..Haha and I needed a breakaway from being old emo Yijun so I'll be trying hard to fuel my happy hours with the revamp! =D
Ok anyway today has been hell of a day! Mondays are 4 straight blocks from morning and Tuesdays and Wednesdays are 5 straight blocks! Reality of looming A levels surely seems to set in since the day school merely began. Besides magnificent talentime and its collage of wonderful performers Ong Lai brothers, Sze Yen, Nabil, Fadhilah and Bryan's dance troupe, there was Drama Feste meeting! Ok Mr Lion was hilarious as usual with his intellectual jokes here and there throughout the briefing but certainly the timeline and calendar of events weren't a delight to see. Week after week, day after day there seemed to be something to work diligently for in Term 1! Ok truth of the matter is, I was thinking my life would be nothing but A Levels, gym, swimming, running, basketball, Council, CCAD, MSU, Team Raffles, Orientation, EA, Council Camp, Drama Feste, IHC cybergames, chess, water polo, PAP YEC, R Project, Swimming Camp, or at least that's what I think. Haha so much for nothing. I'm definitely in for a hectic race to the finish line. Omg I cannot emphasise how bordersome it is to dwell on laborous issues as these, having to anticipate how much time you would NOT have to do something at the expense of another! Haha ok somehow my heart felt obliged to let the world know about my life as it is now, or rather to an imaginary audience linked through cables.
On a side note, I'm glad to to be consciously aware and knowing I'm actually sitting still, listening and concentrating during lectures, instead of the usual talking and meddling with my own stuff. Peculiar thing is, I actually did homework of a different subject in almost all my lectures! Haha ok Yijun is weird and so is everyone with their individual perks, at least then I know i'm a human being like all my friends. To all my beloved friends and acquitances, we'll strive not only to survive but to excel and have our dreams and desires fulfilled this year! We must and we will, with love, together. =D
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We may not be tough enough to live on the truth alone, but you know, we don't need to be.
9:14 PM
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
It’s never been easy for me
To find words to go along, with a melody
But this time there’s actually something, on my mind
So please forgive these few brief awkward lines
Since I’ve met you, my whole life has changed
It’s not just my furniture, you’ve rearranged
I was living in the past, but somehow you’ve brought me back
And I haven’t felt like this since before Frankie said relax
And while I know, based on my track record
I might not seem like the safest bet
All I’m asking you, is don’t write me off, just yet
For years I’ve been telling myself, the same old story
That I’m happy to live off my so called, former glories
But you’ve given me a reason, to take another chance
Now I need you, despite the fact, that you’ve killed all my plants
And though I know, I’ve already blown more chances
Than anyone should ever get
All I’m asking you, is don’t write me off, just yet
Don’t write me off just yet
Great song yeah? If only the download isn't that muffled.
10:08 PM
Monday, March 12, 2007
Hey all. Whoa. Its been ages since i even visited my own blog. Jokes. lol. Oh wells. I guess i'm a changed person now? Maybe not to some. But oh wells. Here's the entire lyrics of a song that really expresses me real well now. I don't think there's a need to tell you the title cos the lyrics really tells alot. Its a really old song btw (1999). lol. Well so its up to you to decide whether i'm changed. lol. Here's it.
Baby you're so beautiful,
and when i'm near you,
i can't breathe (i can't breathe),
A girl like you gets what she wants,
when she wants it,
You're so out of my league (out my league),
I show you no emotion,
Don't let you see,
what you're doin' to me (that's what you seeing baby),
I imagine the two of us together,
but i've been living in reality.
Fear of rejection,
kept my love inside,
But time is running out,
so damn my foolish pride.
I don't care if you think i'm crazy (crazy),
It doesn't matter if it turns out bad (i don't care),
I've got no fear of losing you,
You can't lose what you never had.
Now i'm gonna confess,
that i love you, (love you),
I've been keeping it inside (inside),
feelin i could die,
But if you turn away,
baby that's O.K.,
At least we had a moment,
before you say goodbye,
You can lose what you never had.
Rules are made for breaking,(breaking),
Nothing ventured nothing gained,
I'll be no worse off,then i am right now,
and i might never get that chance again, baby.
Fear of rejection,
kept my love inside,
Told my heart i didn't want you,
but i lied,
I don't care if you think i'm crazy (i'm crazy),
It doesn't matter if it turns out bad (doesn't matter if it turns out bad),
I've got no fear of losing you,
You can't lose what you never had (yeah).
Now i'm gonna confess that i love you,(i love you)
I've been keeping it inside (inside),
feelin i could die (i could die),
But if you turn away, baby that's O.K,
At least we'll have a moment before,
you say good-bye (before you say goodbye).
Here on the outside looking in,
Don't wanna stay dreaming bout,
what could have been,
Need to hear you speak my name,
even if you shoot me down in flames.
I don't care if you think i'm crazy (i 'm crazy baby),
It doesn't matter if it turns out bad (if it turns out bad),
I've got no fear of losing you,
You can't lose what you never had.
Now i'm gonna confess that i love you (that i love you girl),
I've been keepin it inside,
feelin i could die (die),
But if you turn away,
baby that's O.K,
At least we have a moment before,
you say good-bye.
You can't loose what you never had,
You can't loose what you never had,
You can't loose what you never had......
~I tried to let her go. Apparently my heart doesn't allow me to. ~
11:41 AM
Sunday, September 24, 2006
hihi. wa shit man. Dono why recently people have been saying im super emo and pessimistic la. I think it must bcos of the posts i did on my blog la. They say it sounds sad and stuff. But really mehs? But everyone has their happy and sad episodes in life right. Well that was when i was sad la. But now im all ok la. Cos i'm finally able to get over some stuff. Well here's my advice. Don't let the small things get to you (from val, my treasured counsellor. haha), don dwell on the pain failures. let them go and you'll be albe to see the bright side of life (this one i got from myself) AND DON'T EVER FALL IN LOVE. IT SUCKS. i mean..for now la. Cos right now stupid girls will be saying irritating stuff like 'I think I'm too young to be in relationship' (which in the first place we (guys) didn't even say that) and 'have you thought of the consequences? What if I don't end up being with you? Won't all your love be wasted?' Wa knn..as a matter of fact, we like/love you not to think of the consequences la. Walau eh. if its like that then people won't be getting married or be attached already. I mean..what matters most is as simple as the fact that we like you la. Things like 'if you don't end up with me' we can think about it later right? Besides, girls..if you don't like this guy. Just tell him, break his heart ONCE and end the whole thing. Don't go beating about the bush for ages and expect him to understand that he is not meant for you can. It hurts la. I know you girls ahv ethe privilege to choose and SLOWLY pick for that DREAM GUY of yours but don't have to continually break some guy's heart and make him feel sad, rejected, unwanted, sinful, idiotic, guilty and dono what for shit can. Worse of all, don't go acting like you are someone else when he is not there la. Cos it reallysort of makes him feel like he's tehe one making you uncomfortable. just be youself la. Anw. the thing is guys..DON'T EVER FALL IN LVOE OR THINK YOU LIEK A GIRL NOW. It will affect you liek shit la. Don't believe can ask the famous NG JIA HAO, my good fren. Apparently he seems to be experiencing the same problems i did before. But oh wells, i managed to sort it out. Well now its his turn and i don't know how he is going to tackle it la but just don't la. We know how SHITTY it feels man. Oh ya. And 1 more thing, to all girls..whenever a guya sk you out one on one..if you are going to wathc movie together (which is most liekly the case) please let the guy pay for the tickets and stuff can. I mean..you may not understand but we feel obligated to foot for everything since we liek you la. Don't go like arguing and paying even for HIS tickets. it really makes us feel guilty can. Like we will think 'this girl is doing this cos she doesn't want me to like her' and stuff. Ok. That's all i ahve to say. Mab i should call this post advice for premature 'lovers'. lol. Oh wells. Cya guys around. I'll post whenever i feel liek it la. So don't chase me. haha. cos i might be quite busy nowadays with all the hectic schedule for tests coming up. Oh and can all who come to my blog pls LINKKKK me. I'm desperate. haha. THANKS! (:(: With love..
11:20 PM
Friday, September 22, 2006
It's funny when you find yourself
Looking from the outside
I'm standing here but all I want
Is to be over there
Why did I let myself believe
Miracles could happen
Cause now I have to pretend
That I don't really care
I thought you were my fairytale
A dream when I'm not sleeping
A wish upon a star
Thats coming true
But everybody else could tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
When there was me and you
I swore I knew the melody
That I heard you singing
And when you smiled
You made me feel
Like I could sing along
But then you went and changed the words
Now my heart is empty
I'm only left with used-to-be's
And once upon a song
Now I know you're not a fairytale
And dreams were meant for sleeping
And wishes on a star
Just don't come true
Cause now even I can tell
That I confused my feelings with the truth
Because I liked the view
When there was me and you
I can't believe that
I could be so blind
It's like you were floating
While I was falling
And I didn't mind
Cause I liked the view
Thought you felt it too
When there was me and you
11:51 PM
Friday, September 01, 2006
Are we gonna stay like that forever?