*sniff sniff*...arrrhhhh-ccchhooooo~~~

And yes! I officially got the flu! It's really like wow! For the first time, I'm like sick, recovered and again sick! This kind of period is really like a kind of test to me sia. Test of endurance. But, I think Daddy wants me to sleep more though. Haha.

Today, my dear shepherd messaged me that I'm in Matric Opt Assests! Okie. Honestly, what's that? I don't know. I seriously don't know. And guess what? I requested for communication for Uni-YA camp and I got this! I didn't really think about matric at first. Then when I finally realised, it's matric. I'm like that 0.o. Serious sia. Cause, I mean, people who know me, know that I didn't really enjoyed matric cause of many many reasons. But, this time round, I really don't know what to do or respond sia. I suddenly feel lost, come to think of it. When I was trying to 'sell myself' (as what my dear sheperdie says), I said this,

All in all, I hope to be able to learn to contribute to others, learn new skills and more importantly, fulfill the testing of God in trust and reliance.

I think, this sentence still stands. And, I really don't know how come I'm in opt and I got no idea what I'm supposed to do and all. I really don't know anything. I feel like I'm walking into a tiger's den/cave with both eyes opened! Haha!!! But still, I know that God will protect me from the tiger!!! Hmmm...I'm not sure if this will clash with practicum. Honestly, you could see that I'm really putting myself to the test sia!!! Haha. But, I want to come out passing it. God, help me!!! And so, James 4:15 came to mind,

Instead, you ought to say, "If it is the Lord's will, we will live and do this or that.

Yes, I may not know anything. But, if this is God's will for me. I do not want to run away. I'm scared, I'm worried, I'm anxious, I'm excited, I'm...you get the picture. I will live and do this thing God has allowed. God bless me! =)

Crazy Semester!

Haha. Yes yes! It's a crazy sem this time! Let's name it. Though I have only 3 modules this sem, I have 6 assignments due for my music mod, 2 assignments and 1 presentation for my maths and 2 assignment due for my English. And guess what, I only have 6 weeks in school! Haha.

And adding onto all these, I started of the year sick. And, I realised that there's so much things to be done. Then, I lost the cashcard I just top up. There's work to be done still, etc.

But best of all, let's sum everything up in a verse. Philippians 4:13

I can do everything through him who gives me strength.

Praise be to God! I love my Daddy up there looking down upon me all the time! =)

Fireproof

Ever since Christmas, I've been watching Fireproof 3 times! But, still, I find the show really good. Makes me think about the unconditional love God shows, provides. And it makes me wonder, am I able to provide this unconditional love to my future students or even to my future partner or even to the people around me.

I want to quote a line from the show...

How am I supposed to show love to somebody over and over and over who constantly rejects me?

Well, this sounds like me. Maybe, to some of you out there, you may feel that hey, this sounds like me too! Well, this is how I treated Jesus before I came to know Him. But today, I feel that by the grace of God, I am saved, I could love others. Why? Because the love of God is in me and I wish to deliver this love to others.

It is because of God, of Jesus being in my life that I learn to love others.

Grace of God, I was telling my shepherd the other day that I want to experience the grace of God again. Why? I realised that perhaps I've lost the meaning of what's the grace of God. Thus, there's a need, there's a want in me to revisit this grace again, to experience God at a whole new level.

Somehow, this show reminds me the verse John 3:16,

For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.

Why this verse, you may ask. This very particular verse shows the unconditional love God could give us. Honestly, who in the world would want to give up one's life for a person one do not know? Well, seldom, unless you know that person really well, or you feel that person is worthy. But, God allowed Jesus to die on the cross so that our sins could be forgiven. And, when Jesus died on the cross, we still do not know Him! And here we are, well, at least for me, I used to anti Him! Gosh!

And after I came to know Him, I kept wanting Him to bless me with more and more good things. But, I forgot that He has given me the greatest gift anyone could receive. Well, I believe you know what's this gift. =)

The Love of God. The Grace of God. =)

I shall end of the post with 2 clips. =)