sOmEtiMes...WARNING!if u dun wan to see mi ranting about band n mi screwed up mood...jux press e red x button on e top right hand corner of ur window...cox im warning u...e entry may sound quite ridiculous to u...so if u dun wan to waste ur time...do wat i sae...jux close e window...aniways...if u gt no better comments...dun sae aniting...
sometimes...i really hate miself...i feel bery dumb...seriously dumb...i gif n gif...but at e end of e dae...i lost...im so sick n tired of tis life im leading...how i wish im already dead...
i set up a dumb bloody idiOtic website for almost 6mths...den onli now i gt pple cuming to bother mi...y cant u do it at e time i set up?ive been trying to set up a webby since like a few yrs back...e last one was at: www.geocities.com/holyband
setting a pw means i haf bad intention...yesterdae u sae i gt evil intention...todae u sae u didnt sae tt...so r u trying to sae im putting words into ur mouth...how i wish i did save tt conversation...u even insulted mi upbringing in band...how ridiculous is tis?looking for empathy?watever...
e pw is to allow onli band members to look at n not other skool members or alumni...i miself seldom go n bother bout e web...if u haf e heart...u can set up one for them...no one is stopping u...u can set up one for alumni...n fyi...ALUMNI means e ex-members...it doesnt matter if u r in e alumni core or exco or watsoever...u make mi sound like i was nv frm tt band...which now...i will treat it so...
i do not understand y mux u stir up so much jux for ONE webpage...hello...no matter wat im ur senior...so wat if u r a major?u dun haf to tok to mi in tt tone...im nt under u aniways...u r NOT my major...
n most imptly...i do not understand wat has some tupid website gt to do wif mi upbringing?so r u telling mi tt mi previous majors did nt do a good job, mr koh, mr toh, mr tan, mr ng, mrs tan, mrs nathan, mrs ganesan, ms lim n so on didnt do a good job in my upbringing in band?it seems so u noe...
6mths ago...six mths...nobody sae a ting...den todae u haf to bother mi about all tis stuff...do u noe how insulting were ur words?i dun tink so...u onli noe how to insult pple...u nv bother bout how they feel...
i nv sae i dun welcum alumni back...i ASK alumni to cum back...but everytime...i get e same ans...nt free...cant make it n so on...so izzit mi fault?im also human...i get tired...but u make it sound like i prevent all alumni to cum back...i even ask e majors to get e alumni back to help...but in e end...no one appear...
i believe e band members did asked u all to go for a bbq on 16th march tis yr...but how many alumni actually went?haf u shown ur support?it was a fridae evening...were u all tt bz?i dunno...
i been trying my best to gif up on tis band...but tis website was set up b4 i leave...initially i gt no intention of leaving so i set up...but in e end i choose to leave...but tt doesnt mean i dun play a part in helping them...im nt asking for aniting...nt even appreciation or watever u sae...i jux wan to help them...
im nt scare to share...ive been going thru mild depression recently again...always blaming mi self n stuff...all e pressure falling upon mi n stuff...all e responsibilities...mi health is getting frm bad to worst...so e more depressed i am...n you...haf to keep yanking at mi for a dumb website...
im trying to put on a brave front...im trying to let go...but its not easy...since i haf been holding on for e past 3yrs...i dun wan pple to tell mi wat to do...i dun wan pple frm e alumni to b telling mi tings to do too...n i dun need alumni to b questioning mi...i cant b bothered bout wat u all do...y shld u all cum n bother mi?
i hate tis feeling...ms tay keeps telling mi to tink positive...e more i try...e more sad n depress i get...i wish to put all these memories in e unconscious part of mi brain...i wan to let it b in e deepest part of mi brain...
i haf nv been insulted b4...esp about mi upbringing...
let mi sae once more...TIS HAS NTH TO DO WIF MI UPBRINGING!
it was all a mistake to cont wif alumni in 2003.
it was all a mistake for mi birth...
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