LaSt pOst fOr 2006

_LaSt pOst fOr 2006_

okie...its a tradition i guess...since i started getting a blog...to blog an review of e year...haHAHaa...so here it is...gracia's 2006...

well...honestly...tis year havent been such a great yr for mi...was looking thru mi organiser and dairy...mostly revoloving health and band...but i tink...e greatest ting about tis yr was able to take up piano lessons again...tok about it more later...let's start wif e horrible stuff...

health havent been really good tis year...so i tink i haf to take better care of miself...i tink...e stones effects actually started in april...tt's e time when i started having all e aches and stuff...glucose lvl was oso so-so onli...haix...i tink i'll haf to try harder nxt year...

totally leave band for good le...mayb i shld try helping out in CVSS pri skool band if possible...well...i dunno...i wan to b involved in band...but mayb nt hihs animore...esp after learning how she dun trust mi at all...up till todae...i still cannot believe it...to tink she sae she noes mi better...n she dun trust mi...i shld haf noe frm e start...take precautions...but i didnt...i treated her like a friend...helping her wif tis and tt...and to tink she sae she will help mi get a job...mi foot...i didnt get aniting frm there...i tink...leaving e band is e rite choice...i really hope i made e rite choice... =)

during may...after mi bdae...tot's of death always pop thru my mind...cox of work...studies...band...blahx...n i didnt actually start to pop pills...but eventually i got out of it...i dunno y n how did it happen n stop...but it was really quite a dark moment for mi...tt's y sometimes i hate 2006...

but of cox there's happy stuff too...like being able to experience e life of a relief teacher though its nt really fun at times...in fact hard n stressful...but its a good experience...n being able to make alot of friends there...taking up a new job at juzmusic is just as fun...knowing so many nice people frm there...learning new stuff...

being able to spend more time with the band members...so i actually noe them alot more better...i noe how they feel about e band n stuff...i tink tt's one of e big impt stuff actually...cox i feel like i noe how they feel and im like part of them...though sometimes im quite unreasonable...but still i apologize for my actions...yet...since i haf left liao...all these feelings shld be kept somewhere deep in mi...mama sae...e passion will never go away frm u...its jux tt e interest is blend now...u jux haf to wait for the interest to return...i really hope so...cox i wish to contribute to e music industry...

oh yea...i shld tok about e happiest ting tt happened tis year...beside tt i passed mi a lvl...haHAHaa...ie to b able to pick up piano again...i noe its jux a small ting...but it meant alot to mi since i stopped 2yrs ago...n once i picked it up again...i haf to pay lessons for miself...but i tink its all worthwhile...though im like totally broke...but i tink...to b able to learn under ms tay again is really great...i seriously feel like tearing on mi 1st lesson...but i controlled...to be able to meet yang yang n jiexian every wk is fun too...seeing her kids growing up healthy n cuter makes mi happy too...since its like i see them since they were young...n im really proud of miself...though i like start piano onli in oct...i managed to finish learning bee's op 10 no 1 piano sonata...to some of u...u may sae its nth...u can finish even faster...but honestly...usually sonata which consists of works similar to 3 pieces, i can onli finish learning in 6 mths min...im happy wif miself...so i mux work harder...if i really wan to cont...though its like oct since i 1st started...im still happy i did take it up again... =)

and usually i will haf a list of pple to thank...though i noe some wont b reading...

first up...ms ang poh bee...she's e first kind soul who calmed mi down during mi 1st dae at work...n ever since...she's been mi best friend in hihs...

my animal farm...jiarong...chanya...melinda...mabel...wendy...joyce...they will always be loved by me...they are my bestest friends...

my family they are always there for mi...wat more can i ask for...

meixian...valerie...raymond...caiting...angelene...and those i made friends with in hihs....i've learnt so much from them...

hihs and nvss band members...alumni included... i learnt alot of good and bad stuff which i will nt forget...

and most imptly...those who had been part of mi life for the yr of 2006...

including e God Himself...

and the time now is 0000hrs...1st Jan 2007!

happy new yr!

=)

sO dEaD~

_sO dEaD~_

yEa...finally ALL mi gatherings r over...cox im totally broke...let mi gif u an update...

x'mas eve (24/12): animal farm
met up wif jie mei to pass him his present 1st...n i gt an angel cookie! i wan to post pic de...but im too lazy le...mayb nxt time...hahAHaa...or never at all...supposed to b mi...mao n kitty meet up first to eat at coffee club cox i made an reservation already...ended up...onli mi n kitty...so she had baked maccoroni...i had rosemary chicken...n we both had a drink...after tt...vien joined us after we left tt place...so we ended up at tis sushi rest in esp...i had edaname...haHHaaa...after tt...we went haggen daz...mi 1st time...i find tt nth really special actually...haHAHa...den we had a walk to merlion park...den we wanted to go clark quay...so we started walking...n we overshot all e way to shenton way...haHAHaa...so we took a bus down to harbour front...den frm there...we took a train down to CQ...at CQ...we wanted to have satay...but we totally cant find e place at all...walked up n down MANY TIMES...seriously...MANY TIMES...ended up...count down in a dark n small alley...heng ting is...when we are out of e alley...there are still pple counting down...in fact 2 grp of pple at 2 diff time...haHHAaa...so...we still couldnt find out satay...so we went to chomp chomp for delicious carrot cake n satay...yum...after tt...mi dad sent us all home...it was 2am when i reached home...ahHAHaa...i gt many lovely gift...hp holder cum wrist rest frm kitty...treble clef earrings frm mao...kolar n chocs frm vien...i love them all n i hope thEy like wat i gave...haHAhaa...

x'mas (25/12): dinner wif family
actually i slept almost e whole dae sia...haHAha...we had dinner in soup rest...a bery good dinner...so its actually quite ex...haHAHaa...seriously...i love their chicken...haHAHaa...n i really love flavoured rice alot... =)

26/12: sr clique
after alot of planning...we finally met up at marina sq seoul garden...haHAHaa...i went for a movie wif melinda...char's web...i wouldnt sae its a bad movie...its actually not a bad movie...esp e last part which is bery touching...when e spider die...den...went went for dinner as seoul where i didnt get to finish mi yam ice cream cox i was SO FULL~ after tt we went home...i gt a wind charm or izzit called wind chiam...however u spell n a horn hp chain...e 2nd one tis yr...haHAHaa...amazing arh...am i really such a musicial person...haHAHaa...

27/12: srband horn section wif mama yeo
mi 2nd time in marche...we had alot of toking and ALOT of eating...haHHAaa...it was a treat from mi dear mama...thankew mama...i love u~ haHAhaa...we had alot of tok...i had like rostary w jumbo cheese sag...stingray...carrot cake...waffle wif ice cream...haHAhaa...oh...n a drink...well...wat i ate was lesser than e evil sisters...well...i jux wan to sae tis...i dunno how many alumni frm hihs do actually read mi blog...but tis is wat i learnt frm e evil sisters...esp lulu...y is SAS band so strong...cox of e ex leaders...ie e alumni...e alumni are bery strong...b it their playing or leadership...but in hihs...i tink we are like totally diff...so i tink...e alumni shld work on tis pt...which i dunno thEy whether they would not...but i tink 95% wouldnt...cox honestly...e percentage of pple joining band after they leave himb is like...5-10% onli...so how to maintain their standard...n somemore if e player is already weak...where's there more to tok about...oh well...i cant b bothered by how e alumni work liao...but tis was wat i learnt...i even heard bout e SCs of srband...dun wan to sae much...but i guess i wasnt like tt during mi SC daes...tt's good...haHAHaa...honestly...i enjoy mi time wif these 3 pple...we had alot of fun together...after tt...mama sent us all home...I LOVE U MAMA~ =)

28/12: jr, mao n mi~
went for a private sale at isetan wif mao n kitty...wanna to get mickey mouse jeans...but cox of some stuff...didnt in e end...oh well...at least i gt a pair of wking pants...oh...did i mention...i gt e job in CVSS...pri 3 class...hahHAAa...back to topic...den kitty had to leave...so didnt dine wif us...so we went to meet jr in ps...for e fishy dinner...manhantte...however u spell...i dun even rmb wat's tt shop name lah...nth really special actually...i gt a bery cute pooh cusion frm jr...haHAHaa...after tt we had neoprint session...haHHAaa...it was so funny...n not forgetting fun...haHHAaa...

tml im going to meet sy...going to her skool...haHAHaa...tour...den going to svs mi phone...its mad liao...i wanna change...but mux at least svs 1st...trade in den thEy gt nth to sae...haHHaaa...okiE...tired...going to sLp soon...update pics other time if i rmb n bother...haHAHaa...nxt wk sTarting skool le...bored~ haHAHa...mux change all mi appt...haHHAaa... =)

jUx waNna sAy...

_jUx waNna sAy..._

MEERY X'MAS & HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!

tAkE cAre n sMiLe aLwAys~

=)

hiM~

_hiM~_

yea...no mistakes...him...my brother...wanna blog bout tis last nite...but i was too tired...okie back to topic...

so i was reading his blog as always...n many feelings stirred up...its like...i feel like...though i noe him all my life...i dun feel like we're siblings...nt even friends...we are more like...strangers...we seldom tok to each other...really seldom...if we do tok...its usually band or music stuff...nth about our lives blahx...

when he went over to study...e onli way we communicate was thru msn...n seriously n honestly...i tink we communicate better thru cyber than thru real life...funny how it seems arh...

but i haf to sae...he's a really good brother though...in wat ways...i dun really noe how to express in words...hahHaaa...

i noe e relationship btw him n mi may always b tis cold...i use may...cox i hope it will b different...a change for e better...hhAHAaa...

i love my brother...

as a sister...*DUH~*

its really great to haf such a wonderful brother...are u all jealous?

aM i oN e riTe tRaCk?

aM i oN e riTe tRaCk?

havent been blogging...really bz...

around 3mths since i last went to band...am i on e rite track...i still dunNO...

tired...will blog again...

actually wanna blog...but once i start...i get tired...dotx...

HOW?

_HOW?_

tell u lah...i feel like sh*t...seriously...

i filled up mi application liao...but im so not willing to press e "SUBMIT" button...cox i dun wan to make e wrong choice...

HOW? HOW? HOW?

nie or nafa...

i need lots of S-11 to go nafa...haix...

i need lots of luck to go nie...haix...

hopeless...

i miss e walk in pasir ris park...tinking by miself...

ugLy~

ugLy~

i dunno whether you haf gone to tis webby meant for s'poreans to post stuff of our daily life before...try guessing wat site izzit...but i tink most of u may noe bout it ba...honestly i tink its getting really ridiculous~ n i tink e team shld close it down...or do some changes to it...since its actually quite a good site...except its ugly side...

first up...imagine ur picture been put up on e webby without your permission or ur consent...i mean...if friends to friends grp pic...no one will b upset about it...but tink...if its a picture of you digging ur nose on e streets...or a pic of u slping on e bus/train not offering ur seats to others?or mayb tis person could b someone u noe...someone close to u...who u love...how would u feel?sad...angry...funny? watever u feel...i tink its still a person privacy ba...i dunNO whether u all noe of such a case of a guy taking e under skirt of a lady n being jailed...or u all watch KN and BW's show...about privacy...courtesy...B was taking a pic of K onli...taking a pic...nt even posting...n its sae to b rude...so imagine taking a pic n posting online....i noe there's freedom of speech...freedom of movt...watever more...but shldnt there b some privacy?

2ndly...e comments...e pictures are bad enuff...but i dun tink fellow s'poreans need to bombar fellow s'poreans by putting not-so-nice comments on e postings of fellow s'poreans...i mean...if u cant sae sth nice...den dun sae...like e idiot who tagged about some rubbish on mi tagboard b4...rmb...if u gt nth better to sae...if u cant sae sth nice n good...dun sae aniting...no want will treat u as a dumb...

dun 4get...www webistes are seen world wide...imagine some foreigners seeing e webby...wat would be the impression of them on us?phamplets...books sae tt s'pore is "a clean and green" country, "a flower city", etc...wat would be their impression after seeing e webby? "omg...u mean s'pore is ACTUALLY such a c'try where they speak bad of their fellow people. i cant believe mi eyes." if i could haf such a tinking...i wouldnt b surprise tt a foreginer would haf such a tinking...i feel so shameful...

i noe...some of u may sae...nt happy dun visit e site lah...but like wat i sae...e site is a good site...jux for its ugly sides...i dunno how u guys feel...fellow s'porean saying fellow s'poreans...i mean...when a close friend pin pt u...i believe u will feel sad...angry...ani feeling except being happy or aniting similar to it rite? but now...as a country...fighting among ourselves?

so much for total defence...psychological defence...social defence...blahx...do u all rmb wat is tt?racial harmony dae...living in a hdb making up of different races n religious...so much for all tis acts when there tis particular site where S'POREANS are bombaring each other...ugly...i feel shamed...i keep wondering to miself...s'poreans acting tis way when others are looking...

y nt add a password to it...so tt onli s'poreans onli can view it...so tt it wont b tt disgracful since i believe there would b pple out there who tinks tt s'pore is actually a bery nice place...

like wat mabel sae...i cant b bothered whether i will b charged for tis post...if tt site can show e ugly side of other s'poreans...i tink mine could too rite?since im jux saying a piece of mi mind about how i feel...its good to voice out rite? or shld i do it on e site itself?

but i really really hope there would b some changes to it...