new year

_new year_
a yr ago...about tis time...i did sth like wat im going to do...now...im going to do it again...

2005 isnt a easy yr 4 mi...major exams...syf...health...nth has been really go...but never e less...i manage to pass tis yr...friends are made n lost...but its okie...tis yr...i tink it has been a sicky yr 4 mi...but i still got over with it...though sometimes tis yr isnt wat i expected...i made it thru still...

band life is still as bz 4 mi...but...at least i like wat im doing despite e fact tt its tiring at times...but...life still goes on...anger...laughter...tears...blah...were all experienced in e band...band has all mi ups n downs...but hey...nt onli HIband...but SRband too...i love mi band...serious...

was toking to mi dear kitty...xiao hui juz now...when e clock strike 12midnite later...im offically nt a student liao...as in...i cant enjoy benefits like concession...u noe wat i mean...shopping would b expensive now....sharks...its a hard fact tt we'll b paying adult fare...soon...GOSH~ haiz... *shake head*

those who grad...are already working...im not ani different...juz tt mi job yet to start...but soon...ITS STARTING...getting to feel a little nervous n scare...haiz...timid gracia...rubbish...

tis yr...wasnt a easy year...but thanks to all great pple n teachers of 2A06...i managed to survive...pple like huimin hakim n e evil sisters in band allowed mi to haf lota of fun...afiqa jacinta ying grace allowed mi to enjoy in hiband too...mi bro who left for US in aug taught mi a bery gd lesson...everyting is possible...but u'll haf to work hard....n all e pple who did a part or another...

i love u guys...take care pple...happy new year... =)

YOU ARE SUCH A SELFISH PERSON!!!

_YOU ARE SUCH A SELFISH PERSON!!!_
i cant stand it animore...despite mi going out these few daes to relax miself...ur words keep running in mi head...i juz read ur blog again...it makes mi mad...

u tink its so easy to handle a band...U HANDLE IT!u dun appreciate wat e instructors...e teachers...e alumni...e committee...e sl...e members are doing...ALL U CARE IS URSELF!!!u dunno e true meaning of band!u dunno wat's impt in a band...u dunno how to appreciate ur fellow mates!U R NT FIT TO B A BAND MEMBER!

if i can...i would rather nt haf a member like u in e band...i dun care whether u wan bad mouth e band or wat...its ur business...i haf faith in all band members...but mi faith in u is FADING!u r totally opposite of wat i tot u r...im sorry i tot u r a great member...im sorry i tot u will help build e band up...im sorry i see u wrongly!

i dunno y u behaf tis way...n i dun wan to noe y...when we sae its nt complusory...WE MEAN IT!u juz dun trust us!i tink...U NEVER EVER LEARN TO TRUST ANIONE EVEN URSELF IF U CONT TO B LIKE TIS!i learnt mi lesson bout nt trusting pple easily...but u...i tink u nv dare to trust anione...even if e person is ur closest friend...i doubt u'll b able to do so...

im sorry im saying all these nasty tings...but u forced mi to...if u feel unhappy in e band...VOICE OUT!no ones stopping u...u r keeping all inside...putting it on ur blog...making us BAND MEMBERS mad...ESPCIALLY MI!im really pissed with miself...okie...mayb im e onli band member or shld i sae ex band member who is mad bout wat u had sae...

i dun care whether u read mi blog...or noe who u r...IM JUZ PISSED OUT!if tt's wat u wan...u gt it!but dun b happy...im nt really pissed with ur blog...IM MORE PISSED WITH MISELF!

IM PISSED TT HIMB CANNOT WORK AS A BIG FAMILY!!!

go ahead n bad mouth e band...go do wat u wan...quit e band...bad mouth...stay in e band...b nice...b bad...UP TO U!go tell e sec1 nxt yr nt to join e band!GO AHEAD!i noe u will do it...BUT I CANT B BOTHERED!i haf faith tt we'll still haf members...even if its onli 10members...i hope u sae ur farewell speech asap...n leave...in fact...I DUN WISH TO HEAR UR FAREWELL SPEECH N SEE U LEAVE!

u r nt worth mi time n effort!

i totally upset by ur actions!

its e most wonderful time of e year!

yea...its mi fave time of e year...nt bcoz can get presents...but coz its e time to gif n share...xmas is e joy of gifing...though im bery broke tis yrs...i hope e gifts i gave mi friends are of their liking...haha... =)

xmas was spent in orchard with e farm same as last yr...i really had fun...after tt vien went home...kitty n mao came mi house to ton...we opened presents...watch vcd...makan log cake...ham...tibits...jolly sandy...blah...den these 2 kiddo...had pillow fight sia~ i luff till pengz...haHAhaa...long time since i last luff till like tt... =)

morning...jie mei jiaxiang came...ate brunch together...den had some singing session...gosh...jiaxiang trying to sing phantom...nt bad...for a 1st timer... =) after tt they all went back...

wat do i haf to sae?im happy for once after e 17th nov 2005...

yes...im really happy...

but e tots of econ paper 2 keeps haunting mi these daes...

but xmas is still mi most fave dae of all...though its not to some...

merry xmas n happy new year to all! =)

i juz wanna sae...

mayb home late 2nite...so...

MERRY XMAS EVERYONE! =)

more tots

well well...mayb ive been too free...been tinking much again lately...haiz...

hmmm...pass few daes de band really made mi temper bad again...haiz...coz of some alumni tings too...but wat e lah...oh god...pls let mi ignore e band a while sia...haiz...sick n tired...

i seriously dunno how to blog down mi tots 2nite...but...there's sth i wanna sae...

chelmin...if u r reading tis...i juz wanna u to noe...u r not alone...u r juz feeling alone...look around u...clearly...properly...there are alot of pple who really really care bout u...but dunno how to express themselves to u...pls...stop hurting urself...pls...let mi haf e chance to listen to u...u r nt invisible...im nt trying to b nice here...but u've always been on mi list on tinking of how to tok to u...im nt a bery open-minded person...i wait 4 pple to tok to mi...instead of e other way round...if there's no need...im dumb...i keep quiet...u r nt an idiot...im e greatest idiot...i didnt realise tt mi junior feels neglected in e band...sorry...

god...pls help mi to work well with these kids...

e gal who cant fulfill her agreement...

yes...tt's mi...im back in band again...doing all sorts of rubbish...mi feet sun burn till bery funny coz of drill...n coz i wear sandals...den...mi voice...nt bad...still around...haHAHaa...

tiring...

listen to tis pple...i wan to make tis clear...

on e 14 dec 2005...i gave e band...HIband a challenge to build up e band...to produce a new band by 14 june 2006...tt means tt they haf 6mths time...n tis is a ting btw mi n them...

i hope tt they could make mi dream cum true...ie is to e see e band move to a higher height...to b a better band...to able to play better music...to b a bond which has strong bond btw e members...

i dream to see tis dae...

well...

okie...been some time since i last update...so...here goes...

busy busy busy...band here n there...im so tired le...n i made a decision recently...listen up pple...here goes...im going to announce it now...

im going to take a break frm band now...till when...i dunno yet...

okie...i said it...yEa...i noe many of u wont believe wat i sae...but WTF lor...im going to haf tis well deserved break...tis well needed break...i dun care wat others sae...even if tis break means i muz leave...by all means...let mi go...i'll b e most happiest person on earth...

piano...horn...music...tis wk...all tis r making mi arms break...dotx...nv felt so tired b4 sia...old liao...stamina failing in music...hahAhaa...dotx...wat rubbish...

sianz...im so bored...mayb tis break frm band...would mean tt...ITS MI FIRST OFFICAL BREAK SINCE THE 17TH OF NOV!yes...e dae i finished mi exams...i didnt haf a real break since den...im not going to do ani band stuff...after tonight...after i finish e results...

ITS NO BAND STUFF FOR MI TILL IM BORED TO DEATH!

but tis caters for himb onli...haHAhaa...so himb pple...LEAVE MI ALONE! im warning u here~

so haf fun...like u all always do...with or without mi...

oh yea...i wan to tok bout fridae's footdrill n tp band prac...

fridae footdrill...i dunno wat to sae...e basic everyting...its not there lor...e bangs n blah...e grumblings...to mi...its still nt as tough lor...but i tink they felt tt its tough...i dunno lah...but i hope they buck up...there's a long way to go...saddest ting...its e guys who r e 1st to complain...wat is e world turning to now?haiz...i dunno...dotx...

tp band prac...i gt no intention of going back animore...1stly...e concert is postponed...2ndly...im not bery interested...3rdly n lastly...im a lousy player...so y bother going...haHAhaa...

its a bz wk...n tomole marks e start of mi band-free life...hope i can survive it~ =)

well...i wanna sae tis again...im so sick n tired n band...spare mi frm it...i cant take it animore...i need a break... =)