well well...

-well well...-

many r asking y i yet to update my blog...okie...so now...been too filled up with maths...i shall blog...n i shall blog bout MATHS!!!whee~

okie...juz kidding...

haiz...but if i can really blog everyting bout maths w/o refering to ani stuff...tt means I HAVE STUDIED WELL ENUFF FOR MATHS N IM A MATHS EXPERT!!! wow~ gracia...KEEP DREAMING N IT WILL NV HAPPEN! okie...lame stuff aside...start...blogging...

well well...its almost a wk since i last blog...so...i shall tok bout tings i rmb...okie...1st time 1st...mi 2nd piece IS DONE!!!but not e editing parts of coz...haha...my mum dun allow mi to do it liao...so...no choice...editing in pencil 1st b4 all my tots run away...

e other time went back HIband...KANA SCOLD BY MRS NATHAN!!! arrr..4get it...ever since then...didnt went back...almost a wk liao...gosh...my room smells garlic...dotx!okie...yea...as i saying...i didnt went back...nt yet return scores...blah...alot of tings...haiz...i miss band...most imptly...I MISS MY HUBBY HORN!!! dunno he's back already not...he taken by some other guys i heard!GOSH!does tt make him a gay now?ARRR~~~~watever...im mad...

was studying these few dae n wk...slp almost pass 3am everydae...rmb...i cant study during e dae...haiz...tupid gracia...actually...im still regreting joining a JC...haiz...i see no future in mi...serious...i dunno where i wan to go nxt...bcoz of this...i got no motivation to study at all...okie...i shall go find out all e courses avaliable in s'pore again...to motivate myself...haha...*im mad...im crazy...im insane...*

gp paper on fridae...as in last wk's fridae...sux for e compre...so-so 4 eassy...thank god i did e leadership tingy wif HI's com n sl...coz i did e ques on leadership tingy...haha...

was hearing to a song called UTOPIA...yea yea...e definition is a perfect world one...now i noe y its a perfect world...e piece utopia sae it all...its really nice...haiz...if i have my horn n lots of scores now...i will learn hard to b a better player...if tt dae ever comes...

i tink tt's all...take care folks~

to measure the man, measure his heart...
-Malcolm Stevenson Forbes

who am i?

-who am i?-

i dunno...but suddenly...i dun feel like myself...n honestly...i dunno who is really "myself"...i feel so lost...i cant see ani future in me...i dun haf e mood to do aniting now but to go back to himb...but whenever i go back...its all alone...or at most with another person...sometimes...i really wonder...am i suppose to be here...

i fee bery out of place...serious...i dun feel like one of them...i feel...i feel like e odd one out...im not part of them...i dunno y...its juz an instinct...i dun mind giving all i can...but...e tings im doing now...izzit right...or izzit wrong?i dunno...i cant see...i cant see aniting...

i want to b happy...i may look happy...but im dying inside...the tot of "death" keep racing thru my brain...i dunno y...i seem like i had enuff of life...but actually i feel like its not enuff yet...its really sucky...

how i wish a level is over already...den mayb i wont b like tis...

but actually i feel like crying all i can...

tis level of stress...is seriously tearing mi apart...is seriously killing mi...

-tired-

-tired-

mama sae i look better...but im super tired inside...

well...2dae...morning almost cant wake up again...haha...went skool...yea for maths again...watever...den after tt...went to music room...band...actually...not really band...juz went back for horn trio...really enjoy it...though i cant really play well liao...*sorry debbie n lulu* aniways...all along i cannot play well at all...

sad...MY HUBBY HORN IS MISSING!!!im going to cry...i dunno where he is... :( sad...damn sad...haiz... :(

im slpy...im going to slp...sayo...

dotx

-dotx-

tis whole wk is like no slping wk...everynite late slp...2nite oso...coz rushing tomole's...i mean today's maths tut work...so dotx lor...but yet...i didnt manage to finish...nvm...I TIRED MY BEST LIAO!!!

eating prima deli potato n ham bread...with tea...e bread not bad...haha...gt it for 3 for $2...haha...

i hate maths...

okie...gt to cont with work liao...actually...give up on work liao...wan to play games a while...

i hate school...dotx...

i tink mabel is freaking out online coz of mi~

haha... =p

its 3.30am n im hungry...

-its 3.30am n im hungry...-

yea...3.30am liao...in another few more hrs...i will need to go to skool...but im really hungry now...dotx...shall ren...juz finish econs n all e band editing...haha...alot of tings to edit sia~

kor kor go liao...go LA liao...hope he'll haf a great time there...

im hungry...

gt no mood blog liao...tomole's a long time...i dunno how im going to survive thru it...

bless mi...

STOP IT!

-STOP IT!-

CAN U JUZ STOP HELPING ME TO PUBLICISE MY STUFF!!!!

i had enuff...pls stop it...

pls...i beg u...