-dun wish to wake up again-

-dun wish to wake up again-

haiz...im stress up...im tired...

how i wish i can slp all i wan for now...tis june hols is no longer a hol...its more of a jail term or sth like tt...no break at all...everydae muz go to skool...everydae go skool for maths...i scare i might juz break down in class...haiz...its e breaking down season again...

intention of pills popping again...coz gt alot of medi now...

amigoingthrudepression?

i dunno...

-FINE-

watever lah...everyone is saying that piece is familiar...so...final conclusion...

NO MORE COMPOSING FOR E TIME BEING!

i had enuff...i onli sae i dunno how long im going to take...u can sae that i juz dun wan to share my work...watever lah...

i had enuff...everyting i start playing tt piece...someone will sae it sounds familiar...watever...i dunno wat e hell is tis piece...it juz freak up my mind...

i had enuff...pple...u will start to see mi mugging...

i will b living in a world without music for some time...i will not b like myself animore...

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im sad...

im a lousy musician...

i cant compose...

-whee~!-

I GOT E PIANIST I WANTED SINCE LAST YEAR!!!

im happy...

im old...

im 18...

-yea!-

its my dae!haha...

happy b'dae to joanne...michelle...lina!

=)

-fine!-

~5 daes to e grand dae!~

fine...i noe im a bad player...but in time to cum...i will show it to u!thru my dear hiband!i will do it de!i will make it de...thru prac...thru learning...thru teaching!i will be able to update my skills on e horn...not onli e horn...i will b able to play other inst too...i will move forward in my life of music...i will make it de...I WILL!!!just wait n see...it will take years...but i will still do it...b it hiband or wat-so-ever...even if i shld not join ani band nxt time...i will still b able to upgrade myself for music...

dun u ever look down on mi!i will show it to u!i might b a slow learner...i might not b a gd player now...but soon...my music will b heard...despite how many yrs it will take...i want to do it...and I MUST DO IT!

well...i told debbie n lulu liao...if hiband gt a trip of e year...coz e srband like on n off...though i dunno hi's one confirmed yet not...but i cant b bothered liao...hiband shall b e choice now...since they sae 2 players is enuff...so let it b...im fine with it...

i hate my life now...i need music to cheer mi up now...esp band...but not srband animore...but hiband...no matter how tough tt place is...tt's e place where i learnt many impt aspect of life...i dun tink many band has such a ting...coz even srband dont haf it...watever...

i gt e urge to cry again...not in gd mood lately...tomole's e death date...

watever...

-cant believe it!-

~6 more daes to e grand dae!~

I FINALLY FINISH ALL MY PAPER!!!though its onli e mid-year...but its gd enuff!haha...im tired...went for eye check up 2dae...cannot see after e eye drop due to dilation of e pupil...haha...painful lor...coz too much light go in...but e pupil cannot adjust itself due to e evil eye drop...haha...*lame*

haiz...i miss band...another 4 daes...if everyting goes well...i will b able to go back hiband... =)

i want to slp soon liao... -.-zzzZzzZzzZ

the point of no return...nice...

-hmmm...-

~7 daes to e grand dae!~

well...realised tt i haf not been blogging 4 sometime...so...here it is...

1st ting 1st...yea...i changed mi blogskin...tis time wif relation to horn...haha...it will b better wif mi hubby horn pic...okok...jkjk...

well...recently hafing exams...sux...realised tt im a great crapper...even physical geo paper oso can crap...haha...i tink i will do badly 4 tis exam...aniways...when haf i done well for mi exams?NEVER!haha...haiz...im so bored...i cant study animore lor...dotx...sianz...

i miss mi horn...i miss srband...n i miss hiband...life without band SUCKS!!!tis is e 1st time in 6yrs when i haf nth to do 4 band...last time ALOT of stuff to do...now nth to do 4 e time being...feel...bery funny...like no life like tt...haha...a bit dramatic lah...BUT ITS TRUE!haiz...i seriously miss mi hubby horn...poor 669092 left in e music store wif no one to care for...haiz...okie...im going mad again...haha...who cares?

haiz...im so bored...fridae is coming...im going back!yea~~haha...i miss hiband... =) haha...i hate maths...i hate to study...i hate school...but i love music n band...

okie...i haf to go...will soon to update again... =)

close your eyes...for your eyes will only tell the truth...and the truth isn't what you want to see...in the dark...it is easy to pretend...that the truth is what it odd to be...
---music of the night(the phantom of the oprea...theatre version)

-sRbaNd hOrn sEcTiOn-

HORN SECTION OF SRBAND!!!MI FAVE SECTION!!!NO MORE LE... =(

-fRieNdS!-

kItTy mAo vIen mI!

SILVER!

.*.SILVER!.*.

yea...it was wat everyone expected...i was a little sad...so i cried...but...wat's more impt is e process we went thru...

i love srband horn section!

thanks debbie n lulu...

thanks huimin n hakim...gwen n wiyah...

thanks to all band members...

thanks to all teacher-in-charge...

most imptly...thanks...MR TAN...

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read debbie's blog...was really touched...yea...tt's mi section...e section which made mi went mad...but i enjoyed it...i will surely miss tis section for sure...

but honestly...i will miss mi daes as a student conductor...as a horn player...as a band member of srband...

=)

well well...

.*.well well....*.

tomole its e dae...i dunno how im feeling now...dotx arh...watever~~~

haha...

i really enjoyed horn section...it was fun...i cant bear to leave horn section now...

i really enjoyed e times being a student conductor...i love standing in front conducting e band...i cant bear to gif up mi post...

i really enjoyed e times when i go out after band wif huimin n hakim...haha...waste of money...but fun...

i will miss e times mi section had tupid ideas of playing at e volleyball court n under e tree...

i will miss e times huimin n i bully lulu...

i will miss e times i was bully by debbie n lulu...

i will miss e times huimin, hakim n i spent...

i will miss e times when horn section really had fun...

i will miss e times when i learn new stuffs frm mr tan n everyone in e band...

most imptly...i will miss srband...

tomole is our last dae...band...let's play wif graditute...let's play frm e heart...

rmb...

frm e heart...to e heart...

i noe we will make it...wat we prac is wat we deserve...

=)

p/s: debbie n lulu...if u r reading tis...LET'S HIT E HIGH A TOMOLE FOR E LAST TIME!!!K??? WE CAN DE!!! =)

haiz

.*.haiz.*.

oh well...syf is juz round e corner...but seriously...I CANT STAND IT ANIMORE!!!

e other dae...our dearest president scolded e whole brass section after sectional with mr tan...wow...amazing arh...he even insulted some of e members...how nice...its onli a FEW daes to syf...n such treatment...n how did he tok 2 e woodwinds?in a totally diff method...when he was toking to them...i was boiling mad...he sae on our sectional..."im going to scold e woodwinds too...telling them e same tings" in e end?watever lah...e worst ting is...he sae to e woodwinds "i actually wanted to scold u all...but i see u all bery stress, so i dun wan scold" wat e lah...as if e brasses not stress up lah...HELLO!!!IM BERY STRESS UP ALSO LAH!!! wat e lah...juz bcoz he sees e brasses like hafing less problems or worries...he tot we r less stress up...watever!pls lah...muz we like sae or show a face tt we r stress up?no rite?im pissed!dun judge a bk by its cover...heard tis phrase b4?HOPEFULLY!!!

pls lah...instead of scolding...couldnt there be some motivating?im oso frm a military band background lah...but at least i noe when's e rite time to scold n when's e rite time to motivate...PLS WAKE UP UR IDEAS!

also...if u tink we haf not put in enuff effort...go n tell those pple who really didnt put in effort...no matter how sick n tired am i bout band...i still go 4 prac everydae...n will go back last most of e time...n e scolded is still given to all! i noe its 4 e gd of e band...but if i dun let out now...im really going mad!

i hate band now...coz of e wrong treatments im getting...but i like my section...at least tt e onli place im hafing fun...band used to b fun...but not now...i wish im back in hiband...at least i noe mi effort is recognised...though i noe it a little late...but at least i feel appreciated now...

now u...dun keep saying im not doing my part...i wanted to do my part...but kept doing it...at e end of e dae...u still keep saying im e one who is supposed to do it...i nv sae back not bcoz i dun dare...but i respect u as u haf more experience in tis area...

sat sectional under track at e track n blasting was fun...but e part of keeping e bench sux!

sat prac sux at 1st...bcoz of e scoldings n everyting else...

dun ask mi y i hate band now...i also dun noe...mayb its due to syf...

but i really miss hiband...

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