wat kind of tea am i?

haha...im green tea...nice sia...u wan drink?haha...jkjk... *lame*


Green Tea...
You are Green Tea!
Strong and very smart you prefer peace to violence
and very rarely take action if it involves
confrontation. But you make up for this with
your keen insight and understanding of the
world and people around you, you have a very
mysterious nature. Many people see you as laid
back and that may be true but you are very
intelligent and make good decisions.


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im back!

haha...yesh...im finally back frm himb's camp...haha...i really had fun...but at e same time...im oso quite disappointed...but...oh well...wat can i do?okie...let mi bring u thru some parts of e camp... =)

Day 1
well...i reached skool at bout 7.20am wif all mi stuffs...so many lor...mi cloths(i stayed thru-out e camp)...water heater...horn...snacks...etc...haha...bery heavy...lucky mi dad sent mi 2 skool...okie...so when they fall in...shuan szeming sean alice n i started to do sth b4 joining them in e fall in...e keys gt problem...but was solved in a short while...haha...den...we had footdrill test at 9am...sean n i were in one team...haha...oh well...mi commanding suck like hell now!wahaha...okie...its nv gd!haha... =p footdrill test was tough...i haf nv stand under e sun 4 so long 4 a long time liao...9-12am...wow!so long!!haha...okie...nt really long...but 4 someone who haf nt been marching 4 a long time...its long...haha...okie...den 12noon we had lunch...haha...had curry chicken...*yum yum* haha...den 1pm we had music test...e sec one need 2 earn their music badge...haha...it was fun...mr tan n mr ng were there 2gether...e 4 of us(w/o sean) wif e 2 majors n our instructor sat inside n listen n had fun...we were eating inside e music room...fighting over e fun...n we had sth like "s'pore idol" but e himb way...haha...really had fun...after some time...gt senior cum back...den tis senior(mi batch) de...asked szeming y am i inside gifing e test...true...y shld i b inside?coz im better than her! =x okie...no lah...coz im supposed 2 b inside...but i noe...compared 2 e others...im not supposed to b there...im no ex-major...im no best cadet...im juz a small n useless n not recognised ex-senior nco n idiotic sl...well...wat can i sae?nth...i was bery sad when i hear tt...i tried to hold back tears...7pm...end of music test...dinner...i ate a little coz i no mood le...den i went back music room took e horn n play...haiz...after a while i went back 2 music room...i tink mi face was so black tt e instructors tot im hafing some problems...true...i haf some problems...but i dun wan them 2 noe...so i juz told them its e horn...but its not true...b juz let it b...den i went outside 2 cont blasting till sean asked mi to tone down...but i told him dun bother mi...im not in e mood at time...after he left...n when e band started 2 haf their section...n im all alone...i cried...i cannot tan han animore...i bery upset lah...haiz...4get it...after some time i went 2 join in their band prac...after band...it was their bed time...but...szeming n i were 2 bath...haha...shiok...after such a long dae...den we had de-brief...den szeming shuan n i went 2 music room...coz we doing e notice board...haha...but ended up leh...we didnt do much...coz when alice cum back...we had supper inside...den we started crapping lah...haha...lazy do e notice board liao...so i suggested tt we put 2 words on e board "under construction" haha...den we put liao...we went to clean e canteen n went 4 rounds...oh mi gosh!so many pple no slp yet...dotx...4am...we went 2 slp....in e music room...bery nice 2 slp...haha... =end of dae 1=

Day 2
5am...wake up...haha...packed e room a little den went down prepare 4 inspection...haha...1st time im going 2 inspect...so kan jiong...haha...6am...inspection time...we went out of our private room...1st...committee bunk...nt prepared...2nd bunk...3rd bunk...all not prepared...den went went 2 e last 2nd bunk...finally one which is done...e last bunk was oso ready...den we went back 2 e 1st 3 bunk...kana scolded...who ask them...they noe inspection is 6am...but still slowly come...had...e com pple...is one big disappointment...haiz...4get it...den i went 2 eat breakfast wif szeming...den i went off 2 srjc 4 band...band...was quite scary tt dae...coz...derrick was here 2dae n he n liangshi...like hafing cold war like tt...so scary!!!haha...den we i conducting...they had 2 help each other tune...oh mi gosh!tt was e best part! =x haha...shhh...12.20pm...band ended i went 2 wait 4 a cab to get back to himb 4 e band prac at 1pm...cab wait quite long...but...finally gt a cab...haha...den went back skool...eat lunch (western style)...haha...nice...den i went 4 band prac...mr ng take...after some time mr tan cum n took e band...they played e set piece...i dun wan play...so i went 2 find szeming n shuan wif mr ng...they were doing e results...after some time...i went back music room...coz charging phone there...haha =x they were still playing e set piece...so i juz took mi horn n keep it...den i went 2 find szeming they all again...haha...den we went 4 their POP prac...quite boring lah...after tt...szeming n i went 2 bath earlier 2dae...6.45pm...we went 4 dinner...gt shark's fin soup...not real one lah...but quite nice lah...haha...after tt they went 2 watch vcd...but szeming shuan n i went 2 music room do stuffs again...haha...but b4 tt...we were toking 2 emmeline...i tink she too stressed le...well...after tt...haha...we still didnt really do lots of tings in e music room...coz laptop gif e pple in ava room watch vcd le...haha...dotx!den we went 2 find mrs ganesan tok lor...finally...11pm++ we can do our stuffs liao...szeming n shuan went into e music room do e results...i stayed outside alone n do e music room...well...bery tiring arh...coz everyting muz alone do...need some help oso no haf...2am...i finally finish...szeming n shuan already slping...but when i went in...szeming woke up...den we were on rounds...after tt...we went back music room slp...2.30am...i finally went 2 slp... =end of dae 2=

Day 3
last dae of camp...i woke up at 3am++ coz szeming wan go toilet...so i went wif her lor...den after tt...we went back slp...i slpt thru inspection...too tired le...coz when they cum back at 6.15am...they told mi inspection over le...den szeming sae...she 3plus nv go toilet wif mi...am i dreaming or wat??i dunno...scary... =s haha...8am...i woke up...slack a little...played piano...den went 2 eat breakfast wif szeming...porridege...bery gd...haha...den when back music room do results stuff again lah...den i cont do a bit of e board...coz its ugly...but its still ugly now...den i went in music room tt time...szeming went 2 slp...so i went downstair...mr tan n mr ng were here liao...den sit down tok tok lah...haha...den mr tan sae will gif mi a big potato nxt year...all bcoz of sean lah...keep calling mi tt...rubbish woman...haha... =x den went upstairs cont do tings again...den we all(szeming shuan sean alice mr tan mr ng n i) tok tok lor...haha...gt some bad news lah...but i believe it will b fine at e end of e dae... =) den mr tan bery wat lor...pretend call pizza...DOTX!haha...den we went out buy afiqa food(took mr tan's $10...haha...)...while mr tan went home...we brought ice cream eat too!haha...bery shiok!haha...den went back haf lunch...den we went do tings again...3pm...i packed e music room wif szeming...den locked up n went downstairs wif everyting...den 4get mr ng's trumpet...went back take again...wao lau...do lots of running up n down lor...coz e com keep 4getting tings...den i oso 4get tings...den need tis n tt...dotx lor...haha...run 2.4 arh` haha...POP finally started...i was e MC...e superly lousy MC who cannot speak well...haha...watever lor...haha...6.30pm...POP finally ended...szeming n i went 2 sit mrs ganesan's car to go compass pt 4 dinner...after dinner...bout 7.45pm...we sat in e interchange n tok...tok bout lots of tings...9am...we finally left 4 home...i reached home...do some stuffs den went 2 slp... =end of himb's camp 2004=

Overview
well...tis camp is a so-so wan lah...its not wat i expected...its nt as forward looking as i expected...but overall its still quite okie...i saw ehem thru-out e whole camp...coz they hafing their camp oso...but...i was nt really bothered by it lah...haha... =) see...i've changed! haha... =p but...sad 2 sae...its mi last dae yesterdae...i dun wan go back as often now...coz mi effort there is not appreciated n recognised...so...like tt lah... =) im not bothered by it...n i will learn how 2 get over wif it...soon... =) haha...well...i tink i haf been tinking lots! =) great...now mind is on mi horn liao...muz prac him liao...669092...haha... =)well...tomole gt another camp...after tt camp...i shld b more free le...haha...

well mi friends reading tis...i hope u guys r enjoying ur hols! take care! =)

haiz...

is it over??

is it really over??

i oso dunno...

im juz pure confuse...

=|

hmmm...

hmmm...haha...okie lah...recently quite okie...except e blog ting lor...still cant get over it...but now tinking in a positive way... =)

well...e other dae went 2 hcjc 4 1st reading 4 e concert...it was fun...but...hard...im e worst horn player there...haiz...I MUST WK HARD!!!I MUST JIA YOU!!! haha...haiz...but now mi lips not well...cannot play much...im so sad... =(

recently bring back 004449...he's unwell again...but no matter how much i oil him...he seems e same...mi heart aches seeing him like tt...but...im trying mi best...was playing horn 2dae despite e pain on mi lips...its bery painful when im playing...later...after a few...or shld i sae...after onli a few notes...i found blood in mi mouthpiece...haiz... *ouch* but...wat can i do?clean it lah...den cont play...haiz...im touturing miself...wahaha...amazing...wahaha...now...it still hurts a little...but...nvm...hopefully by wed will b okie 4 e 2nd reading in hcjc... =)

okie...nothing much le...im now again learning mi chopin after a year...cant really play...BUT I WILL DO IT DE! =)

take care mi friends...

coz i care 4 u!

=)

haha...im so old...haha...no wonder im so naggy~ =p

40's to 60's Oh my god you are super mature... you
look at things just like they are, it's good
that you live in the real world, but dreaming
doesn't kill you, you know. Well anyways :D
mature person you are...


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wat type of gal am i? ANS: the "do u tink i care" type...haha... =p

Your crazy but, fun to hang out with:) Sometimes
you go nuts over a question(lol) Also you don't
care what you look like. As long as your fun
and have lots of friends:) Your one of a kind:)


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i gt a name okie?

haiz...yesh...again gt tings happen...

well...sat i went back hihs...coz of e food stuff...so went back...den eln called mi...so i went find her...she was upset lah...so i juz sat there n tok 2 her lor...den e band marched pass...yucks...they were playing a fool lor...not serious at all...i cannot tolerate it liao...so i scolded them...i feel bery sad bout scolding them...i haf mi limits too...haiz... =( but wat pass haf passed...cannot turn back le...

den happened to read a junior's blog...great...gif mi names there...amazing...is tt e way u treat a senior?haiz...4get it lah...im fated to haf such treatment de lah...wrong...im borned to gif pple hate...well...no wonder im e devil of e band...haiz...i will live wif it...aniway...tis tupid p**** here is going 2 leave himb soon...if im allowed to...i juz hope szeming n shuan will understand...i cannot tolerate it anymore there...im not appreciated for wat im doing...n its a waste of time...coz they nv listen to mi...im juz a useless brat... =(

im superly useless...haiz...

haiz...i tink im nv going 2 b successful...i mean...i cant even handle tis kids...i let emotion take over mi...i dunno how 2 control miself...yesh...i wan gif up tis band...but...mi heart sae i shld stay...but...i juz cant tolerate e treatment im getting now...i mean...im sad there lah...i dunno...i try not to go there...but when i dun go...i feel like...weird...i dunno how cum gt such feeling...but its juz there lah...haiz...wat's wrong wif mi?

after making a decision 4 so long...i decided 2 stay...but now...im tinking of leaving again...im so so pissed lor...not onli pissed wif e band...but i tink im more pissed wif miself...i dun seem 2 understand miself at all...im not able 2 do wat i like...and now...im still need to see these kids attitude...haiz...let it b...im juz not accepted by them...unlike szeming shuan n alice...everyone juz gifing mi an attitude...but wat can i do?

i wan 2 b cold-hearted...cold-blooded...a person without ani feelings...a person wif no emotions in himb...but i dunno y i cannot do that...whenever i scold them i feel sad...yea...they might not noe...but i dun care...mayb they might even sae im pretending...i dunno...but i dun care...true...now im saeing "i dun care"...but i really care alot...haiz...but nobody noes...so...4get it...

mayb i shld really bcum wat i mentioned above...b like b4...b as bad as last time...wifout being soft hearted...b bad...b like a devil...a person wif no feelings...i mean...even ying ying n grace dun listen 2 mi...wat can i do?i dun wan force them now...haiz...is it i who haf changed or is it them?i dunno...i juz hope wat i did b4 will help them....but now...no need help le...or shld i sae...im doing a big help to them...coz...i had already told ying ying...i gif up on horn section...im letting them take care of horn section themselves...since ying ying sae she is freaking pissed off wif mi...but do they noe how i feel?no...i nv really enjoy miself in himb...but i nv complain b4...i gt no one 2 learn frm...they haf...but e person they r learning frm is a wrong person...im a bad teacher...

im juz so bloody useless...

mayb mi sl is rite...gt mi or not dont really make a diff...mayb all e while...in hiband n srband...life without mi might b better...i dunno...i tot i can make a difference...well...mayb i did make a difference...but in a negative way...who noes?haiz...even i dun noe bout it miself...mayb i made a wrong decision of staying in himb n a wrong decision of joining srband...i dunno...im juz bery confused these daes...

these daes...life seem like a bland piece of paper...life seem meaningless...i wan to believe that even though life suck...i dun wan 2 gif up...but...im starting to lose hope and faith in everyting...esp in miself...haiz...y is tis soo?i oso dunno...mayb im starting 2 tink more?or mayb im starting 2 tink too much?or mayb im not tinking enuff?mayb...im nt even tinking at all...

himb is mi life...now mi life is almost killed...

srband is mi soul...now mi soul is almost gone...

now...life is a blank...

even if i die tomole...i dun tink anione will noe...

but...

no matter how rough this road is going 2 b...

i still dun wan 2 gif up...

...yet

i wan 2 carry on...till im gone...

...for a gd reason...

=)

JUZ KILL MI!!!JUZ TEAR MI APART!!!

watever lor...tis is e results of too many commiments lor...

pple out there...one advice...DUN HAF SO MANY COMMIMENTS!

U PPLE! JUZ TEAR MI INTO TWO OKIE?? HAPPY?? IM STRESS ENUFF! STOP FORCING MI TO DO SO MANY DECISION STILL!!!

I WAN POP MORE TABLETS!!!

SOLVE MI PROBLEM!

=(

haiz...

sharks...im sick... =(

campS are cuming...but...im still sick...

activities are here...but...im still sick...

im sick...

and...

mi nose is...

dropping...

=(

well...well...

okie...mi OP n CLAO paper all over le...now it means...RELAX!

haha...but not 4 long...when back on sat for footdrill...but was sick...dotx!but actually i didnt do much too...haha...juz sit...stare...stone...dotx...haha...okie...i did sth...but...was kana said by them lah...haiz...im juz a useless brat... =(

aniways...sat quite happy lah...coz early morning reached...1st ting i did was...PLAY PIANO!!!haha...yea...hihs now gt new piano...but i tink its 2nd hand de...a bit siao le...need some repairing sia... =x haha...but it was nice...was playing..."country roads,take me home" haha...yea...i tink it mi fave song ever since jiahao lent mi e dvd...*thanks jiahao*

aniways...yea...haha...i saw ehem on sat...but...e feeling not there liao... =) good!finally...coz i wan concentrate fully on band n mi studies now...dun wan get heads over heel bout such tings...n oso...i gt mi lovely hubby horn...OMG!!!i juz love mi horn...haha...i told mi mama i rather haf mi horn den a bf...wahaha... =x oh well...wat to do?im married to mi horn liao...haiz...toking bout mi horn...i miss him badly...haiz...wish 2 see him asap... =)

well...tt's all 4 now...tata

=)

wat's wrong wif mi?

haiz...i dunno wat's going on wif mi lah...i bery confuse...i bery tired...i feel lost...

well...i wan leave srjc...but great...mi mama dun let mi off...i really bery scare to stay in jc...e stress level is too much...oh yea...e other dae went 2 see doc...doc not happy...coz too high liao...n i yet 2 fix an appoinment wif mi dietician...haiz...TOO BUSY!!!

haiz...i dunno lah...i wan help srband...but i find it hard...den i wan help hiband...but i dun feel accepted...haiz...later i both all dun care... =x haha...haiz...wat's wrong wif mi arh?i lost interest in sth i love most...haiz...

honestly speaking...i dunno wat im trying 2 sae in tis blog...haiz...4get it...

i'll juz admit it...

im going mad...

im tuning crazy...

im insane...crazy...mad...

tt's mi...

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