my theme song...haha...

mayb i really haf forgotten...haha...mayb...

Red House Painters - Have You Forgotten?

Lyrics:
I can't let you be, cuz your beauty won't allow
me
Wrapped in white sheets like an angel from a
bedtime story
Shut out what they say, cuz your friends are fucked
up anyway
And when they come around, somehow they feel up and
you feel down

When we were kids, we hated things our parents
did
We listened low to Casey Casem's radio show
That's when friends were nice
And to think of them just makes you feel nice
The smell of grass in spring
In October leaves cover everything

Have you forgotten how to love yourself?

I cant believe all the good things that you do for
me
Sit back in the chair like a princess from a far
away place
Nobodys nice when you hold her your heart turns
twice
Shut out what they say their too dumb to need it
anyway

When we were kids, we hated things our sisters
did
Backyard summer pools and Christmases were
beautiful
And the sentiment of colored mirrored ornaments
And the open drapes looked out on frozen farmhouse
landscapes

Have you forgotten how to love yourself?

Have you forgotten how to love yourself?


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watever... :p

i tink im crazy 2dae...haha


You are Pig Pen!

Which Peanuts Character are You?
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wat kind of feeling am i?

sure...mi...really mi...e cold n heartless...haha...


You represent... apathy.You don't really show any emotion. You can be
considered cruel and cold, but you just don't
really care about anything. This is just the
way you are... you're quite a challenge to get
close to, and others may perceive you as
boring.

What feeling do you represent?
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shld-b colour of mi eyes?

haha...sounds like mi~ beware...haha... :p


You should have red eyes. You are.. well.. intent
on enslaving the human race and dominating the
world. You take pleasure in killing people and
small animals, especially the cute and cuddly
variety. Just.. um.. try to calm down.


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i dun feel like miself...

well...again...long time no blog le...but...was quite bz...n a little bz...oso...dun haf e mood 2 write how i feel tis few wks... :(

haiz...so called "jue jiao" wif a friend...a bery close friend...a friend...whoi tell mi heart felt feelings to...a friend who we always spend time together...a friend who is always willing to study wif mi at fast-food resturants till almost 10pm everynite...a friend who is always there 4 mi...etc. most imptly...a friend who is e 1st to use mi name 2 lie about sth nt quite rite to her mom n our teacher...she made mi feel tt i cannot trust pple easily now...and oso...i dun haf e courage 2 trust pple now...

i used to trust everyone around mi...no matter how bad e bond is btw some of them...i still trust them...but...never...do i believe tt...its mi close friend...who destory mi trust towards e pple around mi now...im scare of pple now...though i dun show it...n i hate tis friend of mine now!though im tearing while saying tis...i dun tink i can bring miself to forgive her easily...

our teacher was hafing lesson wif us e other dae...n he sae sth wired...i was shocked by his words...later she sms mi n sae she was sorry 4 using mi name 2 tell a lie...i was mad...coz she onli tell mi e truth after so long...other friends hu used to lie wif mi name were juz 4 fun...n i understand y they do so...coz they noe tt's wat i wan...but i juz dun sae out...so they sae it 4 mi without letting mi noe...but at least...they wont keep it frm mi...n im glad...but tis...i cant take it...after tt...tis friend of mine seem to ignore mi totally and has a new gp...i was bery sad...coz we were as close as sister once...now...we seem to b strangers...im totally upset by her actions...

she seem to change after joining them...she seem much happier...mayb im a bored person...so she isnt tt happy when we r hafing each other's company...but honestly speaking...im sad...coz i juz lost mi best friend in such a way...after using mi name to lie...n den been treated like a stranger...mayb its mi fault...coz i sae i muz keep away frm her...coz e teacher is treating us like les...haiz...i dunno...mayb tt statement of mine coz us to bcum like tt...

i dunno...mayb after leaving sec skool...she's mi 1st true best friend...tt's y tis end of friendship cause mi to feel like tt...i dun feel like miself...i tink i haf 4gotten 2 smile n luff n behave like e old mi...when i see her...mi blood boils...mayb bcum of e way she act now...not like her animore...n oso by e lie she made...

i feel bery bad oso...coz...a few daes b4 her b'dae...i gave her her gife n letter...e letter contains some hurtful tings...but i...i dunno wat 2 sae bout it...she gave mi a reply...saeing tt i can tok 2 her when im down or wat-so-ever...but u tink i haf e courage 2 trust her animore??NO WAY!

tearing n tearing n tearing...i onli noe how 2 cry tis daes...coz i feel betrayed...by a close friend...i feel alone though i haf many pple beside mi...coz i lost a bery close friend...but i can onli keep tis tings 2 miself...i dun wan her 2 b sad...or wat...i juz wan her 2 b happy like how she feels now...

well...i tink...tt's e end of our friendship...though its hard to let go...i'll haf to...n i muz learn to accept it...it will b a bery hard period 4 mi...but i'll haf 2 go thru it...moreover...e promos r cuming up...i muz do well...or shld i sae...at least make it 2 yr 2...

mi friends...tis period will b a hard period 4 mi...to 4get tis once so-called best friend of mine...mine "zhi ji"...mi temper is like shit now...i get angered easily...get sad easily...in short...im going thru another emotion breakdown...i dunno how i feel...i dun feel like miself....so mi friends...i hope u guys will 4gif mi if i do aniting bad/wrong 2 u guys...coz...i need some time to overcum wat's going on n calm miself...mi emotion down...

n i sae i hate tis so-called friend of mine...but hopefully...after some time...i can bring miself to 4gif her...but 4 now...i truly hate her 4 e way she is behaving...etc. i cant bring miself 2 4gif her yet...n lastly...

I HATE MISELF N NOT BEING MISELF!!!

im sad...

i dun wan 2 cry...

but i juz lost mi best friend...

not long ago...

im sad...

*tearing*

hmmm...

hmmm...looks like i haf not been writing 4 quite a long time...haha...but nt really mi fault...coz nt really lots of ting happen...okie...now i gt ting sae le...haha...well...hols has juz started...but its like no hols like tt lor...so bz...haiz...hmmm...i bought back mi dearest 669092...hehe... =) im so glad he's so close 2 mi...can see him everydae le...hehe...*okie...im crazy over mi horn...TOTALLY CRAZY!*

hmmm...went back hihs band e other dae...mr tan asked mi take horn section 4 sectional...i told him no...coz i told him tt 2 kids dun like mi interfere wif their section...den mr tan n mrs chua sae dun care bout them...shuan oso sae dun care...but...i bery wei nan leh...haiz...but in e end no sectional...mr tan asked mi whether im in philyouth...i told him if im in there...philyouth sure die de...coz im such a bad player!wahaha...den he gave mi a bery digusted face...haha...no choice... =Þ den he asked mi a bery wired ques...i was quite shocked 2 hear it lah...so actually i was quite blur when he was asking mi tt...haha...

haiz...band wif mr tan n mrs chua was fun...how i wish can cont like tt lor...its nice hafing so a nice instructor n instructress in e band...haha...i learnt lots of tings frm them...so great lor...haha...nxt yr...himb might haf her own bery 1st concert...hopefully will haf lor...though nxt yr might haf major exam...i will try mi best 2 help them in one way or another... =)

aniway...himb is one band which gives mi lots of problems...but i cant bear 2 leave...though i am asked to...coz i learnt many tings there...including e true meaning of LIFE...

=)P/S: im staying in e band in silence...shhh....haha...