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Sunday, August 29, 2004

hmmm...laLAla...hehe...

haf not been blog-ing 4 some time le...haha...aniway...tis wk is fine lah...nt alot of tings happen...hehe...hmmm...i finally noe sth le...wahaha...but i dun tell u all...let u all slowly guess...hehe...

fridae...went back 2 hihs again...and yes...mrs chua again asked mi i no need study arh...need lah...but i finish lessons liao...so went back...prac on mi horn...but still cant reach mi high "A"... *sad* =( den when i go see other sec one member gif mrs chua teach tt time...mrs chua asked mi help 2 teach e horn members...but i sae no...i wont teach them...i noe its bad lah...but i gt no choice...haiz...den shuan tell mrs chua y i sae no...but not at tt time...den after band shuan szeming n i walked wif mrs chua 2 e bus-stop 2 take a bus...den shuan told mrs chua y lah...den i told mrs chua...mr tan of hiband had asked mi 2 cum back re-build mi secton *coz i told him mi section fell le...under some pple... =(* aniway...he asked mi cum back re-build...but i told him no...coz its really hard work...n i haf already gif up on them...coz they dun like mi 2 help...n since they dun wan do aniting...y shld i help?they shld do it themselves...horn section...i missed e old daes...when i see them play so well...now...they all blast blast blast...i dun hear e old nice section animore...sad...but wat can i do?they find it nice like tt...i can onli pretend not 2 hear aniting...if i shld go back 2 play wif them one dae...i tell u...i will play as soft as possible...*coz too loud le*... sad 2 see e section i built up going down...but...i cant sae aniting le...can only cry in silence...yea...ying2 apologized 2 mi...but so wat?she still nt doing wat she shld...yea...she's hafing prelim...but b4 prelim...she was still not doing wat she shld...same 4 e new sL grace...haiz...okie...im ready...2 let e old section die...n 4get bout it...sayonara horn section... =I i gt no choice...but 2 4get bout e old section i built up like mad...n accept a new section...

den i went out study wif shuan and szeming...were actually studying till szeming craps start 2 begin...haha...den lost concentration...den i tink i saw him...but dunno izzit not...cant b bother...im doing maths mah...*amazing...IM DOING MATHS!!!* haha....den after tt we went home...went 2 e night market wif mama n aunt...hehe...den after tt went home 2 shower...n den...watch e new DVD i bought...SPIRITED AWAY!!!hehe...im mad bout it...i was watching it wif mabel on thursdae...she wanted 2 watch sth funny...but i insisted on SA...den...we had a wonderful time watching...but we nv finished it...den we went back on fridae n cont watching...haha...nice...Haku and Chihiro is so nice...okie...i wonder in e end wat happen 2 Haku...haha...but...its really nice...was watching a bit again juz now...haha...IM ADDICTED 2 IT!!!haha...hope tt there is Spirited Away II... =x *a bit immposible like tt leh...haha...*

sat...went 2 srband 4 band...was fun...but...yea...i still cant reach mi high "A"...haiz...mi sL sure muz b luffing like mad...but hu cares...haha...den...after band...went 2 tampines concert...wao lau...i dunno how go conference hall frm srjc lor...haha...went i reach...i walked wrong direction 2 e conference hall...mrs tan treat us dinner...*yum yum* haha...e concert was great...candy was really nice...she helped mi get a last min tic...*thanks candy* =) hope u like e flowers~ when i cum home...i was watching Spirited Away again...*im sorry...im really mad bout it...haha...*hey...but its not mi fault tt im mad bout it...its mi bro...haha...he bought e sound track...n i was bery attracted 2 e sound track...thus...i wanted 2 watch e show...but once i start watching...i cant stop...*help!*

den...finally...mi wkend is almost over...later muz do hw liao...sometimes...i really feel like crying...coz...when i see mi section like tt...mi heart really aches...but...tis is life...tis is reality...mayb He who is above is gifing mi another challenge...coz...i fought e last few well...esp e major one...n im grateful 4 it...but...now...i will concentrate on mi promos...11 Spet 2004 will b e last time i go back till mi promos is finally over...hehe...i love 669092! *opps...*im happy...dun wish 2 sad again...=)

Saturday, August 21, 2004

hmmm... =\

haha...juz realised tt i haf nt been updating 4 a long time...aniway...like mi update wif u info now...haha...

okie...last few daes...mi hiband there alot of pro...nt onli bout mi section...but is bout lots of tings...haiz...dun wish 2 sae bout it le...been crying 4 daes bout it le...dotx...haha...i bery tupid rite?but...no choice...i like hiband too much le...all i can sae...i once respect tis person...however now...i look down on tis person...really...cant believe it...haiz...

hmmm...srjc there oso no gd...whole dae project work till i wan die le...common test i tink oso die...haiz...srband...mayb will die oso...i tink i really die will do lah *choy* haha...if i really die...mi new husband will miss mi de...haha...oh yea...mi new hubby name is 669092...haha...nice rite??better than 004449 rite??hehe...i love 669092 more than 004449 now...haha...

mr tan of srband sae wan 2 buy new horn...conn 8D or conn 8-watever...haha...but i tink i might juz stick 2 e horn im using now...mi percious H190...mi percious little hubby...669092...haha...im mad again...

but...i tink tis few daes...tis few wks...is really nt e best period of wat i haf been hafing...haiz...too many tings happen le...when tt dae cums...i will tell u wat is happening de...its not time yet...cannot sae...but...at times...i really wish i can stay wif 004449 lor...coz i miss him...but i tink i prefer 669092 lah...haha... *out of topic* aniway...hopefully... *cross mi fingers* i can haf a gd wk cuming up...i hope so...im tired enuff le...

i seriously tink tt...

i need a break...

a long break...

=I

Tuesday, August 10, 2004

laLalalaa...i miss...mi dearest 004449

hmmm...i haf been a notti gal 2dae...i slpt e whole dae...n i mean it...okie...not really whole...but i slpt alot 2dae lor...hmmm...haha...i watch "wat women wants" in e morning...was choosing between "the way home" and "the pianist" actually...but realised all r sad shows...so i chose "wat women wants" in e end...haha...

hmmm...was chatting juz now...n decided i will try mi bery best 2 forget ehem...n care onli bout mi dearest horn...hehe...mi percious little darling horn...opps... =x but really lor...i love mi horn alot...haha...esp 004449...but i leave him liao... *sad* sad coz i leave him in his most painful period...ignoring him totally...how evil of mi...haiz...but i cant help it... *sad*

hmmm...haha...oh yea...finally gt mi tag le...pple...do haf fun wif it...haha...hmmm....i love mi horn...no matter wat happen...

but...i miss...

004449


Monday, August 09, 2004

hmmm....

i juz remembered...i 4got 2 tell u guys bout sat...haha...went back 2 sec skool...still feeling sad...but...no choice...when e kids are going out 2 march...i asked ying2 to stay...but she didnt wan...when outside tt time...she was so warm...i forced her to go back...mr ng sent her back...oh yea...mr ng cum back le...dotx...haha...hmmm...den when they sitting down to play...gt one public scold mi...dotx...*mentioned it b4* but i was felt better when i saw ehem...however was sad...coz e members nv invite mi 2 take pic wif them...haiz...really been 4gotten le... =I

sundae...was slacking at home...coz super no mood...mi classmates...band mates asked mi go c firewks...but...i really no mood...if not i sure go wif them de...haha... =x

2dae...went out...supposed 2 haf a meeting...meeting wif emmo n melvin n szeming...waited under e hot sun 4 1/2hr coz e others were all late...dotx...den we went melvin's house...OMG...he's house is so nice...so grand lor...cant stand him...but his house gt nth 2 munch...haha... =x so...house big but no food oso no use...haha...but we did little of our project onli...den we went cycling at pasir ris park...but...i dunno how cycle...so i took a double bike wif szeming...*szeming sorry arh...* but i was really bery scare lah...den we went 2 e beach n started 2 shout...really enjoyed miself...coz i 4got bout all mi troubles... =)

haha...really feeling quite happy 2dae...coz...alot of gd tings happened...was toking 2 nanny jinhong juz now...he was asking mi bout e "ehem" i mentioned in mi blog...but...nanny...i will nv tell u hu he is...haha...lala... =Þ but i can tell u is..."ehem" is a bery interesting fellow...much better than u~ lala...jkjk...haha...

Sunday, August 08, 2004

HIMB HORN SECTION...

haiz...yea...in e beginning i haf intro mi section pple 2 u...now...i would like 2 sae some tings...coz tis tings are making mi bery sad...makes mi feel like...tearing...

well...AGM tt dae...one of mi junior demoted 2 CPL...another one...no more ASL post...another demote frm chief uniform-in-charge to SL...haiz...dunno wat's wrong...suddenly all like tt...but i cant help but sae...they shld haf tis kind of treatment...

well...im really sad lor...coz b4 i left...i was bery happy wif mi section...coz...i saw i bery great section...i left trying not 2 feel bery worry...i did...at 1st...after tt tings happen...e SL didnt bother 2 cum 2 band...n e other seniors r telling mi bout it...i was really sad...haiz...so e instructor choose another ASL...i was bery happy 4 her...but...she showed mi diff tings...tings...i didnt wan 2 c...she didnt respect her post...haiz...nv really do it well...when i went back...their sectionals were more like playing...e other member...didnt really show work wif tis ASL...always doing tings which she likes...

was toking 2 ying ying juz now...she sae...horn section should get 1st runner-up 4 best section award...but...how can?attendence isnt good...not co-operative enuff wif e majors...etc. not i wan 2 demoralise them...but...e sight of horn section...is really...heart aching 2 mi...listening 2 pple complaining bout mi section...really makes mi cry everyting...made an effort 2 tell mi junior 2 improve on their attitude...but...gt nth in return...nt even an improvement in their attitude... =~ wat really makes mi tear more is...ying ying saying tt...i feel tt...i tink horn section is lousy...coz im not in there le...haiz...i tink...ying ying...really wan mi leave horn section le...coz...in fact...i tot...nvm...4get it...

yea...its really time...

to leave e section...

and nv tink bout them again...

gd-bye 004449...do take care of urself...

gd-bye mi dearest horn section...

gd-bye...

i will try not 2 care bout u all animore...

=)

Saturday, August 07, 2004

im sad... =~

haiz...i like bery long nv blog le...let mi tell u wat happened tis wk...sad...

e other dae...went 2 c e doc again...glucose level went up again...sad... =~ den...nafa...not good...haiz...dunno wat's wrong wif mi...i tis few daes...like bery not happy lor...den e other dae...hiband prac tt time...like gt tings happen...den i rush down c...at tt time was already like 5 plus le...haiz...i muz b mad or wat lor...den srband NDP prac...play under e sun...den last min muz choose another song...n i dunno which piece 2 choose...so took shrek dance party...but i conduct till bery lousy... =~ den e other nite discuss hiband com tings till so late...haiz...

on national dae morning...i so kan jiong lor...haiz...but i dunno i conduct well not...after tt rush down 2 hiband...wif e cert everyting...in fact i took a cab down...den gave mi speech...but i was like...crying all e while...haiz...

e other dae...classmate insulted srband...i was so pissed off...i scolded e inital of e "f" word...i didnt wan de...but i was really angry...he sae e band already bad enuff...he still sae e instructor...i was really pissed off...so...when i walked away....i broke down again...thru-out e whole lecture...i was tearing...haiz... =~

den 2dae leh...went back help band again...dotx...when helping them block e way tt time...gt one lady shout n scold mi lor...coz when she walk e 1st time...i told her cannot liao...den she wan walk 2nd time tt time...i sae cannot again...den she shout n scold mi...sad...really sad lor...till i broke down...den ms rama keep asking mi not 2 cry...but i really bery sad le...coz i saw alot of angry faces le...but its not tt i wan de lor...its e president of e band hu ask mi do it de...den she's like in front of e band toking 2 e instructors...haiz...i tink i can really call miself SERVANT OF BAND (SOB)...haiz...its really sad... =~

i tink tis wk is a bad week...

i really feel like crying non-stop...

coz...

im really...

stress out...

=~