Sunday, October 18, 2009

Somehow, I don't really like this semester. Hope that time can pass faster! Just wanna get it over and done with..

Friday, October 09, 2009

Yay!! I conquered 2 quizzes yesterday. It was HELL IRRITATING to have quizzes from 7pm to 9.30pm.. I rather they make us come back on a Saturday morning than to make us stay back so late for the quiz.

Finally, the first week is over. Shag. haha. I wanna go arcade and play!!!!



Thank you for being there all the time =)



the VERY CUTE me!


Steamboat!! wow!! I am having craving for more steamboat..


tutorial friends! last day before recess week and all of us look so SHAG. haha.

Thankful that the weekend is here :))

Sunday, September 27, 2009

nice song by Jason Mraz



=)

Lucky - Jason Mraz featuring Colbie Caillat
We Sing, We Dance, We Steal Things



Do you hear me,
I'm talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky oh my, baby I'm trying
Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Oooohhhhoohhhhohhooohhooohhooohoooh

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music, feel the air
I'll put a flower in your hair
Though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Ooooh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Afterall, I guess that being truthful is the best way out for most of the things. Pondered about many facts in life and well, it takes courage to chase for your dream so all the best to you my dear sy!

you will be remembered :) really.

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

sometimes truth hurts but that is what makes human grow.

Sunday, September 20, 2009

So much for not updating this blog.

As usualy, many things happened within the past few months and I am beginning to lose track of time. Faced with the crude reality and harsh side of life but yet I am not able to offer much help to others around me. How I wish the world can be fair to everyone - I know it isn't.

COR makes my life in NTU. though busy, I managed to find peace whenever I am with Corians. On a side note, I really want to thank those who bought mooncakes from me :) THANK YOU!!

There's always so many contradictions in life and it's often very sickening to dispute or even try to resolve them. Perhaps, it's time for everyone to see beyond what they are seeing and not hide themselves in their own selfish world.

Learn to love and you'll be loved.

Monday, September 07, 2009

wow. life's hectic and time is passing faster than ever! despite being really caught up with my own work, I extend my heartfelt thanks to those who responded to my email and supported me for my canvassing.

To Shi Min my dear junior! I was elated to receive your sms reply. you're one that I miss a lot but due to our super busy and caught up schedule, we havent got a chance to meet ever since HCI concert last year. good luck for your A's and I am sure you'll do well!

To Tong hai, though we haven't met for really long, but I must say that you're a really nice person to be with! Will always remember the times spent working at far east =) thanks for being a big brother of mine.

Perhaps, these are some of the people that I hold truely to. Friends may be far apart, they may be isolated and so caught up in their own world that they tend to forget each other's existence. I always believe that no matter how busy one is, as long as there's willingness to sustain the friendship, one will always find time for the other. It might not be a meeting or gathering where you have to meet up each other -- even a simple sms greeting or a msn hello will make a difference to one's life because it simply means that the person is being remembered :)

As long as the heart is there.. friendship can be felt deep within the soul.

I admit that I might have occassionally isolated myself due to the pile of work I have on hand but to friends I hold dearly to, note that you're always remembered.

Thanks to those who made my life meaningful.

Thursday, August 20, 2009

Finally.

the end of the week - I am dying from exhaustion and escalating pressure.

Friday, August 14, 2009

wahahah!! I went to J8 Arcade yesterday and I am so proud of myself :) I caught all the following 3 toys! oh my they're so cute!


my winnings!!!


Micky & Minnie with chun li's bun


this donald duck looks really pissed! lol.

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

39.3 degree celcius. I am really fainting & my head is spinning like mad. ouch. did too many things in July & perhaps, my body is telling me that I need to rest!

Missed my bs2 test because of the fever. get well soon yx! there's alot of things waiting for you to do.

Friday, July 10, 2009

LAST DAY OF WORK. YAY =)

The day has finally come. I am finally given my well deserved holiday once again :) So many more things for me to do. When will I ever be FREE and not be tied up with countless things for me to handle?

Well, I guess probably not because I am not someone who can stand myself having nothing to do & rotting at home, even though staying at home ONCE IN A LONG WHILE IS GOOD.

okayy!! going M'sia on Sunday & after I come back it'l be all the FOC stuff & my BS2. I seriously seriously need to go practice! o, on a side note, my instructor is Shalini once again! oh my. really cool seeing her after 3 years? haha. fate brings people apart and brings them together. A new semester is coming and I will try really hard to juggle everything once again. Though there's more stuff for me to do this coming semester but I am confident that I will be able to handle everything.

& of course I wanna thank my special someone for always being there for me. Sometimes, I really couldn't imagine life without you because you make such a big part of me.

thanks :)

Saturday, July 04, 2009

Thank you for always being so understanding..

Monday, June 29, 2009

Sometimes there are just too many things going through my mind & it's hard trying to organize them & put them into action..

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Alright, I haven’t been updating this blog! So much stuff happened & I will try my best to write as much as possible :D

Work has been boring and I am really thankful that it’s gonna end in another 2 weeks time! Yay! Okay, brought my family to this restaurant at Bt Timah Queen’s Road. It was quite good but I felt that it tasted better the previous time I went there!

I finally went to the legendary thai food at Yishun area with justin. The food is not bad but apparently, due to the large crowd, the kitchen staffs actually prepare all the food beforehand & when customers order the food, almost all of the items are served within 10 minutes. Quite sad that the food tasted a little cold because the food there is really quite good! The thing is, we went on a Monday night & it’s already very crowded. I wonder what happens if I go there on a weekend. Haha. No idea when I will be back there again!

On the 9th June, I FINALLY MET UP WITH MY FAR EAST GIRLS =D I haven’t seen them for almost a year & it’s really great seeing them, especially wee may, kamie & Jennifer. As usual, they treated me like a xiao mei mei & showered me with lots of love, care and concern. Surprising, nothing has been done to improve the office condition.

Yupp! COR 2009 has finally ended & there’s just so much to say. We had song sign practice at SMU basement & it’s really fun to song sign. Hope that I can join Christmas song-signing end of this year because I love Christmas =)

No doubt we were all very caught up with COR stuff, I felt really happy being part of COR. I couldn’t really sleep the night before as I was caught up with packing my stuff & settling some school admin stuff. Thanks to Chuan Han’s parents for fetching me to Tanah Merah Ferry Terminal early morning! Upon reaching Bintan, we played some games & started water activities. OMG I did snorkeling for the first time ever in my life!! Though I cant really swim but it’s great looking at the corals & fishes. Haha. I didn’t get to see many fishes because of my slow movement BUT the sea water was really SALTY! Omg! Felt as if I was forced to swallow one big pack of salt down my throat. YUCKS. After that we did sampan rolling. It may sound easy but it’s definitely not! My paddle keeps falling off & my boat always shaking & that it could capsize any moment! Ouch. Yes so that’s the very eventful day  subsequently, we took a boat back to our campsite & pitched our tents there. I couldn’t remember how long ago did I cook using mass tin but it was fun cooking instant noodle with egg, vegetable & fish ball. Haha. I am glad some of us had fun!

Day 2: we woke up & trainers told us some of the haunted stories! Faints. I wouldn’t have dared to stay at that place if they had told me the story earlier on. According to them, Pontianak exists & they will usually climb up the trees with face covered with hairs. They make weird noises at night and the louder the noise is, the further they are from us. According to the legend, red threads are tied to nails and they are hammered onto the trees. Locals believe that by hammering the nail with the red thread, it prevents Pontianak from climbing down the tree. Well, some will argue that the strings are there for handing stuff. Ha. Yupp! We had buns for breakfast & headed back to the hotel. Did mangrove reforestation and enjoyed thoroughly. Hopefully I will be back there 3 years down the road to see the mangrove that we planted. Mystery trail was quite fun but it’s quite scary walking down the lane alone! Haha =)

Day 3: Did trekking and local CIP. There a girl named Anisa and she’s really cute! Will update the photos someday =) seafood dinner was great and the stars at Bintan are really pretty! Lifesmith surprised us with fireworks at night! Pretty pretty =)

There’s just so much more to say and I really treasure the friendships forged throughout the entire camp.

Will be back again for COR 2010! Cheers 

Saturday, May 30, 2009

Alright. First, let me write about the horrid experience I had yesterday. The flu & cough is making me really sick and I could't take it but to visit the doctor - I hate seeing doctors & taking medicine. Probably because of the fact that I am going to Bintan this June, I don't want to take the risk.

I left office early & went to the clinic near my house with justin but it was closed. We then went to another clinic which opens at 6pm. I went in for barely 5 minutes & came out. Make a guess how much the whole thing cost?

$47!!!!

OMG.

I stood there dumbfounded & got the shock of my life because I couldn't understand why a neighbourhood clinic charges so high & that the doctor doesn't look professional at all. The nurse replied saying: "The consultation fee itself is $20+. you still need to add the medicine."

*faints* I decided to forgo the lozenges & panadol and the nurse charged $37, which is really expensive too. Ok. I swear that I will never go to that clinic again & I won't fall sick again!

yuppp. so that was the really terrifying experience.

***

Let's talk about happy stuff for now =)


had COR pre-camp today! I was telling mp how happy I felt today coz I haven't felt really happy from the bottom of my heart for very long.

Well, I am not trying to say that I had a miserable life - In fact, my life was quite good with all my beloved ones next to me but perhaps the harsh reality of life has drowned all the little acts that will cause immense happiness.

I never used so much sign language before today & I realized how tiring it is to keep signing because your hands must constantly be in motion. hehe. I tried to practice the signs for my mahjong game instructions & I am glad that others can understand what I was trying to say! yay!! happy happy!

I shall continue to learn more signs! ganbatte! thank all who are so patient in teaching me signs! =)

Monday, May 25, 2009

okay. I think that I am having COR hype this few days. Really super duper high and excited =)

went sentosa with COR and had lots of fun! most importantly, I met new friends and I MANAGED TO PRACTICE MY SIGN LANGUAGE. haha. even though my skills are REALLY LOUSY, I am glad that they are really patient. thank you!

=)

it feels good to be doing something that I like. Let's give it my best this time round and I am sure it is all worthwhile!

Saturday, May 23, 2009

Went back to NTU today after one month. Somehow, as the bus moves towards the campus, many people came into my mind.

Like what I mentioned before, I learnt what I wanted to learn. I figured out what I couldn't figure out last time. Perhaps, fate brought me to NTU this time round. Let's hope for the best!

Thank all who form part of my life =)

Thursday, May 07, 2009

Long day. I realized that I am losing my voice after talking non-stop during tuition!

Been spending the past few days in Jurong, cck, bt panjang area and I haven't had enough fun this holiday. I met up with my 2/4 girls and practically no one else. hahaa... on a side note, I went town w zz today and guess what, we saw MICHELLE CHIA and her legs are super SEXY!! *envy* I think she's one of my fav mediacorp artiste because she's got the brains, the looks and most importantly, inner beauty, unlike most of the other artistes. on my way back, zz was taken aback by sth he saw. A few seconds later, I was screaming in shock! A very long malay lady was sitting down near the bushes begging for money and she wore a white headgear. As the sky was rather dark, it appeared as if a head was floating in mind air with the luminous headgear. OUCH. I wonder how many people can she scare in 1 hours. Maybe we will all appear on Singapore's version of 'Just for laughs'. HAHA.

yupp yupp! looking forward to mother's day coz I LOVE MY MAMA! =D

Sunday, May 03, 2009

Busy Busy Busy. Sometimes I am more busy than exam period! haha. but I pretty much enjoy having things to do for it is more fulfilling =)

Friday, April 24, 2009

Just came back from town =)

really enjoying my life now! haha. went to mushroom pot with mery,jw,xy,jm and did something really very diu lian! after eating, we were cam-whoring and stood in front of the mirror to take lots and lots of photos. shall upload them someday!! =)

after that we went to walk around town and to my astonishment, TOWN CHANGED ALOT. Orchard Centre and Ion Orchard buildings were far from complete the last time but as of today, the whole structure can be seen from far. haha ok. this really shows how LONG I haven't been walking around in town. haha. o wells.

Had a great time shopping with the girls!

Mmm. Busy busy busy. On my way home, I saw lynna at the bus stop. going back nj tomorrow again! I am sure njcsb will do well again! It's probably gonna be Mr Ho's last few syf..

and btw! 2 years ago I was on the bus and I saw the national day video and fell in love with the song but I couldn't find the title. Surprisingly, after 2 years, as I listened to band music from the 2GB of band songs jh gave me, I FOUND THE SONG =) It's called Jupiter. Been listening it repeatedly for many many times. I love the song.

happy happy!

went Bugis with justin yesterday to bai bai. Bought a MOUSE from Sim Lim Square! Finally! mmm.. I hope that you're feeling well coz I am really worried about you.

Thursday, April 23, 2009

Ok. the school term has finally ended.

There's so much that I want to say, but I don't really know where to start from. Ever since my University life started, my life has reached another turning point. For the past one year, I experienced what I couldn't understand for the past few years. At the same time, my social circle expanded all of a sudden, sometimes too much for me to even handle. Somehow, I chose a more laid-back life. I no longer care so much about other people and I feel that friends are starting to drift away. Everyone is caught up with their own work and now that exams are finally over, it's time for me to catch up with those that I miss.

Each day, numerous images appear in front of me and they are so near, yet so far away from me. why is it that images of a certain group of people keep appearing within me? it is because these are the people that I truely treasure and that they are those who are important to me?

o well.

I laernt a lot. And perhaps there's a lot more for me to learn. I shall continue to learn and improve =) There are really people that I would like to thank from the bottom of my heart, for without them, I wouldn't be able to pull through till today. Thank you.

Mmm.. Alright. my well deserved break has finally arrived.

It's time to play (:

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

3 papers down. everything is finally coming to an end! I wonder how life will change again for the next few months. It's time to give myself more time =)

Thursday, April 16, 2009

Lizard Fight Round 2

Just when I thought that I could live happily ever after, another battle began. An hour ago, I heard the squeaking noise again.I thought that I was too sensitive but as I took a closer look, I SAW ANOTHER LIZARD. OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG.

tO My disMaY, I had to chase it out again. It was another tedious and laborious task coz I got to chase it everywhere. DAMN SHAG from all the battles today =(

I saw 3 lizards in total. The smallest one was driven out by me last week. the huge one was driven out by me this afternoon. and finally, the medium size one was caught by my HEROIC DADDY.

I SINCERELY HOPE THAT I WON'T SEE ANYMORE OF THEM. but my gut feeling tells me that there's at least one more HUGE one (I think I seen it runing around before) that is still hiding SOMEWHERE. *faints* I wanna die already. someone please save me >.<

RAHHH!!

no more energy left to study! bleh.

___________________________________________________________
Lizard Fight

Okay. so the story goes like this:

The diligent yx is trying hard to study for her exams but apparently, she couldn't focus because a DISGUSTING pest that has been irritating her for weeks >.<

Ever since I changed the orientation of my room's furniture, I was very happy for I managed to clear a table for me to do my work. I am used to hearing noises in my room but ONE DAY, as I looked at my window, I saw a LIZARD that's about 5cm long. OMGGGG!! I tried to chase it out of my room and after a long struggle, it ran away.

BUT. that wasn't the only lizard! a few days later I saw a BIGGER LIZARD. *faints* I wonder if they belong to the same family. haha. yes. even since the appearance of the small lizard, I am super duper sensitive to the lizard noise. (for those who don't know, lizards actually make noise when they move about)

for days, I couldn't fall asleep for the noise was REALLY ANNOYING. what's worse was that the lizard slept later than me and WOKE UP EARLIER than me -___________-" Last Saturday, when she was studying, she saw the lizard. and guess what? the lizard realized that yx saw him and he started running away the moment he saw my head turn towards him.

YES. so just a moment ago when yx was studying her beloved FM, she heard the noise once again. she tried to ignore BUT she caught sight of the DISGUSTING lizard. So, in order to settle things ONCE AND FOR ALL, a LIZARD BATTLE BEGAN! wahahha~~

my mum took the insecticide and sprayed non-stop. but the lizard managed to run away. the insecticide smell was SO OVERWHELMING that yx almost got killed by it too! So, we can see that this lizard is really powerful.

later, the lizard was seen running towards its home, which is the other corner of the window. Then again, yx took the insecticide and sprayed non-stop at it again. YUCKS.

FINALLY, the lizard couldn't take it anymore and it ran out. I seriously hope that this lizard won't disturb me anymore. else, your fate will be worse than what you experienced today.

=)

We shall now announce the winner of today's battle:

YX the great has won!! hahaha~~

WARNING: to all insects, don't try to push your luck and play with yx. you will SUFFER A HORRIBLE DEATH.

***

ok. enough of this funny post. I am super tired now. it wasn't fun playing with the lizard >.< I am just thankful that I can study peacefully now! yay! =D

Sunday, April 12, 2009

ok. I am so gonna scream my head off. Stay away from me if you want to be safe.

pissed to the max.

why?

Sunday, April 05, 2009

I don't know why. I think I am too stressed. My brain cant work anymore. My brain cells are all dead. I went lot 1 today to eat lunch, only to realized I have got NO appetite AT ALL. I was hungry, but I didn't felt like eating. Then again, If I don't eat, I wouldn't have the energy to sustain so I ordered a plate of prawn dumpling noodle.

For once, it was torturous to eat coz I was too emotionless to taste the food. I couldn't taste the fragrance at all. Felt as if I was forcing myself to eat.

RAHHHH.. WHYYYY!!

>.<

I think, I should just go out one day and relax myself before I study. SIGH.

Friday, April 03, 2009

OKay. The end of the week again! another 3 more weeks and I will be free =) there will be a 3 month break for me to play =)

FINALLY.

Tuesday, March 31, 2009

It's just very tiring sometimes.. I wonder when will all these ever end..

Friday, March 27, 2009

I wasn't very happy yesterday upon self-realization of a fact that has long existed.

I know that I have very high expectations of myself and that's probably why I didn't enjoy things with others. I get stressed up easily and people near me will get stressed by me somehow even though I have no intention of making them feel that way..

..and that's why I am always doing things alone.

Sigh. Maybe I am destined to be a solo worker such that I wouldn't inflict any stress on others. I seriously wonder how many people can stand my work attitude..

yupp. perhaps there's more things for me to do. perhaps there's more things for me to learn as well. I haven't quite found the right way of doing stuff all the time.

Alright. enough of the sad moments. Let's talk about something happier. I visited grandpa today and everytime I see him, it reminds me of a relative.

Mmm. I hate the way you ignore him apart from saying hi when he's all fine or ill. I hate you for not showing enough care. and most importantly, I HATE YOU for scruntinizing him like a specimen when you've got more medical knowledge. I REALLY DON'T LIKE the feeling when you analyze him like your specimen and then try to deduce what's wrong with him. Yes I know you wanted to apply your knowledge but please don't do that. It's so irritating to see you show your supercial love and concern all of a sudden.

I really HATE it.

Somehow, I just want to be protective of those that I love..

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

I don't know why. I seem to have lost the drive already. sometimes there's just so much things in me that I want to say but I have got no outlet.

surprisingly, I realized I am beginning to talk to myself more than ever. For some unknown reason, I am thinking too much. Just got to know of an unpleasant issue and I am thankful with whatever I have now.

I will learn to treasure. and I will learn to to embrace whatever that is coming my way.

I am supposed to study for my fm quiz tomorrow but apparently I just can't find the zest to do it.

why?

Friday, March 20, 2009

I tried staying at home to study today but I failed. I fell asleep while doing my work and I really can't deny the fact that my bed is SUPER DUPER sleep inducing. I fall asleep within 5mins 100% without fail everytime. haha.

alright. so I woke up feeling very dazed and I dragged my dad to play badminton with me. YAY! it was really fun coz I haven't exercise for really long and I made my dad exercise with me too! WHEEEE~ After playing badminton we actually went to Bt Batok Nature Park to jog. haha. couldn't quite remember the last time I went there.

It was really fulfilling to spend quality time with my dad (: felt really happy.

watched the last episode of yi qie wan mei. I don't really fancy local drama but I pretty much enjoy watching this show, maybe because michelle is the lead actress! Wang Tian Cai mentioned this sentence: "Although I am physically very tired, but my heart is not tired."

Meaningful, isn't it?

How often do we do things because of love? Love is such an amazing power that no one can withhold.

OKAY. I am so happy that weekend is here once more. STUDY STUDY STUDY =)

...I miss panda.

Sunday, March 15, 2009

I entered sadeaf today once more, with entirely different feelings and expectations, holding different responsibilities.

I volunteered there in 2006 and was asked to join the IDD committee. It was an eye-opener for me and I realized learnt a great deal of stuff, albeit that I couldn't understand sign language at that time. The familiarity I once had was overwhelming and I couldn't resist the temptation and I wish to return to sadeaf again.

I recall the nights where I travelled all the way down to sadeaf late at night just to settle props and goodie bags stuff. Likewise, I miss Lizhen and Dawn as well. Havne't got a chance to see them for years already..

so here I am.

I embraked on a journey with COR. I am thankful that I am part of COR for it gave me lots of opportunities to learn as well. Even though my sign language is still quite bad, I managed to practice it a little with the HIs =) I was really slow in reading their finger spell coz one really needs complete and focused attention in order to catch all the alphabets. Hopefully, I can master the sign language one day!

when we opened the door in the morning, I saw siu fai and he was SHOCKED and STUNNED to see me back in sadeaf. I almost forgot that he existed till his appearence today. It was really nice to see him. Others were surprised that I actually know sadeaf staff. haha. o well.

I look forward to COR 2009 =)

Thursday, March 12, 2009

Skeptism.

I seem to fear the world around me and I just want to go a little corner and hide myself. Away from all the superficial humans and pretendence. Everyone should just stop wearing their masks and learn how to be truthful.

I hate the world.

Thursday, February 26, 2009

happy birthday my beloved xiao xiao =)

Monday, February 23, 2009

happy recess week! =)

retail therapy works best for me. haha.

Thursday, February 19, 2009

I remember vividly what happened one year ago. even though she left us physically, I know that she's always spiritually with us. Her gentleness touches everyone's heart and she seeks no wealth and fame, but to spread her love and lead a simple life. The blanket that I have used for years gave me warmth every night and it always take me a moment to realize that she's no longer around. I miss her.

...

I am really getting tired. will society be cruel to everyone? I am trying hard to fight and it's always a competition againt myself. ha. at this point in time, I must thank j for his support all these while - thank for providing me an outlet whenever I am suffocating. I really couldn't quite imagine life without you =)

also, i would like to thank my dearest qs! your translation of sx sounds DAMN SICK can >.< thank you for always motivating and pushing me on. Hopefully, I can reciprocate your kindness to you too.

& of course, not to mention my beloved family for their immense love that they have for me. I Love you all too =)

...

vday went past last saturday! It was my first time celebrating it and I enjoyed myself. haha. saw a swiss watch that costs SGD760! omg. haha but it's really pretty for the face of the watch was hand carved! I shall work towards owning that watch. heh. well, it looked really dumb to see the whole stretch of Orchard filled with couples and that almost every girl is holding a bouquet of flower in her hands. Undeniably, vday is a special occasion to express your love, but don't you think that receiving a flower on just any random day makes one elated and even happier? everyday can be vday as long as couples have each other in them.

Probably, the sweetest thing about vday is not so much on the luxurious gifts and passionate affection just on the day itself. I really admire old couples when they hold hands and walk together. The true test of love is full of skeptism and only time can reveal the so called undying love that one has previously pledged. I sincerely wish, when I grow old one day, my partner will continue to hold my little hand and walk me round the streets =) that's gonna be really sweet!

...

alright. it's 5.30am now. just had a 3hr of sleep and now I gotta face the harsh reality of life once more. ganbatte!

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

omg i feel like screaming at someone. my stress level is climbing again.

Thursday, February 12, 2009

Perhaps, sometimes I feel that I am being over sensitive towards things and towards people. It's tiring to constantly be on guard. I don't like this and I hope things wouldn't stay this way.

panda told me that there is a leader in every group, be it formally introduced or not. Maybe, subconsicously I took up that role and now, it is about involving people to work with me. yupp. I know I am a solo worker.. but it'll be good for a change sometime =)

ganbatte!

Saturday, February 07, 2009

haha ok.

I can be named the busiest woman on earth. woke up today and went to bt Timah plaza to meet justin =) It was quite a last minute decision so I decided to take a cab BUT somehow, I got no IDEA why Jalan Jurong Kechil Road AWLAYS JAM! that 300m road made the taxi meter jump from $6 to $10. OMG OMG OMG. -____________________-"

the worst thing was that I only had $3 in my wallet and had to ask justin to wait for me at the taxi stand. sorry!!

yes so we had a super quick lunch at pizza hut (yum yum!) and then I rushed down to ny. it was pretty crowded and I really miss this place a lot. walked up to level 3 but the band room was locked. haha. OKAY. yes. I was asked to make a speech and I was writing the specch when I was in the cab. Quite funny to make a speech in front of everyone coz I seriously doubt that Mdm Toh remembers me. didn't get to see most of my teachers coz they didn't come today. Halfway through, I saw Mr Law. OMG. what is he doing there? I seriously couldn't see the link. haha. alright, so his sons are studying in nyps. not too bad =)

I then made my way to their office and had a fruitful discussion. Following that I went to meet shuying! sorry that I was SUPER LATE coz I had a meeting! she waited for ck and me for close to an hour. SORRY!!

went to shuying's house and I must admit that shuying can cook! haha. she made grilled lemon chicken, salad and a australian dessert called pavola! haha. it's good! This is probably something that I cant do! wahaha~

realized that her parents are tsu chi volunteers and started talking to her father =)
ok. I then went to clementi to buy assessment book for my tuition before I made my way to my grandma's house! haha. by the time I reached, almost everyone left already.

yes! so I am finally back =) had a super long day! gonna support zz tmr =) good night all! =)

Thursday, February 05, 2009

happy birthday to my sister! =)

we made a birthday cake for her at jp yesterday!


heart is drawn by ME =)


the side! done by my brother n sister =)


tada! completed!

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

happy new year =)

it's time for more family bonding! Been visiting my grandfather quite frequently this few days. Hope that I can see him more and not regret only later on.

Haven't done any work for the past few days coz I simply don't feel like doing any. haha.

Sunday, January 25, 2009

Went out and saw someone holding a tissue packet that writes 'liu xing dong wu yuan' instead of 'liu xing hu yuan' and I managed to dig my CD out. I was onl p6 when I watched meteor garden! haha.. still remember that I was crazy over em last time by keeping all their posters and EVERYTHING that has got to do with F4 =)

here's a nice song..



Almost over you
I saw an old friend of our's today
She asked about you, i didn't quite know what to say
heard youv'e been making the rounds 'round here
while I've been trying to make tears disapear

Chorus:
Now Im almost over you
I've almost shook these blues
so when you come back around
after painting the town
you'll see im almost over you...

you're such a sly one with a cold cold heart
maybe leavin came easy, but it tore me apart
time heals all wounds they say and I should know
coz it seems like forever,
but im letting you go

(chorus)

I can forgive you and soon I'll forget all my shattered dreams
although you left me with nothing to show
but all misery

( chorus )

when you come back around, after painting the town,
you'll see im almost over you

Friday, January 23, 2009

3 more days to chinese new year. I realized I haven't been updating this blog for a very long time. Mm. As time passes, I realized that there are people out there who really care about me.

Alright! first of all, many have welcomed to the twenties club. haha. =) Despite so, I still insist that I am forever 19. heh. OKAY! I just came back from bugis and I would like to thank my KOR for birthday treat. Surprisingly, he nv fails to give me something for my birthday for the past few years. I have known him for 7 years already! gosh. I am glad to be his mei =) hehe. and of coz I love my dear shuyu da jie too! Thank you for being so wonderful and always taking good care of me everywhere I go. Thank you for ur necklace!

yupp! so we spent the whole dinner talking to each other - or rather, I was listening and laughing most of the time. haha. Hopefully, this friendship or 'kinship' will last. hehe.

had a super long day yesterday too. I don't really like school and after school I went to give tuition! =) I really enjoy teaching people.. and I definitely hope that the student can improve! haha. after tuition I went to chinatown to meet aunt alice. Felt really bad that I was really late for the meeting coz somehow the bus journey took quite some time and I had to make her wait for me. sorry! we went to eat mian xian and chatted non-stop. It was only then did I realized that her daughter is having O level this year and I was like OMG!!! her daughter was only sec 1 when I met alice. haha. It drawn upon me that we've kept in contact for 3 years already! =)o ya, talking about being late, I was late today also! coz of the stupid traffic jam. The bus was stuck for 20 mins at Bt timah and the jam was BAD =( zz, sy n their friend waited for me for like 45mins =X oh no! i will try to plan my time better next time. haha.

Met up with s10 last sunday and MET PECK YAN for the first time ever since A level ended. haha. we always say that we want to meet but we always couldn't find the time to meet up. Thank you for making the effort to join us =) hehe. hope you're doing fine!


group photo! cheng luan, wenqi, meiping, justin and me!


peck yan and me!


justin, cheng luan and meiping =)


Mmm..thank you all who remembered my birthday and tried to celebrate for me. Thank all for all yr birthday wishes as well! =) Just want you guys to know that you are all deeply appreciate!

yawns. good night all! tmr will be a better day I hope! =)

Thursday, January 15, 2009

i don't know why but somehow I don't feel good today. Went to class today and I somewhat realized that I am in a very very competitive environment. I AM DROWNING. I CAN'T BREATHE =(

God Bless me I guess. Went out with jiahao, bix n jo yesterday! thank you so much for celebrating my birthday. It was very nice of all of you. =) meet up soon again k!


Birthday Cake from emicakes! chocolate addiction! =) yummy!


bix, me and jiahao at clementi mrt station



trombone power!


group photo =) thank you guys!



Birthday cake from my mummy!


ice-cream cake!

I realized that for the past few days, quite a few have asked me out for dinner. Guess that these people are probably the ones who really treat me as a friend and i am sure these are the people that I will keep for life too =)

Somehow, i just gotta push myself. YES I WILL. I WILL NOT BOW DOWN TO ANY OBSTACLE IN FRONT OF ME. IM GONNA CONQUER IT.

Monday, January 12, 2009

Somehow, I hated the world today. I hate the harsh reality of life and I really don't have the energy to compete or handle everything anymore.

Tired.

There's just so much that I want to say..

Sunday, January 11, 2009

tired tired!

had a great day out yesterday! happy birthday panda! =)


Panda's birthday Cake!


nice right?

went to chinatown today with my brother to do some cny shopping even though I am supposed to be studying. OH NO.

managed to switch my Business Law class. Though I still can't get a 3 day week but hey! I got a good teacher and that should be worth the time and effort going to school for just that tutorial. haha.

okay. I need to find one more elective else my timetable is too slack already. God bless!

Wednesday, January 07, 2009

hectic days!

School started yesterday and saw friends that I haven't seen for a few months. It's great seeing all of them! =) I waited for my elective to start and after one hour, I turned to my friend and said: "HEY IM LEAVING. This elective really isn't for me"

haha.. yes. and so I dropped it. Shall do without electives this sem then =) yumin came to ntu today and it was great seeing her. though she didn't stay for long, I managed to call her and we talked for 2 hours? There's just so much to tell her everytime we meet! I love her! =) and I know SHE LOVES ME TOO =) hehe.

Okay. Anyway! I am really happy today!

I went back nj with my senior and we saw Mr Ho along the way! haha. I was HEARTBROKEN when I saw that the trombones are not taken care of properly and that they are lying around everywhere. Goodness! What happened! I mean, it is basic respect and love that a musician should have towards his instrument. I always remember how last time my section will take v good care of everything! (ok, probably coz I was a v fussy SL) but still, it hurts me to see dents and rust on my beloved trombones!

I found my instrument in a soft case. Why didn't they keep it in the hard case? I took the trombone and went out to play. haha. I almost couldn't remember how long ago it was when I last took it. When I tried playing, my lips was quite painful. My embrouchure is probably gone =) hehe.. checked w jh that the last time I played was in March 2008 and that was only for ten mins! and know what? I have got no stamina already =( sad that I could barely hold 4 counts initially and my volume was pathetically SMALL. it was tiring to get the sound back! haha and as usual, I needed LOTS OF TIME to warm up.

o ya, one more thing! the slide was horrible! haha!! the moment we took the instrument out, my senior and I were busily cleaning the slide and to our HORROR, the scare resources at nj freaked me out. We used to have a lot of slide oil, cream, grease but now, almost all bottles are empty and they are lying around everywhere as well! *disappointed with the current QM*

and so we got called back to band room. eng kwan, zhe yi, jiahao, qisheng and I went in to play. I wasn't ready at all! but heck, I just went in for fun. haha. played a song titled 'with hearts and voices' and I find it pretty interesting! I mis-pitched many notes and I couldn't sight-read at all. haha. AS USUAL. I am SUPER SLOW when it comes to sight-reading.. Bi xiu!!! where are you!! I miss you!!

Towards the end of band prac, I felt really good coz my tone came back! My volume is not there so I probably need to go run more to exercise my lung muscle! wahah =D Had a long conversation with Mr Ho. Just hope that he will take care of his body! don't overwork alright! many many people are concerned about you and your health condition.

haha. due to my playfulness, I realized that I am running late for lesson. I was still at nj when it was already 1.40pm and that my lesson starts at 2.30pm. WHY IS N TU SO ISOLATED AND DESERTED!! >.<

took bus to boon lay and cab to school. it was halfway through the journey and I RANDOMLY asked the driver if he takes NETS and he said no! *faints* I told him I only had 5 bucks w me and he said it's enough. haha. the cab totaled to 5.20 but he charged me only 5. Thank you! =)

bought financial calculator and went for the TERRIFYING FM lesson. IT'S REALLY SLOW and hard to keep myself awake. had dinner w xinyi and subsequently saw my dearest DA JIE! we went home together and had talked non-stop BUT the stupid me did a Stupid thing. When I got down the bus I tapped my card, only to realize that it's another ez-link card and so I PAID THE FARE TWICE. oh my! why Why wHY WHY am I so stupid >.<
rah!

haha. ended the day by going to my aunt house and chat with her for hours as well. I am a chatterbox! I should really stop talking so much anymore. Too noisy! oops.

Told someone off today and I felt really proud of myself. Don't push me around coz you're not someone who deserves my kind attention and help.

yupp!! YAWNS. good night all!

Tuesday, January 06, 2009

it's the start of a new school term! Don't like studying! can't wait to go back nj tmr to play =)

Monday, January 05, 2009

Really irritated by the registration system! *ROARS*
wonder if I can get the classes that I want..

Sigh.

AND, I DROPPED MY HAIR CLIP THAT MY MUMMY BOUGHT FOR ME.. sad! It's a very simple but v elegant hair clip. I remember buying it with her and we chose the colourful gems instead of single colour one =( I really like the hair clip a lot a lot..

School's finally starting tmr for me. GANBATTE!

Saturday, January 03, 2009

=)

had the first meal of the year at break through cafe at chinawtown. This cafe was opened by Christians and all its employees are all ex-offenders. Sometimes I am glad that God gave these people a second chance to live their life again. I am sure that each of them has a unspoken chapter of their life where they've learnt the harsh reality of life..

Yupp! the dim sum there is really good and it's very affordable with no GST n Service charge. haha. It reminded me of my working days where he came all the way down to accompany me for lunch. Thank you for taking time out to accompany me for that pathetic 1 hr lunch break =)

haha.. as we walked around people's park, I was trying to look for a new shirt for my dad. He hasn't bought a new shirt for years and I felt guilty for buying new clothes so often. towards the end of the day, I finally found one shirt that he likes. yay! =) wear that for cny k!

chinatown is hot and crowded and the roads were blocked off today because they're having a rehearsal for the actual performance! it's pretty interesting to see little girls dressed up for the occasion and bouncing around the stage. hah.

and for goodness sake.. please don't tramautize me anymore. I am really scared of them. I don't understand why people eat them but I am really afraid of them! don't mention their name anymore! I. am. scared. =(

alright. walked to central and I felt really sad. so many tenants left the place, making the whole place look very deserted. I wonder how the other shops are going to survive! GOSH.

sigh. I don't want school to start..

...

Thursday, January 01, 2009

the start of a new year! =)

So many more things to do. I wonder how hectic life would be for the next few months. haha.

alright! all the best to everyone!