Tuesday, December 11, 2007
HELLO EVERYONE!
I am back here again because there is this sudden urge to blog. Ever since I ended my last paper on 21st nov, I have stayed at home fully only on 6th dec. In other word, I spent almost every single day out =)
I listened to saga candida and it reminded me of many njcsb people. ok! Since I lost the skill of writing lengthy essays, I shall write down things that I have done during the hols that are more significant..
Although Jc seemed to be the worst in my life, I have learnt pretty much and I seriously want to thank mei ping, wen qi and justin for making my days during the two horrendous years. couldn't quite imagine how bad my life can be without them. Mm. we went to celebrate mp's bdae yersterday at mind cafe! it was a super early celebration coz I am leaving sg soon. we had fun! and i like the UGLY UGYLY card game. haha. we had to hit the UGLY monsters upon seeing 3 identical cards and I collected the most number of cards. WAHAHA! n it's funnny seeing mp n wq's SloW reaction during e game =) Mm. Justin is going to ns soon. and so it means that I will not be able to meet him..
another event would be the escape outing! for once, 8 ppl attended the class outing organized by me! n wq! yuanyuan mp wq weixing yuxing kp n justin came. I was quite excited coz I have nv been to escape though it has opened for 7 years already! heh.Go cart was quite dumb coz I didn't know how to accelerate initially and mp overtook me just like that! so I am like a small turtle crawling behind. heh. n wq's vehicle got banged by someone n she was stuck. e guys had no problem though! yupp! it was a memorable day and I met many people, esp those from ny.
grad night went past just like that as well. spent quite a lot of money though! I was quite happy initially until someone said something. o well. I remembered our senior's grad night in 2006. Somehow, I just can't help but to recall the past. Anyway, the hotel room has yy mp wq justin shuming n me! after the dinner we played cards n then decided to take a walk outside. For some weird reason I was super high the entire night and can be crowned to be the most hyped up person of the night. I guess that I was too noisy but heck. heh. we walked to esplanade, passed fullerton, sch and eventually reached lau pa sat. it reminded me of SYF 07. justin bought carrot cake n fried kway teow while jh bought sugar cane. it's quite a scene to see 8ppl sitting in a circle at 3am to eat ( and I think the chilli that night was the root cause for my cough now!) we then went back to the hotel n slept a little while before wq mp n I went to shop at raffles city with our watery eyes to buy banana biscuit and guava fruit juice proudly sponsored by wq. o! and the hotel room has a balcony which gives a bird's eye view in that area. I like the feeling of the wind brushing against my face. Staring blankly ahead, how I wished that time will pause coz I dont my life to change again.
njcsb had farewell dinner at mr ho's house on 9th dec. somehow we just got to bring friends along with us as we grow and move forward. not many turned up but it was a rather simple n dedicated dinner.
I went east coast park with HELP people to cycle. the turn out rate was SUPER DUPER BAD. we cycled in the rain and to the obs campus in which the HELP camp was held this year! Due to the rainy season, it started to rain immediately after we got our bikes >.< we went ahead nonetheless. I could feel the minute raindrop entering my eyes and that my eyes squinted. I like to see how little raindrops land on the wet ground and then slowly disappear, leaving a trace mark everywhere. Same goes for the sea. Ripples followed and wave currents superimpose to give the sea surface a wavery shape n figure. haha. for the trees, rain tickled down, giving a frosty image =) Don't you think that rain can be beautiful as well? The misty effect makes one's eyesight blur, allowing one to immerse herself in her own world..
yupp! so that's all about my jc life =)
secondary sch
i met up w my dear ym! I like talking to her n we spent one whole day at bbdc because we forgot to bring our IC out. LOUSY!!! nycb batch 05 met up on 2dec as well. ym, aiwen, elissa, jac, yasi, margaret and quin turned up. we simply spent the entire day at new york new york eating n chatting. Some people never change but it's good to know how everyone is doing. heh. QUIN! though i met you for a short while, I always feel comfortable with you around no matter what happens.
after meeting them, I went town to shop with jusin n alvin =)
haven't got the time to meet up w 2/4 peeps. sorry!
4/10 outing's gonna be on 26th dec. hope that i can make it! =D
primary school
guess what? 12 turned up for pri sch gathering. it's AMAZING. kenneth ng, kangdi, zq, nic, jinghui, wenshu, peiwen, xiaojie, ji yue n charmaine attended. this impromptu outing was held at eugene's house. thank you for hosting us! We didn't do much. just played cards such as monopoly n dai dee! n we had fun taking pictures with eugene's mac book. yay! it's great having them around for years =) special thanks goes to kenneth, zq n eugene =) thanks for always remembering me..
the year is coming to an end n I wonder how things will change next year again.Shall be optimistic den =) lastly, to this special person, I just want you to know that you're someone important to me. I will try my best to hold on. you too k!
I am back here again because there is this sudden urge to blog. Ever since I ended my last paper on 21st nov, I have stayed at home fully only on 6th dec. In other word, I spent almost every single day out =)
I listened to saga candida and it reminded me of many njcsb people. ok! Since I lost the skill of writing lengthy essays, I shall write down things that I have done during the hols that are more significant..
Although Jc seemed to be the worst in my life, I have learnt pretty much and I seriously want to thank mei ping, wen qi and justin for making my days during the two horrendous years. couldn't quite imagine how bad my life can be without them. Mm. we went to celebrate mp's bdae yersterday at mind cafe! it was a super early celebration coz I am leaving sg soon. we had fun! and i like the UGLY UGYLY card game. haha. we had to hit the UGLY monsters upon seeing 3 identical cards and I collected the most number of cards. WAHAHA! n it's funnny seeing mp n wq's SloW reaction during e game =) Mm. Justin is going to ns soon. and so it means that I will not be able to meet him..
another event would be the escape outing! for once, 8 ppl attended the class outing organized by me! n wq! yuanyuan mp wq weixing yuxing kp n justin came. I was quite excited coz I have nv been to escape though it has opened for 7 years already! heh.Go cart was quite dumb coz I didn't know how to accelerate initially and mp overtook me just like that! so I am like a small turtle crawling behind. heh. n wq's vehicle got banged by someone n she was stuck. e guys had no problem though! yupp! it was a memorable day and I met many people, esp those from ny.
grad night went past just like that as well. spent quite a lot of money though! I was quite happy initially until someone said something. o well. I remembered our senior's grad night in 2006. Somehow, I just can't help but to recall the past. Anyway, the hotel room has yy mp wq justin shuming n me! after the dinner we played cards n then decided to take a walk outside. For some weird reason I was super high the entire night and can be crowned to be the most hyped up person of the night. I guess that I was too noisy but heck. heh. we walked to esplanade, passed fullerton, sch and eventually reached lau pa sat. it reminded me of SYF 07. justin bought carrot cake n fried kway teow while jh bought sugar cane. it's quite a scene to see 8ppl sitting in a circle at 3am to eat ( and I think the chilli that night was the root cause for my cough now!) we then went back to the hotel n slept a little while before wq mp n I went to shop at raffles city with our watery eyes to buy banana biscuit and guava fruit juice proudly sponsored by wq. o! and the hotel room has a balcony which gives a bird's eye view in that area. I like the feeling of the wind brushing against my face. Staring blankly ahead, how I wished that time will pause coz I dont my life to change again.
njcsb had farewell dinner at mr ho's house on 9th dec. somehow we just got to bring friends along with us as we grow and move forward. not many turned up but it was a rather simple n dedicated dinner.
I went east coast park with HELP people to cycle. the turn out rate was SUPER DUPER BAD. we cycled in the rain and to the obs campus in which the HELP camp was held this year! Due to the rainy season, it started to rain immediately after we got our bikes >.< we went ahead nonetheless. I could feel the minute raindrop entering my eyes and that my eyes squinted. I like to see how little raindrops land on the wet ground and then slowly disappear, leaving a trace mark everywhere. Same goes for the sea. Ripples followed and wave currents superimpose to give the sea surface a wavery shape n figure. haha. for the trees, rain tickled down, giving a frosty image =) Don't you think that rain can be beautiful as well? The misty effect makes one's eyesight blur, allowing one to immerse herself in her own world..
yupp! so that's all about my jc life =)
secondary sch
i met up w my dear ym! I like talking to her n we spent one whole day at bbdc because we forgot to bring our IC out. LOUSY!!! nycb batch 05 met up on 2dec as well. ym, aiwen, elissa, jac, yasi, margaret and quin turned up. we simply spent the entire day at new york new york eating n chatting. Some people never change but it's good to know how everyone is doing. heh. QUIN! though i met you for a short while, I always feel comfortable with you around no matter what happens.
after meeting them, I went town to shop with jusin n alvin =)
haven't got the time to meet up w 2/4 peeps. sorry!
4/10 outing's gonna be on 26th dec. hope that i can make it! =D
primary school
guess what? 12 turned up for pri sch gathering. it's AMAZING. kenneth ng, kangdi, zq, nic, jinghui, wenshu, peiwen, xiaojie, ji yue n charmaine attended. this impromptu outing was held at eugene's house. thank you for hosting us! We didn't do much. just played cards such as monopoly n dai dee! n we had fun taking pictures with eugene's mac book. yay! it's great having them around for years =) special thanks goes to kenneth, zq n eugene =) thanks for always remembering me..
the year is coming to an end n I wonder how things will change next year again.Shall be optimistic den =) lastly, to this special person, I just want you to know that you're someone important to me. I will try my best to hold on. you too k!
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
i don't understand. i don't understand. I REALLY don't understand.
one moment you may be someone's world and the next moment, you could jolly well be the most hated person.
I think that I am immuned. Somehow i still prefer to be oblivious for ignorant is bliss. haha.
alright. been having lots of fun recently =)somehow i wish that i can freeze time n let all the beautiful memories stay..
one moment you may be someone's world and the next moment, you could jolly well be the most hated person.
I think that I am immuned. Somehow i still prefer to be oblivious for ignorant is bliss. haha.
alright. been having lots of fun recently =)somehow i wish that i can freeze time n let all the beautiful memories stay..
Thursday, November 08, 2007
Been missing in action for quite some time. To those who care about me, just wanna tell you that I am doing fine. A's started and it will end someday soon. haha.
Somehow I am not sure of how I am going to embrace whatever's coming my way but what I do know is that there are certain group of people and things that I will hold dearly to. Let's just hope that my life wouldn't have another 360 degree change again. Looking back now, jc is really a period of time where people change the most -for the better or for the worse.
went to kap to study today! couldn't really absorb anymore coz I thiink that I am a little saturated and I can't wait for the whole exam period to end. Mm. I saw someone I know at kap but that person didn't see me. Seeing people always triggers certain memories.
o and I read national geographic the other day and it described why and how people keep memories with them. When certain issue causes someone to have very strong emotions entailed within, this memory will be stored vividly inside the brain. They are etched so deeply such that the recollection of these memories will evoke the inner emotions of one.
Mmm.. isn't that interesting?
how often do people want to hold on to memories? and how often do people even bother about what exactly memories are? is it just a segment of life that people encounter or is there something more than that? Do we get to choose what we want to remember and what we want to forget?
haha. I do not wish to think. alright! i am gonna study now.
p.s. Quiny if you're reading this, i just wanna say thanks for always being around! i love you! =) study hard for your exams and we shall meet someday soon alright?
Somehow I am not sure of how I am going to embrace whatever's coming my way but what I do know is that there are certain group of people and things that I will hold dearly to. Let's just hope that my life wouldn't have another 360 degree change again. Looking back now, jc is really a period of time where people change the most -for the better or for the worse.
went to kap to study today! couldn't really absorb anymore coz I thiink that I am a little saturated and I can't wait for the whole exam period to end. Mm. I saw someone I know at kap but that person didn't see me. Seeing people always triggers certain memories.
o and I read national geographic the other day and it described why and how people keep memories with them. When certain issue causes someone to have very strong emotions entailed within, this memory will be stored vividly inside the brain. They are etched so deeply such that the recollection of these memories will evoke the inner emotions of one.
Mmm.. isn't that interesting?
how often do people want to hold on to memories? and how often do people even bother about what exactly memories are? is it just a segment of life that people encounter or is there something more than that? Do we get to choose what we want to remember and what we want to forget?
haha. I do not wish to think. alright! i am gonna study now.
p.s. Quiny if you're reading this, i just wanna say thanks for always being around! i love you! =) study hard for your exams and we shall meet someday soon alright?
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
I have had many many dreams. Every time I fall asleep, something will just appear in my mind. 2 nights ago, I dreamt that I was crying in my dream. I thought that it was real but when I woke up and pondered, I convinced myself that that will not happen in reality. And I am quite sure of that.
ok. 19 more days. I need to unwind. everyone's getting tensed up. oh shrugs. >.<
had 4.5hours of physics lecture today. and the air condition wasn't on. can anyone imagine how bad the situation is?
alright. tt's all for now.
ok. 19 more days. I need to unwind. everyone's getting tensed up. oh shrugs. >.<
had 4.5hours of physics lecture today. and the air condition wasn't on. can anyone imagine how bad the situation is?
alright. tt's all for now.
Wednesday, October 03, 2007
Monday, September 24, 2007
I believe that good samaritans exist in this world and sometimes we live in a world that encompasses fate, luck and belief.
whatever that has happened to me during the past 24 hours served to be a testament to my lack of competency and how I am living my life in bewilderment.
I was appalled by my own actions.
there isn't time for me to idle around.. there really isn't.
whatever that has happened to me during the past 24 hours served to be a testament to my lack of competency and how I am living my life in bewilderment.
I was appalled by my own actions.
there isn't time for me to idle around.. there really isn't.
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
不知道为什么，可能是太无聊了，所以总需要一个地方能让我发泄。。
近期，学业似乎成为了我生活里非常重要的一份，生命也就从此转化成了一卷录音带。从天皇的破晓和黎明的到来到午夜的降临，有时候觉得自己是一台机器。这样的生活能持续吗？
不知不觉中，菜妈妈的影子突然出现在我脑海里。记得两年前的我非常厌倦上她的课，因为我觉得上华文课即浪费时间又没又益处。对于她每天的努力，我却以无动于衷的态度来回应。我从来都未能了解她到底从哪里得来那么多精力。即使功课在多，压里在大，她总是以百折不饶的生命价值观面对了问题和所有障碍。
和我相比，我恰似比她逊色很多很多。真不知道她近来是否还别来无恙。
时间不留人，恰是一漂江水向东流 －这句子好象是从名人得来的。我懵懵懂懂地过了好多年，有时候真不懂自己在追求什么。彷徨的跟在人群中，我遗失了自己。对于生命的点点滴滴，我已不在地过于是是非非了，想往的却是简单的生活。这应该不算太过分吧。
刚刚在一个人的网站看到了这句子：
" 生命的活力來自一種執著堅定的信念 , 若僅僅追求生活的安逸 , 活著無非是一個等待死亡的過程 ."
事实是这样吗？安逸的日子难道不好吗？
不管怎样，人总是须要鼓起勇气去面对生命里所为我们设下的种种障碍罢。或许，唯有在面对了问题后，一个人才会从中长大。。
近期，学业似乎成为了我生活里非常重要的一份，生命也就从此转化成了一卷录音带。从天皇的破晓和黎明的到来到午夜的降临，有时候觉得自己是一台机器。这样的生活能持续吗？
不知不觉中，菜妈妈的影子突然出现在我脑海里。记得两年前的我非常厌倦上她的课，因为我觉得上华文课即浪费时间又没又益处。对于她每天的努力，我却以无动于衷的态度来回应。我从来都未能了解她到底从哪里得来那么多精力。即使功课在多，压里在大，她总是以百折不饶的生命价值观面对了问题和所有障碍。
和我相比，我恰似比她逊色很多很多。真不知道她近来是否还别来无恙。
时间不留人，恰是一漂江水向东流 －这句子好象是从名人得来的。我懵懵懂懂地过了好多年，有时候真不懂自己在追求什么。彷徨的跟在人群中，我遗失了自己。对于生命的点点滴滴，我已不在地过于是是非非了，想往的却是简单的生活。这应该不算太过分吧。
刚刚在一个人的网站看到了这句子：
" 生命的活力來自一種執著堅定的信念 , 若僅僅追求生活的安逸 , 活著無非是一個等待死亡的過程 ."
事实是这样吗？安逸的日子难道不好吗？
不管怎样，人总是须要鼓起勇气去面对生命里所为我们设下的种种障碍罢。或许，唯有在面对了问题后，一个人才会从中长大。。
Saturday, September 15, 2007
Friday, September 14, 2007
Monday, September 10, 2007
Perhaps, sometimes we humans just got to learn how to respect each other in life. The key to maintaining social ties with anyone is to be able to communicate with each other and comprehend each other's needs.. Why is it that some people are just so stubborn and ignorant? Wouldn't things be fine if every one takes a step back?
haha.. this is again a never emding story.
and that's probably why sometimes I would rather choose to remain silent. Leave things as they are and someday all the rights and wrongs will fade away. The imprint that was left on our minds will probably be too insignificant for anyone to pursue the matter anymore then..
back to reality.
I do not wish to confront the truth. I pray that things will go fine, for me and for everyone else =)
haha.. this is again a never emding story.
and that's probably why sometimes I would rather choose to remain silent. Leave things as they are and someday all the rights and wrongs will fade away. The imprint that was left on our minds will probably be too insignificant for anyone to pursue the matter anymore then..
back to reality.
I do not wish to confront the truth. I pray that things will go fine, for me and for everyone else =)
Sunday, September 02, 2007
i hate you. i hate you. i hate you.
Images of you keep appearing. Why is it that things just won't disappear.. certain things are seared onto my mind deeply and somehow I just can't erase them. People keep telling me things about you though I don't even have the SLIGHTEST interest to know at all.. pls go away.
I should be studying. in fact I am studying. I seem to be drowned in this timeless dimension where I lost touch with time.. I have got no idea how things work and how thay are supposed to work. will anyone tell me how to live my life? I am quite sick of studying. even though my life now is rather relaxed with no extra burdens to worry about.
came back from chalet yesterday. it was quite fun coz a super big family gathering and I was bbq-ing until my eyes became teary. time simply flies! Why do people grow old? and how exactly do people commit to each other - giving each other their blessing and trusting each other?
kinship, friendship, love r/s all have an intangible relationships with trust; which is difficult to find and hard to sustain. Mm.
ok! my dad is coming back tmr. i miss him! really miss him lots! I am glad that he will be back soon..
Images of you keep appearing. Why is it that things just won't disappear.. certain things are seared onto my mind deeply and somehow I just can't erase them. People keep telling me things about you though I don't even have the SLIGHTEST interest to know at all.. pls go away.
I should be studying. in fact I am studying. I seem to be drowned in this timeless dimension where I lost touch with time.. I have got no idea how things work and how thay are supposed to work. will anyone tell me how to live my life? I am quite sick of studying. even though my life now is rather relaxed with no extra burdens to worry about.
came back from chalet yesterday. it was quite fun coz a super big family gathering and I was bbq-ing until my eyes became teary. time simply flies! Why do people grow old? and how exactly do people commit to each other - giving each other their blessing and trusting each other?
kinship, friendship, love r/s all have an intangible relationships with trust; which is difficult to find and hard to sustain. Mm.
ok! my dad is coming back tmr. i miss him! really miss him lots! I am glad that he will be back soon..
Tuesday, August 21, 2007
I have been getting weird dreams very lately. I dreamt of almost every single person that are still part of my current life. Is this a blessing in disguise? Or is there a hidden agenda that awaits me to deal with it? Mm. No idea. I seem to be questioning my own thoughts.
O. I dreamt of Rochelle last night. This is REALLY RANDOM. I dreamt of nycb trombone section where we played Fate of the Gods. Someone please stop me from thinking so much.
I think that I am getting tensed up. Things are getting beyond my control and frequent headaches are drving me crazy. *ouch*
O. I dreamt of Rochelle last night. This is REALLY RANDOM. I dreamt of nycb trombone section where we played Fate of the Gods. Someone please stop me from thinking so much.
I think that I am getting tensed up. Things are getting beyond my control and frequent headaches are drving me crazy. *ouch*
Sunday, August 19, 2007
Sunday, August 12, 2007
Sunday, August 05, 2007
This is the trombone section. I think we rawk =)
me with Sheryl AND Cheryl. haha. both are wonderful juniors =)
the most hilarious photo. kakeru and julian. prom king and best dressed 2006. x)
ok. above are some photos from v night.
Someone please keep me off the comp. ask me to go and study. I think that I have been slacking =(
Friday, August 03, 2007
I think that I am a naughty girl today. I pon physics lecture and chem make up and stayed in the band room. crapped a lot with carmen and I find it very relaxing staying inside.. O and one achievement of the day: I managed to help carmen cream her slide and it's SO MUCH smoother now. haha. please be GRATEFUL to me. =) I certaintly do live up to being the most fussy person when it comes to the slide.
It draws upon me that emotions are evanescent; but is this really true? As we grow older, our perception of life has changed. We do not fantasize that much anymore. We are more receptive and will tend to embrace whatever that is coming our way with a more positive feel.
perhaps that's part of growing?
I wonder how it feels to be a kid; where innocence overwhelm everything else and that vehement enthusiasm adds a glow to one's life..
It draws upon me that emotions are evanescent; but is this really true? As we grow older, our perception of life has changed. We do not fantasize that much anymore. We are more receptive and will tend to embrace whatever that is coming our way with a more positive feel.
perhaps that's part of growing?
I wonder how it feels to be a kid; where innocence overwhelm everything else and that vehement enthusiasm adds a glow to one's life..
Thursday, August 02, 2007
hello everyone.
many things happened this week. I think I have very bad mood swings and I PMS like crazy. This always happens and I apologise for this. Mmm.. but one thing I realize is that whenever I PMS, my friends will notice it. mm. thanks meiping for ur concern! you've been very sensitive and you never fail to recognise the change in my mood. =)) haha my laopo rawks!!
That day I pondered and reflected a lot. so much so that I had headache and I really wished that I could find a place to hide myself from the world and ignore everything else. Someone said something to me and I realized that what the person said did make sense. What has caused the change in me? .. Mm.. I have got completely no idea.. It struck me too suddenly. I couldn't think..
.. on a side note,
I know that you read this blog. It's really time for you to let go.. give yourself a new start..
many things happened this week. I think I have very bad mood swings and I PMS like crazy. This always happens and I apologise for this. Mmm.. but one thing I realize is that whenever I PMS, my friends will notice it. mm. thanks meiping for ur concern! you've been very sensitive and you never fail to recognise the change in my mood. =)) haha my laopo rawks!!
That day I pondered and reflected a lot. so much so that I had headache and I really wished that I could find a place to hide myself from the world and ignore everything else. Someone said something to me and I realized that what the person said did make sense. What has caused the change in me? .. Mm.. I have got completely no idea.. It struck me too suddenly. I couldn't think..
.. on a side note,
I know that you read this blog. It's really time for you to let go.. give yourself a new start..
Friday, July 27, 2007
the evolution of a robot
I am feeling so drained. non-stop lesson from morning till late evening. so many tutorials and revision packages to adhere to. IM GOING BONKERS. rah! let me scream..
AAARRRRGGGGGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!
mY Life is getting so mechanical. a few more months to go! i cannot let go and give up just like that. No. I won't. I need to find the strength to move on..
anyway! I am really tired. my eye bags are getting more and more obvious.. not exactly due to the lack of sleep but more of sleeping disorder. =(
Today was njco concert. i went to V hall. so many memories entailed. haha. what a night. I met many many people that I haven't met since last year. and xinling! nice seeing you. you look good =) stay strong and you'll pull through and overcome all the obstacles. haha. yuxing! my yx companion. u didn't change much but you're forever quarrelling with liting as usual.
ok. co concert. the last concert that I will attend. nice one overall. =)there are actually many good players inside. o and i saw jr's wife. looks as pretty as her wedding photos. smiles.
good night. i am so gonna K.O.
AAARRRRGGGGGHHHHHHHHH!!!!!
mY Life is getting so mechanical. a few more months to go! i cannot let go and give up just like that. No. I won't. I need to find the strength to move on..
anyway! I am really tired. my eye bags are getting more and more obvious.. not exactly due to the lack of sleep but more of sleeping disorder. =(
Today was njco concert. i went to V hall. so many memories entailed. haha. what a night. I met many many people that I haven't met since last year. and xinling! nice seeing you. you look good =) stay strong and you'll pull through and overcome all the obstacles. haha. yuxing! my yx companion. u didn't change much but you're forever quarrelling with liting as usual.
ok. co concert. the last concert that I will attend. nice one overall. =)there are actually many good players inside. o and i saw jr's wife. looks as pretty as her wedding photos. smiles.
good night. i am so gonna K.O.
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
Monday, July 23, 2007
etude XXXII finally came to a close last night. everything happened too fast. it was hard to believe. Last year we were at the esplanade holding etude and this year it was at the conference hall. I really couldn't figure how I should really feel. I felt really calm on the way there. It's my 6th concert, and my last concert.
anyway! the silly me screwed the front part =( Mmm. Internal Combustion sounded good! It's brought back memories during the syf period. The endless hours of practises and the way all of us were drowned in the sea of work. Feeling hapless and lost about everything. It's probably something to remember for life as well. Stage band rawked the stage last night too! special thanks to josephine and nicholas for making it possible.
I played the second half with zest. making sure that every effort has been paid off. I know that everything was going to end and I glued my eyes to the conductor. I don't get much chance playing in a band, under the same conductor again. I don't wish the same thing to happen again. =)
Off we went with our encore pieces. We brought the whole house down. WE DID. everyone enjoyed Instant Concert. And I fell in love with the piece as well. Not forgetting jap graff IV. so much emotions entailed in the piece. I could feel a mixture of feelings surging within me. yes. I played the last note of the night with all my might. I just didn't want to let it go..
below are some photos I took! these are the people that I really love and treasure. a pity that yumin left early..
njcsb trombone 2007. GIRLS POWER!
anyway! the silly me screwed the front part =( Mmm. Internal Combustion sounded good! It's brought back memories during the syf period. The endless hours of practises and the way all of us were drowned in the sea of work. Feeling hapless and lost about everything. It's probably something to remember for life as well. Stage band rawked the stage last night too! special thanks to josephine and nicholas for making it possible.
I played the second half with zest. making sure that every effort has been paid off. I know that everything was going to end and I glued my eyes to the conductor. I don't get much chance playing in a band, under the same conductor again. I don't wish the same thing to happen again. =)
Off we went with our encore pieces. We brought the whole house down. WE DID. everyone enjoyed Instant Concert. And I fell in love with the piece as well. Not forgetting jap graff IV. so much emotions entailed in the piece. I could feel a mixture of feelings surging within me. yes. I played the last note of the night with all my might. I just didn't want to let it go..
below are some photos I took! these are the people that I really love and treasure. a pity that yumin left early..
njcsb trombone 2007. GIRLS POWER!
me and wenqi with the flower from her, mp and py! thanks! ( and i think wq looks pretty in the photo! I saw py's photo with kakeru and she looks sexy. haha. but i didn't get to see her.. Mmm )
cheryl and harry! I seriously think that my mortal became v shuai! hahaha..and they look really sweet, don't you think so? thanks mortal for supporting me for the past 2 years! yes! you rawk! take care and I will see you, urm I don't know when =)
Justin, tong hai, kian pang and jimmy! thanks for coming =) hope tt u guys enjoyed the concert!
eunice joanne chokwan. my beloved darlings. I love all of you =) *hugs*
wenqi, justin and kp! 06s10! =)
This was the surprise of the night. My very qian bian senior actually did sth really sweet for the whole section. Thanks KARWAI!
Friday, July 20, 2007
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
I remember vividly the first day when he stepped into the classroom. I hated him. He didn't make sense and I could remember myself cursing after the class..
But now, he seemed to be one teacher that I will look for. It's just amazing how he keeps in contact with almost everyone, being a mentor, or rather just a friend to all of us.
met 2 teachers today. and I really miss them =) they're forever still so concerned about us even though we have graduated for quite some time. Simple words that they say can serve to be a source of motivation for us. yes. 4more months to go. we can't let in go just like that.
Mm. why is it that some people are so emotionally dependent on others? isn't it tiring? It seems as if one's mind is being manipulated by others but the truth is that the uncertainty that one feels is often the reason why they seek comfort in others. Does it make sense?
The world is complicated..
But now, he seemed to be one teacher that I will look for. It's just amazing how he keeps in contact with almost everyone, being a mentor, or rather just a friend to all of us.
met 2 teachers today. and I really miss them =) they're forever still so concerned about us even though we have graduated for quite some time. Simple words that they say can serve to be a source of motivation for us. yes. 4more months to go. we can't let in go just like that.
Mm. why is it that some people are so emotionally dependent on others? isn't it tiring? It seems as if one's mind is being manipulated by others but the truth is that the uncertainty that one feels is often the reason why they seek comfort in others. Does it make sense?
The world is complicated..
Monday, July 16, 2007
HELLO EVERYONE!
6 more days to my last concert. I am quite sure that this will be my last and njcsb will definitely rawk the stage. Despite spending so much time in band during my jc life, band is what I hold dearly to. The band room is a place where I will roam about when I got nothing to do in school. It provided me a space to hide myself from the rest of the world when I wanted to be alone. It is where I indulge myself in the world of music and meet people who have the burning passion for music! I love trombone! I love my section =)
I almost never did grumble about nj band taking much of my time. In fact, I never regreted re-entering band world.. It gave me a life. Exposed me to many things and undeniably, I have met friends that I would have otherwise missed if not for band. my life in nj is closely knitted to band, band and more band.
It feels really weird to play for this concert coz it's the last school concert that is left for the remaining journey. I enjoy every single moment of it. I know it has to be the best. And I will make it the best =) 6 more days. I don't know how time will just flash pass once more. No matter what, I am still proud to be a band member.. it's something that I will carry with me for the rest of my life.. memories will not fade with the tickling of time.. in fact it will be remembered.
for those who are playing this concert as your first ever full public concert, give it your best shot okay! your seniors are really leaving very soon. After which njcsb will change a new face.. njcsb syf 2007 will never be back again. and for all my batch ppl, band is where we all came from. Music is what makes us cross each other's path in our lives.. I am glad to have met all of you and that we once shared a segment of our lives making music. you guys will be remembered.
k! that's all. rawk on guys! we're gonna bring the whole house down on 22nd July!
6 more days to my last concert. I am quite sure that this will be my last and njcsb will definitely rawk the stage. Despite spending so much time in band during my jc life, band is what I hold dearly to. The band room is a place where I will roam about when I got nothing to do in school. It provided me a space to hide myself from the rest of the world when I wanted to be alone. It is where I indulge myself in the world of music and meet people who have the burning passion for music! I love trombone! I love my section =)
I almost never did grumble about nj band taking much of my time. In fact, I never regreted re-entering band world.. It gave me a life. Exposed me to many things and undeniably, I have met friends that I would have otherwise missed if not for band. my life in nj is closely knitted to band, band and more band.
It feels really weird to play for this concert coz it's the last school concert that is left for the remaining journey. I enjoy every single moment of it. I know it has to be the best. And I will make it the best =) 6 more days. I don't know how time will just flash pass once more. No matter what, I am still proud to be a band member.. it's something that I will carry with me for the rest of my life.. memories will not fade with the tickling of time.. in fact it will be remembered.
for those who are playing this concert as your first ever full public concert, give it your best shot okay! your seniors are really leaving very soon. After which njcsb will change a new face.. njcsb syf 2007 will never be back again. and for all my batch ppl, band is where we all came from. Music is what makes us cross each other's path in our lives.. I am glad to have met all of you and that we once shared a segment of our lives making music. you guys will be remembered.
k! that's all. rawk on guys! we're gonna bring the whole house down on 22nd July!
Thursday, July 12, 2007
Sunday, July 08, 2007
Friday, July 06, 2007
The whole week flashed passed. I did many things, only to find myself exhausted like a dead man everyday. It was great having a life. Having been confined for the 2weeks of june holidays happily studying for my cts, i broke free once more on thursday after my last paper. My conscious mind is moving too slow for my actual life and my brain couldn't register my daily happenings. let me write down everything before all these memories fade away..
28 June (thurs)..
it was the last paper. My brain couldn't really work. I was half guessing the MCQs. haha. I think that many people share the common fate as I do. After the paper my whole body almost collapsed. I have got completely no idea why it happened. I went out still with mp, wq, cheng n kek. we went bugis! haha. all of us were tired. REALLY tired from the lack of sleep and non-stop studying days. we couldn't care much. we just needed to walk around. I took 66 home with wq. the whole ride took us more than an hour. depsite the fact that train is faster, I couldn't resist the temptation to take bus home! anyway. I had a long chat with wq on the bus. we really had many stuff to share! =))
30 June (Saturday)..
band in the morning as usual. why is it that we always seem to be so tired every practice? I hope that we can find the source of motivation to keep the momentum! ate at ke ai ji and i went IMM to shop w my mum. It was the last the before the rise of GST from 5% to 7%! Shoppers thronged through shopping malls.. sales were put up everywhere! I went to clementi to meet my pri sch friends.Having heard about Botak Jones, i decided to go try it out. only kenneth n zq joined me for the dinner. nic n eugene came along later to join us for coffee at west mall coffee bean. The guys talked about ns. haha. i wonder how they will change in just a few months time. anyway! glad to know that everyone is doing fine..
1July (Sunday)..
I PACKED MY CLOSET AND FOUND A SHIRT FOR MY BEAR! =)
2jULY (Monday)..
watched transformers =)it's a nice show! and i like bumblebee! haha.. can't believe that we actually went to the east to watch it and thanks panda for buying the tickets a day earlier! if not we probably would not have missed the show.. the evening and night was spent at somehow very relaxing. One place where one will feel worry-free. It simply brings you to another world. Wonder when I will get a chance to go there again.. mm.. thanks for bringing me out =)
3jUlY (Tues)..
day out with quiny, yumin, shizhen n zj.. i miss quin! i miss shopping with her and I miss everyday moments that we once shared. we tried to take neo print and came to the conclusion that we lost our creativity and the artistic talent in designing our photos.. we had fun anyway! shall update the photo someday.. we went back to ny too. talked to the teachers and mr chan. haha. I DON'T UNDERSTAND PHYSICS. I REALLY DON'T. had family dinner out coz it's mum's chinese birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
4jULY (wed)..
enrichment week started. I felt so cheated by the chocolate making session.the supposed 3-hr session ended up to be 2.5hrs of "TEAMBUILDING" talk. -_____-" what a total waste of our time! we were told to design some packaging that is a total waste of our time.. the remaining time was spend MIXING the chocolate they gave us with nuts and cornflakes. Sigh. all these for 25 bucks? *shakes my head*
had physics. mr yong did inspire me to a certain extent. such idealistic life can hardly be found in reality. yes. we need the attitude and belief to succeed. but but but. physics is still hard =( Mm. the last activity was biz etiquette workshop. learnt quite a bit on the proper mannerisms.. the way to dress and the actions that we should be aware of. band resumed at 5.30pm. I was half dead by then and I couldn't pitch any high notes at all. bleh. I need to improve! I don't want to disappoint people..
5 jUlY (thurs)..
went back for ny alumni. a bad night. I don't want to elaborate. thanks james for listening to my crap.. sigh~
6jULY (fri)
WHICH IS TODAY!!!
FINALLY!
haha. anyway. went for Adult CPR course. it was interesting as we learnt how to save people by doing CPR. It wasn't easy. I do until my hands are aching. it's very hard to press the manikin and you need ALOT of strength.. *ouch*
the good thing is, we all passed in the end! yes! =)
so many things within a week. there's more to come for the next week. hope that i can survive! I'm drowning. I need to sort my priorities..
28 June (thurs)..
it was the last paper. My brain couldn't really work. I was half guessing the MCQs. haha. I think that many people share the common fate as I do. After the paper my whole body almost collapsed. I have got completely no idea why it happened. I went out still with mp, wq, cheng n kek. we went bugis! haha. all of us were tired. REALLY tired from the lack of sleep and non-stop studying days. we couldn't care much. we just needed to walk around. I took 66 home with wq. the whole ride took us more than an hour. depsite the fact that train is faster, I couldn't resist the temptation to take bus home! anyway. I had a long chat with wq on the bus. we really had many stuff to share! =))
30 June (Saturday)..
band in the morning as usual. why is it that we always seem to be so tired every practice? I hope that we can find the source of motivation to keep the momentum! ate at ke ai ji and i went IMM to shop w my mum. It was the last the before the rise of GST from 5% to 7%! Shoppers thronged through shopping malls.. sales were put up everywhere! I went to clementi to meet my pri sch friends.Having heard about Botak Jones, i decided to go try it out. only kenneth n zq joined me for the dinner. nic n eugene came along later to join us for coffee at west mall coffee bean. The guys talked about ns. haha. i wonder how they will change in just a few months time. anyway! glad to know that everyone is doing fine..
1July (Sunday)..
I PACKED MY CLOSET AND FOUND A SHIRT FOR MY BEAR! =)
2jULY (Monday)..
watched transformers =)it's a nice show! and i like bumblebee! haha.. can't believe that we actually went to the east to watch it and thanks panda for buying the tickets a day earlier! if not we probably would not have missed the show.. the evening and night was spent at somehow very relaxing. One place where one will feel worry-free. It simply brings you to another world. Wonder when I will get a chance to go there again.. mm.. thanks for bringing me out =)
3jUlY (Tues)..
day out with quiny, yumin, shizhen n zj.. i miss quin! i miss shopping with her and I miss everyday moments that we once shared. we tried to take neo print and came to the conclusion that we lost our creativity and the artistic talent in designing our photos.. we had fun anyway! shall update the photo someday.. we went back to ny too. talked to the teachers and mr chan. haha. I DON'T UNDERSTAND PHYSICS. I REALLY DON'T. had family dinner out coz it's mum's chinese birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
4jULY (wed)..
enrichment week started. I felt so cheated by the chocolate making session.the supposed 3-hr session ended up to be 2.5hrs of "TEAMBUILDING" talk. -_____-" what a total waste of our time! we were told to design some packaging that is a total waste of our time.. the remaining time was spend MIXING the chocolate they gave us with nuts and cornflakes. Sigh. all these for 25 bucks? *shakes my head*
had physics. mr yong did inspire me to a certain extent. such idealistic life can hardly be found in reality. yes. we need the attitude and belief to succeed. but but but. physics is still hard =( Mm. the last activity was biz etiquette workshop. learnt quite a bit on the proper mannerisms.. the way to dress and the actions that we should be aware of. band resumed at 5.30pm. I was half dead by then and I couldn't pitch any high notes at all. bleh. I need to improve! I don't want to disappoint people..
5 jUlY (thurs)..
went back for ny alumni. a bad night. I don't want to elaborate. thanks james for listening to my crap.. sigh~
6jULY (fri)
WHICH IS TODAY!!!
FINALLY!
haha. anyway. went for Adult CPR course. it was interesting as we learnt how to save people by doing CPR. It wasn't easy. I do until my hands are aching. it's very hard to press the manikin and you need ALOT of strength.. *ouch*
the good thing is, we all passed in the end! yes! =)
so many things within a week. there's more to come for the next week. hope that i can survive! I'm drowning. I need to sort my priorities..
Wednesday, July 04, 2007
my life is such an irony!
anyway. i met up with quin, zj, ym n shiz yesterday and it was really great though i was kind of tired as well. i really want to go back for alumni prac but i don't think i can take it.
ok. i shall not sigh so much! let's hope for the better. and wenqi! thanks for your tag *hugs* =)
anyway. i met up with quin, zj, ym n shiz yesterday and it was really great though i was kind of tired as well. i really want to go back for alumni prac but i don't think i can take it.
ok. i shall not sigh so much! let's hope for the better. and wenqi! thanks for your tag *hugs* =)
Friday, June 29, 2007
I could feel every expression mounting within me all of a sudden. Anger, Anxiety, Fear, and perhaps a little Hope..I couldn't differentiate all these emotions and feelings. It's all jumbled up. I hate to think because thinking always make me feel dejected and lost. Where can I find shelter? and where can I find a place where my soul can seek comfort in? sigh.
I am scared. when the world expects too much from me, the added responsibility pins me down. I am grasping for air, trying to be oblivious to the environment around me. Sometimes, I would rather hide in a little corner where no one will notice. Bewildered. I don't really know how to plan my life. I hate judgement from others. I hate the feeling of jealousy.
Have I lost focus in life? So many things in life are getting really superficial. the gp paper we did highlighted the presence of by-stander effect. It draws upon me that this is actually apparent in reality. I have transformed to become a by-stander in many cases. There are certain things around me that I couldn't bring myself to agree with. I would probabaly have brought it out in the past but now, somehow I would just leave things as they are.. Is this a blessing in disguise by being ignorant to things around me?
I seem to have landed in the state of perplexity and I can't seem to get out of this quandary. A few days ago I thought about an issue and I got a shock when I forced the truth out of myself. Mm. I am not gonna treat this frivously. History, cannot repeat itself =)
I am scared. when the world expects too much from me, the added responsibility pins me down. I am grasping for air, trying to be oblivious to the environment around me. Sometimes, I would rather hide in a little corner where no one will notice. Bewildered. I don't really know how to plan my life. I hate judgement from others. I hate the feeling of jealousy.
Have I lost focus in life? So many things in life are getting really superficial. the gp paper we did highlighted the presence of by-stander effect. It draws upon me that this is actually apparent in reality. I have transformed to become a by-stander in many cases. There are certain things around me that I couldn't bring myself to agree with. I would probabaly have brought it out in the past but now, somehow I would just leave things as they are.. Is this a blessing in disguise by being ignorant to things around me?
I seem to have landed in the state of perplexity and I can't seem to get out of this quandary. A few days ago I thought about an issue and I got a shock when I forced the truth out of myself. Mm. I am not gonna treat this frivously. History, cannot repeat itself =)
Wednesday, June 27, 2007
I should be studying now. but apparently I couldn't bring myself to do so.
I went causeway point yesterday to repair my phone, again. I used to be a big NOKIA fan last time. I hate to admit but seriously, I feel that NOKIA products are getting from bad to worse. it's a fall from grace. ouch*. Their customer service may be good but ultimately it's the products that really matter, isn't it?
thoughts have been running wild in my mind. my life for the next one month or so will be crazy. everyday will be packed. I look forward to it. A busy and hectic life forever beats a monotonous life.
Mmm. I borrowed a book from the library last night! and hopefully i can find time to finish the whole book =)
we have often taken certain thing for granted in life.. when will people start to appreciate things that they have now? the fear of losing is often unbearable but we probably got to accept reality..
I went causeway point yesterday to repair my phone, again. I used to be a big NOKIA fan last time. I hate to admit but seriously, I feel that NOKIA products are getting from bad to worse. it's a fall from grace. ouch*. Their customer service may be good but ultimately it's the products that really matter, isn't it?
thoughts have been running wild in my mind. my life for the next one month or so will be crazy. everyday will be packed. I look forward to it. A busy and hectic life forever beats a monotonous life.
Mmm. I borrowed a book from the library last night! and hopefully i can find time to finish the whole book =)
we have often taken certain thing for granted in life.. when will people start to appreciate things that they have now? the fear of losing is often unbearable but we probably got to accept reality..
Sunday, June 17, 2007
below is an extract stolen from quiny's blog. pardon me!
"We are the music while the music lasts."
...its not that I don't want to move on. I want to. but there's just this significant part in the past that I don't want to let go. Never let go, if I ever had the chance to hold it tight. if I am holding it too tightly, it wouldn't cross my mind to let go. and I can't even make up one simple reason for letting go. just let me hold on to it, I will be satisfied.
the first thing that I really enjoyed, enjoying it from top to toe, from my heart to my fingers, is band.
it meant so much to me. I can feel a different part in me that is enjoying what I am doing. its a feeling that I never had before. and for this enjoyment, I am willing to put in everything that I have. I really love it to the end of the world.
there's nothing that can replace the meaning of band in my heart. it just meant so much. I can't explain it with words..
*......*......*.....*.....*.....*
YES. that is where we both CAME from.. nobody is able to erase the memories. not even time. even if people change over time, the friendship that was built ultimately strengthens. I am sure that it will last. To quiny, yumin and zj, nycb '02~'05 will remain etched in our hearts. let's embrace the future together!
"We are the music while the music lasts."
...its not that I don't want to move on. I want to. but there's just this significant part in the past that I don't want to let go. Never let go, if I ever had the chance to hold it tight. if I am holding it too tightly, it wouldn't cross my mind to let go. and I can't even make up one simple reason for letting go. just let me hold on to it, I will be satisfied.
the first thing that I really enjoyed, enjoying it from top to toe, from my heart to my fingers, is band.
it meant so much to me. I can feel a different part in me that is enjoying what I am doing. its a feeling that I never had before. and for this enjoyment, I am willing to put in everything that I have. I really love it to the end of the world.
there's nothing that can replace the meaning of band in my heart. it just meant so much. I can't explain it with words..
*......*......*.....*.....*.....*
YES. that is where we both CAME from.. nobody is able to erase the memories. not even time. even if people change over time, the friendship that was built ultimately strengthens. I am sure that it will last. To quiny, yumin and zj, nycb '02~'05 will remain etched in our hearts. let's embrace the future together!
Thursday, June 14, 2007
Etude 32
22 July 07 Sunday
5.30pm Singapore conference hall
Interested people pls look for me! it's gonna be my last school concert ever..
3rd week of june holiday is coming to an end soon! I wonder how the rest are coping with their revision for common test. haha. ct turns me off. well, I just gotta make myself study more! come to think about it, there's only a few months to A level? 4 months plus? It is definitely not a long time.. considering the amount of work load..
june hols was great. band camp rawks. even though I had a hard time trying to follow and learn all the new pieces, i think my group did a great job! haha. thumbs up to julian, benjamin, jiahao, keene, theresa, may qi, lynette and jan! we screwed our music quiz but i think we did fine for the games!! and yes! the food comm did well. we had really good food. haha. in fact i think the j1s did a good job this time.
elections was held on the last day. i didn't stay for it but anyway. I kind of predicted the results already. let's hope that passing down day will come soon! den i will not have to worry about the section's playing.
i think i missed too many band prac this hols and i seriously need to find extra time to practise. hehe.
next came help camp. I ENJOYED EVERY SINGLE MOMENT OF IT. This year's camp was really superb!we went obs at east coast. i became a kid all of a sudden. my little Mogo Mogo group was super funny.. e way the children laughs really make my day. maybe because it was an outdoor camp and i was in charge of the little kids, i began to learn more about myself and also the surrounding.. o and guess what. one of the OBS instructor LJ was actually one of the pulau ubin instructor during my OBS camp in sec3! his name sounded familar and i double checked with him to confirm it. to my surprise, he actually remembered us as the 'unlucky' ones because it rained throughout our 5 camping days. I bet OBS history never had such an encounter before. o well. we survived through it =) One thing to note about the east is that the night sky is simply enchanting and mesmerizing. the whole sky was filled with stars and every now and then a plane will take off from changi airport. the night was AWESOME. cho kwan and tong chong accompanied me through the camp as well! you girls rawk! and not forgetting, my panda friend rawks too =)
that's probably all for june!
22 July 07 Sunday
5.30pm Singapore conference hall
Interested people pls look for me! it's gonna be my last school concert ever..
3rd week of june holiday is coming to an end soon! I wonder how the rest are coping with their revision for common test. haha. ct turns me off. well, I just gotta make myself study more! come to think about it, there's only a few months to A level? 4 months plus? It is definitely not a long time.. considering the amount of work load..
june hols was great. band camp rawks. even though I had a hard time trying to follow and learn all the new pieces, i think my group did a great job! haha. thumbs up to julian, benjamin, jiahao, keene, theresa, may qi, lynette and jan! we screwed our music quiz but i think we did fine for the games!! and yes! the food comm did well. we had really good food. haha. in fact i think the j1s did a good job this time.
elections was held on the last day. i didn't stay for it but anyway. I kind of predicted the results already. let's hope that passing down day will come soon! den i will not have to worry about the section's playing.
i think i missed too many band prac this hols and i seriously need to find extra time to practise. hehe.
next came help camp. I ENJOYED EVERY SINGLE MOMENT OF IT. This year's camp was really superb!we went obs at east coast. i became a kid all of a sudden. my little Mogo Mogo group was super funny.. e way the children laughs really make my day. maybe because it was an outdoor camp and i was in charge of the little kids, i began to learn more about myself and also the surrounding.. o and guess what. one of the OBS instructor LJ was actually one of the pulau ubin instructor during my OBS camp in sec3! his name sounded familar and i double checked with him to confirm it. to my surprise, he actually remembered us as the 'unlucky' ones because it rained throughout our 5 camping days. I bet OBS history never had such an encounter before. o well. we survived through it =) One thing to note about the east is that the night sky is simply enchanting and mesmerizing. the whole sky was filled with stars and every now and then a plane will take off from changi airport. the night was AWESOME. cho kwan and tong chong accompanied me through the camp as well! you girls rawk! and not forgetting, my panda friend rawks too =)
that's probably all for june!
Sunday, June 03, 2007
I am back from my overseas trip to china. =)
It feels REALLY good to be back in Singapore. I have learnt to appreciate sg alot. in terms of the standard of living, the quality of life, the security issues and most importantly, the FOOOD.
whee~ anyway!
band camp is coming! and I am quite excited! even though I will probably spend all my free time practising. hehe =)
help camp is coming too! no idea how things will be like but hope that everything will go well !
lalala =)
It feels REALLY good to be back in Singapore. I have learnt to appreciate sg alot. in terms of the standard of living, the quality of life, the security issues and most importantly, the FOOOD.
whee~ anyway!
band camp is coming! and I am quite excited! even though I will probably spend all my free time practising. hehe =)
help camp is coming too! no idea how things will be like but hope that everything will go well !
lalala =)
Monday, May 21, 2007
Had the very first band prac after the syf.. and as predicted, I screwed up everything. too many things thrown to me at one shot and I do not know where to first lay my hands on. give me some time to plan and settle how we should move on =)
Somehow I realized that my section is actually quite steady. haha. ignoring the tempo that we are not very accustomed to and stuff, generally all of them can play. so now it's me to work hard. yucks. my skills are too LOUSY. i need to improve! Practise more? I would love to but I am not too confident of my ability to cope with so many things at one shot.
Family, friends, studies, cip and band is gonna drive me crazy again. haha. Mm. I wish to play for appassionata! which falls on 20th July. and etude falls on 22nd July! i think my school work will be in a delirious state once more if i dont focus. but there's so many things that I must commit to. I feel obliged to play for both concerts. but. I don't know. I really don't. .. mm.. shall just wait and see..
okay great! i shall not think anymore. still must go do my wonderful gp homework.. if not my teacher will come after me.. and I am SURE i dont want that to happen.
Mm! im beginning to fall in love with FANTASY VARIATION! it's a nice song!please come for etude! haha.. =) this is probably gonna be my last ever decent concert (:
Somehow I realized that my section is actually quite steady. haha. ignoring the tempo that we are not very accustomed to and stuff, generally all of them can play. so now it's me to work hard. yucks. my skills are too LOUSY. i need to improve! Practise more? I would love to but I am not too confident of my ability to cope with so many things at one shot.
Family, friends, studies, cip and band is gonna drive me crazy again. haha. Mm. I wish to play for appassionata! which falls on 20th July. and etude falls on 22nd July! i think my school work will be in a delirious state once more if i dont focus. but there's so many things that I must commit to. I feel obliged to play for both concerts. but. I don't know. I really don't. .. mm.. shall just wait and see..
okay great! i shall not think anymore. still must go do my wonderful gp homework.. if not my teacher will come after me.. and I am SURE i dont want that to happen.
Mm! im beginning to fall in love with FANTASY VARIATION! it's a nice song!please come for etude! haha.. =) this is probably gonna be my last ever decent concert (:
Sunday, May 20, 2007
Life is contradicting, isn't it?
met up with shizhen, yumin and zj on friday. even though we only spend 3 hours or so, the amount of laughter that I had was more than that of my whole school term combined. haha. amazing hur. nothing else really matter to us. we went crazy. 4 girls from nowhere laughing and doing silly stuff.
oh well.
had a great chat with zj! and hey girl! be more optimistic! life's gonna be great and learn to appreciate your life around you no matter how you hate it, or dislike it. let this stage of ur life be a memorable one =)
my life is picking up again. moving with the crowd and catching up. to all those who are struggling with your life now, go take a short break and then you will come back feeling energized!
-never succumb to your fears. let your dignity lead you out and truimph against all odds!
met up with shizhen, yumin and zj on friday. even though we only spend 3 hours or so, the amount of laughter that I had was more than that of my whole school term combined. haha. amazing hur. nothing else really matter to us. we went crazy. 4 girls from nowhere laughing and doing silly stuff.
oh well.
had a great chat with zj! and hey girl! be more optimistic! life's gonna be great and learn to appreciate your life around you no matter how you hate it, or dislike it. let this stage of ur life be a memorable one =)
my life is picking up again. moving with the crowd and catching up. to all those who are struggling with your life now, go take a short break and then you will come back feeling energized!
-never succumb to your fears. let your dignity lead you out and truimph against all odds!
Saturday, May 12, 2007
I am an emotionless freak. yesterday simply went passed just like that. It was an ordinary day for most of us, but for njcsb, it was a total different story.
Pouring rain lashed relentlessly in the wee hours. Coupled with strong wind, I could feel the minute raindrop falling on my skin and my blazer was stained with little droplets as well. I walked into the school, with a little excitement surging within me. We have worked so hard just for this day. but, what exactly is this day for?
I step into the once so familar place. thoughts ran wild in my mind. I couldn't think. maybe because of the fact that I went through this process 2 years ago, I couldn't feel the anxiety. and up the stage we go. everyone wasn't really mentally very well prepared. time is tickling to fast for anyone to realize what we were doing. Sometimes I wish that I have magical powers to freeze the time and control the world around me.
I didn't know what to say or what to do. When I played dixie, i probably got possessed. for a split moment, my eyes were glued to mr ho. the audience seats were blurred. I knew that I needed to play it. and play it well. I watched carefully at mr ho trying to follow him. By the time I finished playing it, my left hand was shivering. I seemed to have lost control of my body.
as we left the stage, every one was silent. i saw ms chong and she talked to me. we went back to school to keep our instruments. along the way I couldn't sort out my thoughts. we had lunch at marina square and I knew that my life was going to change again. Who shall guide me along now?
as we re-entered s.c.h, I saw a few friends. probably only yumin will make me smile among the crowd. coz I am no longer interested in knowing the whole world. I just want a few friends who will make me smile n listen to me whine when I am down. and of coz I am glad meeting yixi too. She has always been a very friendly girl and yeap, she makes me laugh with her too. =)
I went home. brain too exhausted to think. what I know is that there are many things waiting for me to complete. I need to re-adjust myself.
I need to thank many for this syf. it's probably the last one ever. thanks every njcsb member for all their effort. etude's coming!
thanks mortal for ur encouragement! it's sweet of you remembering it.
yupp. everyone please get a good rest before embarking on a new journey..
Pouring rain lashed relentlessly in the wee hours. Coupled with strong wind, I could feel the minute raindrop falling on my skin and my blazer was stained with little droplets as well. I walked into the school, with a little excitement surging within me. We have worked so hard just for this day. but, what exactly is this day for?
I step into the once so familar place. thoughts ran wild in my mind. I couldn't think. maybe because of the fact that I went through this process 2 years ago, I couldn't feel the anxiety. and up the stage we go. everyone wasn't really mentally very well prepared. time is tickling to fast for anyone to realize what we were doing. Sometimes I wish that I have magical powers to freeze the time and control the world around me.
I didn't know what to say or what to do. When I played dixie, i probably got possessed. for a split moment, my eyes were glued to mr ho. the audience seats were blurred. I knew that I needed to play it. and play it well. I watched carefully at mr ho trying to follow him. By the time I finished playing it, my left hand was shivering. I seemed to have lost control of my body.
as we left the stage, every one was silent. i saw ms chong and she talked to me. we went back to school to keep our instruments. along the way I couldn't sort out my thoughts. we had lunch at marina square and I knew that my life was going to change again. Who shall guide me along now?
as we re-entered s.c.h, I saw a few friends. probably only yumin will make me smile among the crowd. coz I am no longer interested in knowing the whole world. I just want a few friends who will make me smile n listen to me whine when I am down. and of coz I am glad meeting yixi too. She has always been a very friendly girl and yeap, she makes me laugh with her too. =)
I went home. brain too exhausted to think. what I know is that there are many things waiting for me to complete. I need to re-adjust myself.
I need to thank many for this syf. it's probably the last one ever. thanks every njcsb member for all their effort. etude's coming!
thanks mortal for ur encouragement! it's sweet of you remembering it.
yupp. everyone please get a good rest before embarking on a new journey..
Wednesday, May 09, 2007
friday is approaching. 2 more days, or effectively 36 more hours. oh dear. after that my life will change again. I hate changes. I really do.
yes. let me back onto track again. no time to waste and no chance to turn back and look into the past.
last time playing. it shall be the best coz I ain't gonna let anyone down.
=)
yes. let me back onto track again. no time to waste and no chance to turn back and look into the past.
last time playing. it shall be the best coz I ain't gonna let anyone down.
=)
Friday, April 27, 2007
lalala~!
been home very late these few days. my life has transformed into a routine! Okay. 14 more days. jiayou jiayou! =) it will all be over soon. I am sure things will end well! hahaz.
Seem to be lagging in my work again! oh dear. I need better time management! hur hur. I am getting lazy. after coming home everyday, all that I will do is to bathe, eat and then go to bed.
whee. today is friday. it shall be a happy day. after prac today josephine, jiahao and me went to west mall to eat kfc! and the guy serving us was very blur. we wanted tigh and drum and he gave us chix breast and wing. >.< hahaz. it's really nice going out once in a long while. after being confined for so long..
quite excited for tmr's activities. hope tt i will have fun! =)
been home very late these few days. my life has transformed into a routine! Okay. 14 more days. jiayou jiayou! =) it will all be over soon. I am sure things will end well! hahaz.
Seem to be lagging in my work again! oh dear. I need better time management! hur hur. I am getting lazy. after coming home everyday, all that I will do is to bathe, eat and then go to bed.
whee. today is friday. it shall be a happy day. after prac today josephine, jiahao and me went to west mall to eat kfc! and the guy serving us was very blur. we wanted tigh and drum and he gave us chix breast and wing. >.< hahaz. it's really nice going out once in a long while. after being confined for so long..
quite excited for tmr's activities. hope tt i will have fun! =)
Saturday, April 21, 2007
lalala. no more napfa. no more 2.4km run. no more jumping till i faint. got full marks for all stations apart from standing broad jump. I CANNOT JUMP LA. FACE IT. >.<
had a long day today also. yawns. feeling tired and sleepy. tmr is sunday =)shall look forward to slacking and resting at home.
Mm. been thinking about something today. I wonder how long will it stay in my mind. Ignorance is bliss. maybe I shall just ignore it. hahaz. ok! i wanna zZz.
had a long day today also. yawns. feeling tired and sleepy. tmr is sunday =)shall look forward to slacking and resting at home.
Mm. been thinking about something today. I wonder how long will it stay in my mind. Ignorance is bliss. maybe I shall just ignore it. hahaz. ok! i wanna zZz.
Friday, April 20, 2007
One word.
SHAG.
it's the end of the week! I couldn't quit believe it. There's napfa tmr and after that school will last till late afternoon. Today has been really tiring. not physically but mentally. As usual I am beginning to hate mondays and fridays! there's simply too many things going on and it's all cramped within one day. >.< By the time I ended lesson today I am too tired to do anything. For a moment I thought of going home. going home to sleep.
I went for sectionals. played the same thing over and over again. haha. the tutor wanna kill us already. when we entered band room to play for main band, I felt like fainting all of a sudden! I was disillusioned. totally lost control of my whole body and my ability to think. hahaha.. it's weird. I told myself that the part should be played as p. I played it quite loud. and the thing is, I couldnt tone down. I just couldn't do it! -dazed- Maybe my brain cells were all too dead to function.
rah!
why is jc life so busy! so many undone homework and revisions schedule to adhere to. I am being bombarded with many many MAnY things to do. feeling so lost that I don't even know where I am heading.
We should live the present but future needs planning as well. only then will it give us a good 'present' in the future. oh dear. I am talking nonsense. >.<
SHAG.
it's the end of the week! I couldn't quit believe it. There's napfa tmr and after that school will last till late afternoon. Today has been really tiring. not physically but mentally. As usual I am beginning to hate mondays and fridays! there's simply too many things going on and it's all cramped within one day. >.< By the time I ended lesson today I am too tired to do anything. For a moment I thought of going home. going home to sleep.
I went for sectionals. played the same thing over and over again. haha. the tutor wanna kill us already. when we entered band room to play for main band, I felt like fainting all of a sudden! I was disillusioned. totally lost control of my whole body and my ability to think. hahaha.. it's weird. I told myself that the part should be played as p. I played it quite loud. and the thing is, I couldnt tone down. I just couldn't do it! -dazed- Maybe my brain cells were all too dead to function.
rah!
why is jc life so busy! so many undone homework and revisions schedule to adhere to. I am being bombarded with many many MAnY things to do. feeling so lost that I don't even know where I am heading.
We should live the present but future needs planning as well. only then will it give us a good 'present' in the future. oh dear. I am talking nonsense. >.<
Thursday, April 19, 2007
I am tired!
Been really busy to even come online nowdays. Mm. Nie practices started this week. The sound wasn't as bad as what I thought it would be. Somehow, nie will remind me of the days during etude preparation and the band festival. School hours are long. I wonder if I will be able to juggle everything.
The school chatered bus for us to go nie. While the room there is much better for us to practise in, passing by ntu literally triggers many thoughts in me.
3 more weeks to syf. I am afraid of screwing up my part. I know I can't screw it. But I'm tired.. Hope that the weekends will come soon.. I want time for myself and time for my family. By the way, nycb got gold. glad for them (: this year there were only a few honours and even getting a gold is hard. well done juniors! continue to bring nycb to greater heights!
I met mr lee last week and was elated when I saw him. Can't wait for appassionata to come again. I want to play under his paton. Mm. in just another few months time, my band life will REALLY end. haha. coz there's no way that i can get myself involved in band stuff anymore; unless I join outside band. okay! let's end everything with a bang. studies included. (:
Been really busy to even come online nowdays. Mm. Nie practices started this week. The sound wasn't as bad as what I thought it would be. Somehow, nie will remind me of the days during etude preparation and the band festival. School hours are long. I wonder if I will be able to juggle everything.
The school chatered bus for us to go nie. While the room there is much better for us to practise in, passing by ntu literally triggers many thoughts in me.
3 more weeks to syf. I am afraid of screwing up my part. I know I can't screw it. But I'm tired.. Hope that the weekends will come soon.. I want time for myself and time for my family. By the way, nycb got gold. glad for them (: this year there were only a few honours and even getting a gold is hard. well done juniors! continue to bring nycb to greater heights!
I met mr lee last week and was elated when I saw him. Can't wait for appassionata to come again. I want to play under his paton. Mm. in just another few months time, my band life will REALLY end. haha. coz there's no way that i can get myself involved in band stuff anymore; unless I join outside band. okay! let's end everything with a bang. studies included. (:
Sunday, April 08, 2007
I ended the week with a light hearted feeling. =)
Met up with quin today at vivo. I couldn't quite remember when was the last time we actually went out together and had fun. We ate bakerzin and saw dani. She probably didn't recognize who we are but anyway. she reminded me of the days back in primary school and nygh.
the fun part comes in. Quiny and I went to this shop where you can make your own bear. She decided to make one for herself and I had fun playing as well. First you must choose your bear. Then you will have to pump cotton into the bear. You will be given a heart where you can make you wish and you will have to kiss the heart. The assistant will then put the heart into the bear and then seal up the bear. Next you will have to 'comb' you bear with a little brush. After which you can choose clothes for you bear, name it and create a certificate =)
and.. tada! 'WY PRINCE' is born!
okay. this was entertaining. Both of us felt like little kids. we were both in denial.
After that we went to shop. We stepped into this shop called nichii and spent quite a long time there. I LOVE SHOPPING with quin. we went into the changing room and I was quite surprised. The room has this lighting effect that helps create a soothing ambience and the thing is, it makes you look good in everything! coz the yellow light will hide all the flaws. Great strategy used. The prices are quite reasonable and so we bought 2 shirts each. I'M BROKE. been spending too much lately.I will come back and visit this shop someday! hahaz.. and when we left, we found out that that shop originates from m'sia and my dear quiny din know that it existed in m'sia before!
yupp. I brought her to harbourfront centre and we ate new york pizza. nice food but lousy service, as usual. ok ok. i really enjoyed myself out today. But the thought of school work and going to school in a few hours time turns me off. I couldn't thinking about it though I didn't want to be reminded of it.
Here comes the irritating part!
I took the train back. everything was fine. then I realized that there was this guy staring at me. I thought that I was over sensitive so I didn't bother. As he walked out, he headed left. i want to the right but then I saw him again! I transferred another train and he went in from another side. I was freaked out. he stared at me so I tried to look away. later he stood directly opposite me. I felt super uncomfortable and so I walked to another cabin. >.<
I really hate it when people scruntinize me.
Okay time to go do my homework. a long week awaits me!
Met up with quin today at vivo. I couldn't quite remember when was the last time we actually went out together and had fun. We ate bakerzin and saw dani. She probably didn't recognize who we are but anyway. she reminded me of the days back in primary school and nygh.
the fun part comes in. Quiny and I went to this shop where you can make your own bear. She decided to make one for herself and I had fun playing as well. First you must choose your bear. Then you will have to pump cotton into the bear. You will be given a heart where you can make you wish and you will have to kiss the heart. The assistant will then put the heart into the bear and then seal up the bear. Next you will have to 'comb' you bear with a little brush. After which you can choose clothes for you bear, name it and create a certificate =)
and.. tada! 'WY PRINCE' is born!
okay. this was entertaining. Both of us felt like little kids. we were both in denial.
After that we went to shop. We stepped into this shop called nichii and spent quite a long time there. I LOVE SHOPPING with quin. we went into the changing room and I was quite surprised. The room has this lighting effect that helps create a soothing ambience and the thing is, it makes you look good in everything! coz the yellow light will hide all the flaws. Great strategy used. The prices are quite reasonable and so we bought 2 shirts each. I'M BROKE. been spending too much lately.I will come back and visit this shop someday! hahaz.. and when we left, we found out that that shop originates from m'sia and my dear quiny din know that it existed in m'sia before!
yupp. I brought her to harbourfront centre and we ate new york pizza. nice food but lousy service, as usual. ok ok. i really enjoyed myself out today. But the thought of school work and going to school in a few hours time turns me off. I couldn't thinking about it though I didn't want to be reminded of it.
Here comes the irritating part!
I took the train back. everything was fine. then I realized that there was this guy staring at me. I thought that I was over sensitive so I didn't bother. As he walked out, he headed left. i want to the right but then I saw him again! I transferred another train and he went in from another side. I was freaked out. he stared at me so I tried to look away. later he stood directly opposite me. I felt super uncomfortable and so I walked to another cabin. >.<
I really hate it when people scruntinize me.
Okay time to go do my homework. a long week awaits me!
Saturday, April 07, 2007
mounting pressure. I expected this. BUt isn't there something that I can do? I am feeling desperate. 3 weeks ago I felt the same thing and I remember that during that time I was the only one feeling it. now that everyone is feeling it, I think I am able to control myself more. but HoW? What can be done? what is adequate? How can we improve? what is our common goal?
If you ask me whether I feel attached to it, i probably wouldn't have much feeling. It's a different experience. this doesn't work. we are not heading anywhere. We NEED to gear towards our goal. wait. Do we even have a common one?
I pray. I sincerely pray hard for all things to go well.
for I am scared..
..................
Ok. I shall stop being so pessimistic. I just thought of a quote. "Worrying is like a rocking chair; it gives you something to do but gets you nowhere."
Mmm. There is one person I miss dearly. I hope to see you. Let me find inspiration from you. Teach me what to do and guide me along like how you did so using music for the past 6 years..
If you ask me whether I feel attached to it, i probably wouldn't have much feeling. It's a different experience. this doesn't work. we are not heading anywhere. We NEED to gear towards our goal. wait. Do we even have a common one?
I pray. I sincerely pray hard for all things to go well.
for I am scared..
..................
Ok. I shall stop being so pessimistic. I just thought of a quote. "Worrying is like a rocking chair; it gives you something to do but gets you nowhere."
Mmm. There is one person I miss dearly. I hope to see you. Let me find inspiration from you. Teach me what to do and guide me along like how you did so using music for the past 6 years..
Sunday, April 01, 2007
two weeks of school ended just like that. nothing much to say. just a little tired coz school's ending late almost everyday!
watched 'wang zi bian qing wai' on tv. it made me realized that I was once very crazy over during my o lvl period. No idea why but probably because of the fact that dang ou reminds me of someone in my life. mm.
Ok. my life is super monotonous now. it revolves around school, band and family. I wonder how long such life will persist. a hectic june awaits me.
to my nycb jnrs. please work hard! I have faith and confidence in all of you. treasure all the time that you have with each other. it's sth that is so genuine that you will never get such feelings anywhere else.
to njcsb. let's work hard and create another miracle =)
watched 'wang zi bian qing wai' on tv. it made me realized that I was once very crazy over during my o lvl period. No idea why but probably because of the fact that dang ou reminds me of someone in my life. mm.
Ok. my life is super monotonous now. it revolves around school, band and family. I wonder how long such life will persist. a hectic june awaits me.
to my nycb jnrs. please work hard! I have faith and confidence in all of you. treasure all the time that you have with each other. it's sth that is so genuine that you will never get such feelings anywhere else.
to njcsb. let's work hard and create another miracle =)
Monday, March 19, 2007
I couldn't understand what I am thinking about for the past 3 days? Am I worrying too much? There are a couple of things going on in my mind now. I don't know how to plan. and I don't know what I should do.
Band is probably my priority now I guess. a few more months and everything will end. Am I being too sensitive with my section? Why is it that every time the same mistakes occur? I have gone through the same part and said the same thing over and over again. A few months ago till now. Things haven't really changed much. Mm. How can I improve the section? And how can I improve on my playing as well? I have taught em what I know.. Who else can fill the gap for me? I pray hard for everything to be well. June is another hectic month. I apologise if I am gonna be missing again this time..
As for the other thing on my mind. I do not know how to say it out. A few days ago a random thought came across my mind. I am terrifired. I am scared of losing. So I would rather lose it with time.. should if it really did happen someday, I hope that I could be more sensible in dealing with things..
haha.. but seriously, I think that I am worrying too much. excessive worrying is probably not good for health. I am thinking so much that I don't even understand why I am thinking about it! my brain hurts from all these thoughts as solutions never appear. I will be thankful if I don't need to think anymore. let everything take its own course..
Band is probably my priority now I guess. a few more months and everything will end. Am I being too sensitive with my section? Why is it that every time the same mistakes occur? I have gone through the same part and said the same thing over and over again. A few months ago till now. Things haven't really changed much. Mm. How can I improve the section? And how can I improve on my playing as well? I have taught em what I know.. Who else can fill the gap for me? I pray hard for everything to be well. June is another hectic month. I apologise if I am gonna be missing again this time..
As for the other thing on my mind. I do not know how to say it out. A few days ago a random thought came across my mind. I am terrifired. I am scared of losing. So I would rather lose it with time.. should if it really did happen someday, I hope that I could be more sensible in dealing with things..
haha.. but seriously, I think that I am worrying too much. excessive worrying is probably not good for health. I am thinking so much that I don't even understand why I am thinking about it! my brain hurts from all these thoughts as solutions never appear. I will be thankful if I don't need to think anymore. let everything take its own course..
Saturday, March 17, 2007
Friday, March 16, 2007
I met up with pikachu today. Pikachu is an imaginary character who likes to bully me all the time. The last time I met Pikachu was probably more than a year ago. had fun out. Wq came later and we went bowling! I got 109! haha.. super funny coz the two of them kept counting the number of 'long go' they got..
walked around the whole of marina square trying to find shoes coz something stupid happened to me again. In the end I managed to find charles and keith and so I got flats that I am comfortable with after visiting many shops. I realize that my foot is not fully recovered. I feel like running. But I can't. =(
After that I met up with 6f. It wasn't some big event. Just a simple gathering. I saw the photos that we took during ms chua's wedding. Everyone changed a lot. hope to develope these photos someday! yes. I am glad eugene, zhiquan and kenneth turned up today. it's always nice having them around coz they're probably the few that made me feel relaxed whenever I talk to em. Took bus back w eugene and we chatted non-stop. it's really amazing how primary school friends can still have so much to share. thanks for listening to me ranting non-stop! all the best to you too. study hard and hopefully we will meet up soon!
Ok! time to rest soon. tmr still must go to NIE for band. TIRED! Hmm. well I chose this path. smilez. tmr will be a great day out with the bandees as well. =)
walked around the whole of marina square trying to find shoes coz something stupid happened to me again. In the end I managed to find charles and keith and so I got flats that I am comfortable with after visiting many shops. I realize that my foot is not fully recovered. I feel like running. But I can't. =(
After that I met up with 6f. It wasn't some big event. Just a simple gathering. I saw the photos that we took during ms chua's wedding. Everyone changed a lot. hope to develope these photos someday! yes. I am glad eugene, zhiquan and kenneth turned up today. it's always nice having them around coz they're probably the few that made me feel relaxed whenever I talk to em. Took bus back w eugene and we chatted non-stop. it's really amazing how primary school friends can still have so much to share. thanks for listening to me ranting non-stop! all the best to you too. study hard and hopefully we will meet up soon!
Ok! time to rest soon. tmr still must go to NIE for band. TIRED! Hmm. well I chose this path. smilez. tmr will be a great day out with the bandees as well. =)
Monday, March 12, 2007
March holiday is here once more. I am quite glad =) sorry for not updating lately coz there's some problems with blogger and it is super duper hard trying to access my blog. ok! let me write down all the fun stuff that happened to me for the past week.. write it all down before I forget em..
common test is finally over. I don't really want to talk about it. shall wait for the results to come back =) I realized that I get hooked onto tv drama every exam period because it is so draining and tiring studying that I will just sit down and do nothing. Every time I watch drama, it will make me ponder about life. Do such things ever happen in reality? how often do we see genuine love for each other and how often do people fight because of wealth and greed? mm. it's all so superficial. we just gonna be careful with what we do I guess..
I finally visited the old SIM. it's quite big and it made me realize that in a few months time, my life will be somewhat like that in a university. how would life be like? I got no idea how things will work but I certaintly hope that everything will go fine. =)
the most exciting day is probably thursday. we had chem spa and after which I waited for wq to finish her meeting. feeling v bored, I walked around the school and it eventually led me to the band room. it reminded me how I would find my way up to nycb band room after every exam, hoping that the room will be opened.. yupp. so I headed to the nj band room and jiahao really came! haha. I was super excited when I took out my instrument okay. haven't touched it for 3 weeks. I sat down and talked a lot of crap and rubbish to jiahao until I didnt have any time to go practise. hah. in the end wq and I left for town.. When we reached heeren, a hair stylist actually approached us and asked if we wanted to cut our hair as he will cut it free for us. feeling puzzled, we didn't accept the offer coz it's so weird!
mp came along later and we went to eat suki buffet! and the conclusion is that I am always the survivor of most buffets that I went to. haha. amazing hur. I can eat a lot ok. even though many said that I am quite thin. wahhaa. and later we went to take neo! It's so exciting I tell you. I havent took neo for 1 year already! oh my goodness. so the 4 of us (managed to get kek in) had fun taking neo! haha. e photo is really good. and the feeling is really great. xing fu de gan jue. it tempt us to take one more and so we did. the 2nd machine was horrid. everything went hay wire that wq n I couldnt stop cursing and laughing when we were designing the photo.. haha.. but it was a really fun experience! lalala~ we watched a movie after that and it prompted me to do something during the holiday. yes! i shall do it.
friday was road run and cl and I were the real runner. We regretted volunteering our help coz there's 3 irritating fellows in front of us. we spent 48 mins walking with em when the rest finished everything easily within 25mins. rah!
haha. sat was fun as well. after band I went all the way to tampines to get something. the bus ride was horrible. and I realized that I prefer the west side more! for some weird reason the people in east are weird and they like to stare at others. I made my way down to bishan after that and walked around. I didnt know a floral shop existed in j8 before! yupp! so i waited for my dear yumin to come and we went to rj concert. for some unknown reason, rj concert is a concert that I have been attending every year! why! mm. I also dont know but evey year there will be someone inside the band that I must go support. i went since sec2 till now. and rj standard dropped a lot. so much so that it was rather disappointing. I wonder why. went back home w margaret n ym. it's simply nice being with old friends. and yes. I miss ym dearly. =)
ok. this is a super long post. I need to go to school already. update more next time! smilez. happy holiday to all!
common test is finally over. I don't really want to talk about it. shall wait for the results to come back =) I realized that I get hooked onto tv drama every exam period because it is so draining and tiring studying that I will just sit down and do nothing. Every time I watch drama, it will make me ponder about life. Do such things ever happen in reality? how often do we see genuine love for each other and how often do people fight because of wealth and greed? mm. it's all so superficial. we just gonna be careful with what we do I guess..
I finally visited the old SIM. it's quite big and it made me realize that in a few months time, my life will be somewhat like that in a university. how would life be like? I got no idea how things will work but I certaintly hope that everything will go fine. =)
the most exciting day is probably thursday. we had chem spa and after which I waited for wq to finish her meeting. feeling v bored, I walked around the school and it eventually led me to the band room. it reminded me how I would find my way up to nycb band room after every exam, hoping that the room will be opened.. yupp. so I headed to the nj band room and jiahao really came! haha. I was super excited when I took out my instrument okay. haven't touched it for 3 weeks. I sat down and talked a lot of crap and rubbish to jiahao until I didnt have any time to go practise. hah. in the end wq and I left for town.. When we reached heeren, a hair stylist actually approached us and asked if we wanted to cut our hair as he will cut it free for us. feeling puzzled, we didn't accept the offer coz it's so weird!
mp came along later and we went to eat suki buffet! and the conclusion is that I am always the survivor of most buffets that I went to. haha. amazing hur. I can eat a lot ok. even though many said that I am quite thin. wahhaa. and later we went to take neo! It's so exciting I tell you. I havent took neo for 1 year already! oh my goodness. so the 4 of us (managed to get kek in) had fun taking neo! haha. e photo is really good. and the feeling is really great. xing fu de gan jue. it tempt us to take one more and so we did. the 2nd machine was horrid. everything went hay wire that wq n I couldnt stop cursing and laughing when we were designing the photo.. haha.. but it was a really fun experience! lalala~ we watched a movie after that and it prompted me to do something during the holiday. yes! i shall do it.
friday was road run and cl and I were the real runner. We regretted volunteering our help coz there's 3 irritating fellows in front of us. we spent 48 mins walking with em when the rest finished everything easily within 25mins. rah!
haha. sat was fun as well. after band I went all the way to tampines to get something. the bus ride was horrible. and I realized that I prefer the west side more! for some weird reason the people in east are weird and they like to stare at others. I made my way down to bishan after that and walked around. I didnt know a floral shop existed in j8 before! yupp! so i waited for my dear yumin to come and we went to rj concert. for some unknown reason, rj concert is a concert that I have been attending every year! why! mm. I also dont know but evey year there will be someone inside the band that I must go support. i went since sec2 till now. and rj standard dropped a lot. so much so that it was rather disappointing. I wonder why. went back home w margaret n ym. it's simply nice being with old friends. and yes. I miss ym dearly. =)
ok. this is a super long post. I need to go to school already. update more next time! smilez. happy holiday to all!
Saturday, February 24, 2007
oh my goodness. This is probably one of the most memorable chinese new year that I have ever got. While each and every single of in indulging in this festive occasion, I fell down and injured myself. The weirdest thing is, I fell down in my own room. haha.. I bet everyone is gonna laugh at my silliness.. but hey! it hurts alot ok.. it bled alot.. =(
and worse come to worst, it triggered fever! I haven't got fever for ages and now that it has come, it reached a record of 39.7 degree. OH MY. i was smiling at myself when I took the reading. it's so funny. coz the temperature is too high. haha.
Mm. caused a lot of inconvenience for my family members.. sorry! I will be more careful and be a good girl. =) hur hur. I am still feeling very giddy and dizzy all the times. wonder what will happen if i go to school on monday. will I faint halfway? I hope not..
Missed band's reunion dinner today. it's a pity coz i wanted to go! sigh. hope that you guys enjoyed yourselves! thanks all who sent your well wishes.. I MISS ALL OF YOU!
tata.. time for me to go rest. again.
and worse come to worst, it triggered fever! I haven't got fever for ages and now that it has come, it reached a record of 39.7 degree. OH MY. i was smiling at myself when I took the reading. it's so funny. coz the temperature is too high. haha.
Mm. caused a lot of inconvenience for my family members.. sorry! I will be more careful and be a good girl. =) hur hur. I am still feeling very giddy and dizzy all the times. wonder what will happen if i go to school on monday. will I faint halfway? I hope not..
Missed band's reunion dinner today. it's a pity coz i wanted to go! sigh. hope that you guys enjoyed yourselves! thanks all who sent your well wishes.. I MISS ALL OF YOU!
tata.. time for me to go rest. again.
Sunday, February 18, 2007
hey!
happy new year =)
it's the start of a new year. i don't really know what to say. As we grow older, things are not longer that significant to us anymore. New year is not about getting ang bao or eating all that we want. It's about spending quality time with your family and at the same time, giving yourself a break from work. I can remember what I did last year. this year may be a little different coz each and everyone of us has changed. It's hard to understand how some people deal with things around them. and I guess that I couldnt be bothered to care much.
I saw a photo taken a year ago and then I realized how much one can change after leaving secondary school. ha. one of my friend became more mature and i felt that he grew old. I don't really know how to put it across in words but ya. that's the idea. all these happen without anyone realizing it.
had reunion dinner just now and guess what! I measured my weight and found out that I became slimmer. I have seriously got no idea why I became so much thinner and it seems to me that no matter how much I eat, I can't gain back my old weight. Is this a blessing? It's gonna be super scary if my weight keeps decreasing. Judging the amount of stress and work that will be piling up in the upcoming months, I foresee that it will eventually make me even lighter. hahaha..
ok! it's new year. treasure the time spent with your loved ones. enjoy =)
happy new year =)
it's the start of a new year. i don't really know what to say. As we grow older, things are not longer that significant to us anymore. New year is not about getting ang bao or eating all that we want. It's about spending quality time with your family and at the same time, giving yourself a break from work. I can remember what I did last year. this year may be a little different coz each and everyone of us has changed. It's hard to understand how some people deal with things around them. and I guess that I couldnt be bothered to care much.
I saw a photo taken a year ago and then I realized how much one can change after leaving secondary school. ha. one of my friend became more mature and i felt that he grew old. I don't really know how to put it across in words but ya. that's the idea. all these happen without anyone realizing it.
had reunion dinner just now and guess what! I measured my weight and found out that I became slimmer. I have seriously got no idea why I became so much thinner and it seems to me that no matter how much I eat, I can't gain back my old weight. Is this a blessing? It's gonna be super scary if my weight keeps decreasing. Judging the amount of stress and work that will be piling up in the upcoming months, I foresee that it will eventually make me even lighter. hahaha..
ok! it's new year. treasure the time spent with your loved ones. enjoy =)
Sunday, February 11, 2007
Last night was NIE Symphonic Concert. It was held at the Singapore Conference Hall. It somehow sparked me that I haven't entered that place, haven't entered there since my syf. I couldn't believe myself at all.
This goes to show how long I haven't been to a concert - to a band concert. Sitting down and listening to the band, I found lotsa stuff back in my mind. The one that I remember most is probably SAJC's band concert. It was in 2004 i think. I remember Jacky! and the percussion doing some funny actions. This thought then brought me back to SJIMB. I couldn't remember why I was so crazy over them last time. Every July I will be very busy with buying flowers and getting so excited coz of their concert. that's kind of silly but that's the world that I came from. I want to go back. want to go back to the past.. i miss the time spent with you all.
There's many things that I don't quite understand. and time seems to be flashing pass too quickly. I need to prioritize my stuff..
This goes to show how long I haven't been to a concert - to a band concert. Sitting down and listening to the band, I found lotsa stuff back in my mind. The one that I remember most is probably SAJC's band concert. It was in 2004 i think. I remember Jacky! and the percussion doing some funny actions. This thought then brought me back to SJIMB. I couldn't remember why I was so crazy over them last time. Every July I will be very busy with buying flowers and getting so excited coz of their concert. that's kind of silly but that's the world that I came from. I want to go back. want to go back to the past.. i miss the time spent with you all.
There's many things that I don't quite understand. and time seems to be flashing pass too quickly. I need to prioritize my stuff..
Thursday, February 08, 2007
I love my date out with YUMIN!
Ok. So I had a very long day out but it ended well I guess. School was a little irritating and stressful coz there's simply too many things that I need to do. I don't understand how some people can study 24/7. that's something that I probably would not be able to do. o well. study hard! I don't want to lag in my studies anymore. No more distractions please.
yes. I went back to ny and it was rather heart warming. It is somewhere I once belonged to. the feeling is rather weird but hey! I am glad yumin went back with me. heard the band. not exactly that ready yet but I believe that you guys can do it! work on it and jiayou! I played my bass trombone and it was like super heavy. haha. not used to the weight. Mmm.. I miss MR LEE! Hope to see him someday. haha.. I kopped many scores back. Shall go to sch tmr earlier to play these songs. wonderful memories! esp ABBA GOLD, OMENS OF LOVE and magic slide! haha. exciting!
Had dinner out w yumin. there's just so many things that we can talk about. I miss you dear! hope to see you soon! go eat ice cream.. just wanna say that you've been a great girl! all the best yea? *hugs*
Ok. So I had a very long day out but it ended well I guess. School was a little irritating and stressful coz there's simply too many things that I need to do. I don't understand how some people can study 24/7. that's something that I probably would not be able to do. o well. study hard! I don't want to lag in my studies anymore. No more distractions please.
yes. I went back to ny and it was rather heart warming. It is somewhere I once belonged to. the feeling is rather weird but hey! I am glad yumin went back with me. heard the band. not exactly that ready yet but I believe that you guys can do it! work on it and jiayou! I played my bass trombone and it was like super heavy. haha. not used to the weight. Mmm.. I miss MR LEE! Hope to see him someday. haha.. I kopped many scores back. Shall go to sch tmr earlier to play these songs. wonderful memories! esp ABBA GOLD, OMENS OF LOVE and magic slide! haha. exciting!
Had dinner out w yumin. there's just so many things that we can talk about. I miss you dear! hope to see you soon! go eat ice cream.. just wanna say that you've been a great girl! all the best yea? *hugs*
Saturday, January 20, 2007
hey! I feel old. haha. a little unbelievable that I am 18 years old already. =)
thanks all who remembered. esp my dearest 2/4 people. this is probably the last time where all of us can meet at the bus stop every morning to celebrate one's birthday! next year.. we must try to meet if possible k =) you guys will be one that I would definitely want to remember and stay together.
haha ok. now i wanna thank audrey n zj! for the lovely bdae cake. a little surprised but yay! thanks! Mm. well, at least 18 better than 17 coz i don't feel that lost.
Mm. Band is keeping me very busy. haha. today the prac was very fun. I am beginning to fall in love with internal combustion. rather sick of machu picchu. haha. all the school stuff is killing me. nvm! i will work hard =)
thanks all who remembered. esp my dearest 2/4 people. this is probably the last time where all of us can meet at the bus stop every morning to celebrate one's birthday! next year.. we must try to meet if possible k =) you guys will be one that I would definitely want to remember and stay together.
haha ok. now i wanna thank audrey n zj! for the lovely bdae cake. a little surprised but yay! thanks! Mm. well, at least 18 better than 17 coz i don't feel that lost.
Mm. Band is keeping me very busy. haha. today the prac was very fun. I am beginning to fall in love with internal combustion. rather sick of machu picchu. haha. all the school stuff is killing me. nvm! i will work hard =)
Friday, January 12, 2007
Saturday, January 06, 2007
To all my friends, please don't get my any present for my birthday (: If you really want to give me something, give me your heart and stand by me everytime. I Hope that all the existing friendships will last long. that's all I ask for. nothing more than that..
I just went to a few people's blog and somehow memories from my secondary school days started streaming in. Well. The most impactful one is probably the maddies' blog. I envy the friendship that exists between them! They are probably the most crazy and fun people that you can ever find on earth. i miss them. really miss them lots.
Well. I certainly do miss everything about ny. my class and my bandees. Sweet and bitter memories. Just glad that I still have a few people that I am still in contact with. Sometimes I wonder how long will we last? I will try to make the best out of it I guess. As we grow our lives change. It's really hard to accommodate to each other's schedule and put in adequate effort to sustain what we have now.
Band prac is increasing. the band sounded weird today. Somehow I miss that small and cozy little band that we once used to have. For some unknown reason, I am able to flutter tongue today! we were given a piece and it requires flutter tongueing. So I just tried and it came out! I was stunned. coz I had been trying for 5 years and I couldnt do it at all! Mmm. it gave me a headache though. haha. shall improve on my playing.
I looked around me and realized all the responsibilities bestowed on me. Will I fulfill all of them? I certainly hope so coz I do not wish to disappoint anyone, not myself for the very least. This is probably a year that I want everything to be smooth sailing.
I dare not look into the future. it's bleak. I am afraid to enter the future.
I just went to a few people's blog and somehow memories from my secondary school days started streaming in. Well. The most impactful one is probably the maddies' blog. I envy the friendship that exists between them! They are probably the most crazy and fun people that you can ever find on earth. i miss them. really miss them lots.
Well. I certainly do miss everything about ny. my class and my bandees. Sweet and bitter memories. Just glad that I still have a few people that I am still in contact with. Sometimes I wonder how long will we last? I will try to make the best out of it I guess. As we grow our lives change. It's really hard to accommodate to each other's schedule and put in adequate effort to sustain what we have now.
Band prac is increasing. the band sounded weird today. Somehow I miss that small and cozy little band that we once used to have. For some unknown reason, I am able to flutter tongue today! we were given a piece and it requires flutter tongueing. So I just tried and it came out! I was stunned. coz I had been trying for 5 years and I couldnt do it at all! Mmm. it gave me a headache though. haha. shall improve on my playing.
I looked around me and realized all the responsibilities bestowed on me. Will I fulfill all of them? I certainly hope so coz I do not wish to disappoint anyone, not myself for the very least. This is probably a year that I want everything to be smooth sailing.
I dare not look into the future. it's bleak. I am afraid to enter the future.
Thursday, January 04, 2007
school started. It's a very very different feeling. So many things to do and I seem to be packed almost everyday. =)
watched night at the museum today. nice one. I kept laughing. for the entire day, I have laughed so much until my stomach hurts and my cheecks are tired. It's been a long while since tt happened. and I did a really silly thing today and I bet everyone will laugh at me till they drop dead if they know what I did.
watched night at the museum today. nice one. I kept laughing. for the entire day, I have laughed so much until my stomach hurts and my cheecks are tired. It's been a long while since tt happened. and I did a really silly thing today and I bet everyone will laugh at me till they drop dead if they know what I did.
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