Words I Couldn't Say

Thursday, June 23, 2011 @Thursday, June 23, 2011

You were definitely my last straw. I can't bring myself to care for people whom I know are just going to break my heart. I can't bring myself to love someone who will not love me. And right now, I don't think I can believe in someone loving me. It all would seem like its too good to be true, it'll feel like the rug would be pulled from under my feet in a matter of seconds, cause that's all it took for you to just run away.

And now even though I don't cry about it, even though I stopped talking about it....I can't forget it. I can't push away this heaviness. I can't even talk about it without feeling like a complete idiot for believing that you loved me or that it would've worked out.

Monday, June 13, 2011 @Monday, June 13, 2011

Stranded

Thinking you were different

All my hopes were resting on you

Believing in the future you painted

Trusting you'd be there

When push came to shove

You chose the party life over me

You left me

Empty handed

Broken hearted

Standing there stranded

Every night we'd talk about

How our lives could be

How you would take care of me

And even with my doubts I trusted you

But when push came to shove

You chose the party life over me

You left me

Empty handed

Broken hearted

Left standing there stranded

Even now as I sit here

Writing out the things I feel

I hope and pray its all a dream

But deep inside even I can see

This ain't no dream

Its my reality

And you shoudl know

When I've moved on

You'll looke back

And you will see

The one you lost

When you left me stranded

So now when push comes to shove

I'll choose the party life over you

I'll choose my life over you

And even though you left me

Empty handed

Broken hearted

You'll realise that you're the one

Left standing standed, all alone.

I thought I could do it, I thought I could just move on without looking back, without being sad. But right here and right now, its still a sad situation in my mind and in my heart. I hope it gets better quick, I've no doubt it'll get better and that I'll move on, but I hope it happens quick, cause wallowing like this, its just no good.

Monday, June 06, 2011 @Monday, June 06, 2011

I've decided that its just easier to forget about what happened and to just move on. I see no point in hanging around and waiting for someone who, from the looks of it, doesn't really care much about me.

I did my part, I tried and tried. With no response I decided its time I stop. Its time I move on. It still hurts a bit, but I think in the long run it makes more sense for me to just move on.

Twitter-ing away