The number of people I have in my life who love me and who would do anything for me. I don't know how I got so blessed. And I think that having so much love in my life, its only right that I pass it on to other people as well. Some people make it easy for me to pass on that love, others make things more complicated. But at the end of the day, I think its important that they know that someone loves them. That they know they are worth loving.

Sometimes people make it close to impossible to love them and I try my hardest to show that I will always be there for them, that I'll always be their friend, that they can tell me anything and that I will always love them as a friend. I was struggling with something like that not long ago and I still keep that person in my prayers. I pray that he keeps on the straight and narrow and that life treats him well even though most people wish harm upon him.

I know sometimes, in my blog, it seems like I'm bragging about being the bigger person and such, but I think it is important for others to know that it is not always an easy thing to do, but always worth while at the end of the day. We all have the ability to affect change, be it in another person or in a community. And the only way I know how to affect change is by being there for people, making sure that they stay strong and if they need a shoulder to cry on a pillar to lean on, that i'm there for them. As much as people love to say actions speak louder than words, I think that words carry so much power, and that they have such a power over us. The right words can either bring someone up or bring them down. I've been blessed :) Truly truly blessed.

My best friend said in her blog,

"It saddens me to see people who have so much yet cannot stop to take a breath and realise how lucky they are. Instead they lament about how awful their life is, what they want and generally lead sad lives by constantly wanting better and are never blissful."

Sometimes I think it describes me somewhere close to a tee. I have so many things in life, so many people in life that I should be thankful and grateful for, but I never really am content with what I have and such. I really do lament about how awful my life or the situation I'm in is.

Now I no longer see the point in what I was about to say...

If I die young, bury me in satin

Lay me down on a bed of roses

Sink me in the river at dawn

Send me away with the words of a love song

Lord make me a rainbow, I'll shine down on my mother

She'll know I'm safe with you when she stands under my colours

Oh, and life ain't always what you think it ought to be, no

Ain't even gray, but she buries her baby

The sharp knife of a short life

Well, I've had just enough time

If I die young, bury me in satin

Lay me down on a bed of roses

Sink me in the river at dawn

Send me a way with the words of a love song

The sharp knife of a short life

Well, I've had just enough time

And I'll be wearing white when I come into your kingdom

I'm as green as the ring on my little cold finger

I've never known the loving of a man

But it sure felt nice when he was holding my hand

There's a boy here in town, says he'll love me forever

Who would have thought forever could be severed by

The sharp knife of a short life

Well, I've had just enough time

So put on your best, boys, and I'll wear my pearls

What I never did is done

A penny for my thoughts, oh no, I'll sell 'em for a dollar

They're worth so much more after I'm a goner

And maybe then you'll hear the words I been singing

Funny, when you're dead how people start listening

If I die young, bury me in satin

Lay me down on a bed of roses

Sink me in the river at dawn

Send me away with the words of a love song

The ballad of a dove

Go with peace and love

Gather up your tears, keep 'em in your pocket

Save them for a time when you're really gonna need them, oh

The sharp knife of a short life

Well, I've had just enough time

So put on your best boys

And I'll wear my pearls