I've had it too easy. It's time I take responsibility for myself, and if that means that I can't 'get' what I want, then so be it. So forget about dad's financial help, forget about starting a business in the US if that isn't a practical option (as it means a lot of upfront cash which I don't have), and just forget about moving here for now. Either I travel back and forth between the US and SG (if I still wanted to start the business but cannot physically live here) (that's equivalent to money and time), or I return to SG and go back to full-time work and try to apply for jobs here until something happens, or I return to SG and start my own business and wait till the business is successful, and then try to invest here. Or I keep pressing onwards with this investor visa, hope that I can make my dad's money worthwhile, hope for the best. I don't have my shit together, and I'm finding it hard to keep my thoughts straight. It's a sense of un-realness; my feet aren't on the ground.