It's been 16 days since I arrived in Seattle. I haven't felt so light for some time. I am exceedingly grateful to my family and the people who have supported me. I've just turned an extraordinary 30, I've 2 feet on the ground, and ready to start running. Moving abroad is exactly what I needed. Returning to Singapore after living on my own in Amsterdam was like returning back to a safe, secure, and materially comfortable hole in the ground. Your vision naturally narrows with that little filter of light that comes through a regulated pipe. You can't imagine that anything could be the matter, but you also can't imagine that there is more to the four walls around you. It is ultimately home for me, but I've never quite managed to shake off that feeling of unease and restlessness. I want to keep learning and growing as a designer and as a person. I don't want to return to a state of amnesia.