I've let myself down. The plan was: stick to the plan, stick to your heart. I had started building something really nice and wholesome for myself: a business plan, a product range, a list of contact details, slowly working out the fabrics and designs and customer base and selling points. And I knew/know that even though I wasn't able to fully articulate the plan, that something good would come out if it. But I allowed other voices to get inside of me; I was insecure and I was afraid of being judged. It's the second week of a new job, and all I can think about is the time that I'm wasting. I'm nearly 30 and I still can't make and stick to my decisions, firmly, without seeking for some sort of approval. I'm ashamed of myself.