I've been tremendously fortunate to have good options and opportunities. Even the fact that I've found what I really enjoy and have the ability to do it. And to have the support of friends and family. Instead of feeling discontented and worrying about the 'what-ifs', focus on the positive, on the path you want to take, and keep striving towards it. Be an adult, make your own decision, and stick to it.

Essentially, I love fashion designing. If there's one last thing left for me to do, it's to design my own collection. On another note, I know my strength lies in illustrations, and I enjoy working with people from different creative disciplines. The point is, both fashion and illustration are crucial to me and I find it impossible to divorce them and to specialize in only one. 

I sound a little too ambitious in trying to multi-task. How can I combine both? 

My overall dream is to eventually have a design studio where I can provide goods and services in fashion, textile prints, and illustrations. 

1) Work on the clothing products (that requires the most amount of time and energy)

2) Market those products / Find platforms where you can sell your products

3) Illustrations: 

-- it's crucial that your illustrations connect to your clothing line in terms of style and aesthetics;  in that sense, I'm not selling separate ideas but 1 consistent idea translated in different products. 

4) Keep pushing. First and foremost, focus on the product. What is the main concept behind the product and how can you keep updating it? 

What do you see yourself doing in 5 years time?