i'm at the point where i've to write down maxims to remind myself of what's important and what isn't. to let certain anxieties go, and to embrace every opportunity i get. my internship has been successful in that i achieved what i set out for myself - to get a full-time employment as an assistant designer. i have to remember that working in an office/corporate environment alongside a group of people is never easy; let the little things go, maximize your time and potential, gain as much experience as you get, you're here to learn - learn and appreciate -

in the last few months, i've done an internship, i've been offered a job, and i was selected for the finals of a regional design competition. i should be proud of myself, and i want to keep striving. (also saving enough money so that i can one day start my own brand without feeling financially insecure). 

i regret that i am unable to live closer to g. i want both the job and my darling, but given the choice, truthfully, at the point, the job is more important. i miss g and i'm absolute clueless as to how we can ever resolve this. my heart aches and my body is hungry, but we've gotten so used to being apart that perhaps nothing really matters anymore. a constant state of departure ( i read somewhere).