resolutions:

1. focus on your strengths.
2. not to start off describing a subject with the use of "famous", "popular", "have you heard"? those are unreliable and extremely shallow markers
3. not to whine/bitch/talk/even think about things without taking any real action; in other words, do it and shut it
4. instead of dwelling on the negative, turn to the positive
5. learn how to communicate confidently and effectively
6. learn. acquire knowledge. don't dull and muddle your brains with crappy media information
7. be grateful and open for any opportunities that may come your way
8. define your objectives and set realistic goals for yourself

a most amazing one week of 2013. we finally met up after 1 year 3 months, and i still feel ever so close and comfortable with g. and now that we've parted ways again, i feel extremely upset and i just want to return back to where he is. i shouldn't be unless i make a firm choice that we will stick together no matter what. but i'm mentally and emotionally split between nations and an uncertain future.

a little map of where we were from 20 nov - 29 nov 2013 (all listed meals by g)

20 nov: picked g up from London Heathrow Airport; plans were totally messed up by delayed train schedules and g ended up waiting 3.5 hours at the airport after a 10 hour flight. that's true romance for you, as g says (no flowers at the gate, but a stressed out asian scrambling to the airport). went to stay with a creepy dude far north in hackney (because i didn't check the address carefully and didn't realize how huge london was). both passed out from exhaustion. woke up midnight hungry too lazy to get food and instead talked through the night.

21 nov: long ride to shoreditch and whitechapel gallery. disappointment. dead spaces that lost all of its vibes and flavors as i recall how it was 3 years back. took a 12 hours bus ride from london to amsterdam. a nightmare ride sitting at the back with a bunch of english hooligans and teenagers. g was kind enough to let me sleep on his lap so i managed to doze off a couple hours.

22 nov: sleep. coffee at zurich cafe at mercatorplein. steak for dinner.

23 nov: albertcuypmarkt. signature potatoes and over-easy eggs for breakfast. and burger and fries for dinner.

24 nov: stayed in. impressive pancakes with apple-banana-creme fraiche toppings for breakfast. beef bolognese for dinner.

25 nov: met jordanne for coffee. sticky lemon chicken for dinner. went out for midnight coffee and talked a great deal about feminism.

26 nov: worked on our stuff. ginger chicken with buttered carrots for dinner.

27 nov: g spent an entire afternoon preparing boeuf bourguignon for dinner (invited annahita over). went for subbacultcha concert after. music was disappointing and not worth our 8 bucks.

28 nov: went to the eye film institute and messed around with some interactive pods. headed back to harlemmerweg to catch la vie d'adele, which was a terribly long and boring movie with long sex scenes. left after 2 hours. walked back home and dropped by bos en lommer turkish pizza on the way. g took a short nap while i packed. went out for drinks at soundgarden.

29 nov: g woke up grumpy 730am to make pesto-tomato-sausage sandwiches for breakfast before taking me to the airport