i'm not a good daughter. i wonder what it is that makes me so constantly tense and irritated whenever i'm around my parents, especially my mum. i'm insecure around them. this must sound absurd considering the fact that they've known me since birth - they should know me -  i think that because of the paths i've chosen in education, and the way i've shown myself to be so passive and carefree, i feel like they probably don't take me or what i do as seriously as i want them to. i know i don't have to prove anything, but i do become so impatient and defensive. i don't like this side of me at all; my parents are amazing and supportive, but deep down i still feel a slight chasm.