one can be happy and miserable at the same time. on one hand, i've several exciting projects to work on. on the other hand, i feel like i'm sinking, waiting for this whole stupid thing to be finished while hoping for the opposite. i prayed: dear dear, i hope you are as sad as i am, and that you miss me just as much. i'm at a loss for words; i don't want to talk to you or tell you anything anymore. please come back.