Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Wednesday, June 03, 2009
Cashback
Have you ever watched the movie Cashback? The protagonist develops insomnia after his first break-up. He thinks about her, thinks about nothing, stares at the ceiling, at the clock, the green digitals. For hours, for days, for weeks. He reads all his texts, attends all his lectures, still his eyes remain open. To cope with his problem, he does the early morning shifts at the supermarket. The time when lights are off, and only a few souls remain, desperate for their keep. Cashback. (of course the quirkiness of the movie comes in later)
I wonder how long I can stay awake. Probably not long. Not that I really want to stay awake. I wonder how many time zones one can live in. The real clock time, and the imaginary ones. I wonder if I could switch from reality A to B and back to A or even if they could simultaneously co-exist in my mind and work in actual situations. I would mark the events that happen in an orderly fashion – files A-Z. It could be file X, and that would be that. And I would take it out when I wanted to and put it back in after. This has nothing to do with Cashback. Why I thought of the movie was because I stared out of the window from 4 to 7. I saw the changing lights. The squares and triangles the grills created. And I realized that I have been seeing this view for almost all my life. The 1m x ½ m skyline. The remainder an ugly orange façade. There’s no cash to be gained from that though.
I wonder how long I can stay awake. Probably not long. Not that I really want to stay awake. I wonder how many time zones one can live in. The real clock time, and the imaginary ones. I wonder if I could switch from reality A to B and back to A or even if they could simultaneously co-exist in my mind and work in actual situations. I would mark the events that happen in an orderly fashion – files A-Z. It could be file X, and that would be that. And I would take it out when I wanted to and put it back in after. This has nothing to do with Cashback. Why I thought of the movie was because I stared out of the window from 4 to 7. I saw the changing lights. The squares and triangles the grills created. And I realized that I have been seeing this view for almost all my life. The 1m x ½ m skyline. The remainder an ugly orange façade. There’s no cash to be gained from that though.
