Monday, March 30, 2009
thanks you fo saying:" if the next time you are gonna eat maggie, call me up, call us up for dinner"
Y7:52 AM
for the mother who takes care of her child with cerebral palsy..
for the parents who came to SCN today to know more about their child with HIE (brain injury)..
for the young boy who suffers from the mets of bone tumour, whose isolation room i pass by everyday, who has come expecting he'll spend his final day in hospital..
for the people who fight all the way..
for the caregivers.
for the patients.
=)
Y7:31 AM
Sunday, March 29, 2009
i thought i didnt expect anything, but how wrong was i,
i expected some mutual understanding,
and have someone to read between the lines,
for you are different from those i barely know,
for i so thought you are distinguished friend of mine...
**
it's alright.
***
on a lighter note,
it's cool that i have been able to catch up with most of my friends during this weekend.
Y4:20 AM
Saturday, March 28, 2009
it was a spur of moment when i bought this book "the last lecture"it took me a while to finish as i read only before i sleep.
there are a few things which i would remember.
the random ones:
1) dont complain, just work harder..
2) when you are frustrated with people, when they have made you angry, it just may be bcoz you havent given them enough time..(how true)
3) it is not how hard you hit, it's how hard you get hit... and keep moving forward.
4) experience is wht you get when you didnt get what you wanted. (so beautifully phrased!)
5) show gratitude..
6) all you have to do is ask..
sometimes, the people i meet are indeed very fascinating,
they still surprise me on off despite i thought i have known them much.
i try to live up to this principle, that never expect anything from friends, they would just turn up fine, though there are times, when they can get pretty nasty,
but not for long, people always remember the bad impression for very long time that
they forget, these friends have been great once, and for most of the time.
=)
Y10:54 AM
so that's what you thought, escapism.i had fought all this while, fell down so hard, got up, moved on until
i was thrown off again,
**
it was never easy, but i tried to take it easy,
and imagine now, what i have left with.
it's not escapism for sure,
**
i just needed that little bit of thing to strive on.
wait till, when the thing i dropped long time ago, come back to me,
i would face it again.
**
"sometimes things will fall apart in order for other things to fall in place."
***
it's sunday tommorow.
thinking of flying kites.
Y8:39 AM
Thursday, March 26, 2009
cant wait to finish with my portfolio and do my reading. it's a heaven.
i am starting to like my life in BP,
with a house which feels like home,
and housemates like brothers,
groupmates like cousins (well, wait till we go to surgical or O&G posting)...
**
***
moving from one place to another is not really a bad thing.
today, on the way to Kluang, we were so thrilled to see so many dragon fruits that welcomed us.
and the uniqueness of the people, it's similar yet different in many ways..
we had a blast in Kluang, at least i thought so, deep inside my heart today=)
everyone was talking about the class trip, so happily, and excited.
i wondered, if we would still have this opportunity to talk like this once we graduate from the ever torturing yet ironically meaningful 5 years of medical student life.
that would certainly mark the end of our medical student life, and certainly we wont be seeing each others so much till wanna vomit.
let's cherish the final 5 months.
i'm do-ing.
****
Life is like the rain pouring out the sweetness of life,
sometimes with it the thunderstorms.
We feel it, hear it, praise it, wish it, say it.
What's it?
Many may be the pains and the gains,
the tears and the fears, the wish and the lists.
Never mind, it will be over.
The winds will take cover, the storms will cease,
it will be better.
Y6:39 AM
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
today was my first time taking blood in clinic, i always had this habit of saying sorry to patients when i poked the needle, it came out the other end. so today i thought let's practice being professional, instead of saying sorry, i made sure i did the correct thing, even when it didnt work out well, i would say "i would try".
the first patient was amazingly cooperative, and very calm, it made me less nervous, so when i kept inspecting one arm to another to look for a very obvious pokeable vein, and had finally withdrawn blood, which in between i stole so much of his minutes,he still smiled so politely at me though he said at the end with big smiles, "finally".
and the second patient was rather funny who kept inspecting my hands instead and had commented that how could someone own a nice (i added in, from the way she looked at my hands) and small with tiny fingers? with a nice compliments from her, she got 3 pokes with 2 failures in return (and i feel horrible for that), yet before she left, she held my hands and said" it's okay, coz you have tiny hands"
just when i started to count my luckiness, and curi curi laughed while waiting for the next patient, the third patient came in, slim so i thought must be easy case,and when i was about to steal a few seconds counting my blessing, the third patient appeared very scared, and all uptight.
i had the 2nd thought. let's do it anyway. so i poked, and she was so rigid, then i didnt withdraw any blood, and i could see horror in her eyes. and i freaked out, and end up getting help from the MA.
all in all, after the blood taking, i remembered someone said about teachers who sacrificed their bodies for the students to learn.
and i remember those patients i poked today, they too, sacrificed their veins for me to learn. i am thankful for that, ind!eed.
Y8:28 AM
Saturday, March 21, 2009
一个中心：
一切一健康为中心
两个基本点：
遇事潇洒一点，
看事糊涂一点。
三个忘记：
忘记年龄。
忘记过去。
忘记恩怨。
四个拥有：
无论你有多强或多弱，一定要拥有一个真正爱你的人。
拥有知心朋友。
拥有向上的事业。
拥有温暖的住所。
五个必要：
要唱要跳要俏要笑要苗条。
六个不能：
不能饿了才吃。
不能渴了才喝。
不能困了才睡。
不能累了才歇。
不能病了才检查，
不能老了再后悔。
taken from jiahui69.blogspot.com
Y7:58 PM
do not link me up.
thanks!
i cried the other day, in front of a person i wished was the last person to see me crying, it was a shock to this friend of mine, but i thought i could hold the tears back, and rush home to find the door locked, and only cry my heart out. but i didnt make it for the tears to wait, it flew like waterfall rushing down, the description i used to tell my colleagues how olden people had perceived cataract.
there are hardly people who see the crying me. and to be truthful, i do really appreciate those who have seen me cried. and people who have seen me cried, always end up being teary with me.
i have not faked myself by putting a brave front, but rather, sometimes, i cant get myself to really talk to anyone about what's bugging me now and then. when i said i am okay, i wished the conversation doesnt drag on in details.
being in a new place, i have yet to find out my hide-out in this town. back in seremban, i had discovered lots of places, my so called hide out, to escape from the hustle and bustle of life. i used to like going to the Rasah Jaya vegetarian shop, and had stayed late till people who had came later than me left even much ealier. i used to like just listen to the noise surrounding me, and get carried away in my own world.
i feel so tight being here, i cant just get my car key, and off to somewhere, i am so scared to get lost somewhere in town, considering that i am GPS idiot.
but this morning, i decided to explore a place, where i could rest my soul, sharpen my mind, just relax and let the people around me do the talking,while i am indulging in my own world.
so i had found this place, after a lot of sweats, and just when i was about to just give up, and head home, i decided to just make a turn and see where i would be led to. and to my surprise, i had found the place, and imagine my joyness.
i have of late, been feeling sorry for myself, against my principle of life, but i could not help it.
i thought why do things always have to turn out we least expect.
i am learning to be less worried, to be more grateful, to learn to dance in the rain.
WEATHER REPORT~BJ Gallagher
(from simple truth=)
"Any day I'm vertical is a good day"...that's what I always say.
If you ask me,"How are you?"
I'll answer, "GREAT!" because in saying so, I make it so.
When Life gives me dark clouds and rain, I appreciate the moisture that brings a soft curl to my hair.
When Life gives me sunshine, I gratefully turn my face up to feel its warmth on my cheeks.
When Life brings fog, I hug my sweater around me and give thanks for the cool shroud of
mystery that makes the familiar seem different and intriguing.
When Life brings snow, I dash outside to catch the first flakes on my tongue, relishing the icy miracle that is a snowflake.
Life's events and experiences are like the weather - they come and go, no matter what my preference.
So, what the heck?!I might as well decide to enjoy them.
For indeed, there IS a time for every purpose under Heaven.
And each season brings its own unique blessings.
for you, my friend, do not give up hope yet, and for myself=)
very long time we havent said "gambateh, let's work hard together
and you are the few ones i cried with=)
at least, one thing i am grateful for today, is having known you=)
Y10:28 AM
it was a spur of moment when i bought this book "the last lecture"
so that's what you thought, escapism.
