Many said, "Hey, why think negatively? Think more positive can or not." But do they ever think that greater disappointment they'll get if they think too positively. On the other hand, thinking negatively, you'll feel lesser disappointment or you'll be delighted by surprising results. Am I not right?
I believe it's rather true though. Especially on relationships and love. I and him are kind of back to close a little like before. But I didn't smile a little. I didn't think of any further because I'm afraid of disappointments, again. I keep it low, keep myself busy; not think more than anything. We're just normal acquaintances meeting each other again after long seperation.
♥ 11:38 PM
I have been thinking. What kind of life am I in? Sometimes, I just can't take it. When I have made my decisions, some things will make me go back to square one.
When I decided to leave the matters alone, they find their way back to me. Can't I walk away anymore?
♥ 7:47 PM
Girls, good job for marketing presentation. Seriously, I can't believe that we can finish up and did a good job in three days. Anyway, I feel that I'm dying soon with coming up tests and crm project. Sometimes, I really want to give up on my studies but I won't. I know the importance of studies. x)
I wanted to stay in love with you, babeBut I want to give up on youBabe, you weren't there when I needed youI text you, but you ignoredI thought we were friendsI really want to share so many things, reallyI miss you, babe..
♥ 10:38 PM
Some says, "Hey, poly life is so relaxing la... can slack like hell one.." I was totally deceived by this statement. Its not relaxing at all. I felt so stressed up whenever there's projects, and its always coming through this two years. Damn. But, I still prefer projects to exams. And now, I'm contradicting myself. WTH!
So long~ need to rush for projects now! LOVE YOU x)
babe, i kind of miss youkind of miss the past
do you think back to the past?
i really want you back
and yet i force myself to give up
aint an easy thing to do
sometimes i just tell myself
that you will come back someday
i know you wont..
hence, i no longer afraid to walk this alone.
♥ 9:10 PM
Scenario 1 => Open space. Coffee. Music. It's a way to enjoy life.
Scenario 2 => Open space. Coffee. Music. Laptop. Nah, rushing projects!
Oh man, its such a big difference with an additional of laptop. In life, getting most of the things in the world, you may not be happy. Why not just enjoy what you've got now?
I have been looking forward to no homeworks, no works, no stress, no time limits and no PROJECTS definitely. Relaxation, I call that. Aint it cool? Sometimes, we need to take out some time from our busy life to relax and look around. Give a little care to those around you. I've realised, every little second we get away for freedom, we play. Why not use the time to spent it with family and love ones. How much time are you able to be with them for your whole life?
Lastly, I love you. Say that to your love ones, including yourself. x)
♥ 5:02 PM
I yearn
ed for your love, I yearn
ed.
You said you can't continue it with me and you had your reasons that you can't say. I know them clearly. Because I'm fat, ugly, poor characteristics, your friends don't like me and everything bad that you can think of. That was the reason why I gave you up to the other girl at the first place. That is why I did not stop you but encourage you. I know what kind of girl I am. I really know. But I can't stand it when everybody treat it as its all my fault that caused what we are today.
We both know that I need to fall out of love with you. But you're always there, I can see it even though you ain't there exactly for me. I do see you. And sometimes, what you do or say tells me that you need help from me. You know I will do it and help you. You know I'm always there for you when you need help. I'm always the one giving in to you.
Seriously, I'm really tired. I don't want to live this kind of life anymore but I can't bear to leave it. What is going on with me? Gosh. If only there's someone else who can rescue me. If only you disappear or I lose all my memory that consist you.. I really hope to get you out of life, i really hope so..
♥ 7:24 PM
