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Growing up at work

Monday, September 27, 2021

Growing up at work is absorbing all the negativity alone and be able to move on easily.

So apparently, I have not grown up?

I am still bitching about it with my colleagues and taking all the negativity very badly. I allow it affect my appetite and mood for the entire day (maybe also the entire week to come). It has shaken my confidence and pride in work.

“You have to learn to filter out noise.”

Well I just can’t. I recall the tone, the faces, the words they use. Every dialogue is like a charging bullet that I didn’t manage to catch. 心碎了.

Today is a bad day. I met mean people who have a good heart. What an irony.

Hope by tomorrow I’ll be able to recover from this little setback.

Things shall start to get better

Saturday, September 11, 2021

For my health, my wedding, my work, my family and friends.

Everything shall get better as we bring a close to the year.

Past few weeks (and months) have been rough. And I know it's gonna be an uphill soon.

Looking forward to seeing the peak.

Thank my fam and js for the strength. Thank my colleagues for the love (care pack and hamper!).

Thank my friends for the concern.

On a sidenote, the pandemic had also resulted in alot of uncertainty for my wedding.

I'm best at overthinking:

Will Govt not allow large-scale events like wedding?

Will they change the current criteria from 2 vaccine shots to 3?

Will people still come if they have to swab?

When is a right time to send out invites and yet not making people feel uncomfortable to attend?

Then again, since it's unpredictable, there's no use overthinking. Every night it's just me asking myself these questions and answering them with some assurance that I provide myself with.

Anyway, I'm gonna have more social interactions in the coming week! Hope I gain some energy and positivity from these!

Hospitalisation

Saturday, September 04, 2021

I was hospitalised.

I don't remember the details, but it was an unpleasant experience.

The paramedics coming into my room with shoes on.

Me lying on the stretcher in that wobbly ambulance ride (thankfully ktph is just nearby).

Getting pushed around in the A&E ward cos it was so crowded.

Not having a pillow because there's no more supply of pillows in the hospital.

Sleep got disturbed by screaming patients and nurses who take my blood pressure throughout the night.

Nurse poking needles into my arm trying to get blood for test, but to no avail (also her feeling sorry after that and offered me another blanket to keep me warm).

Glad I got discharged the very next day.

Though I have not fully recovered till today as I am typing this.

At least I am able to sit up and type. That's something to be thankful for.

Health is so important.

Also time to do something about my persistent vertigo.