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My course is officially completed! we're allowed to surf the net [no streaming of vids. <:( ]

93.1/100.................. coughs.............

an overwhelmingly high score for a soldier who sleeps a lot during lessons -_o


we have dear peeps engaging fast and furiously in little fighter 2 , neopets, facebook applications, clicking periodically on pages from reading manga online. 7 theres me, a loser so bored hes actually blogging.

been reading the bible, and the book of Job fascinates me thoroughly. its almost like a philosophical argument [ no its not. its merely 3 men acting on the worldly voice of Man versus the " pseudo-politically-religiously-ethically-correct version of a man with faith? ] that stirrs much debate and thinking. how fun not to be led like sheep mindlessly for once.

i'll live my own way. my own life to God. To live my life through Christ, my own way. i have a lifetime of exploration to do anyway. (=


question.

"why do YOU believe in God?"


ciao!~~~

little squares

Up from 3 hours of sleep! will die later, but for now i am strangely and disturbingly awake. (=

but the mental strain is certainly there. whoosh.

CH! we still caught Red Cliff in the end. (= how was it? decently...slow....and revealing...little....the main cast was fine and dany. i like takeshi though. he steals the show pretty much whenever hes in a scene despite all the heavywights that he gets to act alongside in. yes yes, somebody says he has very mesmerising eyes. =p quite true. His humourously inoffensive and affable ,witty characther hints of a much more complex character than is truly being fully portrayed. as said, this film reveals nothing much.but i wont mind watching part II (=

on a side note. zee, ba(1) gua(4) as in the taji formation or something. no NOT the CNY goodie we eat every year [= thats pronounced in hokkien i think.


drinking would have been alright i guess. i never expected to stay out ,certainly not yesterday-today. but the thought of visitng a pub to drink again...=/ i like the nightlife more.or the lack of it in orchard after shops close. i mean, this is the BEST time in our age right now to stay out late.heh. sounds like an excuse but its not.the ambience and atmosphere, along with the main ingredient-the company- makes it truly enjoyable. the only time while in moonlight-lit streets during your life can one go out and return just before breaking dawn--in the hours of twilight- and pray you wont get screwed by parents whose errr.ahem ahem! anger? will be eclipsed by the subsequent punishment meted out XD . the heaviest consequence being one having activities in the early morning after. like CH ><


im not advocating it, its just fun once in a damm while (=

im too tired. update this post later.


batman, on the 2nd watch, was alright.

watching it for the 3rd time next week. o.0 thanks to zee. [=




updating.





so this weekend was spent in carelessly easy fun with the guitar cca peeps whom are in closer contact. yeah im lovin' the guitar people (=

while passing by i think it was josh who pointed out this month's FHM features a certain germaine from tpjc. but i have no idea who she is nor if there was ever, a "hot babe" in my cohort. until i checked the class photos. heh. i've seen her around but really, other than that i dont recall her. oh well. we saw the numerous issues in the numerous issues compared to the near sold out maxim copies- ah haha bad for sale! - 7-11s visited- GAWD PS'S one was stinky like fug- and bought bottles of water like crazed thirst addicts. CAR'L's chilli beef fries were badddd )=

reached home at 531am- 14 min ride from orchard in a cab. the fare was unsurprisingly amazing. a full fee of 150% right in your face-the advantages of cab sharing.

originally wanted to post more..mmm. heartfelt issues at hand. but i guess a brief synopsis of the past events should be fine.

going to miss the people in my platoon. some of them . a lot. sigh.

on a bad note-my english has DEFINITELY deteriorated drastically.. my vocabulary usage has gone lazily complacent, my grammar rules half non existant. this is sch school english. lower sec. fuggg. unforgivable.




its not revenge. its not out of spite. im just tired.

destati

Harro! another week flew by in half earnest and half amusement. depending on how you want to view it a quarter awake, 3/4s sleeping vs sleeped deprivated-vs trance mode (you know, the kuku stage. that.

its been a slew of exams after exams (im in a course) but! the most dreadful thing is the combat against the ZZZ monster! we wait for hours between tests, so its more of a test of endurance against and having to switch on the brain again just before and switching off and restarting it again towards the next exam (theory) than trying to survive the tests per se. zzzz. im brain dead right now to make any sense. too bad

sorry CH for ABANDONING you and RUB-RUB kay )= to be fair it was on a super short notice !(message received just after i left my camp gate)


funny week. a week where you sort out things oh so carefully. which reminds me i have a a cluttered desktop to clean up ---> product of the lazy AND SLEEP DEPRIVED.


tomorrow.once the essentials test progs have completed themselves.

do you still remember? (= this brought a huge smile to me this morning.

thanks huh. (= im using this mug now. -_- ... =D

bored, so i took it for fun.

I have finally cleared out my closet and drawers! over 65 percent worth-less of ....trash o.0 gone that makes it up to the rest of the useful, sentimental and good things i keep.

it feels darn good and my whole body feels less burdened

[eehern makes a note not to procrastinate when hes mind is set upon something]good day, thus far [ ye i woke up before dawn into a cleaning frenzy that left mum bemused and staring in disbelief. hern? that lazy son????!!! actually cleaning his things???] as i sit contently.

watching the dark knight again, but this time i shall attempt to enjoy it thoroughly.

a period of easy musing. i love waking up early in the morning , just as the sky becomes gradually lighter. i think

that would be even more thoroughly enjoyed when ns finishes. =p

listeing to mika nakashima's voice crooning so smoothly is really gooood (=

i asked myself this . when i have become so quiet, so bitter with life? its like a turnabout . in secondary school, while some days of emo ruled, i was never bitter. as i grow into an adult[ no need for self denial. im almost no longer an emo teen , tho a few..will beg to differ XD] i become embroiled with needless, trivial feelings that make me seethe with anger, at times bordering on cold hate. or just so unsatisfyingly bitter and taut with tension.

as i read the past Christmas cards, and those what do you call it? paper testimonials? of my former classes and

goodbyes im struck with a lot of surprise. given my blunt and at times judgemental nature i've forgotten im actually...liked. o.0 not a ego massage in any case.it comes to a shock because i dont give a damm what others think, even friends [unless you're a close one.] with much of a i-dont-care-about-you attitude that much dominates my perception nowadays. clouded by temperament. swiveled by the unknown.

but. its slowly returning. the old eehern? the one that everybody could relate to, i think.

its one of the most important things i have to regain if i want to [haha, yes. draw that map of life directions please zee. (= ] find myself up on my feet again. sure ns will affect. but the only one who can bring peace, and direction,

is only myself. [as self-absorbed as it sounds. wait no. its not.]

i'll start, by falling in love with joy.

debbie when you're reading this, know that what you've said affected me profoundly. how much even i do not know its depths. but..i find something to hang on to , even for a short brilliant moment its good enough.

(=

i will not betray my heart. it may suffer anguish, may subject itself to emotional torment. it may not be

reciprocated but i will not betray my own feelings. i dont want to deal with regret.i will not double cross my heart.

all things have to pass. as will any storm. as will any sunshine day. but the heart doesnt have to be bitter. old wounds CAN be healed. the scars may remain, but overtime, even the red angry reminders that they are will fade and disappear....i think (=

a lot of musing, a fraction revealed on this post. its early morning, and already, im smiling, a real smile, for the second time. thats a lot, according to some people. the heck XD

im off. ( = orchard road and the dark knight, revisited, beckons.

its only near the end of july, but if anyone wishes to be sent a chirstmas card please kindly send me your address via msn con. its that easy. you will be guaranteed a hand written card. =p

already something additionally fun to look forward to. (=

have a very good week, all. (=

sayonara

I dont know what to make of things these days. Thank the Lord, for His presence, other than that im completely at lost. there is a certain inevitable sense of lost and compromising doubt that heightens considerably at night and removes itself almost insidiously at dawn. its not alive obviously. neither do i associate the night or day with anything other than a convenient reference.i dont exactly get it.


*looks hard at zee hannie. and then pokes her aching feet. (=

sayonara.

im in love with joy. (=

The Dark Knight.

im going to watch it again. (=

if iron man was the hip, cool and fun of being a anti-hero superhero, then the dark knight is the exact anti thesis.

Heath Ledger. truly truly magnificant. The Joker was played so superbly that even the most rabid of batman fanboys would have been pleased.

the film is nothing short of excellence.

going to write a full review of this much later. after watching it the 2nd time.

why so serious? (=

BOOM DE YADA!

........................*Grins*

HAHAHAHAHA! you and your......(= (= (=

alright, alrighty, i love you too. (= there you go. sheessh. (=

BOOM DE YADA!


eehern stopped the gap on 18th july.

i still vaguely;

remember my old piano book.it was new and had a funny smell;-as if the accmulation of years is distinct in proportion to its scent.


it was my first guide to the world of music , one hardly ventured nowadays while i restlessly travel all over.

the memories, so young and bright.


the door's too wide open . i'll leave it ajar for you, but it wont be a full open entrance anymore.

let me let it go for a while. (=

Ashes;

they whirl weightlessly upon the the warm breeze.

another week swirled past so quickly.

finished the pillars of the earth. suffice to say the only good thing that came out of it was it piqued the interest in me of cathedrals, and how they're built. its no wonder the english and the Europeans love it- a steeply rich part of their religious and cultural history had quite a bit to do with churches; buildings.plotline was predictable..so..its a a passable book to pass the time.

Grisham's playing for pizza was more decent, though the work was at large plot clumsy. nice to see him writing a feel good book though.



i'll give. no matter how many times betrayal comes

no matter.

regret will never come knocking

because it will never be the same again.

abroad

the chance to go abroad - taiwan .

i think it would be a great experience. the processing and interviews will take some time, so meanwhile im still undecided!

read an article of baby penguins dying due to freaky rain storms.

the fur of these baby pens take 40days? to grow fully resistant-to water.
Antarctica's temp has been rising.

while they have the fur to adapt and protect themsevles from the cold, they are defenseless-useless, when temperatures plunge after.

hypothemia.

visualise walking through upon hundreds of baby pen coprses.


so sad. the revolving fierce debate[or is there even a need for one] on the existence of climate change continues.

tests and more tests await us as the course slowly passes on to its climax. managed to make several good friends, cool that wz is around, praying to get posted to bedok or somewhere near - NOT tekong XD though if that ever happens i get to see jon oh around. (=


i want 6 of aug to come. QUICKLY! (= and the months fly by, and soon the year will end. YES! (=

thats all for now.



whoosha!

another day to live;

Gold!

congratulations! i think its derservingly won by you guys, hscb. (=


enjoy this sweet moment, and continue to work hard (=


happy for you all (=

you are my adorable juniors. i've seen you struggle, seen you work, seen you gone through a lot. do i not know how it feels? course i do.because i went through it too.yes, you may still molest my ears now and then, but hearing your screams of wild joy and laughter more than renumerates. that, was music to my ears.

to my section.you've grown! you may feel uncertain, dissatisfied. (= that, is growth. one day you'll all understand.

went to dinner with wingsum[omg stay away from me you sia cha bo!XD] and a few others at marina sq.a little strange, but rather enjoyable. wj was a smartass in not eating KR. the food sucked.oh yeah, shes incredibly crazy. (= but hell lot of fun XD


ah yes thank you summms! for the wake up call (=

i slept for over 5 hours uninterrupted! (= (= that felt impossibly good.

its been an excellent week, lots more ups than downs obviously.

maybe i've been looking too deeply into the negative.

there are, the more cheery aspects that can dominate our lives too.

the simple pleasures of life (=

its been quite the eye opener week as by now, that we began to swap some life stories

or maybe me just listening and they narrating.

such disparate and diverse backgrounds.

of course it doesnt excuse some idiots' pathetic behaviour, but nevertheless interesting.

and it makes me appreciate for what i have.

and understand a little into how how their lives have been shaped by both circumstance and fate. makes me want to pray for them. yeah, even the idiots.

human behaviour.

i want to fly.

i miss a lot of pals around.

update this God knows when. later.



blue dawn is the morning hue

i want to see all things a crazy blue

let me get lost in the january song

because it wont be for long.

mile high

its been an EXCELLENT WEEK.

marred by several things . as USUAL.


im hurrrrrrrrrrt debbie. =p its not whether i go taiwan and come back speaking all fluent chinese or not. it should be you begging me not to leave XD HAHAHAHAHA.


update this LATTTEEER

flaneurs

the untouched piano in the bedroom is the perfect visual hyperbole for the sum of all disgruntled indsigressions.

i worry for car in accordance to the family.

i worry for my grandmother.there is a silent, predicatable air of concern that now surrounds her and her gradually decline in health.

i worry of my inner demons indulging in glee.


i worry.

i worry.

im worrywart ee this week. (=


on a brighter note, i can finally begain on pillars of the earth. which will take 2-3 months to complete, including the sequel.



of course its unhappiness. what, you care for a person and its met with nonchalance and taken for granted at times? of course you would. do you give up? no. but is it demoralising and unsettling? yes.

it just becomes all quite disheartening. and all that nonsensical stuff just pops continously in your head. )=






another thing. best-est-ie , when you read this. its quite tense between us now. quit explaining your actions all the time. its really not necessary.just do what you have to, until you're satisfied.talk when you want to.call when you need to. harrowing as it already is.

hern right now is not in a pleasant state of mind. .__.


dont think too much? heh. when i stop thinking about something it usually means i no longer regard it entirely.


my grannydaughter. i would have like to at least be her sl once and let her take over. impossible, but still. shes a dedicated little wit. yes, you no longer live in SL ave. =p


its got nothing to do with me but aye, im super proud of her.


anyway, it's like, i really love doing things for my section.. like running up and down to help them get scotch tape, bags,fans, scores, tuners, food, drinks, files, stands... etc
i have never asked them to help me do such stuff unless i really needed their help
and i'm the one who always does it because they dont have to initiatives to do it themselves too la
lol
zn. [lives in SL ave no more] says:
then there's transposing scores for them during lessons because i have no other time to do it. and sometimes i get scolded for doing so. then i make copies of it for them just for them to lose it and they tel me i didnt photocopy enough.
i write objectives for sectionals during lessons too to make sure they get things done when i'm not there and in the end when the paper goes into their hands, it gets chucked into the flute cupboard and you find them wandering around the school aimlessly
when i talk to them as a section, to motivate them... etc, i bet whatever i've said goes into one ear and out of the other
cause they're always so stoned.
i remind the constantly aobut their posture and insturment angles, threatening to punish them if i had i remind them again, but neve doing so
because i cant bear to punish thm
be ar
lol
and i see no point ni punishing them
caus e i knoow they'll just run for the sake of it and continue their bad habits. i've tried really really hard to make them change.. but it's not easy.
then when they decide to slack a little for the day, dont check dressing, dont bother to spin, jerk, lift their legs 90 degrees, dont come for practice,
i get repremanded
*reprimanded
i took it out on them once and i felt really bad afterwards. so i apologised
and since then i never really did scold them anymore
when i'm a little slack with them, they step over my head. and my batch mates complain i'm too nice
but when i become just a little bit stricter, my batch mates complain i'm too harsh to the section
and my section people start to not like me and pon band
because i am hasrj
*harsh
it's so difficult to please them, respect them, be the SL they want, teach them, guide them along when they just refuse to move on and stay rooted to the ground.
but i dont mind doing these again, to repeat the whole process of being an SL
i dont know why
lol
maybe because sometimes these section mates and juniors of mine really bring me lots of joy, tho i'm the one who always try to make them laugh and smile when they get too sian during practices
seeing them put in effort sometimes makes me feel like i've done my job well.

小学篱芭旁的蒲公英　
是记忆里有味道的风景
午睡操场传来蝉的声音　
多少年后也还是很好听



将愿望折纸飞机寄成信　
因为我们等不到那流星
认真投决定命运的硬币　
却不知道到底能去哪里




一起长大的约定　
那样清晰　打过勾的我相信
说好要一起旅行　
是你如今　唯一坚持的任性



在走廊上罚站打手心　
我们却注意窗边的蜻蜓
我去到哪里你都跟很紧　
很多的梦在等待着进行
一起长大的约定　
那样真心　
与你聊不完的曾经
而我已经分不清　
你是友情还是错过的爱情














danedelion's promises.

touche.

scooters, vacation, and winters.

everytime the heel comes into contact with anything it goes into pain-a-pain-pain tingling mode. made the mistake of banging it accidently once this week-i thought it was stronger now, after such a damm long time-and oh man. the pain, is blindingly hot and paralysing. nothing like a lil friction to excruciatingly jolt your senses reminding why you're alive and not half asleep. shed some light please, specialists.

difficult to comprehend.staying at home mostly today. theres nothing to watch cept the dark knight. nothing fun to go out either.


again, the thoughts that manifested themselves through out the week conveniently dissapeared. figures im getting old , .______.
so jotting them seems to be the only way.

planning to work on some lyrics for chi heng soon.

a quiet life. but not a halycon one.


86.


and more sleep. slept less than 4 for the past few days since mon. wz you too.

bend ivory

previous draft got wiped out. not going to rewrite the whole piece again



in short. watched "wanted" with car.

go, watch it and "realise how pathetic you are and how much of a loser you've become , "especially .... XD i love the show for its unforgiving, outrageously funny and witty provocation and lambasting of the audience. whoooo. not a sadist but the lines were super sharp and witty. hated the stupid plot. .....

"what have you done with your life lately?"

diablo III has finally been announced. brings back the memories of hogging unhealthily in front of the darn comp furiously levelling .zzz

the only notable thing. yeah. i think debbie knows. thats enough. i think she still doesnt fully get what im trying to put across .....heh.

dont force yourself to do things you dont want to. simpleeeee. (=

you idiot.. doesnt matter alright.[=