ipod touch. just got it, but too lazy to wreck it [=
man i loved those .
haemoglobin or something like that. random.
ahh. for those who cant run ah. YOUR INSPIRATION. [=
this is so fricking random.
25 May, 2008
Hernutty Hysteria Redux!
Hail, The suave and Charismatic NO.1, the very best, the electrifying, the incredible entertaining, President of the NUTs, Hernutty =_= [read, name in chinese pronounciation]
glowing tribute to zee and ning. (= my two pretty deputies zeenutty and ningnutty.
yes you 2 idiots i shut down my old blog. & i forgot to inform you both. sorry! no you man-girl uncle of a godZEEla i am NOT an aunty XD
ahhh, those 2. [= friends for life.
Finished the life of pi. written by Yann Martel. Certainly a tour de force to be reckoned with. charmed by the virtuso command and display of language, sweeping audacity and sheer pure absurd madness that twists and thrives with a teasing delicate playfulness and quick,disarming humour. a thorough imaginative excursion into beliefs in a subtle and so , so simple guise. a modern lit classic in the making.
now for ....a friend for henry. an autistic kid with a dog .probably will finish marley and me after that.
talked to my partner starchaser. [= yeah, my english has deterioated rotting, decaying with a foulness unseen but felt , a slow slip of the stream, a pondering wretched slap to the face.. yeah, miss those essay and even compre days...as long as the compres given were lingustically fun to do. sheesh. must stop...the english rot. heh.
15 days to the end! 12 excluding the weekends. heh heh. towards the end, we travel.
thats about it for now. nuts out.
glowing tribute to zee and ning. (= my two pretty deputies zeenutty and ningnutty.
yes you 2 idiots i shut down my old blog. & i forgot to inform you both. sorry! no you man-girl uncle of a godZEEla i am NOT an aunty XD
ahhh, those 2. [= friends for life.
Finished the life of pi. written by Yann Martel. Certainly a tour de force to be reckoned with. charmed by the virtuso command and display of language, sweeping audacity and sheer pure absurd madness that twists and thrives with a teasing delicate playfulness and quick,disarming humour. a thorough imaginative excursion into beliefs in a subtle and so , so simple guise. a modern lit classic in the making.
now for ....a friend for henry. an autistic kid with a dog .probably will finish marley and me after that.
talked to my partner starchaser. [= yeah, my english has deterioated rotting, decaying with a foulness unseen but felt , a slow slip of the stream, a pondering wretched slap to the face.. yeah, miss those essay and even compre days...as long as the compres given were lingustically fun to do. sheesh. must stop...the english rot. heh.
15 days to the end! 12 excluding the weekends. heh heh. towards the end, we travel.
thats about it for now. nuts out.
19 May, 2008
Shaker Spectacular!
AHHHHHHOY!
THAT, WAS A good REST =D
ah hah, havent slept so well in ages. had a sucky dream, =/ but ah well. who cares! its REFRESHING!
so why am i posting on a good morning like this? because i like to express, because i think i owe people a good explanation. and because of some minor self indulgence =p
so whats to express? first! 20 more days! its depressing at first, but then if we all could survive so long, what more 20 days! [ including weekends] countdown to POP! 4 more book ins, 4 more book outs! which includes the POP week.
next, gunning for SAF central Band. this one's serious, and i think i mentioned it before, but im postive and confident it will be okay. im not going to issue myself an ultimatium, that i absolutely have to go in, but i do realise its importance right now. so this coming weekend would be all revising of some music stuff. wont be hard with the ahem, power of the internet! =D
on another even more serious note, A levels. a few of you would already have been informed about this. i learnt my lesson. a very painful lesson.i think thats enough to be said.typing anymore about it wont make any progression.making amends wont be easy. but sionce not doing anything and just wondering whats ifs was any easier?
had a long talk with my sir. hes very disappointed im not going for command school.but i've already decided. im thankful hes holds me in...some light, even if i do make the most idiotic mistakes, unnecessary ones at that.but i will keep the promise he asked of me.the least,that i can do. thank you, 2nd Lt. WZY.
guess when im drained i can be a very powefully emotionally evil bastard who likes to bring people down with words. nothing like spreading the ill cheer around, like a stupid contagious virus running amok. super flubugs. =/
thats one part of my character i have to reticfy on.
last week ahsnt been a good week. BUT! we move on, and learn, dont we. [= thank the Lord for guiding this idiotic lost sheep the past week. who forgot that there will always be You, right beside me, picking me up when i cant stand. God teach me and quide me with your Love, and grace.
alright. thats for up for now. ee goes out!
thank you, for staying with me.
its not been easy for you.
not at all.
but thank you.
i know i didnt answer some of the things you asked.
i'll tell you, i promise.
till then,
slowly munch
and enjoy that chocolate bar,
in your dreams,
miss godzilla (=
i miss you.
oh i miss you so.
telling you,
i miss you.
THAT, WAS A good REST =D
ah hah, havent slept so well in ages. had a sucky dream, =/ but ah well. who cares! its REFRESHING!
so why am i posting on a good morning like this? because i like to express, because i think i owe people a good explanation. and because of some minor self indulgence =p
so whats to express? first! 20 more days! its depressing at first, but then if we all could survive so long, what more 20 days! [ including weekends] countdown to POP! 4 more book ins, 4 more book outs! which includes the POP week.
next, gunning for SAF central Band. this one's serious, and i think i mentioned it before, but im postive and confident it will be okay. im not going to issue myself an ultimatium, that i absolutely have to go in, but i do realise its importance right now. so this coming weekend would be all revising of some music stuff. wont be hard with the ahem, power of the internet! =D
on another even more serious note, A levels. a few of you would already have been informed about this. i learnt my lesson. a very painful lesson.i think thats enough to be said.typing anymore about it wont make any progression.making amends wont be easy. but sionce not doing anything and just wondering whats ifs was any easier?
had a long talk with my sir. hes very disappointed im not going for command school.but i've already decided. im thankful hes holds me in...some light, even if i do make the most idiotic mistakes, unnecessary ones at that.but i will keep the promise he asked of me.the least,that i can do. thank you, 2nd Lt. WZY.
guess when im drained i can be a very powefully emotionally evil bastard who likes to bring people down with words. nothing like spreading the ill cheer around, like a stupid contagious virus running amok. super flubugs. =/
thats one part of my character i have to reticfy on.
last week ahsnt been a good week. BUT! we move on, and learn, dont we. [= thank the Lord for guiding this idiotic lost sheep the past week. who forgot that there will always be You, right beside me, picking me up when i cant stand. God teach me and quide me with your Love, and grace.
alright. thats for up for now. ee goes out!
thank you, for staying with me.
its not been easy for you.
not at all.
but thank you.
i know i didnt answer some of the things you asked.
i'll tell you, i promise.
till then,
slowly munch
and enjoy that chocolate bar,
in your dreams,
miss godzilla (=
i miss you.
oh i miss you so.
telling you,
i miss you.
18 May, 2008
double redux
if im posting againg twice, it must mean either im incredibly bored, or im in a state of thinking. guess its both [=
just woke up, and its so much the apparent i needed the extra hours of rest. 22 more days in total to leaving tekong, and i guess i could endure that. im more concerned about getting through my auditions, but i think i stand some chance. [ confidence, this? must attempt at some self belief , no? (= ]
probably going out for a while later.
i need to get away from bookstores though. already so many books unread, and still greedily buying more -_-
we'll see. update this later!
just woke up, and its so much the apparent i needed the extra hours of rest. 22 more days in total to leaving tekong, and i guess i could endure that. im more concerned about getting through my auditions, but i think i stand some chance. [ confidence, this? must attempt at some self belief , no? (= ]
probably going out for a while later.
i need to get away from bookstores though. already so many books unread, and still greedily buying more -_-
we'll see. update this later!
fresh double
Sitest's over. thought we did rather well, with 2 external assessors praising us for our speed and efficiency in completing the missions. loved the 2nd day, when we walked through gleefully like children through the huge puddles of water, splashing and swirling. the rain cooling our bodies, and the thankfulness from another day of being under the blistering sun. my last outfield, ended well.
slept cowboy, which was cool, but freaking freezing even before dawn. heard the guards conversion course boys coming under enemy fire at around 5am from their campsite. poor dudes.contacted!
not aiming for command school anymore. after whats happened this week, which none were pleasant, i dont even want to stay on in this life. march 2010, and im gone from this organisation for good.
the interview went well.really great in fact. but i withdrew anyway.
its just been pretty...drastically affecting. i dont want to talk about it here, probably wont mention much, probably tell a few without elaborating or revealing much of the details. not emotional, but i cant possibly care less to all those stuff than they're have already stuck on.
15 more days of nonsense.
i will miss its sunsets. they're incredibly beyond any vocabulary description, as if vocabulary of any highest order can make up for the limited intelligence of our species at conveying adequate and satisfactiory forms. even the patterns of colours...more than just a wild impulsive dash of the deft brush. its just beautiful. and i conclude lamely thus, beautiful. fatalistic indulgences .heh.
what more to type? im lazy. and i cant be bothered now. things abound, & im just lazying around. oh yes. i want to study again. its what my heart really desires.
its gona be another busy day. cant i have my lazy sunday.
condolences to the aisan quakes victims. dont want to elaborate on this either. the scale of this tradgey is for all to see. saw a picture of a man strapping on the corpse of his dead wife using rope onto his back and riding on a bicycle to a nearby town/city fomr his runied home because he didnt want to bury her in the rubble of rocks and mounds of waste. he wanted to give her some dignity, of a proper grave. not to rest upon the aftermath of destruction but of a human dwelling.
imagine that unbearable, buring pain. imagine the grief he must carry.imagine that guilt that he should live. yet within all these he places priority to...
forget all those romance novels or movies that end happily everafter.
coz this, in all harsh forms of reality ,is real love.
pray, for those still alive right now, trapped beneath.pray, pray , pray.
slept cowboy, which was cool, but freaking freezing even before dawn. heard the guards conversion course boys coming under enemy fire at around 5am from their campsite. poor dudes.contacted!
not aiming for command school anymore. after whats happened this week, which none were pleasant, i dont even want to stay on in this life. march 2010, and im gone from this organisation for good.
the interview went well.really great in fact. but i withdrew anyway.
its just been pretty...drastically affecting. i dont want to talk about it here, probably wont mention much, probably tell a few without elaborating or revealing much of the details. not emotional, but i cant possibly care less to all those stuff than they're have already stuck on.
15 more days of nonsense.
i will miss its sunsets. they're incredibly beyond any vocabulary description, as if vocabulary of any highest order can make up for the limited intelligence of our species at conveying adequate and satisfactiory forms. even the patterns of colours...more than just a wild impulsive dash of the deft brush. its just beautiful. and i conclude lamely thus, beautiful. fatalistic indulgences .heh.
what more to type? im lazy. and i cant be bothered now. things abound, & im just lazying around. oh yes. i want to study again. its what my heart really desires.
its gona be another busy day. cant i have my lazy sunday.
condolences to the aisan quakes victims. dont want to elaborate on this either. the scale of this tradgey is for all to see. saw a picture of a man strapping on the corpse of his dead wife using rope onto his back and riding on a bicycle to a nearby town/city fomr his runied home because he didnt want to bury her in the rubble of rocks and mounds of waste. he wanted to give her some dignity, of a proper grave. not to rest upon the aftermath of destruction but of a human dwelling.
imagine that unbearable, buring pain. imagine the grief he must carry.imagine that guilt that he should live. yet within all these he places priority to...
forget all those romance novels or movies that end happily everafter.
coz this, in all harsh forms of reality ,is real love.
pray, for those still alive right now, trapped beneath.pray, pray , pray.
11 May, 2008
Jump between the dim and the dark
emotional rant last night. guess it was just all the accumulation of all the tiredness. maybe.
realised debbie and i are feeling the same. we're both afraid. of entering adulthood.
the same, gripping, paralyzing fear. the realization that soon we'll move out of teenagehood seems unbelievably hard to take. not denial, just fearing it.the uncertain times of our future.
could it be the responsibilities? maybe. might very well be.
shes not well now, my best[est] friend. i'll pray hard, like i told you.its all i can do, but im sure you'll recover dweeb.
i deck u out with frozen strawberries when you're better [=
so bloody get well.
its mother's day. mum and i had a heart to heart chat about some issues. shes holding me, my mum. i love her [=
holding me firm on the ground while i shiver unsteadily in fear and anxiety.
im damm lucky. or blessed somehow to get a mum like her.
right now, after reading what i typed,this is the first time since this year, that im emotionally down to a degree. im tired, im half annoyed, rather impatient. mostly brooding. but im not transversing in my thoughts, nor recycling them. just that perpetual tide of ...i dont know.
perhaps when i come back again things will turn on the upswing.
till then. praying, thinking,wondering,maddening,bothering,doing.
spook out.
realised debbie and i are feeling the same. we're both afraid. of entering adulthood.
the same, gripping, paralyzing fear. the realization that soon we'll move out of teenagehood seems unbelievably hard to take. not denial, just fearing it.the uncertain times of our future.
could it be the responsibilities? maybe. might very well be.
shes not well now, my best[est] friend. i'll pray hard, like i told you.its all i can do, but im sure you'll recover dweeb.
i deck u out with frozen strawberries when you're better [=
so bloody get well.
its mother's day. mum and i had a heart to heart chat about some issues. shes holding me, my mum. i love her [=
holding me firm on the ground while i shiver unsteadily in fear and anxiety.
im damm lucky. or blessed somehow to get a mum like her.
right now, after reading what i typed,this is the first time since this year, that im emotionally down to a degree. im tired, im half annoyed, rather impatient. mostly brooding. but im not transversing in my thoughts, nor recycling them. just that perpetual tide of ...i dont know.
perhaps when i come back again things will turn on the upswing.
till then. praying, thinking,wondering,maddening,bothering,doing.
spook out.
10 May, 2008
Aurus
Field camp completed, dusted, done , dead and buried with.
Finally over! STest coming up, but it'll be relatively better than FC [=
anything less than 6 days already sounds like a sweet deal.
missions, missions, missions. then back to bunk, and after that it just leaves one important event and several other stuff "they" claim to be crucial but everyone know its rhetorical bs ^^
FC was..... definitely memorable and to some measure even enjoyable... tough times yeah, but also fun and good times.
the combat rations pastas rock. some are even better our cookhouse food =p
we had some time to ourselves in between, and theres a lot of reflection while you you just sit down there on the mud, tired like hell. the mind is shagged, but surprisingly clear. and thats when you start to contemplate.
so i decided to change the idea that im a screw up to i-screwed-things-up kind of perception.
old wounds will always come back and haunt you. always. even if it heals, the shadow of a mark lies upon your shivering heart. dear God, thank You for patching and doing all the fixing.
your own defenses are forcibly removed, so theres nothing but raw, real feelings.layer by layer that's stripped away. and thats made me come to terms with myself and myself to some people.how much they mean to me and so on. [=
you see true colours of people,you see true colours of yourself. beyond the army concept is the minute fullfilment and involvement in finallly getting a good hint, the firm idenity of what and who you are. or at least the percetion nous of it all.
this week will be fairly important, so im just hoping and praying it will go smoothly, if not at least ending it well.
met up with jc pals today. all the botak heads...[=
feels good tho. we might be in diff coys, but we suffered the same shit together[ ch is going fc on mon, good luck pal!] so its pretty synonymous in that sense. time to play soccer AGAIN. i cant stand not playing for so many weeks, so WE GOTTA AT LEAST PLAY ONCE.
rub looks funny with the shaved hair, ch looks th esame with his gooy grin, josh looks ...josh , and kx (armour boy!) has the longest follicles than us[sigh]
so many pretty girls in orchard [= eye candied. but some were in the slutty sense. ahh. heh, dweeb will protest vehemently if not for the fact she lost her voice. not that i care anyway, i'll still look whether you complain at me not to. ^^ just like the way you gush over guys[terrible taste you got, serious.] -----------------> superficial paragraph . zzzz. so sue me.
watched doomsday, which was so shitty , amazingly shitty that you just have this frozen smile in disbelief at the (lack) of thought, or even stupidity of the whole gag show. gawked at the dark knight poster featuring the joker. so dammmmm COOL. (fanboy gush over)
3 more book outs after this long one.[which to me is already over mentally.prepared.] time really flies.
wey is going to guards! ready to strike, eh [= goodluck, mr underpaid commando.
im in a guards coy, but i dont want to go guards. aiming for o.0 command school for 8 weeks! rawrrr.
watched code geass last night. had lines that struck me when lelouch was again manipulating his opponents.
" what do you fight evil with, justice? could it triumph evil? or do you already know that justice cannot defeat it? therefore, would you willingly stain your hands with evil to fight evil? or would you still insist on your dwindling justice ?
with the answer simply a contradiction.
evil would still remain either way.
but isnt that what some people handle their struggles with. thank God for some close friends who persevere., who persist, to shoulder on in unwavering, unflagging faith even if all the troubles threatened to overwhelm and drown them. they become a source of light and encouragement when i come to my own.
tiiiired. gone. intel specs , so from now its spook!
eehern spooks!
when i ate my first jellybean offered to me in the forest at night by my officer, my heart
burned and ached so badly. you asked me if i missed you. im tired of answering over somtimes. i miss
you so dammmmmm bad.right now though i dont even give a damm if you even do miss me. no, i do, just at the moment too tired to care.i dont want to care if you do. dont want to care if you dont. its damm tiring holding this alone.
im not giving up. all i want, is a little bit of rest , under the cooling shade of the trees. because right now i dont want to care. i dont want to bloody give a damm care.even if its hurting now.that, can be endured.talking to you last night was just so nonsensical.maybe its fine that for a long period we didnt talk, while i just slept a little, while you watched your shows. maybe you dont even know about all this .or maybe you just choose to look away. im not laying any blame on you. maybe you partly to blame. maybe you're just innocent. but right now. i dont want to care.i dont want to care.right now, right now, i dont want to care.
that, was last night. right now, in the early morning beforfe dawn, i wake to, read this part again. its how i felt last night. im sorry. but you deserve to know. even if i can never know how you feel. not telling me anything leaves me with just trust that you may feel the same way, even....if only at the slightest.... i do, i do. and so i'll continue to do.
Finally over! STest coming up, but it'll be relatively better than FC [=
anything less than 6 days already sounds like a sweet deal.
missions, missions, missions. then back to bunk, and after that it just leaves one important event and several other stuff "they" claim to be crucial but everyone know its rhetorical bs ^^
FC was..... definitely memorable and to some measure even enjoyable... tough times yeah, but also fun and good times.
the combat rations pastas rock. some are even better our cookhouse food =p
we had some time to ourselves in between, and theres a lot of reflection while you you just sit down there on the mud, tired like hell. the mind is shagged, but surprisingly clear. and thats when you start to contemplate.
so i decided to change the idea that im a screw up to i-screwed-things-up kind of perception.
old wounds will always come back and haunt you. always. even if it heals, the shadow of a mark lies upon your shivering heart. dear God, thank You for patching and doing all the fixing.
your own defenses are forcibly removed, so theres nothing but raw, real feelings.layer by layer that's stripped away. and thats made me come to terms with myself and myself to some people.how much they mean to me and so on. [=
you see true colours of people,you see true colours of yourself. beyond the army concept is the minute fullfilment and involvement in finallly getting a good hint, the firm idenity of what and who you are. or at least the percetion nous of it all.
this week will be fairly important, so im just hoping and praying it will go smoothly, if not at least ending it well.
met up with jc pals today. all the botak heads...[=
feels good tho. we might be in diff coys, but we suffered the same shit together[ ch is going fc on mon, good luck pal!] so its pretty synonymous in that sense. time to play soccer AGAIN. i cant stand not playing for so many weeks, so WE GOTTA AT LEAST PLAY ONCE.
rub looks funny with the shaved hair, ch looks th esame with his gooy grin, josh looks ...josh , and kx (armour boy!) has the longest follicles than us[sigh]
so many pretty girls in orchard [= eye candied. but some were in the slutty sense. ahh. heh, dweeb will protest vehemently if not for the fact she lost her voice. not that i care anyway, i'll still look whether you complain at me not to. ^^ just like the way you gush over guys[terrible taste you got, serious.] -----------------> superficial paragraph . zzzz. so sue me.
watched doomsday, which was so shitty , amazingly shitty that you just have this frozen smile in disbelief at the (lack) of thought, or even stupidity of the whole gag show. gawked at the dark knight poster featuring the joker. so dammmmm COOL. (fanboy gush over)
3 more book outs after this long one.[which to me is already over mentally.prepared.] time really flies.
wey is going to guards! ready to strike, eh [= goodluck, mr underpaid commando.
im in a guards coy, but i dont want to go guards. aiming for o.0 command school for 8 weeks! rawrrr.
watched code geass last night. had lines that struck me when lelouch was again manipulating his opponents.
" what do you fight evil with, justice? could it triumph evil? or do you already know that justice cannot defeat it? therefore, would you willingly stain your hands with evil to fight evil? or would you still insist on your dwindling justice ?
with the answer simply a contradiction.
evil would still remain either way.
but isnt that what some people handle their struggles with. thank God for some close friends who persevere., who persist, to shoulder on in unwavering, unflagging faith even if all the troubles threatened to overwhelm and drown them. they become a source of light and encouragement when i come to my own.
tiiiired. gone. intel specs , so from now its spook!
eehern spooks!
when i ate my first jellybean offered to me in the forest at night by my officer, my heart
burned and ached so badly. you asked me if i missed you. im tired of answering over somtimes. i miss
you so dammmmmm bad.right now though i dont even give a damm if you even do miss me. no, i do, just at the moment too tired to care.i dont want to care if you do. dont want to care if you dont. its damm tiring holding this alone.
im not giving up. all i want, is a little bit of rest , under the cooling shade of the trees. because right now i dont want to care. i dont want to bloody give a damm care.even if its hurting now.that, can be endured.talking to you last night was just so nonsensical.maybe its fine that for a long period we didnt talk, while i just slept a little, while you watched your shows. maybe you dont even know about all this .or maybe you just choose to look away. im not laying any blame on you. maybe you partly to blame. maybe you're just innocent. but right now. i dont want to care.i dont want to care.right now, right now, i dont want to care.
that, was last night. right now, in the early morning beforfe dawn, i wake to, read this part again. its how i felt last night. im sorry. but you deserve to know. even if i can never know how you feel. not telling me anything leaves me with just trust that you may feel the same way, even....if only at the slightest.... i do, i do. and so i'll continue to do.
01 May, 2008
empty red box
and thus, field camp week is upon here!
i'll pray, for everyone to come back safely, with at most only many bruises to show, no injuries minor or major whatsoever. i will survive. somehow, we'll all make it.
mentally prepared, a little excited and somewhat nervous. my sir says thats pretty much normal. my platoon commander/ company 2nd in charge sirrrrrrr (=
i really like him as a person. hes one of the more mature, respectable and affable man i have ever met in bmt. i really want to be a friend in contact to him when i finally leave tekong for good, so hopefully after all the busy weeks when the slack times come we'll be able to have more chitchats. about reading[we both like to read] and even political views. or something nonsensical rubbish along the line.
like the one we had, and like the one in which he gave me good, sound advice, and where he encouraged me to step out more.
i didnt tell anybody what he told me, and i'll only post it here, to you select few { yeah u v.i.p snobs, rejoice rejoice, feel honoured you can read this XD]
he said "i always think that you're a strong, optimistic and mature person."
totally opposite of whatim feeling about myself right now in camp.
that really stunned me. im pretty much quiet in camp, so i was guessing words along like reserved, quiet{duh} and that sort.
so i feel pretty much....happy that im seen in such light by him. i didnt tell any of my mates , not even the closest because i dont think it will be right. that would be my pride at work?
anyway, this was followed by our own platoon assessment of each of us. one section will view their impressions of each of us in other sections.
i got "diplomatic" which i have no idea why, "decent" which made me frown in question, and "gentle giant" which that section upon explanation said it means= very nice guy. wtf. XD
oh well. anyway dweeb, you said my temper's so much better now. hopefully thats true. it hasnt flare up for quite some time now.i'll get u a cd. got one in mind already. after fc!
we'll always be haunted by memories, both good and bad. the bad ones more, because we tend to remember the bad ones and sort of form a stoic conclusion and/or judgement on whatever scenario that demands. this has not been the best of weeks.
almost done with lisey's story. pretty decent work. but not horrifying enough. heh. its almost like a tribute to the human emotions, specifically the the human spectrum of imagination dreams, love and what sort. my description sucks. zzz.
i miss my sister. she wont be back till july, and by then i would have embarked onto the next stage. that stupid idiot (= using facebook to check on me zzz.
saw iron man last night with the pri sch peeps. everyones getting fatter so i feel heh heh heh more fit. XD movie was quite enjoyable despite the lack of focus and not so smooth direction. still. hes pretty cool, downing jr . very charismatic. a good summerblockbuster to just sit and enjoy. man i LOVE that audi R8.
thats all for now i guess. when i next post again, field camp would have ended, sit test would have arrived, and perhaps things will become all the clearer, like silver glass.
booya.
i'll pray, for everyone to come back safely, with at most only many bruises to show, no injuries minor or major whatsoever. i will survive. somehow, we'll all make it.
mentally prepared, a little excited and somewhat nervous. my sir says thats pretty much normal. my platoon commander/ company 2nd in charge sirrrrrrr (=
i really like him as a person. hes one of the more mature, respectable and affable man i have ever met in bmt. i really want to be a friend in contact to him when i finally leave tekong for good, so hopefully after all the busy weeks when the slack times come we'll be able to have more chitchats. about reading[we both like to read] and even political views. or something nonsensical rubbish along the line.
like the one we had, and like the one in which he gave me good, sound advice, and where he encouraged me to step out more.
i didnt tell anybody what he told me, and i'll only post it here, to you select few { yeah u v.i.p snobs, rejoice rejoice, feel honoured you can read this XD]
he said "i always think that you're a strong, optimistic and mature person."
totally opposite of whatim feeling about myself right now in camp.
that really stunned me. im pretty much quiet in camp, so i was guessing words along like reserved, quiet{duh} and that sort.
so i feel pretty much....happy that im seen in such light by him. i didnt tell any of my mates , not even the closest because i dont think it will be right. that would be my pride at work?
anyway, this was followed by our own platoon assessment of each of us. one section will view their impressions of each of us in other sections.
i got "diplomatic" which i have no idea why, "decent" which made me frown in question, and "gentle giant" which that section upon explanation said it means= very nice guy. wtf. XD
oh well. anyway dweeb, you said my temper's so much better now. hopefully thats true. it hasnt flare up for quite some time now.i'll get u a cd. got one in mind already. after fc!
we'll always be haunted by memories, both good and bad. the bad ones more, because we tend to remember the bad ones and sort of form a stoic conclusion and/or judgement on whatever scenario that demands. this has not been the best of weeks.
almost done with lisey's story. pretty decent work. but not horrifying enough. heh. its almost like a tribute to the human emotions, specifically the the human spectrum of imagination dreams, love and what sort. my description sucks. zzz.
i miss my sister. she wont be back till july, and by then i would have embarked onto the next stage. that stupid idiot (= using facebook to check on me zzz.
saw iron man last night with the pri sch peeps. everyones getting fatter so i feel heh heh heh more fit. XD movie was quite enjoyable despite the lack of focus and not so smooth direction. still. hes pretty cool, downing jr . very charismatic. a good summerblockbuster to just sit and enjoy. man i LOVE that audi R8.
thats all for now i guess. when i next post again, field camp would have ended, sit test would have arrived, and perhaps things will become all the clearer, like silver glass.
booya.
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