Accepted

Just finish watching the show 'Accepted' on HBO. The movie is rather like a teen-pop "fantasy in real life" setting sort of plot. You know those kind of movies where the main character is going to be a great hit with crowds, school mates and society... you sort of want to emulate his/her success as a crowd winner... haha

for more info check this out
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0384793/

but the important point of this/these movie/s is that ... we should always follow our heart. Even if society thinks we are not acceptable... we should not be rejected...

Why do we have to be worried about grades, certificates and prestige? Why does society scorn on 'failures', people who fall out of the system or the norm? Shouldn't everyone be given equal chances as respectable human beings?

Weird right? But painfully it is true... the system we live in is rather ... unacceptable of people who cannot find success and people who do not have higher education or follow social norms. I don't understand really why... but I think its due to the system, expectations, competition and most ironically ... because of the acceptance of success...

Sometimes I think like B (Justin Long, the apple guy in the adverts!) in the movie... why can't successful people in society (success) co exist with people who fail to follow the mainstream trends (failure)? Wouldn't it be nice if we just spend time to understand one another better? Think about that. I am going to try to make it happen... at least in my world.

Extract from the movie:

Bartleby: Nah, I'm not going to answer your question, 'cause you guys have already made up your minds. I'm an expert in rejection, and I can see it on your faces. And it's too bad that you judge us by the way we look and not by who we are. Just because you want us to be more like them when the truth is we're not like them. And I am damn proud of that fact. I mean, Harmon College and their - and their 100 years of tradition. But tradition of what? Of hazing kids and humiliating anyone who's a bit different? Of putting so much pressure on kids they turn into these - these stress freaks and caffeine addicts.

Dean Van Horne: Your phony school demeans real colleges everywhere!

Bartleby: Why? Why can't we both exist? Huh? You can have your grades, and your rules and your structure and your ivory towers, and then we'll do things our way. Why do we have to conform to what you want?

Dean Van Horne: Your curriculum is a joke, and you, sir, are a criminal.

Bartleby: You know what? You're a criminal. 'Cause you rob these kids of their creativity and their passion. That's the real crime! Well, what about you parents? Did -did the system really work out for you? Did it teach you to follow your heart, or to just play it safe, roll over? What about you guys? Did you always want to be school administrators? Dr. Alexander, was that your dream? Or maybe no, maybe you wanted to be a poet. Maybe you wanted to be a magician or an artist. Maybe you just wanted to travel the world. Look, I - I - I - I lied to you. I lied to all of you, and I'm sorry. Dad, especially to you. But out of that desperation, something happened that was so amazing. Life was full of possibilities. A - and isn't that what you ultimately want for us? As parents, I mean, is - is that, is possibilities. Well, we came here today to ask for your approval, and something just occurred to me. I don't give a shit. Who cares about your approval? We don't need your approval to tell us that what we did was real. 'Cause there are so few truths in this world, that when you see one, you just know it. And I know that it is a truth that real learning took place at South Harmon. Whether you like it or not, it did. 'Cause you don't need teachers or classrooms or - or fancy highbrow traditions or money to really learn. You just need people with a desire to better themselves, and we got that by the shit at South Harmon. So you can go ahead, sign your forms, reject us and shoot us down, and do whatever you gotta do. It doesn't really matter at this point. Because we'll never stop learning, and we'll never stop growing, and we'll never forget the ideals what were instilled in us at our place. 'Cause we are SHIT heads now, and we'll be SHIT heads forever and nothing you say can do or stamp can take that away from us! So go!

This Post is dedicated to students/ people / friends like me, who aren't the brightest.
It goes out to those who appreciate life and want believe in themselves and their dreams.
Especially to Gina and my friends, you always be accepted in my life.
Happy Belated Merry X Mas

I wish we all will meet again.

This post is going to be a bit depressing. Especially those who feel the same.

Feelings after watching '881' (express in a conversation on MSN, edited for Grammatical errors)
4:51 Thursday, December 20, 2007
» hope your awake soon, i just finish watching 881
» its a singaporean local production
» in many ways it makes me feel sad ... cos its about 2 girls who perform for the dead on the getai during the 7th month
» and the songs they sing... remind me of those who left us
» cos the songs they sing are for those who pass away... thats why most of the songs are also play during the chinese funerals... they aren't so familiar at first it was only much later when one of them dies... then i realize they played that song at my granny's funeral
» the movie really touches my heart. and it makes me scare about death but more so... to lose those who i love.

I think the movie is very well done. It really connects vert well with Singaporeans and Chinese families. It is able to bring that sadness and grief you experience at time when those important to us leave this world.

By watching it once... I suddenly remembered many painful memories ... especially when granny left. I remembered crying for days. I think that feeling is hard to forget and 'recall' except at times when someone important leaves.

But this movie has done so. Maybe it is the language that keeps me engaged with the idea of family and friends, cause it is only when I spend time with them do I speak dialect. And the use of dialect in many ways... brings me back to times of family gatherings... sadly times when family members pass away, the cries and shouts for granny to come 'back' were in dialect ... never in English or Mandarin.

But most of all, the songs and expressions of the actresses singing... remind you that life is full of hardship, love and farewell. The farewell song in the hospital, about birth, life and passing away as well as a few other dialect tunes were played at granny's funeral as well. That 'killed' me, as it brought me back to the scene of the funeral.

Perhaps I am thinking too much. Yet I have one childish wish, that will never be granted unless I pass away first,... I hope I do not have to learn about the death of a friend or family member. That aside, I do wish and hope (though some may not agree with me), I will meet you again after this life.

Seletar Camp Adventure

Yar right, who can have an adventure in Seletar Camp?

Get a mountain bike and explore the camp yourself, its quite a different experience and feel from the noise of the urban life we are all too used to. Its probably an invisible landscape... one that is home to the rich and the forgotten construction workers... and of cos, one with rich heritage and history within its grounds as a military base.

Seletar Camp - Rustic? Or Modern?

O yar, I guess I had been talking about getting a new bike and purchasing it. Well this is the new bike below. Cool huh? Its a GT Avalanche 2.0 2008 model. The bike handles very well on dirt and bumpy trails ... I tested it today... haha. Try mountain biking one day... you won't regret. Better still, it can help you keep fit.

My GT Avalanche 2.0

The adventure begun when I decided to explore this relatively secluded part of Singapore. Furthermore, the roads within the camp are prefect for beginners, traffic isn't that pack but beware of inconsiderate speedsters. There are some bumpy, dirt tracks you can wonder along as well. It seemed like a normal training session till I saw the turning into Seletar Airport. So I decide to check it out.

The Exclusive Private Playground

As I deviated from my the main road, I realized how 'unfriendly' this part of the camp was. It really is a space where only the well-to-do can afford to utilize. There was the private airport, private housing (one of the houses had a football field, a playground and a swimming pool, it had the facilities to operate a school. I wonder which female pig stays there to have so many kids... or is it just another case of inequality within our home... sigh.) golf courses and exclusive club houses.

There was also blardee a lot of warning signs and caution notices, it made the place look super unfriendly... but there was was which was particularly funny haha.

Don't Be Christmas Turkey

The adventure carried on as i cycled further in, till I reached this area where there was a construction project going on. This area was full of foreign workers, who bleed and sweat into building the infrastructure but never get recognized or accepted. It isn't surprising that this space is rightful theirs at the moment... and sadly this space is also one of the few spaces of leisure and interaction for them. While was there, I saw foreign workers of different nationalities interacting with one another, fishing, biking like me, and drinking by the water. I can't figure why but this site saddens me and all I could offer was my smile as I cycled past them.

Playground Hidden Away From Ours
(Take note, Seletar Dam where locals hang out is in the back ground)

But the finale was at the end... as I was cycling towards the gates that I came through at the beginning... I discovered it had been locked... some worker must have chained it while I was within the construction yard. Well, thank gosh I could dismantle my bike and squeeze it through the gates... and luckily I could squeeze myself through it as well. haha. If I couldn't get out, I think I would need to wait till the workers come and open up the gates for me... damm that idiot who chained up the gates. BLEAH!

A Tight Escape

Picking up the D50 once again

I took a photo recently.

I guess it helps represent my life very much in the past semester... or at least how I felt about it. It also tells you what weird weather we had recently. haha

I believe in time to come, I will once again learn and return to photos to explain myself.

Black clouds raging in the far grounds
But I have the light behind me

Too much time?

I think holidays seem to be the best period of a student's life... we seem to hope it comes sooner and sooner as our workload becomes ridiculous during the term. I guess this is my last holiday as a NUS student in Singapore, the next one shall be spent overseas.

And it is because of this fact, I have been trying to max out my days to do as many things as I can.

Its only been 1 week since the end of the exams... but it seem that school life is almost forgotten ... haha.

I have embark on a journey... to find back my 'old self' and I think I started on the right note...

I started to take my fitness more serious then ever. The IPPT draws nearer... its in May, this time around, I want to get at least a silver. I taken on cycling once again. Got a Mountain bike... the GT avalanche 2.0 ... hopefully I can use the bike to take on mountain biking... or at least trail biking. Been taking my daily runs very seriously... trying to run at a lower heart rate then before. Finally, I never felt better in the pool before. I swim faster then before... much faster... averaging 30 laps of freestyle per session but swimming requires entrance fee and traveling expense... damm why ain't I living in a condo?

Back at Big O once again... everything seems the same... well, there are new staff, 'old birds' are back ... but then again, as much as I enjoy working with my friends... changes often bring about difficulties. But thats not my main concern.

I think the best things about the holidays is ... you once again get a chance to relax with your friends... its been only the first week... but I have caught up with so many buddies... I shall blog about these 'friendly' encounters soon... I have to actively blog again... cos I find my memory failing me. Only by blogging will I be able to remember better. I believe.

The last Paper yeah!

I bet you used this statement (the title of this post) before... I am not being evil but when I hear a few students talking about it after my second paper for the sem, I shouted:
"Yeah, 5 more Papers and no more examinations for the rest of my life!"

So try beating that.

I think my brain is being over taxed... My speech/ grammar and phrases are all going out of hand...

"Kill two stones with one bird" (Kill two birds with one stone) and "Bowl of soup" (instead of "cup of tea")

And when you are panicking, trying to study and stressed... do you realize that it happens to your friends as well... for one, the number of bloopers and falls/slips are increasing around me. Haha.

Tomorrow is the last paper for the semester.... next semester, 3 more papers and I am done with the stupid system of NUS examinations. But the time from now till tomorrow, it seems freaking long. Damm.

The adventures of the Ung - Part 1

Doreen Ung came back. Yes that was last week. I didn't get to meet her much till the end of her stay in town but I still enjoyed bring her around to tour the ever changing landscapes and place of Singapore. Sometimes as you travel with a friend who has left Singapore for a long period of time... you sort of feel that Singapore is always trap within this 'bubble of development'... everywhere around you, construction and upgrading takes place. Doreen felt this way. It is matters like this, you kind of be unconscious of, until someone from the 'outside' brings your attention to it.

Times spent together with her was so fun and happy, I sort of forgot that I was amidst preparing for the examinations. Haha.

I think my god sis is happier this time around, although she keeps complaining she might 'melt' under our ultra hot climate which she no longer can identify as the one she used to spend her youth in. The last time I saw her was when she was in Sydney, perhaps back then she wasn't on holiday and she looked kind of tired from work. Maybe its also because, all her friends back here just miss her and treat the rare and precious Ung like a princess on holiday. Haha.

Well its good to see an old friend's smile again. Shall continue about her (missed) adventures when I get more pictures. O yar Doreen, I told you, I could blog about your trip during the examinations period. haha.

This does not happen everyday, even when I drive everyday.

Auntie Foo and the Level 6 Neighbours

Haha, thats you Geri! Welcome back!

Its good to see friends come back. Such as Geri. Seldom get to meet her so its great to catch up with her today. Went to 85 to feast on sting ray, carrot cake, chicken wings and Bar Chor Mee. We always end up eating junk food every time we hang out haha. And there is so much rubbish and stuff to share with Geri, but I think I have to cut down on the crazy/ pointless jokes. Cos it might irritate Geri haha.

Its great to have friends around you during the examination period. There will always be meal buddies and guys to buy food for those preparing for papers. People who will ensure stay awake, sometimes resorting to water guns... punk you with jokes and pranks... ensure you speak properly and most of all, which I will remember, drink with you and play Texas Holden till you sort of remove the examination pains and blue. These are the Level 6 Neighbours... Who have made this examination period rather memorable and enjoyable. Too bad I only got to know them much better this semester, hopefully we get more drinking session and poker sessions.

The second paper is down. Thats good, 2 more coming up next week. Once I am done with that, play time will start. Haha.

Then again, it also means exercise and dieting... been putting on some weight recently. Turning into a rolly polly. Damm... My training routine is hay wired due to the examinations. Everyday as I studied in hall... all I can dream of is jogging, swimming and cycling. I think I am going to enjoy this holidays so much... Going to be rather alone, I would like it that way.

"The moment you drink alone,
you know you truly turn alcoholic"
Don, 2007

Hopeful Vs Hopeless

A binary? Or a Dichotomy? Or a Dialectic?
Honesty I am not trying to explain the title of the post.

I am just trying to express how lost I feel. I really don't know why.
I can't seem to 'screw'/squeeze anything into my brain.

Getting tired by the moment... It seems that my brain
is like a saturated sponge... but no matter how much I try to squeeze
the ideas don't flow out.

Oh. No they do. But they are impure and dirty.
Damm...

The Pinky Show?

Who or what is the Pinky Show?

I have not really been able to grapple what the Pinky Show is about, I watched only 1 video... but I am seriously amazed at their presentations (in form of videos) on current pressing world issues. Check out their website. (I seriously don't know if they are offended that I link them)

http://www.pinkyshow.org/

I believe this site is suitable for everyone to get a Left/radical perspective on world issues... some rather controversial such as is the Iraqi War Legal or Illegal. They have views from experts and done research on these topics yet presented it clearly so normal people like you and me can understand their message. And what I like about it is they share opinions on what can be done...

So yar, when you have free time go and watch their videos and read their articles... they are amazing.

Furthermore, they are Cats! haha... like uber adorable Cats... anyway cats are my favourite animals as well haha.

Brain down but a fruitful Sunday

Spent the entire afternoon and evening in Sheares trying to study. I work as hard as I could and I felt it wasn't such a bad session. Although, I am still going to work at full steam and to the best of my abilities... sometimes the heart is weak... and the process sucks.

In many ways, this semester has made me discover what I really want. I cherish my remaining times with my class, friends and pals... more then the grades... didn't seem to be that way in year 2 and year 3... but for now, at least, that is confirmed. I am more willing to enjoy the day with my friends then study haha. But then again who doesn't... yet not many people, who would practice rational thinking, will actually do it. But I think I am more irrational now days... but then again... I think I have to play catch up as well... cannot slack until I can turn a total deaf ear.

Today was rather fun, I spend time with the Level 6 Guys... I think more then ever, I am accepted here as a permanent resident. Gross video clips, Bloopers and Southpark... I think these make your day interesting rather then all dull... And someone is going to get punked... haha. I am not sure how life can be without Sheares... even though I am not a member of it formally I think I will miss this hybrid hall life of mine.

Well its close to 2... my brain is really drained and I can't absorb anymore... I wish time would pass faster... get this over and done with... then I can move ahead with life and get my things done.... ISM, Project White room, preparations for Christmas... Birthdays around the corner... and most importantly exercising... I miss my free time. Damm.

The Dream

I just woke up from a dream.

It was a good dream. It felt as though many things came back. And flash backs keep constantly bombarding my mind. Maybe the things we are unfamiliar to, are the ones that become dreams.

Now I am awoken. I feel lost. I didn't want the dream to end. But truth is, it has. So now I have to get back into life as it really is. Maybe this holidays I really have to spend a lot of time thinking about reality and whether dreams can be real as well. Cos it is painful to wake up from a dream you wish never ended.

Alantis the seafood place

On Wednesday, my family and I celebrated my dad's birthday. I guess the term 'my family' is rather unfamiliar in this blog... cos I never mentioned them most of the time... what if they google their names and it links to my blog... haha

Wasn't such a great day... didn't study much and I was rather tired. So I woke up after lunch feeling gloomy... and what make things worst, Senior Mr Tan, the supposed birthday boy, wasn't at home when he was suppose to be ready to leave the home for dinner... he went for his traditional Chinese medicine treatment. We were suppose to be at the restaurant at 7 but at 655 he was still not home... so I had to call the restaurant and make another change for the reservation... the second time around. Anyway thanks to my brother, who was at the restaurant on time, we manage to order the dishes through the phone... for one of the few times I actually thank him. haha

Well I was rather worried about the bill... cos Senior Mr Tan didn't have the menu with him but he order a lot of food stuff over the phone... and I was to use my card to pay first, cos it had a discount at the restaurant, hence I was worrying even more...

But the evening turned out to be a great family dinner... I think my family dinners and other family occasions have entered a generation change... I felt my parents were really old during dinner and that my time with my family now, mirrored the past, when I was still a child, where I felt I was in my dad's position and my parents were in the shoes of my grandparents... I know the previous point sound confusing... but I really don't know how to explain it better...

I look forward to family gathers more then the past. As compared to when I was a teenager and everything else other then studying and family gatherings seemed more interesting. I think sooner or later, I will spend even more time with my family... surely some of you know why and feel the same as well... Time isn't gonna wait for you. As it is, our parents ages have, sadly, confirmed this.

Happy Tunes - 'Things Will Go My Way' - The Calling

Things sprung out of hand sometimes. We are never in control at times... then you begin to think this happens most of the time. Especially when your down. I know there have been some friends plagued by the same mishap I experience moons ago. Well Don't worry cos things will go your way sometimes. They do. Come on lar lets be positive... cos only when you start to be positive then things go your way. If not, even when things go your way, you always think something negative happen.

This happy tunes issue probably will not sound too happy. Cos the song 'Things will go my way' sounds 'downhill' and all bluey at times but I believe everyone bounces back. Friend, it isn't that bad, believe me. Scream to the song if you want. It helps.

I came to tell you
How we've all began
Nothing seems to work out right
I'm broken down again
So hold me now
And say it's not forever
Maybe someday
In time

Things will go my way
Things will go my way

I've pushed to get through
The crowds in twisted zone
Just to find I'm right back here
Doing what I'm told
So take my hand
Don't let me surrender
'Cuz maybe someday
Yeah, in time

Things will go my way
Things will go my way

For all the lives
I've tasted
Just looking for the truth
For all the dreams I'm chasing
What am I to do
With everything against me
The answers are all wrong
Open now, I'll find out
It was working all along

So hold me now
And say it's not forever
Maybe someday
In time

Things will go my way
Things will go my way
Things will go my way

For all the things
I've tasted
Just looking for the truth
For all the dreams I'm chasing
What am I to do
With everything against me
The answers are all wrong
Open now, I'll find out

Things will go my way
Things will go my way

Things Will Go My Way - The Calling

Still same old Doreen

Met Doreen yesterday. She still smiles like the same old friend I knew. Thats good.

I think she is still stubborn. haha. Don't get me wrong, I think she rocks that way.

Seeing her again is like the best thing that happen since I started revisions. I was rather unproductive in my school work. Need to work harder. But for now, I believe somethings in life are best appreciated under any scenarios. Meeting friends is one.

Despite my unflavourable condition of my cap score, I think I wouldn't give up on chances to be with my friends. Till this moment, as the exams draw nearer, I don't think I wasted my time going out for Dim Sum lunch with my class (one which left me stuffing food into my tummy), meeting Jean for the evening, drinking 'teh' at East Coast with Gan or playing over night lan games with Harriet and Yanhe (I think I won't forget the session cos of the China Kids and their shouting as well as the fact we hang out till day break).

Well, I hope I get to meet my little sis again. The week seems pack with dangers and stress... yet I can see 'bubbling' rays of sunshine within it as well.

The 11th Hour

Okie, if you have been paying attention to the table of contents to your right. You will see some new additions. Notably my 3rd blog: The 11th Hour 59th Second.

That blog will be about green action, what are the debates and questions behind a sustainable future and what we can do to be green! Cools huh?

That reminds me... why that idea? I think it brings me back to last Friday. I went out with Jean, cos she was free and it is rare to spend time during the day with her. Because we didn't had any plans in mind, we did what typical Singaporeans did... watch a movie. haha. Anyway, it was one of those times I got to choose a movie without knowing what it was... we basically went to see the posters of the movies being screened now and just decided to catch what interest us. And there it was... The 11th Hour. The poster surely caught my attention... the tag line was even better... it made me feel I needed to watch the movie.

What added to remembering the movie was as we were buying the tickets, the sales person told us it was a documentary??? Well, we were stunned I must say but I want to thank Jean for being such a sport to agree to watch the movie/ documentary... I hope it didn't bore her, I know I wasn't. Well what was even worst was... the entire cinema had only 10 humans view the film.

For a film with that sort of agenda... I think more people should view it. Seriously, it isn't that bad. Trust me, many times during the film you will ask yourself... what can I do? And the movie does tell you the possible solutions. The film engages you personally... why? Cause it is us, the consumers who impact nature the most... We have a choice to stop it... yes our generation.

So yars. Do something about it. You know what I mean. GO GREEN. Every little way you can. Spread the message, encourage each other. I am sure we don't have to wait for others to force us... because if we wait... we might never have the chance again. I mean it.

Bintan Get Away Finally!

Yes, Coastal Management Module mounted another challenge on Bintan Island. This time we were very prepared not to be foiled by some evil master plan by the Cruise centre vendor or let our Prof spoilt our day by telling us the wrong time to meet haha. But don't get me wrong, I don't hate Prof wong, I swear.

The day started well, I wasn't late... thanks to Violet being around. Haha. The weather wasn't that great, it was cloudy and the seas were choppy thought. And we had to rush for breakfast... why? Because even after you left the company Of green... 'wait to rush, rush to wait' still applies.... and so being 'kan jiong' my Prof hurried us into the terminal. You know what is the worst thing? I was fooled to believe people could 'chimney' on the top deck of the cruise... damm. But it was rather a fun as well as bumpy boat ride.

Boat ride was so bumpy that Rita's face got distorted

Bintan Island seemed to me link a militarized holiday hotspot for Asians. The service staffs and drivers on the island appear smartly cladded in their uniforms... some really giving me the impression we are visiting an army camp. Some had mini badges and stuff... well not only that... they salute to one another...

So what did we do on the island? Well we went about learning all about coastal landforms, habitats, local communities (not those in the tourist areas) and the systems and links within these 3 areas. But apparently, we were not expected by the locals to be there... what do I mean? Prof Wong, didn't mentioned to the locals before hand that we were coming... so it was like... Chinese New Year arrived earlier for the locals... so all their chinese friends came to visit them without prior notice... since thats what people do, house visiting and open houses.

Village Tranquility

What students do when they don't pay attention

84 Team! Fire!

Hongster and his amazing 'bird'

Before

After 3 Hours of travelling

Well as travellers often travel around the Island, the villagers probably didn't really mind about us. So we moved about from point to point learning about coastal developments and habitats. We had lectures here and there but not many were taking notes or seriously engaging with the lessons ... that is obvious from the photos and fun we had. But I guess the best lessons in life aren't taught in the classroom... that is what I believe makes Prof Wong an interesting lecturer... yes he is an 'old-school' positivist and he is a bit long winded... but surely with his great field researches and knowledge, he is able to teach/ show us somethings we all were shocked at ....

Nobel Prize Winner and his indigenous knowledge

At the end of it all... I just felt it was an honor to learn from Prof Wong, Singapore only shared Nobel awardee. Yar ONLY k. He is able to draw your passion to the coast on a different level. If My Lee was the 'grandfather' of Singapore. Then honestly, Prof Wong should be given the title 'grandfather' of the Singapore coast.

Mission Accomplish - Bintan Conquered! ... Finally haha

Honours year is hell, Hell Lot Of Fun!

Dawa said that... yar he did... the simple person and every cheering Nepalese. I don't think the honours students out there disagree with me. Especially my fellow Arts and Geography majors.

The exams are here. Yar, it was knocking on the door, now it has caught your attention. Soon it will enter your 'living room' and 'daily space' but then again, dinner is to be serve soon. So entertain that 'demon' for awhile and we all will be enjoying the dinner together.

There seem to be many reasons why the honours year is fun. I don't think I can share it all but lets just do a few.

Firstly, its the fact that I have a class that is united. I think I am blessed in many aspect our class bonded so well. Maybe it is the geography program, maybe it is the fact we have a space to call home... the honours room. Maybe its just the people. But among all these, the humanist nature of class seems to be the one screaming out loud. Everyone in my class seem to be able to agree on one point (that is my personal feeling), we are all similar because of the fact, we seek to understand and change the 'uneveness' of social context... or try to. Many people out of the class seek to do this too... maybe its just because we belong to one honours class and there seems to be this invisible agreement that we share this thought. Its not like you can link to everyone who has this thought out there... the class seems to be some sort like a real 'imagined community'.

Secondly, I guess it has to be the fact that I have freedom. Many of you know what I mean. Being tied down for so long... its only when I have found my own space that I learn how important 'my' time with 'myself' is. I actually get to do things I didn't use to have time for. That doesn't mean I don't wanna get tied down again. I do, but this time around I will ensure I get time off with 'myself' haha. And time with my friends. I know I never admitted to them... but it is obvious... I am so much happier catching up with the rest, those out of school or my daily life. I really appreciate it guys and cousin, for giving me the second chance to continue our friendship... it means a lot lar. And yes, Harriet and Jon, I do miss outings regularly... and, in the past, it was much safer to place your bets that Leon will miss the outings... but its time to reconsider that haha. O Yanhe, thanks for still betting that I will come... but late haha. There are still a lot of you out there I want to thank... but it seemingly is a long list. So thanks for those who help me find my freedom and taking away lots of the pain. Yar, Swi and Co., Selena, 2 Potong Pasir neighbors, that 'you', two sentence back, refers to you all.

And then, there is the fact this is the last year of official academia that I will get. Yar, I am leaving school officially soon. This year, my decisions seem to be geared at having fun. I am doing that, thats why it seemingly more fun. Maybe its just too late that I discovered this, just like what some other friends of mine felt, but I think its really towards the end then you realise this. When you give up you goal to do outstandingly well in studies and put your 'relac jacket' on then you will see the light haha. Not to mention, honours year assignments seem more fun, thought academically more intense. O yar congrats to non-bell curve policy.

Didn't want to be so emo. But I am really running out of time. I am going to lose this feeling soon.

"The right to make and remake ourselves... is ... one of the most precious of human rights"
David Harvey, 2006

Class BBQ Encore! and it ROCKS

The weekend is fast approaching! O My Gosh, my week flew by in seconds. Once again i am lost... too much work too little time.

A big part of the week was concentrated on urban project and little misunderstandings between my friends. Hiya, so negative stuff, don't want to talk about it. I felt that I wasted the last two days, maybe I felt so stress on monday and tuesday I just wanted to rest. Now I feel so well rested, I am actually doing my readings at home. haha

Okie, to the main post. Last night's class BBQ.

I think, everyone had a great time. Yar. the food rocks, so did the company. I got to know my classmates better. Smashing BBq food, beer and WINE! woohoo! We even had mass games such as 'polar bear', drinks in the pool, over-21 conversations, dumping people into the pool... a duet band n guitar... broken specs... haha

I can't possibly mention everyone and everything in detail... so I think I will mention what I enjoyed most. This may sound weird but what I enjoyed most is working with everyone to make this party a success. Many years down the road, we all would forget the people who made the party a success, in replace of them, would be the memories like the laughter, jokes and pictures/ images in our minds. But I think we cannot have had all those memories without the organizers.

Well, I am not the organizer, I merely took instructions to buy some stuff and cleaned up most of the party together with Joey, Ai Zhen, Jianne, Tracy and a few more like Jon and Tomoko. Well... But I think the party would be impossible without Aidan, Elissa and Tracy plus CO., cause I really don't know who helped out. I know it was these few cooks that made the lovely steaks, organized the food and catering ... I think they really knew how to create a storm of a party ... Aidan and Jianne for their recipes for tiramisu and other food stuffs ... wow liao it taste them good k. Elissa and her helpers looked into all the logistics and the fine details like creating a vegetarian spread for Joey and Vai. And lastly, Tracy, the host... I really love your home, it definitely was the coolest home I ever been to... pool side party, crazy dogs... tons of wooden furniture!

I think years down the road, I will perhaps forget the details ... but I will remember cleaning up the place... together with my friends and the people who made the party possible. As always, I love the honours class... but I need to complain... when can we take one proper class photo? haha.

A couple of draws. Not too bad.

Arsenal drew 1 all with Liverpool last week, this week it was the reigning champions, Manchester United... well the match just ended... and yes it went 2 a piece to both side. Yet another draw. But if we clearly analyze both matches... Arsenal isn't is such bad form after all. Why?

In both matches... we left it till late before we equalize... sounds bad? Not really, considering the guys showed enough character to come back while trailing. In the Manchester United match, I would like to highlight how seemingly impossible it seemed when Manchester went ahead for a second time in the 82nd min through their starlet Ronaldo. But when Willam Gallas slam the ball into the goal in injury time, it surely shattered all Manchester United fans hearts and brought justice and fairness to Arsenal.

Second point. We dominated... o yes, the young guns show a couple of old dogs on the other teams how to play attractive soccer and still deliver. This has to be targeted at Fergie's mid week comments on how young players' success must be judge on the trophies they have won. Well, surely Fergie just wanted to dent Arsenal's morale as he wanted to psychologically attack Arsenal with what he has in abundance, trophies and success... but times are fast changing old scott dog... its time for the young to shine, trophies or no trophies. Don't forget, your new youngsters, both Nani and Anderson, have no trophies to their names... isn't that meaning they are not worth praising and encoraging? Doesn't that mean you shouldn't praise your 'trophiesless' youngsters yourself?

Okie time to stop being anti-Fergie. Back to the report.

Yet, in the Liverpool match, it was apparent that Arsenal didn't finish well, they squandered 2 open goals, clearly in both situation a tap would be enough but they ballooned the chances sky wards. Manchester on the other hand, are a great team who take their chances well, very lethal indeed.

So the big matches are over. Now, I guess, if Arsenal plays like this the whole season, there is a chance glory will be brought to the Emirates stadium. So as Arsenal fans, lets support the team and believe this is possible. After all, experts won't disagree that Arsenal was the better team in both the draws.

Forest Animals 1 - Moad the Toad 0

The Fat Smoking Hamster is back again. This time, its about the case of another bully... Moad the Toad...

As you readers know, Fat Smoking Hamster hangs around the evergreen Arts forest with his friends... the Sunshine Gang, Inclusive of Joey the baby roo, The Nepalese Yak, Rabbit Chongs, Feisty Cat and Hongster the monster. Please note, not all monsters are evil.

The Arts forest consist of many different different groups of animals. Some study the history of the forest, others try to deconstruct the social policies, a large number try to understand the social norms and some, like Fat Smoking Hamster and the Sunshine Gang, study soil, rocks and water bodies within the forest.

However there is this group of weird animals that study the dark arts, meanings of life and try to screw the minds of others. This group of animals belong to the realm of the nothing and pointless... the group of animals are headed by 'the old, mad and the single' Monkey Matriarch, and consist of members such as Moad the Toad and Hobbo Balbo.

So the context is set, time for the Story.

One normal looking monday, Fat Smoking Hamster and the Sunshine Gang were irritated by the weird animals... Basically Moad the Toad needed a seat in the 'doggy dish on stilts' (a place where animals eat) but without consent he just stole two seats from the Sunshine Gang's table. Well Feisty Cat tried to turn down Moad the Toad... but that retard just took the seats without apologising... the incident eventually escalated till there was an exchange of harsh words that were uncalled for... mostly from the side of the weird animals (it has to be highlighted that what the weird animals teach are often confusing... so much so normal animal won't understand their words or what they are saying...)

Well... the Sunshine Gang decided to report the incident to the leader of the weird animals, 'the old, mad and the single' monkey matriarch via nutmail (a form of communication software, just like your emails). But obviously the Monkey matriarch would protect her minions... with some disappointing answer that followed a weird logic... She even advise the Sunshine Gang to drop their case...

Feeling lost, the Sunshine Gang decided to seek the word of the holy mother of all animals, the vice-chieftain of the animals, Pauline Stag Horn Motherly... To Fat Smoking Hamster's amaze, Pauline the Stag Horn Motherly actually defended the Sunshine Gang and even praised them for their courage to stand up for their rights. She promised she will settle the score for them and report the incident about the weird animals to the royal eminence of the forest, the wise, old, cheery Lion. WooHoos!

Lesson of the day?
If you seriously believe you have been wronged, stand up for your rights and fight back.
Because if you don't do it for yourself who will?
And even if you don't get favourable replies... always keep trying.

Antipode or Anti-who?

I enjoy doing presentations. Not really preparing them, more of presenting it to the class. I just find it exciting to see the rest of the class enjoy our presentations.

Last week we did a 'Mr Brown' for our Future of Physical Geography presentation. This week it was a simulated riot and protest for Antipode, the Radical Journal of Geography. For this week's presentation, it was really damm funny, stuff like "Brothers and Sisters lend me your ears", "Amin and Thrift (who are academics) our brothers have said", "Yuimin, talk to them now" and "Joey prepare the finale!" haha! When you enjoy doing something, you will really bring out the best in you to do it. And hopefully there will be the academic rewards, if your lecturers appreciate it that is.

Problem is, now we are so high about it, we have to think of a better idea for the next round... till then it is top secret... keke

Mondays aren't such bad days after all... this Monday that is. Got back my human dictionary entry, got a pretty satisfying grade. woohoo! And yar when you got friends, like Joey, who claim that the ATM card is not working, when he went to the wrong ATM machine... get ready to fight those Monday blues... hmm on top of that, i slept a cool 10 hours... haha awesome!

"There’s the girl that I like
Now more then ever she gives me butterflies
It makes my stomach quezze every time she walks by
I know I can be cool if I try"

Stan's Song in 'Southpark the Movie'

If it is not broken, don't fix it / If it is broken, it is not me

The motto of OCS Bravo 48/02 platoon 2.

Friday, 26 Oct was Cpt Ng's wedding. haha, wait so long, finally get to attend his marriage. But looking at him in a number 1 uniform, suddenly reminds me of the commissioning parade, some time ago. Its been so long since I left the company in green.

Manage to catch up with my platoon mates from OCS as well. Funnily, everyone seemed the same, even after 2 yrs of losing contact. We were still the same old, noisy bunch of people, who never seize to make the most serious of events, such as weddings, sound so comical and 'sui bian' (anyhow).

I think no matter how much one might go on to change in physical looks or moved on in life, familiarity is often found in laughter, jokes and stories that people commonly share. Every opportunity, we get to meet, the same old stories are highlighted so the distance built up over the years are broken. I guess this pretty much happens in every bodies' social circles.

One day I hope, I get an opportunity to jot down about every story which I share with other people. Perhaps this blog has begun this goal, yet the lack of time to update every event seeks to hinder me from doing so.

"Do you remember the time when we got into during Ex Leopard?"

"yar, FQJ forgot his helmet, we had to drink a jerry can of water,
Tey was caught listening to his radio receiver,
'Sa Mu La' was used 3 times during the exercise
and after the change parade,
Sir gave up on us"

"haha"

You cannot renew items because: You owe too much money

I hope you don't ever see the message appearing in your library account.

I wanted to renew my book, '1421: The year China found America'... but I can't because I owe the library 6 dollars in fine. Damm. That book was damm interesting to read lar.

Sounds weird right, Leon reading? haha. Yar, I find it a bit difficult to accept but I have slowly found my 'fun-read' habits again. Reading helps to escape reality... sometimes when I feel angry or sad... I just pick up my book and engage in its tale...

Well reading a book you have yet to complete due to a lack of motivation helps you to sleep as well. haha.

A bad start doesn't mean a bad day

I woke up on the wrong side of bed. I almost didn't wake up on time... thanks to the help of a nightmare, which I saw a huge slug crossing the traffic junction, I managed to get myself to wake up. I think I was rather grumpy and I wasn't ready for nonsense. So I probably wasn't able to take a joke and in turn might have irritated a friend.

yar yar, its one of those few days that I couldn't take a joke... that seldom happens, I think, In some people's eyes, it may never happen caused they always believe that I am not serious and easily cheerful. But sometimes when it happens, I just keep quiet about it... honestly, I don't really like it. I refuse to sound out because I rather suffer alone and let others laugh about it. I am worried someday it wouldn't be that case and I flare up. I don't think I really wanna lose friends that way.

But the day did turn out better with a great breakfast at Breko with jared, Selena and Mingli. I decided to take a break from school work, went home and rest. after my evening Jog and an outing with Geri and Joey.

Superdog is awesome lor, but the funniest point was eating chilli cheese friends without fries... sounds odd but they do it just for people who don't eat cheese, like Geri. I feel that Superdog fries are probably the best (I know this is easily contested). What I like is the crisp feeling of the fries, without the smell of used oil and the oily feeling. And superdog's fish burger with egg is probably my number 1 choice among all fastfood chains. Cause its grilled fish not DEEP FRIED! For a carnivore/ meat lover like me, I never ate anything else at Superdog after eating trying their fish burger. Give it a try lar haha.

The evening ended at Walas again. I think Wala Walas is probably the best place to have drinks if you don't have any idea where to go. O yar, I even met my lecturer there haha. And further observing him, I found out that Tenley's ale is 1-for-1 all night long haha. Who says expatriates only go for high-end stuffs? So go on and ask for their promotions... only makes your night out with friends so much better. haha.

A lump of coal waiting to turn into a diamond

I think I been off singing competitions for along time... Since the second American idol, maybe a bit of the first Singapore idol for that little excitement between the 'beng' and the 7-11 guy. Well, I gave up watching Singing competitions... cos I thought the talent was just fading off... untill today

Today is tuesday, that means I have Com Lab duty with Bingjie aka Chewbacaa... well it is also blogging and You tube day... Bingjie watches a lot of such shit... so he will always recommend me funny videos and stuff. But today, he introduced to me something different. Britain's Got Talent.

well Britain does have many talents... including Paul Potts the winner of the show... who judge Amanda thought was 'the title of this post'. But there was this particular angel that caught my attention. Connie Talbot. A Six year old, ordinary looking schoolgirl. with one an amazing voice.

If you don't believe just You Tube her name... just to ease you... I will share with you the link to her singing 'Somewhere over the Rainbow'. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2cnRXmMn2Ag

But I need to warn you, if you are an 'Emo' like me, be prepared to get touched. She didn't win... but you got to check out her cuteness and talent. I must admit she's an angel who almost made me tear in the com lab.

Its 5 am

I got an issue with sleep, most of you all know it.

I think I am limited to 5 hrs of sleep per 'session' ... 5 hours into my sleep I will be ultra motivated to wake up... don't even know for what. well here I am, cleaning up my room. haha. I wanted to go for a run, but the winds are damm chilly lar...

Maybe the cause for all this problem with sleep is the school assignments and my irregular sleep timings... need to change back before exams approach... if not they might have to do a night and mid night exam session for me. haha

Happy Tunes - 'The Great Escape' by Boyslikegirls

Yes, Happy Tunes recommendation 2 belongs to Boyslikegirls. I picked the album off the shelve, cos it had the comment 'one of the top 100 you must know bands in 2007' as quoted on spin.com. Think about it... top 100 bands of 2007... like a bit insignificant right? haha. The truth is, I didn't even know them before this and so it must be one of my lucky buys. But this album is great, it rocks! The band sounds pretty much like The All-American Rejects. Therefore, if you like them you will love this album. Hey alligator 2... this is the band we were discussing about one of our trips home, remember you asked me what band it was?

I choose this track 'The Great Escape' because its all about putting those 'yesterdays', 'wrongs' and worries aside and rejoice cos at least we got tonight and now. Basically, enjoy the moment you are in, do whatever you wanna do now and don't be bothered with the past. So yar, Kinda positive, if you know what I mean.

So folks I hope you love this track... give new bands a chance... don't pirate. Well thinking of getting the 'Red Jumpsuit Apparatus' next... but thats gonna be in a while.

Paper bags and plastic hearts
All are belongings in shopping carts
It's goodbye
But we got one more night
Let's get drunk and ride around
And make peace with an empty town
We can make it right

Throw it away
Forget yesterday
We'll make the great escape
We won't hear a word they say
They don't know us anyway
Watch it burn
Let it die
Cause we are finally free tonight

Tonight will change our lives
It's so good to be by your side
But we'll cry
We won't give up the fight
We'll scream loud at the top of our lungs
And they'll think it's just cause were young
And we'll feel so alive

Throw it away
Forget yesterday
We'll make the great escape
We won't hear a word they say
They don't know us anyway
Watch it burn
Let it die
Cause we are finally free tonight

All of the wasted time
The hours that were left behind
The answers that we'll never find
They don't mean a thing tonight

Throw it away
Forget yesterday
We'll make the great escape
We won't hear a word they say
They don't know us anyway

Throw it away
Forget yesterday
We'll make the great escape
We won't hear a word they say
They don't know us anyway

Throw it away
Forget yesterday
We'll make the great escape
We won't hear a word they say
They don't know us anyway
Watch it burn
Let it die
Cause we are finally free tonight

I feel like I am in the army again.

I booked into School on Sunday, stayed over in school to finish my assignments end the week on a Friday… all tired and dead. I slept in the afternoon, yet I still feel so tired. (this was written on saturday night...)

This week’s assignment was to submit an entry into the dictionary of human geography. It sucks I tell you, the instructions are crap… they contradict each other; tell me how to do a critical literature review while trying not to apply quotations… idiot right?

For a long time, I have refrained from bitching about the honour course… but I think I have to do it now. Haha. The lectures seem to be overlap with one another… if there was better coordination… I believe we can get better more out of the lectures, what is worst... the workload is madness... cause they split the core module into 2 module, Geothought A and Geothought B... sounds like reduce workload? no it isn't now we have 2 new lecturers (1 each) to 'tekan' us with work. Geothought assignments are heavier in my opinion... cos all the involvement of philosophy and theories behind Geography... aren't we guinea pigs... we are expose to the new system... and misunderstanding conflicts during the lecture.

I think a lot went wrong last week, slow I start feeling that 'shitty' feeling that and it seems as though I am slowing slaving myself to deadlines... but then again. there seems to be amazing moments during the week as well.

I have to thank my honours mates once again... for working their butts off during those nights we have to finish the assignments. Thanks gosh we got Aida sometimes... cos her 'madness' and bimbotic nature does give us a laugh or two... and a stomachache from time to time. Aida, you sound like Britney but that sounds like an insult to you not her haha.

uncle jon and gang... I think it would be damm xiong to chiong alone... thanks for being a such loyal supporters of 'desperation is the best inspiration' haha, wouldn't wanna chiong alone. happy food helps... ice cream and beer... haha. so yuppers thanks to the FS people and my arts friends once again for the outings and suprises.

but all in all, I felt the luckiest on Wednesday... Managed to give away the skittles... keke lets just hope I wouldn't have to look forward to desperation anymore and hopefully, I get to bump into her again on wednesday. Bleah!

i walked past her, procrastinated to turn back.
But i turned back and
i saw one of the loveliest smiles around.

Char lost weight.

Yes you did. If not, you wouldn't be able hide behind me in the car... haha

Thanks. I think that expresses how happy I was to see all of you surprise me.

I feel bad I couldn't have gone out with you guys. I really felt like I was smacked in the face by all the stupid academic work... and secretly... I don't think I can bring myself to go out with you all... it brings back too much painful memories... I hope you all understand that the moment I hang out with you all... I feel her beside me. That was how it used to be. It haunts me.

But this does not mean we can't be friends or go out. I just need a lot of time... I don't know how long. But I will press on... cause I miss you all too.

I am okie... it just one of those moments
I feel down cos I cannot accept
how much I miss her

30 triple plus

30 triple plus... that amounts to 34 dollars 20 cents for a bucket of beer. And a lot of fun with friends. Maybe it is true... I am turning alcoholic again. Maybe its also true, I never could do what I enjoyed with friends in the past... I admitted to them last night, I neglected them. And for once in a long time, I felt freed.

Sometimes, we keep secrets to ourselves... maybe we do it sub-consciously, maybe we know what we have something kept in our minds. Some people believe they can keep their secrets in their hearts forever. I don't believe that. Because I know I will go mad and I would be angry at myself and others.

Some can remain in their shadows forever. I don't think I can... thats why I still live in guilt shown through my emotions and moods. Maybe I can never forgive myself. But I am grateful to be back in the company of friends. For now, that is all I ask for. Friends and beer haha.

I am not blind to wickness
but I am deaf to kindness

Someone Is Coming Home Soon.

'Doreen Avoiding the Limelight'

I think most of you won't know the person above trying to hide behind the letterbox. That is Doreen, my younger god-sister.

Well, she lives in Sydney, Aussieland and its been awhile since she came back, i think her last visit was 3 yrs ago. She will be coming back soon! Woohoo! but at the same time ... Boohoo! cause that period will be the period near the exams. damm. She left in JC 1. Since then a lot has changed... I think there are many places she hasn't been to plus so much has change. So hopefully she has time and I could bring her around.

But no matter what, I am looking forward for the day she will return. So much has happened these few months... I think Doreen's return probably is the best thing that will happen in a long time. Sometimes... I just wish it comes sooner. Real soon.

My back aches.....

I probably over-strained myself this week. 2 swims, 1 run and soccer. Its been sometime since my assignments have allowed me to accomplish these.. But then again, it wasn't wise to cramp so much exercises in a week. I used to be able to do it... but I guess its been too long since I trained. So I need to watch the intensity. For now, its rest... My tights hurt... my back aches.... I move slowly... this sucks

Well, since I can't function long without feeling pain... I decide to clean my room, bit by bit... but I am progressing damm slow.... Even after resting at Joey's hall... I still feel drain. Spent most my time doing housework and watching tv... while doozing off time to time.

I think I have a lot going on in my head... mainly school work. Well, there is no greater motivator the desperation... so I think I would head the books tomorrow... hopefully it will end up fruitful... O yar, I miss violet... without violet I feel damm 'disable'... I think I become too lazy and dependent on the car....

O happy Hari Raya to my Muslim friends! While you enjoy yourselves tomorrow, I will try to ensure I don't waste my entire day tomorrow doing nothing productive... haha

No one is listening...

I am in honours class. We are having coastal management lessons.
no one is listening... or that is what i see from the back...

I am blogging.
So is suzzie...
dawa just went out to smoke... haha
stacy and gang are chatting again...

This is bad... but I don't enjoy coming to class on time... Skipped 20 mins of class to eat at the business western stall. wao lao... the Jumbo tank (sausage, bread, ham, egg, beans) is like how shoik... and I had a breakfast with my PA a few days ago at breko... nowdays, I start eating breakfast again... I feel like the 'old' Leon again. At least I found joy of breakfast with friends again.

O yar, I am back to drinking again... sounds bad? no, its great k to find people you can drink with. Helps you to sleep also... most important is it ends a day making you feel great that you can relax and spend time with folks.

Okie I better return back to class... as much as I feel lazy listening and coming to class... I enjoy dr wong's lesson cos his lesson is so free and easy that we are able to interact and talk cork... maybe because he is old.... hence he cannot hear our whispers and jokes haha

Happy tunes - Move Along (The All-American Rejects)

As some of you know, I don't recommend piracy... but I think its important friends share music in order to cheer each other up... So the newly 'Happy Tunes' thread is started so you all can enjoy the songs which I do... aka I recommend songs to you folks... I will post the lyrics.... if you like the song... call me or buy the CD...

Anyways the first song for this thread is 'Move Along' by The All-American Rejects. I find it a classic song to be played when your really down... yes its not a new release but it makes me happy, and the lyrics will shout out in your face: 'don't mop... get up and move along'

I know a lot of us get emo and trouble by problems that tie us down... so much so that we seem dysfunctional... well, this song is perfect in my opinion. It help me move on... so I hope it helps you too... especially those who akin to me, get worried too much.

Music makes the world go round... I hope by posting recommendations I can help you guys who are in trouble.
I am a call away.
I promise i will be there.

Go ahead as you waste your days with thinking
When you fall everyone stands
Another day and you've had your fill of sinking
With the life held in your
Hands are shaking cold
These hands are meant to hold

(Speak to me!)

When all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along
Move along

So a day when you've lost yourself completely
Could be a night when your life ends
Such a heart that will lead you to deceiving
All the pain held in your
Hands are shaking cold
Your hands are mine to hold

Speak to me, when all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
Move along
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)

When everything is wrong we move along
(Go on, go on, go on, go on)
When everything is wrong, we move along
Along, along, along.....

When all you got to keep is strong
Move along, move along like I know you do
And even when your hope is gone
Move along, move along just to make it through
[x3]

(Move along)
Go on, go on, go on, go on)
Right back what is wrong
We move along

Wala Wala is the best!

woohoo, cheerios to 538 and their great music. Went to Walas last night with Joey and friends from Sheares. Sometimes when your tired, its great to hang out with the guys, drink... and listen to the live band. helps a lot. I think we all should learn how to play some instrument some time in our lives... Okie, I am more determine to relearn the guitar again. O yars. Create a new playlist, call it happy tunes.... it will help you get thru a shitty day.

Missing but found

Yes, I have not blogged for so long. And I think I should stop blogging about how tired and busy I have been... its really tiring and damm uninteresting loz.

My P.A. complained that I have not blog in a long time. So did a few others... I think blogging has become a new hobby/leisure for me. Yes, I am slow to have caught up with this trend... and at one point of time I was anti-blog... because I believed in meeting people face to face... now days my opinion has change, as much as I like to meet friends face to face, I realize that is not highly possible for everyone/every case cos we all are jammed packed with work.... so blogging helps me tell others and myself about my dumb incidents, quiet sad moments and lovely memories. In a way it helps me to find myself...

Then again... I think I have not 'maintain' my blog really well... 'stick and stones' and 'project white room' have been neglected... yar, my room has not improve much... its a bit more organized. Hopefully I get time to blog this weekend...

I know owl swi is not having a great time. Cause when she ranted to me yesterday about work... i felt her sorrow. hey Mdm, don't worry, you need a ear, I will let you rant to me. We are in the boat together. I apologize I do not spend as much time with you as last time. But I am here when you need a friend. Just like how you are always willing to listen to my nonsense.

I wish I had more time to spend with my old friends, such as Udders. I feel freaking out of touch with them. I think there is a lot to update. I think I must make the conscience effort to meet up with them.

Last week was 'Hell week'... 4 assignments in 7 days... I think it was the worst I ever experienced... 3 nights of 'camping' at the honours room with Joey, just to ensure we finish... we finished our coastal paper just 45mins to submission date, other papers were like complete in class, while the lecture was going on. well its over, so now I can set my mind on enjoying the week... Yeahs! 'Balls of Fury' here we come!