Yeah.
I think this blog does not really mean anything anymore. Actually it meant so little since 21 Oct 2009.
I moved on for so long and I totally forgotten about this.
So I am officially closing this blog down.
Thank you all.
Thank you for your support when I was down.
Thank you for all the moments to keep me motivated.
And, most of all, thank you for all your love.
O yar... My life is colourless no more.
P.S. I moved my blog. Email me if you wanna read the new one.
Sunday, May 8, 2011
Friday, October 23, 2009
Left or right.
I am really confused.
Should I go left or right.
All of you know I use my blardee heart to think... and I don't really know if I should follow my heart or think rationally about work nowadays.
There are just swamp and heaps of starfish to be picked up and thrown back into the sea. And no matter how hard I tried to pick them up ... I never get encouraged to continue. If fact people are telling me to go easier on myself.
I don't mind dying to help others ... yet it seems wrong to do so. I really don't know anymore. Help.
Should I go left or right.
All of you know I use my blardee heart to think... and I don't really know if I should follow my heart or think rationally about work nowadays.
There are just swamp and heaps of starfish to be picked up and thrown back into the sea. And no matter how hard I tried to pick them up ... I never get encouraged to continue. If fact people are telling me to go easier on myself.
I don't mind dying to help others ... yet it seems wrong to do so. I really don't know anymore. Help.
Monday, October 12, 2009
It just felt like walking in the rain ...
Today someone asked me a question ... she asked "Are you ok?"
Yar it may seem like something so normal and common... but when these few words come from someone who is priority number 1 and has a permanent "neutral state of mind" ... it just feels different.
It feels different because at that second, time just stops... it seemed to be a bit longer ... and you get a feeling... that you are walking in the rain but there is an angel beside you.
Yar it may seem like something so normal and common... but when these few words come from someone who is priority number 1 and has a permanent "neutral state of mind" ... it just feels different.
It feels different because at that second, time just stops... it seemed to be a bit longer ... and you get a feeling... that you are walking in the rain but there is an angel beside you.
Saturday, September 26, 2009
'Sleeping in' it doesn't really exist... haha
I just realize I am immune against the words 'sleeping in' haha. Seriously.
I came back at 2, a bit tipsy... and I fell asleep immediately. Before I slept I remembered thinking about sleeping in...
But God Dammit! I woke up at 615! worried I was going to be late for work! Argh someone help me! haha.
I came back at 2, a bit tipsy... and I fell asleep immediately. Before I slept I remembered thinking about sleeping in...
But God Dammit! I woke up at 615! worried I was going to be late for work! Argh someone help me! haha.
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
Just have to be stronger.
I think I had one of the worst day in my career today.
I cried in class and my students offered me tissue. I guess I cracked because I was worried about them and I had only 2 hours of sleep.
Next I got scolded because my exam paper was badly set. And now I am rushing for the deadline. Not to mentioned I was late to meet my supervisor... just because my students needed extra help.
Lastly I was so looking forward to Remedial Training so I can distress myself ... but due to the weather and bad traffic... I was late. Worst was I wasn't allowed to sign in... WTF...
I think that is enough of whining... I decided that the best thing to do now is to be stronger. My children need me and I will willingly give everything I can.
And I guess it does help when you have a BFFE and friends who tell you to be stronger. Yar that rocks.
I cried in class and my students offered me tissue. I guess I cracked because I was worried about them and I had only 2 hours of sleep.
Next I got scolded because my exam paper was badly set. And now I am rushing for the deadline. Not to mentioned I was late to meet my supervisor... just because my students needed extra help.
Lastly I was so looking forward to Remedial Training so I can distress myself ... but due to the weather and bad traffic... I was late. Worst was I wasn't allowed to sign in... WTF...
I think that is enough of whining... I decided that the best thing to do now is to be stronger. My children need me and I will willingly give everything I can.
And I guess it does help when you have a BFFE and friends who tell you to be stronger. Yar that rocks.
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
A series of random and usually events - 8th Sep 2009
Dear Diary,
Today was another hectic despite the fact I was on 'Holiday'. Started out with remedial, a 'pep talk' session with the students and a afternoon in school which lasted me about 2 hours... damm I wasted my time. haha.
However, I guess I was more determined then yesterday to enjoy myself during the school holidays. So I met my 'BFFFE' for dinner and she was kind enough to accompany me to the CD stall at 915 pm. I really enjoy my time at the cd shop... as I was able to unleash my 2 week worth of suppressed desire of CD therapy... so yeah that was pretty cool and unusual. Thank you Geri for being nice enough to accompany for the evening. Its not something that happens everyday and it really cheered me up.
Next, I went over to join my JC classmates for a friend's birthday. I may seemingly be viewed as a person without a lot of free time but honestly I really try to meet up if I can. So today I decided to go the extra mile and make the effort to attend a special friend's birthday, even though we aren't that close anymore. I am glad my friends invited me over cause the company and the chill out session probably was the finale for the night... Not to mention how great the food was and my friend's new cafe really rocks. So yar if I ever wanna have a simple meal or a gathering with my friend I probably bring them to the Ice Edge Cafe off Simon Road.
Yeah... I am still here at 150 am... doing my work and listening to Natalie Imbruglia's song Glorious... and yar, maybe as the song goes... its only right if we expect something special a day.
Love,
Leon
P.S.
It is great when you get what you want... like red wine when you ask for some. And close friends when you thought everyone else was busy.
Today was another hectic despite the fact I was on 'Holiday'. Started out with remedial, a 'pep talk' session with the students and a afternoon in school which lasted me about 2 hours... damm I wasted my time. haha.
However, I guess I was more determined then yesterday to enjoy myself during the school holidays. So I met my 'BFFFE' for dinner and she was kind enough to accompany me to the CD stall at 915 pm. I really enjoy my time at the cd shop... as I was able to unleash my 2 week worth of suppressed desire of CD therapy... so yeah that was pretty cool and unusual. Thank you Geri for being nice enough to accompany for the evening. Its not something that happens everyday and it really cheered me up.
Next, I went over to join my JC classmates for a friend's birthday. I may seemingly be viewed as a person without a lot of free time but honestly I really try to meet up if I can. So today I decided to go the extra mile and make the effort to attend a special friend's birthday, even though we aren't that close anymore. I am glad my friends invited me over cause the company and the chill out session probably was the finale for the night... Not to mention how great the food was and my friend's new cafe really rocks. So yar if I ever wanna have a simple meal or a gathering with my friend I probably bring them to the Ice Edge Cafe off Simon Road.
Yeah... I am still here at 150 am... doing my work and listening to Natalie Imbruglia's song Glorious... and yar, maybe as the song goes... its only right if we expect something special a day.
Love,
Leon
P.S.
It is great when you get what you want... like red wine when you ask for some. And close friends when you thought everyone else was busy.
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
A series of random and usually events - 7th Sep 2009
7th Sep 2009
Dear Diary,
This would be the first official post of my 'holiday journal' where I would attempt to document the stupid things i do during the holidays. Amidst all the rush to meet deadlines, one should still find time to enjoy his or herself because this is after all a holiday for us. If not, life would be so mundane and boring. So I have decided to do ultra random things that I would find difficult to accomplish during a normal work day. I believe this way I would feel so much better. O... I even coined a name for all these holiday post... "A series of random and usually events".
So today, the task I choose to fulfill was to run a 2.4km that was not timed or monitored. Most of my runs are either timed or monitored using my heart rate monitor. But just to be different I decided to run at 2am without any restrictions. Yes, it is rather 'cheap thrill' and insignificant but at least I get to do something I never did before on a normal day. Now that is the objective right?
I guess it helps because at least now I FEEL BLARDEE HIGH.
So I am looking forward to tomorrow's random activity. And hopefully I do maintain a discipline to continue blogging. Readership is important after all right?
Love,
Leon
P.S.
O yes... I almost forgot. Happy Birthday Minggers... I know you will never read this cause my readership has totally gone down the drain... but yeah, your Birthday surprise gathering made me feel a bit better because the day was seemingly going to be depressing due to the work review session with my mini-boss. The noodles rock, Aunty Wong was a great sport ( I am not bullshitting or apple polishing) and simply the company of friends is well appreciated. O yar minggers... Adidas rocks but Nike is the only one I will support. haha.
Dear Diary,
This would be the first official post of my 'holiday journal' where I would attempt to document the stupid things i do during the holidays. Amidst all the rush to meet deadlines, one should still find time to enjoy his or herself because this is after all a holiday for us. If not, life would be so mundane and boring. So I have decided to do ultra random things that I would find difficult to accomplish during a normal work day. I believe this way I would feel so much better. O... I even coined a name for all these holiday post... "A series of random and usually events".
So today, the task I choose to fulfill was to run a 2.4km that was not timed or monitored. Most of my runs are either timed or monitored using my heart rate monitor. But just to be different I decided to run at 2am without any restrictions. Yes, it is rather 'cheap thrill' and insignificant but at least I get to do something I never did before on a normal day. Now that is the objective right?
I guess it helps because at least now I FEEL BLARDEE HIGH.
So I am looking forward to tomorrow's random activity. And hopefully I do maintain a discipline to continue blogging. Readership is important after all right?
Love,
Leon
P.S.
O yes... I almost forgot. Happy Birthday Minggers... I know you will never read this cause my readership has totally gone down the drain... but yeah, your Birthday surprise gathering made me feel a bit better because the day was seemingly going to be depressing due to the work review session with my mini-boss. The noodles rock, Aunty Wong was a great sport ( I am not bullshitting or apple polishing) and simply the company of friends is well appreciated. O yar minggers... Adidas rocks but Nike is the only one I will support. haha.
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