the roses of yesterday - it's never too late to apologize. start with a sorry,

Sunday, March 29, 2009

75th Post

Her face is a map of the world
Is a map of the world
You can see she's a beautiful girl
She's a beautiful girl
And everything around her is a silver pool of light
The people who surround her feel the benefit of it
It makes you calm
She holds you captivated in her palm

Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
This is what I wanna be
Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
Why the hell it means so much to me

I feel like walking the world
Like walking the world
You can hear she's a beautiful girl
She's a beautiful girl
She fills up every corner like she's born in black and white
Makes you feel warmer when you're trying to remember
What you heard
She likes to leave you hanging on her word

Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
This is what I wanna be
Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
Why the hell it means so much to me

And she's taller than most
And she's looking at me
I can see her eyes looking from a page in a magazine
Oh she makes me feel like I could be a tower
A big strong tower
She got the power to be
The power to give
The power to see

Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
This is what I wanna be
Suddenly I see (Suddenly I see)
Why the hell it means so much to me

10:56 PM

Friday, March 27, 2009

74th Post

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KING ANDAI! :D

Today was an eventful day to certain extent. We continued filming our Council video and didn't really manage to finish it, unfortunately, and we still had to submit it to Gah Loke to look at it. sian. After that I went for training for like one hour? -.- I know. I can't believe it either. Mr Bernard Sit was super nice by the way when he helped us print the posters for free! yayness!

I just wanted to wish you a happy happy birthday this year.

10:23 PM

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

73rd Post

I am so exhausted and keep coughing like stupid pig.

bloody pao.

but I'm really quite enjoying the whole Council experience like honestly! I'm so glad that I'm in a team with Harrison, Claire and Huiying. We made each other laugh like mad while painting the banner. and I died laughing during the video making. Thank you Andai and Kaimin for helping with the video! Recently, I've discovered really unselfish people who volunteered their time to help us for Council like Linus, Minron, Andai and Kaimin. It's like.. this is what I call altruism :D

JIA YOU PEA!

and I miss you because I say so.

8:24 PM

Sunday, March 22, 2009

72nd Post

I am HAPPY! :D

10:56 PM

Thursday, March 19, 2009

71st Post

1st day

because it seems impossible

all the more you want it to be possible.

have you felt the feelings of butterflies in your tummy today?

i did.

12:21 AM

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

69th Post

I need the time,

so see you when you get your A.

I'll be waiting.

This is the most I can ask.

[edit: for your amusement, i really smell like you now]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUIQI!

I LOVE YOU :D

10:14 PM

Sunday, March 8, 2009

68th Post

I think I'll take it,

keep it in that little corner of my heart

and finally,

elated, with the knowledge that I'm now able to breathe.

a smile for you.

9:52 PM

67th Post

I'm feeling happy these days

and I havent studied for Math Lecture test

but I'm still happy

cos you know... some stuff makes us randomly happy ><

I've been receiving many chocolates and sweets these days.. not supposed to take them... I'm having this major sorethroat that has been going on since.. orientation. but I'm happy. xD

我不知道这代表什么

但是我知道我喜欢 ><　

5:16 PM

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

66th Post

And I'd give up forever to touch you,
Cause I know that you feel the same now.
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be,
And I don't want to go home right now.

And all I can taste is this moment,
And all I can breathe is your life,
And sooner or later it's over,
I just don't want to miss you tonight.

And I don't want the world to see me,
Cause I don't think that they'd understand.
When everything's made to be broken,
I just want you to know who I am.

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming,
Or the moment of the truth in your lies.
When everything feels like the movies,
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive.

And I don't want the world to see me,
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand.
When everything's made to be broken,
I just want you to know who I am.

And I don't want the world to see me,
Cause I don't think that they'd understand.
When everything's made to be broken,
I just want you to know who I am.

And I don't want the world to see me,
Cause I don't think that they'd understand.
When everything's made to be broken,
I just want you to know who I am.
I just want you to know who I am.
I just want you to know who I am.

I just want you to know who I am.

iris - googoodolls

maybe I'm just waiting for a little love to drop from heaven.

11:00 AM

65th Post

今天我没有上学。

有一点可惜。

可是我不知道为什么我感到那么欣慰。

压力。

你是一个人。

他是一个笼子

他把你关起来

你是一个人。

有时候你要留在里面，

你不愿意浪费力气找到那个出口。

你是一个人。

一个人

不管有多么多的朋友

你还是一个人

我好想有一个人拥抱我，告诉我一切都会好。

我可以跟命运玩躲猫猫，但是最后我还是跑不掉

I think I'm inspired by my angel.

如果我说爱我没有如果
错过就过你是不是会难过
若如果拿来当借口
那爱是不是有一点弱

如果我说爱我没有如果
真的爱我就放手一搏
还想什么还怕什么
快牵起我的手

有人说
世界上最遥远的距离
不是生与死
而是我就站在你面前
你却不知道我爱你

我常说
如果人类连爱一个人
都被自己绑住
那世界末日已来到
不需要等到地球毁灭掉的那天

如果我说爱我没有如果
错过就过你是不是会难过
若如果拿来当借口
那爱是不是有一点弱

如果我说爱我没有如果
真的爱我就放手一搏
还想什么还怕什么
快牵起我的手

如果如果你如果如果如果
最后变成如果
我也不能接受
错过错过错过错过错过
我为你感到难过
不能一错再错

我常说
如果人类连爱一个人
都被自己绑住
那世界末日已来到
不需要等到地球毁灭掉的那天

别怕太困难，别怕失去我

如果我说爱我没有如果
错过就过你是不是会难过
若如果拿来当借口
那爱是不是有一点弱

如果我说爱我没有如果
真的爱我就放手一搏
还想什么还怕什么
快牵起我的手

to my angel (I don't know whether you'll ever read this but here goes nothing)

I think I like this angel and mortal game so much or more specifically, I like writing to you because I can be the person I choose to be. I've been losing myself recently and just being able to write to you gives me some kind of satisfacation or comfort knowing that one day I can still revert back to the person I want to be which is me. although this day might seem far. there was one of those letters that I wrote until I broke down on the class bench because I realized how long Ive been suppressing my emotional side, my weaker side. In my letters to you, I can finally stop pretending you know. to be me. don't need to keep things within me. to not have to pretend to be as nice as I want to be. to be weaker than I allow myself to be in front of others.

thank you.

10:22 AM

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

I cant even be bothered to find out which post I am at already. haha.. just waiting for Samuel to help me finish uploading the files to his ipod. dramafest is on thursday and friday and I havent tried the whole sound stuff along with it. gah. the worst thing is that my iphone had to die today. gg le lah. I think it'll be a miracle if the dramafest seniors vote for me... seeing how "serious" I am. but I seriously tried! woke up early for two days and tried out at night to try out the sounds and just kept playing over and over again.. until I have so many people coming on msn and asking me what on earth am I listening to!

nvm. what is meant to be will be.

just gonna do my best and be myself. thats what he said :D

tomorrow's council interview. I'm a bit apprehensive. the only un-me thing is that I'm going to tuck in my blouse. and nothing else.

serious or not serious

fun or not fun

well.. in the end, I'll just leave it up to God and pray for the best.

Afterall, when you do your best, God will do the rest :D

btw. I love my angel, except when he leaves wayyyy too early for my liking lol.

and samuel is the cutest senior ever! :D actually the first person I noticed in 08s66 was Samuel. lol :D

and I miss you

miss you

and over and over again.

I don't know how I feel anymore,

but one thing's for sure.

You make my weekends brighter. ><

10:13 PM