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hello world,
today was a day of mixed emotions, mainly happiness, anger, disappointment and sadness.
got up way too early for my good to get ready to meet yuwen, joshua, elizabeth, vivian and dorcas at the bugis mrt. yet somehow or another, I still couldn't catch the bus so I had to spend some money on taxi because I remembered that I must practise what I preach.
alright then we went to Mel's house for one hour or so then went to bedok to find my paternal ahma. on the way back home, I was in one of those "moods" again and freaked yuwen, joshua and elizabeth out. hahaha I don't know what happened to me either but just abruptly, I just lost control of my proper emotions and didn't bother regaining the control. plain sianess that I experienced. of course coupled with the guilt that I had.
I don't know. I know I could have handled the situation better.. it was expected that I handle the situation better, but.. I don't know. I just didn't feel like doing that. these days, I don't even get to throw my tantrum like I used to... which I kinda miss. I miss those days where I could let go and just explode and know this is exactly how I want to act and not feel a feeling of loss after that. I'm beginning to feel the effects of having to be "the mature one around here". I mean I can talk to my good friends and stuff, but it's just... you don't feel that much of a release.
and in that sense, I'm disappointed at myself for not being able to be the mature one around here. I feel that maturity isnt about an obligation but the renewing of the mind that you yourself is able to realize that you need to let go in this situation.. it shouldn't be something that you are forced to do.
there's no fair exchange between us.
happiness came when I was forced to rebuild the my proper self after I left the people. in this sense, obligation sometimes is nice, because you force yourself to retune yourself back to reality and the expectations of the world that you ignore all the current problems and put on the picture that you need to be. You force yourself not to be the wet blanket... to be the person who makes everyone upset and try your best to be like them. It's actually pretty simple, but I realize that these days, I do that all the time. haha
so then the question that arises is...
to be yourself or to be someone else for the sake of others?
until now. I can tell you, if I'm so selfless, I'll probably be mother teresa 2 =/
farewell world.
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR :D
p.s. the quiz in the previous post is koped from eeyang!
If you've seen over 85 films, you have no life. Mark the ones you've seen. There are 239 films on this list. Copy this list, go to your own facebook/livejournal/whatever account, paste this as a note. Then, put x's next to the films you've seen, add them up, change the header adding your number, and click post at the bottom. Have fun.
Suddenly it dawns upon you that all that matters isn't you,
but it's all about Him.
you throw your worldly cares away
and wait upon eagerly knowing that
all of that is coming back soon.
I suspect that many people are indeed suffering in this recession.
too many of the people that I bai nian to.
Alright :D
hi-low world!
tomorrow will be an exciting day for my twin (toufoo) and I! hahaha okay at least I hope it'll be relatively fun. heh :D
today was a packed day compared to the rest - math, english and physics lecture. and we had to suffer the fate of eating lousy food in the hwachong canteen. finally I understand what the tms people mean by lousy food in school canteen. hahaah I mean how sucky can a plate of boneless chicken rice get? well... the answer is... find out in the hwachong college section canteen.
so after that went home and had a wonderful dinner hahaha xP in between that I watched mona lisa's smile. good movie... triggers thoughts in your head. hahaha but thoughts with no certain answers =/
I'm a happy person though. I loved my dinner :D it was delicious but I could be a little fuller though. hahahaa
im lazy to blog already. byeee
something embarrassing happened in sakae sushi at wheelock place today -.-!
something embarrassing that involved a can of coke, lotsa sushi rice and happyho&chengteng.
moral of the story is that you should always finish what you order. hahaha it was worth the entertainment though! :D and it's supposedly one fifth of everyone's fault including pinkpink because he inspired the idea in happyho -.-
thanks for treating us too happyho. we all know how hard it is for you to part with your money. HAHAHA! just in case, thank you chengteng for treating us the last time. hehehe
so I had my breakfast, lunch and dinner at sakae sushi. yay I love january cos I get free meals. hahaha xP but it was seriously damn embarrassing. lol
"very clever ah."
lol. we totally had to hide our faces.
after that we walked around orchard :D and I bought a new notebook which toufoo my twin has one too. LOL but I'm definitely gonna customize it. xD because I simply cannot stand the cover. lol then we watched "changeling" a very thought-provoking movie when I think about it, except that I suddenly remembered our sushi episode and forgot to think about the movie until I was on the bus.
political corruption. is it worth it to expose political corruption and cause public unrest?
I didn't think AngelinaJ was suitable for the role of Christine Collins. I mean her face suited the character and the time. omgosh. I think the same as Clint Eastwood "Angelina Jolie was cast in the lead partly because Eastwood felt her face fit the period setting." HAHAHAHA from wikipedia. xD She looked the part, but she was simply lacking in the emotions! like towards the child in the beginning. She seem to be a bit unloving. lol. like I couldn't feel the love she should have towards her child, enough for her to start screaming throughout most of the movie! I realized I actually I've researched on the movie before but I just forgot most of the stuff. oh gosh. I like the person who protrayed the killer and the woman in the asylum that kept screaming "but this is my room!" hahaha
but I really liked the parts where the woman finally got her son back and when they combined the both court scenes. I like the starting too when they use black and white and slowly it fades into colour. hahaha clint eastwood is a cool director
anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAPPYHO!
we love you always even though you're a cheapo sometimes, ungrateful friend and the new bff of samantha. HAHAHA!
I think my alarm clock sucks like crazy lorh.
two times already.
last saturday and then today.
so irritating.
I want to replace it, but I guess I like it too much already.
never mind.
I shall set more alarms next time.
waiting for her to go online.. have been waiting since 9pm.
want to know more. wish to know more.
yet at the same time, it gets tiring.
ive never tried so hard to get to know someone before.
"don't give up so fast on her"
Just wanna thank all of you that wish me happy birthday!
THANK YOU! by time of greeting for sms.
Kenneth (who smsed me one day before -.-!), Kendrick, SHEILA, Melissa, Beehiang, Peijia, Shuwen, JODIE, Alina, Jessicatan, Eeyang, Natalie, Leo Huang, Sherman Yuen, Shi Tong, Yuwen, Russell, ElaineChia, Carrie, Yanliang, Jingxing, GraceWu, Dorcas, Xiaoxiao, Yijing, JasmineKon
msn - weiting
THANK YOU! :D
to Mummy&Dad - for the money to treat chengteng, happyho and toufoo. IVE DECIDED JODIE SHALL BE CALLED TOUFOO! it's cuter than yongtoufoo! LOL
to chengteng, happyho and toufoo - for my wonderful school bag! lol thank goodness we didn't buy something from dickies! hwachong was swimming with dickies lor.
to sum1 - for your wonderful present >< *touches!* wonderful note I must say. hahahaa xD
to ryanseahjiapinglevi! - OMGOSH I LOVE YOUR CAKE. hahahaha! and I havent lai du zi yet so it's a good sign HAHAHA!
to Kendrick - for your cool notebook! :D with all the sweet words xD and can drink hehe
to n399 - for singing me happy bday and the cool presents. I know Eli and Evonne didnt have an easy time getting the present. hahaha xD
to __ - for GODIVA CHOCOLATEEE!
to my uncles and aunties and AHMA! for angbaos and box. LOL
finally,
THANK BE TO GOD!
FOR ALL THAT HE HAS GIVEN ME! :D
你让我觉得自己是世界上最幸福的人！
koped from alina.
thought it'll be fun!
1. Put your iTunes/Napster/Zune Player/WinAmp/etc on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!
4. Tag 10 or more friends
IF SOMEONE SAYS “IS THIS OKAY” YOU SAY?
ZHONG GUO HUA! - S.H.E [alright! I didn't know I was so affected by my Higher Chinese olevels paper that I've gone crazy!]
WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Forever - the Veronicas [Amazingly, quite true! I would like forever-ness! LOL]
HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Just Missed the Train - Kelly Clarkson [Alright! but I didn't take MRT today]
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE’S PURPOSE?
I still believe - Vivian & Cao Ge [YES I DO!]
WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Zhi Dui Ni You Gan Jue - Hebe & Fei Lun Hai [Omgoodness. yup zhi dui sheila you gan jue! LOL]
WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
All we are - One Republic [uh hopefully this links to some unity crap LOL]
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Unwritten - Natasha Beddingfield [LOL yeh they should be unwritten, especially the part about their weight]
WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Mouth Shut - The Veronicas [erhh. HAHAHA not really :P]
WHAT IS 2+2?
The Scientist - Coldplay [Yup, it takes the scientist to figure that out!]
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Mi Lu (as in lost) - Sun Ho [OH MY GOODNESS. LOL! maybe true uh.]
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Crawling back to you - Backstreet Boys [yeah that'll be nice. HAHAHAHA]
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Ruby - Kaiser Chiefs [Yes we love rubies! don't like Ruby Lin though!]
WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
其实很爱你 - Angela Zhang [uh. okay...]
WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
爱上爱的味道 - Angela Zhang [HAHAHAHAHA! I didn't know I'm supposed to be so in love -.-]
WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Say Say - Ashley Parker Angel [Alright I shall say "say" from now on!"
WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
At the Beginning - Anastasia [oh my gosh, if I do, I'll just faint. I play this song wayy too many times]
WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Fei Ni Mo Shu - Tank [okay I don't get the meaning!]
WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Keep Holding On - Avril Lavigne [I didn't know my hobby was to hold on lol]
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Invisible Life - Ashley Parker Angel [Omgosh, my friends are invisible; no friends!!!]
WHAT’S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Wonderful - Wicked Soundtrack [okay. so the worst thing is wonderful. so I wonder what's the best thing lol]
HOW WILL YOU DIE?
For Good - Wicked Soundtrack [wow. maybe I'll die a superhero or something. -.-!!!]
WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Helpless when she smiles [okaay. I will regret whatever this means LOL]
WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
I don't have to try - Avril Lavigne [wah not trying makes me laugh. ]
WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Qian Nian Zhi Lian - Alina playing the piano [HAHAHHAA okay so a thousand years of love makes me cry. or maybe it's just Alina playing the pianol. HAHAHA]
WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
Chasing Cars - Snow Patrol [I guess that doesn't answer the question LOL]
WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Shou Qian Shou - Many people singing [Okay holding hands scares me. Don't touch my hands!!!]
DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Something bad - Wicked Soundtrack [I have more sounds than this seriously! lol]
IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Ai Lai Guo [aww.]
WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
C Da tiao - Angela Zhang [yah no songs in my itunes hurts like crazy]
WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Something that I already know - Backstreet Boys [wise words...]
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"do you think im cool?"
"no"
"a bit"
"a bit lah"
Omgah. my knee hurts like crap and it doesnt help when chloe steps on my toe so often. =/
so basically I'm suffering from a lack of sleep and I cant sleep yet because I have to do something. -.- the person in question had better be grateful. so anyway, I'm addicted to "when we were young" by The Killers. The song was introduced to me by GUITARHERO III! hahaha I love guitarhero, it helps me get my mind off stuff. Ryan can vouch for that.
and why am I called hungry dinosaur twice? *scowls.
for all the hope lost,
there begins the resurrection of the soul.
okay I figured out that I needed to blog about serious stuff like new year resolutions... it was gonna be sooner or later. haha :D
ouch my stupid knee hurts like crazy!
okay suddenly I feel lazy. haha too bad :D
When after friendship's lasting years
I fell down today and caused chengteng to fall as well. =/ hahaha but oh well... thanks for mr plasters. hahaha xD
omgosh jodie gave us this damn cool goodie bag plus her wonderful fatboy drawing today for random present day! LOL
and happyho is heartless. seriously!!!
i must think of something to give her back. hehe
OMGOSH MY BIRTHDAY!!! IM GETTING OLDER SOON :D
crazy night.
finally there's release, thanks to some unsuspecting person.
to you, thank you so much.
and so we carry on,
lessons learnt
failures behind
and we see chengteng fall today LOL
omgosh
sheer stupidity.
the combination that I wanted was not offered in Hwachong and I didn't check!!! =/ okay so I guess I'll be going with Literature, Economics, Math and Chemistry. I really wanted to take History though. However, this is just a plan; I shall decide later :D
ryan and I are going to be each other's shoulder to rely on in this tough period of hello kittiness LOL
hello. i'm not talking about LKB, chengteng! -.-! but i want to kill you for completely embarrassing me in front of him!!! =(
anyway I forgot to talk about yesterday. went to collect the o levels results thing. if you wanna know, just ask me. a bit sad about it! melissaho stole my dream score :( hate her! so before that, we went around the school and kept doing the "HI MR/MS *insert name*" thing that we've seen the sec4s last year do. lol
then after that we went to collect results, then go to macs where melissa treated us cos she was the winner for this year. LOL and i forgot whether she gave jodiefoo a hug. but i ordered so much but then I was so worried about the others' results that I lost my appetite, but after I heard about their scores, I still couldn't find myself to eat. =/
okay i'm losing my momentum to blog. AHHH
cycling tomorrow. yayness. lol i can't wait to see chengteng be a natural on the bike. LOL!
I've decided.
i'm going to be brave and face my fears
i'm going to ignore the sense of loss
i'm going to give you one last chance
i'm going to forget you
i'm going to stop thinking the unnecessary thoughts
i'm going to do it the hard and fast way
yes, hi, i'm back for real (:
Hello world!
After sleep has evaded me, I have decided to come online to blog at this unearthly hour.
I'm addicted to the piano song, sunflower. First time when Luke played it, I fell in love with it. I don't know why but it reminded me of frogs trying to jump into the well, but only to fall in too deep and realized that all along it has been a well! and then they try to get out, but they cant! so they keep jumpingggg!
I guess I'm a bit like Helen Schlegel uh. lol thinking of music in motion. lol
okay it sounds like rubbish analysis.
so that was the first time, but the second time, on the way home from the CSS3 thingy, on the bus alone, I just felt so happy when I heard the tune again. and at first I couldn't recognize it, cos I thought it would be too much of a coincidence for D to upload that song into my itunes, but then... lol
and suddenly I realized that I really liked the song, because it's so realistic!
it's like the life of a person.
There are those fast parts... the happy, busy moments... he rushes through time without a glance behind and then, there are those slower parts, where... he somehow abruptly starts to reflect. Obviously I preferred the slower parts, because they sounds more pleasing to me... like flowers blossoming under some pink tree... okay must be sakura lol... yet he reflects with a great sense of longing and then he goes back to his busy life again, but I realized that without both parts, the song wouldn't be what it is. lol. which is realistic!
and so you might just ask... huh. but why do you keep using the adjective realistic? well... because isnt that what life is like somehow.. we keep going on with our little busy and happy schedule, rushing through everything... and somehow along the way, we slow down and reflect about life... and this is what makes the whole song attractive.
although we might like to take the time of the whole world to slow down and reflect, but we all know how "thinking too much" can kill somebody.
although we might like to keep ourselves busy and happy all day long like my wonderful bumblebee hat, but we all know how this inability to slow down your pace will one day wear you out.
so this song.. is like a message.
yes I'm not making any sense here. but it's just the way the song makes me feel :D
The sermon for today's service was fantastic and really convicted me, in terms of how I honor my peers and those I have authority over. I don't know how to say it, but I just feel that I can do so much more and change so much more for the better. And lastly, for those who have authority over me, I feel that I can honour them so much more as well. This would be a great area that I have to improve in, of course. I always had a problem with authority and more than often overstep my boundaries. I guess this year would be a good year to learn how to be wiser.
I'm so glad he came today! :D and that he enjoyed the message by Pst./Rev. John Bevere! and I believe that this will be the start of many more visits. Dear God please!!!!
After fellowship, went off with Dorcas and Joshua to Dorcas' house. Finally got to met the famous MOMO and Dorcas' brother, Luke. At first, I was pretty uneasy with momo, but then when I saw how Joshua immediately clicked! (like a mouse) with momo, I started to pat him more and soon, I found myself enjoying to pat him. hahahaha I was pretty surprised at the way Luke was around with Joshua, it's quite obvious that Luke is extremely taken with Joshua. lol. He invited Joshua to come back again and stay for limitless amount of time, while I could come back and have half an hour playing chinese chess with him. lol.
D's mother was super nice! She kept offering us drinks and food which I had to decline because I had no appetite... theses are rare days. LOL. but not only that, she laughed politely at my lame jokes and said that I was handsome. HAHAHA
don't know why, but I just felt so... helpless and lazy in D's house. Maybe it was the lack of food for the day? I don't know. I just felt so... lethargic or maybe it's because I slept at 2.30 and woke up at 7am today. lol I need more sleep. hahaha
Thank God my contact stuck to my eyes today. in fact the right eye lense came out in one piece. so proud of contact lenses :D
I know that it's supposed to be this way
but I don't understand why I'm nearly on the verge of losing control.
I'm feeling h.e.l.p.l.e.s.s.
cos sum1 is not online so I can't tell him how fabulous CAPE NO. 7 is so I shall just blog about it :D
OMGAHHHH....! I cried like a mad cow especially at the end. There's something about old people loving each other that touches me immensely as if someone has just touched me. HAHHAA
so today was movie mania... or rather, not really. The Duchess and Cape No.7! :D I loveeee the show :D it's really good :D :D :D :D :D
okay im lazy already BYEBYE :D
okay so what happened yesterday...
Singapore Poly Open House! I didn't know whether I was the one going to poly or D. lol so I was asking so many retarded questions, hoping to be interested myself, but then... I don't think the interest was enough for me to want to change schools hahaha!
and moreover, I would have to pay $10 to breach the NY IP contract. HAHAHAA NEVAHH especially in a time of economic crisis!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY FRANCIS!!! :D we're all turning 17 except jodiefoo! hahahaha :D who like did something unforgiveable... *threatens with the meanest scowl Ash has*
After that we went to bugis to have my breakfast, lunch and dinner. The chicken sucks. I'm so sad.... but then there was some pig down that complaining, so I shut my mouth and was too lazy to complain about how lousy the chicken was. remind me to stick to pepper lunch or the pasta. but then tori q saved the day! I had one chicken with pepper and three individual parts as in I koped from the same pig :D so in the end I had two sticks of tori q! XINGG FU! :D
so after that D left - OMGAH IM TOO LAZY TO BLOG THE REST!
cos there's gossip girl now.
SEE YA HUNNIES :D
love,
A
- the little ngionya *musters up the cutest smile in the worlds*
when i see you,
just some part of me fades along with you.
i wish i can show you what i really want to
but life gets harder
and it gets harder to breathe
you're the man that can't be moved.
and im not the person you're looking for.
together we cry
yes we cry
and we cry
"u emo now meh?"
"yeah"
"why"
"i don't know."
"the feeling of helplessness and hopelessness"
"why"
"i don't know."
I love Cheng teng, cos she treated us to a meal yesterday and I was damn amused lol
melissa, jodie, chengteng and I had the usual fun of taking retarded pictures... the new pose is the monkey pose which I am unable to do... then we played bridge. HAAHA! so typical :P and I lost three rounds before ending the grand slam with A WIN!!!!!!!! :D
Jodie was damn what lor, she entered the crumpler store... took 5 minutes and decided which bag she wanted! -.-! unfair, some people just have too much money. but never mind, I was never part of the cliche gang. AHAHAHA maybe Jodie will meet a handsome guy who accidentally knocks her over and discovers that "WAHLAO WE HAVE THE SAME BAG!" but in the meantime, Jodie will just settle with the SJI dude. LOL
wah but damn difficult to buy food yesterday, cause have to pass the card then I kept tapping the card to see how much I had left because I had so much fun tapping the card. HAHAHA
THANK YOU CHENGTENG! you're so awesome. i hope you liked the brownie cos I did. HAHAHAA and I forgot to clean my mouth after that so I CAME BACK ALL THE WAY WITH THE STAIN ON MY MOUTH!!!! WAHLAO. why you guys never tell me? too mesmerized by my beautiful face already right!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHENG TENG! I LOVE YOU FOREVER~~~ HAHAHAHAHA
Koped from Fiona HAHAHA
Things are getting a little frustration plus there's that person. =/
OH MY GOSH!
Hello world!