Last Last Post

Okay so just now wasnt my last post. Right now im checking to make sure i have everything. Im thinking of bringing a smaller bag but not sure if i can fit everything in. Looking forward to meeting new ppl in camp since everyone else i know so far more or less never contact me anymore. Im not exactly 100% fit but i think they die die will make me fit. i heard commando bmt is basically the same but they push you further. my stamina really dropped alot these few months haha i gotta do alot of running in camp to build it back up. thinking of bringing a book to read in camp. maybe lord of the rings. few thousand pages should be able to last me =D ok enough slacking back to packing. this is Dominic saying bye bye to myself and hello to my future self in 9 weeks.

Last Post

Packing my stuff now. I leave at about 7 in the morning tommorow. From the time school ended till now noone wanted to talk to me. Well.. too late to give a shit anymore. Last post. Bye.

Starcraft 2 Campaign Finished.

Just finished Starcraft 2. And with just a day to go with my enlistment! Lol. Unexpected ending. cant wait for the next chapter.

Recent thoughts about my life...

I was at the clinic the other day and when i went in my doctor said ' eh? u cut your hair? no more visual kei hair?' i was like 'wha..?' lol and of all the people to discuss visual kei with it was my doctor LOL! he was quite surprised i was entering commandos. to be honest even i had the 'wtf' face when i got the letter. i had my PES downed from A to B L1 cos i had a minor op done on my left eye 2 years ago. I hav a 6/6 in each eye though. I remember when i went for the op.. fuck i was awake the whole time when they brought the knife to my eye.. anyways i think most of u dont wanna hear the rest. when i got out my vision was still quite blur and i couldnt see shit out of that eye for the nxt few weeks. They didnt give me a pirate eye patch tho. i think girls go crazy over guys with pirate eye patches. LOL. anyway back to topic. my dad was realy pissed off i got assigned to the commandos instead because my initial enlistment letter stated i was to be sent to BMTC 3 in Tekong. But i got the 2nd letter abt a week later saying i was to report to SOTAC in Pasir Ris it came with the green paper stating Commando Training Institute and my dad just blew his top heh. well i can see why he's concerned.. hes colleague at work has a son in commandos who dislocated his shoulder after a parachute jump. instant downgrade to Armor Division. obviously i wanna be careful and not let the same shit happen to me. recently tho i guess he just came to accept it. He's been telling me it might be gd since not many ppl get selected anyway. And that since im such a sissy now it might be gd training for me. lolz. ive been spending alot of time with my family these few days. been going jogging with my dad in the evenings. ive been laying off beer for the past few weeks. im sipping moscato wine as im typing now tho haha. anyway im fking hungry after my run earlier im gonna hav my dinner now maybe ill post more stuff later.

Sleepy

Went running this evening damn sleepy now.. running tmr again. gotta make sure i got everything i need b4 i go in also.. zzzz

Getting tired but...

.... life goes on. ive spent the past few months alone and it gave me alot of time to think. not having any company or friends to talk and go out with for the past few months, it gets kind of depressing after awhile but eventually i got numb to it and dun realy give a shit. i go out alone. i watch movies alone. i eat alone. i havent spoken to anyone since sch ended. thinking back about my life these past 22 years, only Kenneth has treated me like a real friend and realy stood my even when i start having mood swings (but even he has uni coming and we dont talk much) . im an introvert. i avoid crowds and prefer not to stand out. but others just take it that im anti social and avoid me. being anti social and being introvert are two very different things. introverts still keep friends. but everyone is the same. they always claim to be my friend and then treat me like i dont exist later. I admit i built up alot of anger over the years i dont trust alot of people now. I usualy act friendly but when it comes to mixing around i avoid people. I dont want to go through the pain of having ppl not inviting me to events and ignoring me. For example no one wanted to attend my 21st bday. when i asked some others to help me pass to message around they conviniently forget. totaly ruined the rest of that year for me cos i have never had a bday party before and i wanted that to be my first. People alway say im emo. i get very angry when they say that cos the only reason i dont talk is cause i dont say anything unecessary. in fact, they never spent most of their lives alone who the fuck gave them the right to judge me. Every now and then i still look at my phone from time to time but i havent received any calls or messages for months cept from a few people. maybe i shld cancel my line. My depression has gotten quite bad.. i cant sleep at night, im thinking about suicide from time to time but in the end, i back out cos i guess i still wanna live and experience things in the future :) i know im talking to myself but blogging so far helps me vent my frustration abit and is probably the only thing keeping me from going insane. anyway... i got a dental appointment in abt 5 hours im gonna go to sleep now. nite.

My phone went to heaven (or hell)

My Samsung S8300 phone died. In my hands. Normally, u can scroll up or down in the main menu.. but for some reason it started scrolling sideways. by itself. then whole screen fucked up for no reason then the phone went dead lol. Been using it for just over a year till a few months ago when i totally stopped receiving msgs or calls from anyone. (i dont know y i even bother to keep a phone now) At least i still have my nokia 1661 im using for in camp purposes. no camera tho. gah

come on 3.0 K/D

racked up kills-deaths of 12-0, 3-0, 35-5, 22-0 today im just 0.03 short of hitting my first 3.0 KD ratio!

Starcraft 2

Really sucks that its releasing just 3 days before my enlistment. was looking so forward to it. =(

My last guitar class is merging with the 5pm class cos there arent enough people in mine (3 left including me). Hopefuly Spencer will still be teaching if i find time to go back.

Yay

On the bright side, i wont need shampoo anymore when i enlist!

ANA Gundam

Good thing my dad works at ANA cos the Gundam plane just landed in Osaka! Trying to see if he can help me get one of the limited ANA gundams. Speaking of Japan.. hopefuly i can go again next year before they take down the giant Gundam in Shizouka. I need to pay a visit to Ochanomizu again too!

zzzz

Last 2 weeks before i start my enlistment. Been pretty much spending my time playing persona 3 on the psp. havent realy done much exercise. maybe i shld head down later. still need to practice guitar also gah. gonna try out dragon quest IX on the DS now laters!

lol.. gd times

Hahaha came across this old screenshot i took back in 2009. im not into online gaming anymore as it takes up too much of my LIFE but back then i used to be pretty hardcore. this screenshot was taken during the early days of Aion when the servers just opened. I was leading my guild on a elyos headhunting raid and i just beat the shit out of this idiot who tried to take on me and the boys solo. there i was standing in front of his body and none of his guild mates dared to fuck with us lol. im like "COME ON FUCKERS!" and they're like "U first, no u first" haha.. man.. realy wished i had more time to play these games again.. guild 'kill on sight' man i really miss the gd times

Me? A commando?

So yeah. im told in my enlistment letter to report to SOTAC Commando Training Institute in pasir ris. well.. im not 100% going to be a commando.. they can still transfer me out if i screw up somehow or break some bone. if ur wondering how dangerous the stuff they do is, theres even a risk pay added on to ur basic NS pay. i just hope everything goes well.. since ive already been given the opportunity.. might as well take it and im damn excited abt the thought of parachuting out of a plane =)

damn im feeling hungry atm