Saturday, May 31, 2008



A dream makes you treasure someone's presence.

A dream can make you neglect someone's importance in your life.

A dream can fulfill whatever you cannot fulfill in life.

A dream can reflect the opposites and impossibles of life.

A dream can show the ugly truth.

A dream can be dramatic and unrealistic.

A dream can be whatever you can think of.

A dream can take away everything from you.

A dream can end up in death........

*

It took away a bucket of my tears...

I didn't know I could cry so much for you.

*

Can someone do something for me that I mentioned just once in my life but this person can just remember this point for the rest of their lives? I think probably they couldn't.

Because I just don't stand an important place in anyone's heart yet.

No one is able to do it.

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@3:13 PM

Wednesday, May 28, 2008



I had a long sleep in the afternoon, waking up with a tear-stained face.

I have no burden and don't have to worry about what I'm always scared of.

I just freely let the thing flow and just it happen.

The feeling was so real, I thought it was happening in real life.

The feeling was so similar to real life too (those that I had already experienced).

I'm just thankful that I had this "impossible" dream.

*

I'm thankful you were cooling me down by that kind of way. =))

I really love it.

But too bad, I woke up liaos. hahaha!~

I tried to recall the dream when I wake up. hahaha!~

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@9:14 PM





I love just the way we are in now.

Just have to....

yah.

*

Love dearr.

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@2:46 PM

Monday, May 26, 2008



I still know you won't, you won't.

Now even if appear, I probably won't feel touched anymore.

*

Just good that I handed you the letter in class on my birthday.

It takes a lot of courage.

*

I wish to hear the words from you, but nothing came out from your mouth.

Just disappointed...

...No matter how, I will still write to you.

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@11:48 PM





Today is my happy de birthday! Then went to have 90 dollars de dinner!~ =DDD Eat until super full de~~ WOOHOO!~

*

Thanks to all those who wished me happy birthday! I'm so touched neh!!~ Added into the list.

Jason
Camii zi ji ren
Janah (for the third time! XD)
Jie jie
Bee Chun
May Mei
Xin Yi
Sallie
Daddy (thx for cooking the long-living noodle for me XD)
Eddy di (for the third time)
Liyana tu-di
Mummy (she so kawaii, she use sms even though we are just one step from each other. And she sent happy birthday in chinese twice. so cute rite!) HAHAHA!~
dearr =D
Bee Geok meimei (she same birthday and same age as me, but then I born earlier than her)
Aaron
Siew Jiun
Revin (my human comm. group mate! thanks girl! <3)

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@11:48 PM





Happy Birthday to me!! =) *Hugs myself* HAHAHAHA!~

HEES!

Thanks to all those who wished me!!~

Wan Yan was the first to wish me after 12!!~ HAHAHA!~ Thanks girl! I'm so touched neh!~ =DD

Of course thanks yuyans darling for wishing me even earlier just before she slp!~ HAHA!~ Gam worr! =DD HEES!

Thanks to my family (including jiefu, cuz he gave me one quite big de hongbao), xiaowei (the other day forgotten to mention her wishing me), subha (my child, haha), Hwee Ing, Wei Ye, Princess Janah (wishing me the second time!) and many many more.... =))

Felt loved! <3

*

I knew you won't appear in front of my door.

I will be touched if you really do so.

*

Suppressing.

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@8:35 AM

Sunday, May 25, 2008



Sometimes being honest, honesty can make me even weaker.

Sometimes being honest, honesty make me stronger.

We just have to understand each other's feelings to sustain a relationship.

Some words are meant to be left unsaid. Because those words may be hurting, may be impactful, may initiate a quarrel, may initiate a breakup. No one will know. Or if not, we keep in our hearts because we don't wish to say it out, hear our own words and by reminded by ourselves about the bad things we don't wish to hear.

Not all things can be in our control.

Sometimes, tears can tell you everything that someone wants to convey to you.

*

People often say girls are always indirect in their words, and guys hate to guess and don't understand why girls always want them to guess instead of blurting everything out.

It's the words that matter.

Perhaps I still have to go and think about why girls are so indirect.

*

Sometimes, girls initiate a breakup often is because they feel insecure, useless when you start comparing her with other people. She will start to be sensitive and think of things negatively. What we meant mostly wasn't a breakup, but is indirectly saying we are insecure, we are hurt, we are... whatever.

*

Do we need a change?

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@1:21 PM

Saturday, May 24, 2008



My attachment at R2 finally finished! =)))

Also, kena asked out last minute for birthday celebration with dearr, FABS gang and Xinyi!~ LOL!~ =DD Despite being really tired because I just slept for a few hrs but then I still enjoyed and appreciated what they had given me.

We went to Sakae to eat buffet. And that's the first time I ate so many red plates de dish and we were the last group of customers who leaves Sakae (can imagine how late we were). And then, went to walk ard in Suntec while yuyans darling and CK disappeared. Then finally, a surprise (birthday cake) was there when we reached my favourite place of Singapore (currently), Marina Square Open Space. Lao Tian gave me a really nice view of a few clouds and a lot of shining stars =)). That's what I love it. Other than abit of "sprinkles" of water, I'm fine! =D

At about 11 plus plus, we left the place and went to the bus stop. Dearr left to go somewhere else while CK and Kieron kor were the first to leave the bus stop, left with four girls. Then we were kind of panicking what to take at that hour. In the end, ah xia gf and Xinyi took 75 together, leaving me and yuyans darling at the bus stop. And I was kind of like talking to CK, cuz I told him that probably we cannot go home liaos. And he requested his dad to send us home. But later, because I saw 97 coming, I told yuyans darling to leave first so that she can reach home earlier. =)) Then left with just me at the bus stop. While waiting, I was really scared and insecure because many people surrounded me. They come and go, come and go. A lot of guys ard me... and blah blah... just didn't feel like staying out too late. Just... insecure. And after some waiting, CK and HIS PARENTS came to fetch me! Darn paiseh! OMG! Then reached home at about 12 plus plus. =))

Gam to all people who wished me advanced birthday! (Dy di, Princess Janah *winks*, dearr, FABS Gang + Xinyi + Jason (because he shared the present too!). HEES! ^^.

And of course, must specially thank CK and CK's parents for sending me home at this hour. =)) Thank you very much!!~

I love all the presents you all gave me! Seriously, love to the core man!~ HAHAHA!~ =DD So my style! HAHAHA~ =DDDDD

LOVE EVERYONE~! =DD

I super happy des~!

*skips away*

*

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO AH BEE!!! =DD BYW ROCKS! =)))))

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO JIE!! (I wished her yesterday morning liaos! HAHAH!)

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@1:58 AM

Wednesday, May 21, 2008



Thanks for being honest to me.

I will try to be honest to you too.

*

Greatly influenced.

*

Kao, I envy leh! =X~

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@6:39 PM

Tuesday, May 20, 2008



I will try not to hide anything from you.

But you have to promise to tell me anything you are keeping inside your heart.

I will always be there for you.

Don't wait till I discover the change on your facial expressions.

It will be too late.

I will listen to anything you want to say, whether is it good or bad.

As long as you are willing to share, I'm willing to listen.

=))

Love you.

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@10:33 PM





To all HSS Concert Band Alumni-s,

Band Investiture
Date : 26 May 2008 (Monday)
Time : 1.30-5pm
Venue : PAC

Do spread the words around!~ =DD

Jia you to all the juniors who are performing for their seniors. =))

Take cares~

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@10:04 PM





Changed blogskin.

*

I hope I won't sense a change that quickly.

Let it linger?

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@6:43 PM

Monday, May 19, 2008



Have been emo-ing and crying for some reasons. People, things, dramas made me touched for some reasons.

Ppl say I'm just so easily touched. My laughing point is really low.

*

I'm envying and being jealous that a someone who loves that someone so much, can do so much for tt person. Buy things for tt person, make things for tt person, do whatever they can to make tt person happy. But for me, I haven't gt all these treatments before. Despite I knew that I lost one good chance in the past, but it's already the past.

So what if you threw a thousand dollars accessories into the school grass field? Everything just go into waste because another person just didn't see it.

*

Just so easy to get isn't it?

*

*walks off*

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@9:01 PM

Friday, May 16, 2008



I have emo random thoughts, once again.

Just that I never tell you what my thoughts are.

*

Many things in life, you will slowly learn that there are some things you wished you didn't know at all. You wished you haven't seen through. You wished you never heard anything. The good impressions are still intact and fresh.

They are so against what I loathe so much. And it actually happened.

I really wished it didn't come true. But yet, it really did.

I don't know how to face someone like that.

But I just.

SIGH.

*

See you in my dreams.

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@11:58 PM

Wednesday, May 14, 2008



I knew that one day it will change.

*

10 days of quality time.

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@8:37 PM

Tuesday, May 13, 2008



Today I pondered...

Probably in the past, it was already one-sided love from you. I liked you so much, but you just made use of me. I have feelings for you, but you don't have the same kind of feelings back at me. I already knew I was just a kind of substitue. But it just feels kind of worse, thinking about this.

Am I just wrong? Do we share the same thing? Or are you just fooling me in the past?

People can don't reply to other people's sms whenever they dun wan to. And some people just can wait for someone's call for hours. In the end, that person probably had called back and said a few words and just hung up and never called again.

*

Incidents on the bus .

*

See how long it will last.

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@10:54 PM

Monday, May 12, 2008



Chris Brown - WITH YOU

I need you boo
I gotta see you boo
And there's hearts all over the world tonight
Said there's hearts all over the world tonight

I need you boo
I gotta see you boo
And there's hearts all over the world tonight
Said there's hearts all over the world tonight

Hey lil mama, ooh you're a stunner
Hot little figure, yes you a winner, and
I'm so glad to be yours
You're a class of your own and
Ooh little cutie, when you talk to me
I swear the whole world stops
You're my sweetheart and
I'm so glad that you're mine
You are one of a kind, and
You mean to me what I mean to you
And together baby there is nothing we won't do

'Cause if I got you
I don't need money
I don't need cars
Girl you're my heart

And oh, I'm into you and
Girl no one else would do
With every kiss and every hug
You make me fall in love
And now I know I can't be the only one
I bet there's hearts all over the world tonight
With the love of their life who feel
What I feel when I'm with you, with you, with you, with you, with you... girl
With you, with you, with you, with you, with you... Oh girl

I don't want nobody else
Without you there's no one left, and
You're like Jordans on Saturday
I gotta have you and I cannot wait now
Hey lil shorty, say you care for me
You know I care for you
You know that I will be true
You know that I won't lie
You know that I will try
Be your everything

[ With You lyrics found on http://www.completealbumlyrics.com ]

'Cause if I got you
I don't need money
I don't need cars
Girl you're my heart

Oh, I'm into you and
Girl no one else would do
With every kiss and every hug
You make me fall in love
And now I know I can't be the only one
I bet there's hearts all over the world tonight
With the love of their life who feel
What I feel when I'm with you, with you, with you, with you, with you... ohhh
With you, with you, with you, with you, with you... Yeah

And I will never try
To deny that you are my whole life
'Cause if you ever let me goI would die so I won't run
I don't need another woman
I just need you or nothing
'Cause if I got that
Then I'll be straight
Baby you're the best part of my day
I need you boo
I gotta see you boo
And there's hearts all over the world tonight
Said there's hearts all over the world tonight
They need their boo
They gotta see their boo
Said there's hearts all over the world tonight
Hearts all over the world tonight

And oh, I'm into you and
Girl no one else would do
With every kiss and every hug
You make me fall in love
And now I know I can't be the only one
I bet there's hearts all over the world tonight
With the love of their life who feel
What I feel when I'm with you, with you, with you, with you, with you... ohhh(girl)
With you, with you, with you, with you, with you... ohhh
With you, with you, with you, with you, with you...
With you, with you, with you, with you, with you...Baby yeah

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@9:11 PM

Sunday, May 11, 2008



I'm getting weaker and weaker under you.

I know we are changing.

At least I know I'm changing even if you are not changing.

I don't know this is good or bad.

*

I need you.

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@11:55 PM





I'm just a useless person.

I dislike quarrels, I hate to say anything hurtful. That's why I always keep quiet and bear everything by myself.

But almost always, I'm the one who gets hurt and cry.

This time, it's the same.

*

I'm just weak.

Good things people don't appreciate. They only know how to compare.

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@7:43 PM





Do you know that the words you left me, really hurt my heart real deep?

At least we made the effort to celebrate with you and bought you things. And yet, what you said to me? "It's as if you have no children this year."

It's as if I wanted it to be like that. But I have assignments to do and hand up the next day. I have tons of homework to touch on. I have no time to celebrate that's why we celebrated and have dinner earlier.

Do you know that some people really is childless and wish to have a proper celebration day? Do you know some unfilial children don't even come back to see mothers on this special day? We at least celebrated with you and bought you things that you like. It's just this special day that I couldn't go out with you because it's a sunday. I have things to hand up the next day.

The sentence you dropped me is really disappointing. I know how you feel but at least you also should understand how we feel and be satisfied with what you have now.

It sounds as if we had already died and you are childless. It's really hurting to hear that you know. And I'm THE ONLY ONE WHO HEARS THAT, ALWAYS.

I don't like to hear all these negative stuffs. I don't like to feel bad. I have no choice but to stay at home to complete my presentation for tml. It's as if I wanted it. You knew I had to do my homework and you dropped this kind of sentence to me, and hurt me so deeply.......

If you are really childless this year, then why do you still hear "Happy Mother's Day" today?

Now I know, we should only make the celebration ALWAYS ON THE DAY ITSELF or else you will clean forgotten about it.

*

I have nothing to say or reply or whatever.

I'm just here to grumble.

A stupid person just invented another day for me to cry over.

F.

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@7:31 PM

Saturday, May 10, 2008



You have to like the way I am.

You can't change me. You need to respect me.

If not, leave.

*

I'm just a simple girl who is not attractive at all.

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@9:56 PM

Friday, May 09, 2008



I'm sorry I'm in the wrong.

I'm sorry I talked too much.

I'm sorry I didn't understand more.

Forgive me.

=(

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@10:25 PM

Thursday, May 08, 2008



I had a nice dream today. I dreamt of lying on someone's shoulder, with hands interlocked. I don't know who this person is, and don't wish to know too. HAHA. My only wish is that I want this simple dream to continue on like this forever.

I just want some simple life.

*

Today went for Mother's Day Celebration with family and ate at Sakae Sushi. Ate a lot today not because in a good mood but just wanted to fill my stomach. =x

Sat at the back of the lorry and looking for stars again. No stars today.

=(

*

I love you. I treasure you.

Love me and treasure me okay? Please don't take me for granted. I really will cry.

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@9:27 PM

Wednesday, May 07, 2008



One day we will go seperate ways.

I just hope to treasure the time we have now, or else we can't do anything else already.

Even if we are just nobodies, we are still existent now.

*

I know I will miss you.

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@8:54 PM

Monday, May 05, 2008



Still sick.

Still relying on you.

It is a really different kind of feel.

Was it this or that?

I couldn't figure out but I just...

I hope to feel.....

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@12:26 PM

Sunday, May 04, 2008



I finally see the doctor liaos... and btw, I waited for the doctor for at least 1hr 30mins! He's a too popular de family doctor liaos... hahaha!~ When I reached there, it was just no. 17 and you know what's my no.? 34! It's like the double lor!! So I went to walk around alone to take money and bleahs... haha!~ When I about to go in, then my mum came to pei me.

Went to eat lunch then began to shop with her at the neighbourhood for light bulbs and other household items and many more......

*

Wah, you know what! Because once I entered, I said, "Hello." And I got back, "Hello Auntie." OMG! The doctor is same age as my mum leh! I go see him ever since I was very young lor! OMG! Call me auntie leh! HAHAHA!~ But I never say anything I just laughed at his joke. hahaha!~ LOL!~ Then when I said, "Thank you," He replied, "Thank you, Auntie." Then I laughed again. Once I went out, I told my mum and then she said, "Because who he always meet are aunties mahs... of course call auntie la!" LOL!~

*

The doctor made me so happy. hahaha!~

*

I miss you.

Yours.

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@9:51 PM





I sat at the back of the lorry on the way back home.

Blasted a random song from radio and a fixed song from my playlist and i sang out loud while I was still on the way home.

Looking up searching for the stars... but in the end, just saw 2-3 stars.

*

You are just so cute when you are angry over me. heehee! =)

I will tell you the actual question on my graduation day or... if anything really changed the situation...

Let's cherish. Let's treasure ourselves.

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@10:19 AM

Saturday, May 03, 2008



As one gets older and older, one's barrier become thicker and thicker. But at the same time, some people's barrier will turn more and more transparent to others.

Just thick yet transparent barrier .

*

Secure under you .

I'm actually scared .

Will .

Why...

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@2:45 PM





Yesterday was my attachment day at another new place in the hospital. That place was even busier than the previous one I went to. And I didn't have good feelings about it.

Yesterday about 12.05pm like that, I almost fainted at my attachment place. When I was young, I often faint for the same reason because I didn't eat. Then this time, I tink it was didn't eat and I was totally sick. My forehead and body was burning. It feels as if I can boil egg using my body le. Luckily, I told my supervisor abt it, and she let me rest behind. If she nvr approve, I tink I faint in front of her liaos because I was alr seeing "black flowers" in my eyes. If I see a combination of "white and black flowers" then slowly the flowers fill up my view, that will be the time when I faint liaos.

At 1.45pm, I was already totally tired and tired of the job already. It feels sickening when you are sick and you had to deal with long prescriptions and no one helps u except when others are free (which is so hard to find such time).

2 plus, went to lvl 2 de Staff Lounge. Asked ah jiun and nad to help me buy chicken rice from kopitam while i rest there. At that time, my legs and back were in pain. My forehead and body were still burning. It's as if I can split liaos.

Then bleahs. I still managed to go and see the project supervisor. Felt better after swallowing down two panadol.

*

I'm really touched with everyone's care and concern. What you all said and did touched my heart so much. =))

Love you guys.

Love my parents too. Daddy still called back home to ask me go see doctor when I was talking on the phone on another side. So touched also. Mummy helped me so much to make me feel better w/o the use of med.

*

Thank you, esp. to you. I felt a little better seeing you.

=)

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@9:31 AM

Thursday, May 01, 2008



You see normal things pretty at some weird angles. Don't know why.

My imaginations can run wild but my disappointment increases with time too, on things that wouldn't even happen.

What is said may not be done.

It's fate that you will experience touching moments. It's fate that you will not come to me. It's fate that you will not make me feel touched. It's fate to feel disappointed. It's fate to feel all emotional.

It's just fate that everyone is able to see through...

Mask, dun exist.

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@11:10 PM

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