Probably every month I will have a period of time when my thoughts will go crazy for a while, over simply anything. And it will be gone. I think it's just "neurotransmitters" changes instead of hormonal changes. muhahas!
Life haven't been too good ever since the start of the year. No highlights. Things dun remain the same, they are getting worse and worse.
Even for the things and person I treasure. Sigh. My thoughts for them changed drastically, and I dun wish to face it sometimes.
Seriously, I dun feel good when I see the photo, omg. What's wrong with me. That kind of feel I know why but it's... sigh.
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Life's fragile and I seriously hope good spirits appears ard their loved ones. Not to scare them, but to be the "unseen" someone whrby when alive ppl can tell the spirits abt hw they really feel abt life, because spirits are already dead. They are open with the thoughts of life, and kind of can keep secrets better than alive ppl, in my perspective. At least spirits will spread secrets in the nether world better than in the living world, so it's okay.
I sound weird saying this. But seriously, I hope good spirits exist in this world.
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Watery, go away.
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@10:14 PM
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
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Who would have known I had suicidal thoughts yesterday?
Yesterday my mood was really low, and I find that I'm living like a failure. I really hate it.
I had to do self-reflection about the things I had done and had not done.
All thanks to mummy, whom I talked to about all my feelings yesterday (and I dun wish anyone to know about it anymore). Everything was cleared and my mood kind of elevated.
My mum is an anti-depressant, I just realized.
I love my mum!~
<3
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I'm turning random, oops.
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@7:28 PM
Saturday, January 19, 2008
Yesterday I was supposed to just go and meet up with Yin Yin and hand in the IS project thing at Business Block and go home at probably 1 plus. In the end, I ended up going home after 5.30pm. It's OMG.
Today many things happened. Sent Yin Yin to near Blk 56 (I walked her to Convention Centre only) then went to Convention Centre and walk ard the counselling area. And then I took the shuttle bus back to LSCT. My godmei and two juniors came and I brought them around. I'm sure they are kind of bored at my block because I tink I'm bored too. LOL!~ And I lead them to the HS block and I'm gone! HAHA!~
Then I went to help out in the lab and then went to have lunch with kieron kor and ah jiun. Ate Yong Tou Foo at SIM. Not nice de. =X~
Then went back. Helped out in lab and walked ard here and there. A lot of things la. aiyohs.
I duno said how many byes to my cute TSO, Mr. Tang liaos. LOL!~ I thought I going to go home soon, so whenever I left the lab, I will say bye to him (because whenever he smiles, he looks so cute!). But I ended up coming back again and again, and we said goodbye countless times already. LOL!~ At 5.30pm, i still told him hopefully I wun say goodbye to you again today. haha!~ And we made it! HAHA! =DDD Cute Mr. Tang!! <33
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Is it because we have the affinity to meet each other?
I thought I saw you, I even glared at your back shadow. But in the end, it was the wrong person.
I'm glad we are still friends with close contacts. That's enough to make me happy and satisfied.
Why are you so clever, and you got my hints!!
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You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@12:16 AM
Friday, January 18, 2008
NP OPEN HOUSE!!
Today is finally the start of NP Open House! =)) Not counted as busy, however just kind of disappointed (if were to compare our performance last year).
Here are some of the photos taken today!!~ =DD
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After my ambassador duty today, I went home and bathe and prepare myself for the dinner at night! =D The dinner was held at Sho-U at The Central.
This is the picture of the surrounding of the jap restaraunt. NICE DE LOR!! SO HIGH CLASS!! This place de concept is very loud. It has got distinctive themes like all red, all black, all white (walls, chairs, tables of all the same color). According to the CEO, this place won two prizes liaos. omg! It's worth the prize lor! =)) SO NICE A PLACE!~
In addition, they have this cushion seats at the side for you to sit there and look at the scenery lor! It's nice de lor!~ =D Too bad no boyfriend now, or else I will drag him to come eat with him at night. =(
Other scenery at the same side of the windows. =)) When not too dark tt time.
From the right to left, that's my bag, ah xia bag, and yuyan's goodie bag =x LOL!~ they happily rested on the couch there leh! They oso enjoying the place lor, despite they can't eat.
Some nice deco on table!! =DD
Because they haven't serve food, and we were like very high over the ambience there. So we kept taking photos here and there. During my free time, I took another photo of the scenery there. =))
We are at the white theme there, and this photo shows a great contrast of the black theme divided from the white theme. =)) Is nice de lor!
This is the pic of the cup of green tea. =)) Then hor, the cup is not normal cup. The others guess its made of stone, then serves to retain heat btr worr! =))
Look like BAO de soya sauce thing. lol!~ =DD
See la, too sian liaos. go take pic of our legs secretly. white heels (mine), left (yuyans), right (ahh xiia).
Not only they just serve us green tea, but also jap wine. And then I dun really like the taste of it bahs. haha!~ I will always give a face when I take a sip of it. In the end, Kieron kor's kor finish them all. lols~
First dish, what I called steam egg thing. (i dun like to rmb jap names and stuffs, i lyk to call nicknames of these dishes). And then it's totally different from what we normally taste from Sakae Sushi. This one is really fantastic man. There's a kind of jelly (but not a jelly). That "jelly" serves as the salty layer that gives the perfect taste to the bland taste of the steamed egg and some mushrooms, crab meat and stuffs. OMG. I almost flew away lor. It really warmed the stomach and it's omg, I can't forget the feel!~ =DD SO DARN NICE DE LOR!
This photo can't see clearly. It's the pic showing the pattern of the small spoon given together with the first dish. It's got decoration of small stars. Nice de lor! Everything delicate and nice.
That contains the jap wine. Very special right. In between, where you see the circle, is where they put a round ice in the circle hole to keep the wine cold. So nice lor, seen in real! =)) I wanna steal it home! =X~~
The second dish and the silver chopsticks. It consists of sushi (made from rice different from Sakae sushi ; this type of rice is even softer and lot nicer to eat and the combination inside each sushi is darn nice. I specifically like the orange one, even though I can't say the difference between the orange and the green one. maybe color preferance bahs?). Then we also gt the cooked salmon fish. can just take out slice by slice by a chopstick beginner like me. =) So easy to use chopstick to seperate these meat out! OMG! We have some salad veggy and stuffs like "fish springrolls" which is super crispy and nice. And the sauce that comes with the food on the dish, is super nice and fit for each food. =)) It made my life a lot happier!! HAHAHA!~
Last but not least, there's a leaf shaped wasabi and the sour jap ginger. The sour jap ginger still taste weird for me (if I take too much) but my mum loves to eat it. lols~ =X
Can't help it but to take the dish of it before I eat it. The second dish looked so nice until my hand looked so ugly in it. But then despite my hand looked ugly in the pic, it's happy to see the food too!~ =DD
Third dish, gt fried fish, tempura, and mixed vegetable. All nice la! =DD !!!! *flies away again*
Here's their special pepper. I dun feel spicy but then I feel the salty taste. It should be salt instead of pepper to me! But nvm! NICE DE LOR! And it's like DARN FRESH!!! =DD
Utensils for dessert time! Finally!~
My napkin, shirt, plus part of my jeans. lol!~
YAY! Dessert time! Consists of mango ice-cream (which is SUPER DUPER FRESH), the duno wadd jelly (we tasted and guessed it was orange skin, and I felt it tasted like sour jelly to me), and the tofu cheese cake or something lyk tt.) wah, again it's nice (i noee u are sian of looking at nice nice nice..)
Another deco of the utensils!~
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After having our dessert, went to look around the place. =)) Then took some pics.
Oh wells, this restaraunt hor, got special couple corners tt's kind of hidden. Then its really cozy and private and you can see the scenery through the windows. See, that's Auntie Vanessa (she's so sexy lor!) and then she happily jumped into the room and let us take a pic of her inside the couple room. =)).
Look! She's exploring the room too!! LOL~ =DD Btw, the food on the table were not eaten by her! These were the leftovers by the previous customers! And then the waiter let us in to see the room! =))
A blur pic of ahh xiia galfriend at the red corner room. =))
Scenery seen from the window of the couple room! =D
That's a proof tt the scenery of the previous pic is the same! =DD SUPER NICE DE ROOM WITH SUPER NICE DE SCENERY! SO ROMANTIC!!! <33
Finally the last pic of our shoes!! =DD (clockwise) : Jason (sportshoes), yuyans darling, ahh xiia galfriend, kieron kor and me code 1261!!~ =DD
After the dinner, shopped a bit and took some photos and stuffs, went home with kieron kor on the same bus..
Took 61, very long bus ride. And I thought through some things. Sometimes not just guys feel that, girls will feel the same too.
I'm happy that I have the memories. All thanks to them. <33
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Dearr, no matter what decision towards your life, I will still support you. It's the best suggestion I can give you already. Even though I know that my suggestion may not help you, but then hopefully you can get through this and not feel so sad anymore. Dun wish to see you sad. Dun wish to sense that you are sad. Dun wish to tink that you are sad.
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@12:17 AM
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
NP OPEN HOUSE 2008!~
Venue : Ngee Ann Polytechnic
Days : 17-19 Jan 2008
Time : 11am - 6pm
Please do come take a look at my school. Do visit our school website for more details at np.edu.sg =DD
If you want to see me (which I doubt anyone would want to see me), can come on the 17th Jan when I'm on duty as ambassdor at Life Sciences and Chemical Technology Building. =)) And I will bring you to my course, Pharmacy Science if you want to!! =DD
Or if you don't wish to see me but you are thinking of what course you are interested in, you can make a trip down to Ngee Ann Poly to clear any doubts of yours with the students there! =) I think it will help in making your decision for your future poly life! =D
Choose Ngee Ann, choose Ngee Ann!!~ HAHAHA!~
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Alrights, enough of the promoting!~ HAHA~ This week is of no highlights yet. We will have a lot of preparation work that needs to be done for our lab and stuffs like that for the open house. OMG. Darn busy this week. =X~
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I have been having multiple dreams ever since don't know when. And sometimes I really hate the multiple dreams even though some dreams I really love it and hope it can continue because I get the real feel of it. But then I doubt...
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NEH MIND!~ BYE PPL!~
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BTW, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BLOG!! =DD 2 YEARS OLD LIAOS!!! WOOHOO!~ THAT'S FAST MAN!~
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@9:24 PM
Saturday, January 12, 2008
Today had a fruitful trip with my jie because we spent more than 60 dollars in popular!! MUHAHA~ So happy de lor. Because 60 dollars from that total amt is considered free because my jie gt popular vouncher!!~ YAYS!
And I bought many stationeries, a horoscope book, a silver hp case and many many more. HEES. =DD
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That was the first time I hugged someone so tight in the dream. I wish I could hug that person that tight in reality too, if I have the chance to do it.
I didn't know that I can have at least 3 dreams in just one hour! OMG. Some were like, what I wanted. haha!~
I <3 weekends!~
Coffee prince!~ *screams*
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@8:33 PM
OMG, 11/1 tt special day just went off like this. HAHA. I seemed to forget all about it! But never mind!
I was spending the whole night watching 4 episodes of coffee prince with my mum in the living room until 12 plus. Then I used 10 tissues in total (all wet and sticky) LOL!~ Because I cried too much over the few I watched. Because mummy watched the second time so she had no reaction liaos. haha!~ While I.. "wah! *cries*" no la! my tears just silently flow!~ LOL!~ So touching lor...
I hope to find someone who wants me to appear as natural as possible in front of them. I want to make a promise to them. I want to find someone who wants to see my happiness, my sadness and share feelings together.
Also, I realized when I see things very touching, my heart will feel sour sour mushy mushy kinda of feel, do you all have these feel? Or just feel normal but your tears will just flow? I both leh... sometimes the feeling is too sour and mushy tt i hated it...
when i recollecting the memories in the past, sometimes I will oso feel so... duno what's tt feeling...
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alrights, bye!~ my eyes are all swollen (so hard to open my eyes now!) My eyes are even smaller now! YAYS! =X
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@1:01 AM
Thursday, January 10, 2008
Today I was supposed to reach home early, but then the quarrel on the bus made me reach home later than expected.
I wouldn't say who is right or wrong. They are right or wrong in a way or another. The similarity between them is that both of them did not give in and then they just continue fan the flame and make it even bigger. But I know fanning the flame bigger is an unavoidable thing during quarrels so I did not say anything on the bus when I saw the whole incident (because I know I will get scoldings from them. Afterall, they are all more senior than me.)
What happened was that, I went up to 61 bus as usual, to go home. The bus was very fast and then I thought in my mind, I will reach home early today. And I silently yay-ed.
At NP bus stop, there were many students coming up as usual. I tink all the bus drivers have the mentality that some will try to escape tapping card cuz too many ppl tapped their cards and wouldn't noee who did not tap. Then at NP bus stop right, I saw hw much he minded about ppl not tapping his card. The bus driver called the guy to go back to the entrance of the bus to tap his card as a proof that the guy had already tapped the card (cuz the driver suspect he did not tap his card). In the end, the guy did really tap his card then the bus driver sat back on his seat and continue listening attentively to the tapping card sounds.
Then at ard Shell bus stop (after 1 or 2 bus stops) right, a china woman came up, together with many other people. The china woman tapped her card (her card was inside her bag). This time, the woman did not manage to tap her card successfully and the bus driver was aware of it. Then this time, the bus driver stood up from his seat and asked the lady to scan her card (tis part I was stoning so I did not hear his tone but then the woman appear to be irritated) Then the china woman continue nagging and nagging while she tapped her card.
While she tapped her card, the bus driver was busy giving bus tickets to other people and he did not hear it. When he was free after a few moments, he stood up from his seat again (because he didn't know that the china woman took out her card and scanned the card already), his tone was then not very good (of course tinking tt bus driver dun wan ppl to have free bus rides tt easily) to the woman. The bus driver called the woman to tap her card as evidence and the woman refused. The bus driver kept asking in a really bad tone and the woman refused, and kept saying that she really tapped. Then the other passengers then sounded that they saw it (I saw it too).
The bus driver then said he just wanted to see himself. He began to say, "Why let me see you tap your card again will die ah? Cannot see evidence is it? Like that you will die huh?"
China woman then talked to the lady who helped her proofed her innocence (and I heard it because it was quite loud), "This bus driver dun have any manners, keep saying die die die."
At the same time, a uncle sitting in front of me, also said stuffs that the bus driver dun like..
Uncle : You dun have manners. Never mind Miss, you can write down his bus plate number and then go to the company and complain.
Bus driver : *angry* u wan u copy down and complain la! I scared you ah! I never do anything wrong okay! I really never see it!
Uncle : Aiyahs, dun talk so much la! You are wasting everyone's time! Dun forget you have passengers on this bus too! Dun waste everyone's time okay!
Bus Driver : If this didn't happen, it wouldn't be like that...
Continues arguing...
Uncle : You are so rude!
Bus driver : Now you talking about courtesy? *dry laugh* I'm not wrong!
Uncle : Dun tink you can talk to me like that okay! Last time I was .... *the word blurred off because he talked too fast I couldn't catch*
Bus driver : You already said it's LAST TIME. It's now that matters. Dun care so much ok!
Uncle : Dun talk so much!
Bus driver : It's just a small matter (this part I rolled my eyes. I was wondering, if it's a small matter then why you are argue so much over it? They argued for several stops lor)
During the quarrel thing, the bus driver stood up from his seat (and stopped driving several times) and he drove slower eventually.
And btw, the china woman and the woman beside her (as mentioned earlier) became friends and they chatted quite a lot (I saw that on bus).
And I realized one thing is that, even at some bus stop (whereby normally dun have anyone alighting de) oso gt quite a few passengers going down lor! At every bus stop, the bus stopped to let passengers off lor! Everytime is at least 3. By the time it reached my bus stop, the bus was not as packed as before (leaving only a few standing).
From here can see the impact, some passengers were scared that the bus driver will do whatever thing. I just scared he will distract himself and lead to car accident only (choy!)
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Already a bad day and yet got this kind of things happening. OMG, what a nice day man.
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@7:53 PM
Wednesday, January 09, 2008
Today is a really terrible day for me. Beginning of the day was okay, however it's getting worse as time went on and on today...
Was getting moody and dun have the mood to smile. But sighs, it's alright.
Today watched 3 episodes of Coffee Prince but I had to stop because whenever I watch, I will miss someone badly. Tears just flow..
Nowadays have been missing this person like siao. Whenever I behave like that, I scold myself.
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I wish to forget them soon.
Just shut up and don't do anything to me.
Please, please let all it be last time to forget such things.
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11/1 , looking forward to this special day. I will remember this day forever (for the whole of my life). The only sweet yet painful things happened.
not forgetting 14/1 (my blog's birthday!!)
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You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@8:36 PM
Tuesday, January 08, 2008
Today is just a normal day. Actually I have got nothing to blog, but trying to squeeze out some stuffs to say.
Today I'm not very careful, this is a kind of a blue-black day for me (cuz I kept knocking onto tables and chairs and plugs,etc)... And my old injury at my hand is back... and it brought back memories which was already rusty (yes, it's a metal. haha!) and almost forgotten. And this time, I rmb it again. That 4 yrs ago... *sighs* I just hope this blue-black gets away soon, and the memory should get away soon too!~
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Today had a Christmas present exchange in the class!! =D LOL!~ Thanks Jason for giving me such a cute gift and set everyone laughing. haha!~ so many dogs wor!~
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I miss you badly.
I really need time to forget.
You...
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@6:56 PM
Monday, January 07, 2008
Good videos must share!! These two videos I laughed until siao. If you are moody, do watch these!! =DD Will sure make you laugh!~ (provided you dun watch too much la hor? LOL!~)
BYE!!
Take care!
*hugs*
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@10:22 PM
Yesterday went to CK's house for group discussion. But one of the main thing was to see how his younger sister looks like (because he always say that his sister dun look like him).
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CK, be back to square one. We will wait for you. =)) [Only FABS Gang know what that means]
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YAYS!
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@11:33 AM
Sunday, January 06, 2008
"NIEH~~" (pls click on the pic). You will see the wave effect. haha!~
YAYUNNO-VIRUS!!! It's confirmed that you kena the yayuno virus liaos!!! MUHAHA!~~~
Look like me horr!! I often do this wave in class leh!~
"NIEH~~"
Code 1261 niehs off...
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@6:49 PM
Saturday, January 05, 2008
This week was very fast... it's just gone with the blink of the eye.
I was thinking through why some people have different thinking over the same issue? Why some people just can't accept simple things that many other people can accept easily. Why are some people so short-tempered over some stuffs.
One thing is that, it's their personality (can't help it). Another is that, initially they were able to accept something but after they experience something bad all by themselves. They realize they really hated it and didn't wish to experience it the second time or third time. They could have forgiven that person long ago yet this time they couldn't because it was a repeat of his/her mistake.
The second reason totally applied to me about some stuffs. I cannot accept betrayal and some other stuffs that I shouldn't say (I'm afraid if I say it, I will hurt some people but one should noee what I didn't actually like).
It's because I had experienced them before. And I don't wish to experience them the second time. It's a kind of embedded hurt already. Simple words cannot just wash away the wounds like that. Time cannot ease the pain that easily as said.
That's why I've been confused and moody ever since so, so many things happened.
I kind of cannot accept the fact that I'm going to face the same thing AGAIN.
But still, currently, I will still stick to what had already happened. And I'm going to accept it.
It's really a waste to lose that friend. And I know this person wouldn't want to lose a friend too. I still need to give this person my support no matter how.
So we cannot just judge other people's thinking with our own thinking sometimes because eventually when you ponder deeper, you should realize each have different thinking and personalities. There are some things you can accept while they can't due to a reason or whatsoever.
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Sometimes I just kind of hate myself for being so sensitive and sometimes so selfless and sometimes so selfish. I hope I didn't mind them much.
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Dreaming of you doesn't mean I like you.
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My thoughts are like so random.
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My blog's birthday is coming! YAY! 14/1/06! =))
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You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@3:49 PM
Wednesday, January 02, 2008
Oh wells, it's a great way to start my new year! =) Hmm, kind of nice to laugh at school videos until I tear-ed [all because it looked too A even though it was just balls bouncing side by side with the springy thing]. Had so much fun laughing. lol!~ The video was supposed to be a really "dry" one yet we find it so funny. HAHA. The video is actually so dry that yuyans darling said that when we have insomnia, we should watch this, sure slp. LOL!~ =DD (true enough worr!)
And plus, at the end of school, I managed to eye some handsome guys! OMG! There were at least 4 on the bus (61 have gt nt much handsome guys for ur info. normally i saw NONE. And this time at least 4. I tink they are heading to west mall i guess? LOL!~ ) MUHAHA!~ HAPPY DE LOR!!
And one of them, with a really stylish hair that I like, stood behind me (kind of) and heehee! so happy de lor!! =D
Sometimes I'm so happy that I'm single because I dun feel guilty. haha!~ =DDDDD
Shuai shuai shuai!~ =DD
muhahahas... *grinning away*
Alrights, bye! ^^.
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@5:45 PM
Tuesday, January 01, 2008
HAPPY NEW YEAR ONCE AGAIN!~~~
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I started off my new year with a really good dream!! I dreamt that I had a really handsome boyfriend (which is what I always wanted but I tink I will never have one) LOL!~ OMG! And he's a doctor in the hospital man! *melts* And muhahahas... =)) I get the real feel in the dream. I can feel his hands!!! =D MUHAHAS~~ A really great dream to start off with... And then I managed to slap someone so hard in the dream (it is a actor lai de) LOL!~ WOOHOO!~ Sounds dramatic but then I enjoyed even tingle bit of it!! HAHA! I was supposed to wake up at 8 to get ready for the lunch gathering but then erm, because of the dream, I woke up at 10. =X HAHAHA!~ Too nice liaos mah! HAHA!
Even if he heck care me, because he's too good-looking, I refuse to break up with him la! HAHA! =DD *grins*
SHUAI!~
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Oh yah, today went Hilltop Restaurant or something lyk tt... to have a Multiracial Lunch Gathering (also together with my family). The lunch is worth $18 per person. But then mostly were SENIOR CITIZENS. And my daddy said that I probably going to be the "OLDEST" there. HAHA!~ But in the end, I saw quite a few "OLDER THAN ME" de ppl.
Aunties... aunties aunties... aunties filled the place... haha!~
This is whr I sit. Taken when the other aunties are not there yet. And omg, I'm sitting with aunties and uncles. And I'm definitely the "OLDEST" amongst all. =( But luckily I can get into their topic and chat a little bit and laugh here and there. LOL!~
Other than eating, you can anyhow go up and sing if you wan! And my sitting place there gt big screen for me to see!! HAHA!~ =DD Some sang really well, some sang oh wells... haha!~
Some nice decors ard me that I dun wan to miss...
Because this time is Halal de... so they changed from chopstick to fork (which I love the most in this lunch) muhahahaha!~ =DDD Totally what I wanted!!~ HEES.
The aunties and uncles still hot over 881. They sang the famous (yi ren yi ban in hokkien) for at least twice. But the MTV is not 881 de scene, its just some random girls dancing. Really weird and I was laughing over the MV. muhahas...
And I was like thinking, no hip de songs de worr!~ And then suddenly this song appeared on the screen! I was like immediately STUNNED. Who wanted to sing this song! OMG!~ Dun tell me auntie oso so hip! But then in the end, it was a girl (I tink younger than me by a few years) sang this song... Initially, she was too scared to stand on stage... Then she stood at the table there and sing... and someone pulled her up the stage... Her voice was trembling throughout the song... She was too nervous le, I guess. =)) Oh wells, she urged me to sing k man... lols!~ =DD
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I WANT THE DREAM AGAIN!! WOOHOO!~~~
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@2:42 PM
WELCOME 2008!!!~ =DD *hugs 2008*
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!
A BETTER YEAR AHEAD!!
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@12:04 AM