You've got the poison, I've got the remedy =D
Sunday, September 30, 2007
Sometimes I wonder about how other people think and see...
Do they see the same things as I do from my eyes and their eyes?
Do they hear the same things I hear?
Do they share the same emotions when we meet the same incident or same kind of people around us?
Do they worry over the same things as I also worry?
Different people have different thinking, different preferences.
Till now, I then realized other people are experiencing the same feelings with me. =))
Such a relief!
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1.what is fun to you?
Doing crazy stuffs and crapping with my fav. Frens! =D HEES. Anything that makes me super happy. Lols~
2.what do you groove to?
Hmmm… not too sure… lols~
3.what is your display pic?
Xiao zhu Luo Zhi Xiang! =DD HEES. My charming guy =x~
4.when was the last time you went fora party?
A party… hmmm… I dun tink I went to one? LOL!~
5.rate the party upon 10.
None.
6.are you a party person?
I’m not. I prefer quiet, normally.
7.what are you listening to now?
Umbrella! =D
8.name someone who makes you smile?
Dearr! =D
9.how does your friends vent theiranger?
Whatever, all kinds of stuffs and ways. Lols~
10.how do you vent your anger?
All kinds of ways too, depending on my mood that day. Lols~
11.how long do your anger last?
Depends on how serious is the thing. When I had thought thru’ on my own, I will slowly cool down.
12.did you see a hottie today?
No leh. =(
13.what is a dumb qn?
Is it a question that is dumb? Lols!
14.how would you answer it?
It depends on how dumb the question is… normally will give a sian off de face. (my usual style)
15.do you speak chinese at home?
Yup! I DO! HEES. =DDD I love Chinese la! HAHA!~
16.why?
Because I love it. Omg, I should have typed the next few sentence in this ans. Sians. Have to retype. Lols!
17.what language do you speak then?
CHINESE. WTH. Lols!
18.with friends?
Mostly Chinese still, but still gt English and hokkien and canto and stuffs like that. Some vr broken de la. Lols~ saying for fun de. =X
19.how do you laugh off someone'sdumbness?
Just laugh? LOLS~ Depends bahs. But when it hurts someone’s pride or feelings, I normally won’t laugh de.
20.what will you be doing later?
I will be washing my clothes, ironing my clothes.. But I will have my dinner first… lols~
21.what was for breakfast?
Da bao! LOLS!~ =D
22.did you hope to meet someone today?
Yes leh! Everyday I hope to meet THE ONE. LOLS~ If not, some hotties for my eyes also not bad. =X~ *walks off*
23.what were you doing at 4pm today?
I was shopping? Or on the way home? I not sure. Lols~
24.what gives you an instant headache?
Tons of homework and projects and matters.
25.name a silly thing you did today.
Lols~ because the food I ate was too nice already, and I made a “fly-away look” to show my family that the food was too deli. Lols~ =X~
26.do you take drugs?
Yup I do, when I’m sick I take medicine. =X~
27.do you smoke?
This is going to be a NEVER, hopefully.
28.do your friends smoke?
Some of them do.
29.what will you be doing this weekend?
Doing what I planned at the beginning of the weekend.
30.do you miss someone?
Yupp. I’m missing two person.
31.what are you looking forward to?
The ending of work. I dun wish to see him anymore.
32.what are you excited about?
The ending of work. Lols~ And new bags, new clothes and stuffs like that. Lols~
33.what time will your sch be tmr?
No sch. I have work at 10.30 am. Sian.
34.what ice-cream do you crave for?
Raspberry ice cream! *screams* If not, I want the recent ice cream tt’s shown on the ad.
35.who last text you?
Dearr
36.whose voice do you miss?
HIM
37.are you tall?
Just normal. But I still find myself short. Lols~
38.what was something that demoralisedyou?
Not sure. Depends.
39.what game do you not play?
CS? All those shooting games normally I wun play. LOLS~ My shooting skill sucks. Lols~ =X~
40.what irks you today?
His attitude.
41.who did you go out with today?
My family
42.what was lunch?
At the HK de restaurant at IMM
43.rate your day upon 10.
7.6
44.what song did you put on repeattoday?None
45.what is the next cd you're buying?No target.
46.what was one thought that keepsrepeating in your mind?
Do I wanna buy this?
47.did someone piss you off today?
Almost only.
48.something that you want?
ARGH!~ LOL!~ dun say le…
49.when was the last time you feltdisappointed?
I tink today? Over the shoes?
50.which day were you extremely happy?
Forgotten. Lols~
51.one thought in your mind?
SIGH. Shoes…
52.if you were god,what would you do?
I wouldn’t even create the world. Lols~
53.what do you want to do?
Just plainly rest and not see him. He irks me totally.
54.tmr is...
Monday. Working day. Children’s Day. BLEAHS.
55.describe your sis?
She’s married and older than me by 10 yrs. She’s as loud (as me) and many other stuffs.
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@7:00 PM
Friday, September 28, 2007
Finally completed one week of work! Cannot say I'm tired. I'm still alright.
Hopefully I can get over the feelings of seeing him.
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Will someone out there will miss me for various specific reasons, like how I miss someone for specific reasons?
Sometimes I find my lameness, laughters, my words a little too unnecessary, yet someone told me that these things actually colors other people's life without you knowing. When you suddenly become quiet or when you disappear, they will miss your noise, your laughter and your everything (despite at times ppl say u r too noisy or crazy beside them).
But no matter how, till now, I still can't totally believe someone will miss me, truthfully.
Don't trust. Don't believe.
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My feeling is back .
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During lunch breaks, I have been reading mags... and today I found some funny facts about babies..
"Occasional masturbation is a NORMAL BEHAVIOUR for INFANTS and PRESCHOOLERS" (the mag is in chinese btw).
And then it says that, when the baby was born, they already can feel the climax of "making love" liaos. omg! And what's funny is that, the author even mentioned that we can try and observe baby boys when they occasionally have their small brothers standing up. lol!~ I was like laughing silently. lol!~ And as for baby girls, they will wet wet ard u noee the area. lol!~ (but normally ppl tot it was just uncontrolled urine).
The author even mentioned, next time to observe whether the baby is feeling the "SEX CLIMAX" (directly translated from chinese =x), you can see if your baby's whole body suddenly becomes stiff, and next moment becomes relaxed again and the cycle continues for a while with the face flushing red. The syptoms are like so humorous too! If you have contact with babies, do try to observe! HAHA! =DDD SO FUNNY! The author wrote, sometimes when they experience the climax, they will feel uncomfortable and they will cry (and parents and adults misunderstood that they were uncomfortable with other things). HEES.
INTERESTING RITE!! =D
And one more to say, banana skins are said to stop itching and some other skin problems. If you kena bitten by mosquito and dun have all those anti-itching de cream to apply, rub the banana skin on ur skin bahs! (the mag intro de). I gonna try next time. haha!~ =DD
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You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@11:20 PM
Sunday, September 23, 2007
Hihi! I'm back for an update! =)) HEES ^^.
Do you miss me? Please say yes, truthfully that you missed me! =D
Yesterday went out to celebrate advanced birthday for dearr!! =) Hope she loved the surprise! HEES.
Here are some photos I took yesterday! =)
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This is the present I bought for dearr from SOMEWHERE. LOLS~ Heng I remembered to take pic of the present to put on blog before really giving her yesterday. haha!~ =x~ That's her favorite comic character, Nana's accessories. LOLs. Heng I found it! Hope she like it!
That's the Nana's lighter used. I noee she love the gt attitude de Nana, and she love to keep lighters. So, I bought Nana's lighter!!! =DD LOLS~ The other day when we were shopping at Plaza Singapura together (when we went to watch Bu Neng Shuo De Mi Mi together), then I remembered what she told me. LOLS. The lighter has gt bloody red and diamonds on it. It feels really attitude. haha! =DD
That's the very chocolatey cake bought by the guys! =)) Very nice cake lor!~ The chocolatey cake was surrounded by the so many glasses... lol!~ =DD I was sitting very far away from the cake, as you can see... I sat at the edge of the whole sofa (as expected, because I love sitting at the side) LOL!~
YAY! Random pics now! Went to west mall yesterday before going to Somerset and meet the others. Took this pic just to tell you that next time if you happen to be in West Mall and you dun have an umbrella with you (and outside is pouring), you can get help from here!!! You can simply buy umbrella at the level 1, near the lift there. There's a machine there "selling" the umbrellas, $6 each. lols~ Many ppl waiting for the lift, were actually curious over this machine and they were like looking at the machine for very long lor. =)) And I took this pic to intro u guys, just in case you know. You need to buy an umbrella if it's raining outside. =))
This pic was taken when I was on bus 77, on the way home from Marina Square!!! And I saw this new thing la (or maybe I was cock-eyed or partially blinded or whatsoever), I saw this foldable chair at the place where it's supposed to be a place for ppl to stand... haha!~ And I was kind of curious how it feels to sit on those "new" chairs (even though they dun look new to me at all). The "new" seat seemed to be smaller than the normal ones. So I was like, curious lor. Next time then I try to sit, together with my frens. If I sit alone there, it feels outcasted. haha!~ =DD
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Yesterday went to West Mall, to settle some stuffs first before heading to Cineleisure there to meet up with dearr's bf's two frens (very confusing yar?). Supposedly, I was supposed to meet together with my two other two sec sch frens too but then because they thought we were going to carry out our plan on sunday instead on saturday, so they were going to be late. So, alrights. I went to meet up with two strangers guys at near Cineleisure (and i totally nvr see them before) LOL!~ It feels like meeting online guys. hahaha!
Then after meeting them, it feels really weird and awkward. So we decided to go to "The One" family kbox there (at the building beside Cineleisure) first to enjoy air-con. Then went inside and we started singing lorr (still awkward here and there).
So, our plan was that, me and many other frens go and set up the "setting" for birthday surprise while dearr's bf (baka) and dearr went around shopping (dearr duno that she's going to get the surprise). And according to dearr, baka told her that they were going to the "The One" family ktv just to get something from his fren. lols~ And then dearr and baka came down to "The One" at about 2sth or 3 like that, then i was sitting somewhere near the door but cannot be seen through the half transparent door. Then when dearr saw me, I still vividly remembered her reaction lor. She screamed leh! HAHA! And she burst out crying. She didn't know that I would be there to give her such surprise. For ur info, the surprise is somekind of similar to how she surprised me on my birthday and I burst out crying too! (if wanna refresh this memory, pls read my birthday blog entry) LOL! She didn't know I would use the same plan on her and now she understands how touched I was the other day. haha! =)) She was so shocked la. haha! So happy to see her reaction! MUHAHAS! I'm so bad! =X~
Then later we sang songs until 3 plus, I went to fetch my two other sec sch frens (ah bee and michelle) then bring them down to the kbox there. Then we continued singing. Halfway, the guys went out, excusing themselves to go toilet. But, halfway, the song we sang stopped, and the door opened and the birthday song started playing. I was also shocked la! HAHA! So touching de lor!! =))))) Then dearr made her wish and we ate the cake! The cake super nice! I love it, despite it's chocolate cake. lols~
After singing until 5pm, ah bee and michelle went off while me and the rest went to other places before heading to marina square.
We went to play arcade at P centre (is it?) LOL!~ I was so blur, we walked to so many places. haha!~ and I enjoyed myself la! LOL~
Then went to marina square and had a very full de dinner at Pizza Hut! Finally ate the Cheese Fondue liaos! OMG! The Rosemary Chicken Pizza is like OMG. haha! =DDD
Enjoyed everything yesterday!! Esp. the singing, super funny de the guys. haha! =DD HEES. Innocent yet funny. lols~
Hope dearr love everything we did yesterday!!! And the presents and the everything we did for her!!~ =DD
Dearr, love you!! Muackx~~
Happy Advanced Birthday!!
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@9:57 PM
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
I think probably I can't blog on weekdays because I'm really too tired with my work.
My days are getting more bored day by day.
My schedule is like so fixed! (what a healthy life I have now!)
8 am wake up . work until 7pm then go back home straight away. eat dinner . watch 9pm show. 10 go bathe. before 11 slp. lol! tt's so healthy la! everyday oso like that! can really go crazy.
When you are too tired, you can't even smile la! LOL!~
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Today heard quite a few jokes. haha!~
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I love . . .
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@10:38 PM
Monday, September 17, 2007
Sometimes when you look into someone's eyes, you can sense something...
Sometimes you can see sadness from his eyes...
Sometimes you feel melted...
Sometimes you can even see yourself in his eyes...
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I saw you .
Today I peeked on the way in bus .
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Sometimes when you don't have the feeling for someone, no matter how gentle the touch is, it still doesn't touch the heart, in any way.
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TIRED
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Is it really that way? Then should I change that expression, and everything?
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You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@10:34 PM
Saturday, September 15, 2007
I just realized I did not blog yest! Perhaps it was because I was too tired, and lack of the mood to blog despite having inspirations! And one more thing, today when I felt like blogging, I forgotten about what was my thoughts I had for blogging liaos! So it kinda of gone to waste totally! =X~
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Yesterday was the release of the results + Lao Po's Birthday! Happy birthday to her! And, congrats to all those that had done well! =))
Was tired. And didn't wish to talk much. lol!~
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E.X.P.E.R.I.E.N.C.E
=
L.I.F.E
You wouldn't know what's lies behind, beneath and ahead.
I always don't believe people when they say they will miss me.
Do you believe?
I always don't believe people when they say they will love me wholeheartedly.
Do you believe me?
I always thought all guys are unfaithful.
Till now, it's the still the same, unchanged.
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Today weeped a little because I was having a split second of emotional feel when a girl said out the thing I wished to say out.
"When I die, I guess no one will ever remember me or even miss me."
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BTW, today is CK's birthday!! You are 19 le!! You always say you very old liaos in the phone! Make until me and yuyan darling vr pek chek in the conference! I tink a lot of my readers will complain back lor, if you say 19 is old! HAHA! =DD Anyways, hope you enjoyed today despite having very little activities. =)) Just hope you made your three wishes liaos! =D
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I have no right to miss anyone.
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@11:24 PM
Thursday, September 13, 2007
Can't wait for it to happen... but in a good and busy way...
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Today went out with mum (which is super rare) to IMM to shop!! =)) And I bought so many stuffs! I'm just lack of a pair of shoes, and I will have a full clothing for a day liaos! LOL!~
Today I bought a tee, pants, and a jacket (but too bad, it's not purple) Sigh! But then it's still a fruitful trip! =)) And what's more? I ate the mushroom cheese egg crepe at Shi Lin! OMG! *drools at the thought of it!* LOL!~ I enjoyed today a lot. And some more, today on the way back home, i was sitting at the back of the lorry, singing out loud while gazing at the stars above!! *screams*
SUPER HIGH DE!!! =DDD
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This person will come. =))
NERVOUS!
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@8:46 PM
CLASS CHALET OF 1P02 ` 07 & 2P02 ` 07!!~
Today is a really tiring day. Now, I'm really relieved I'm back home. I'm just afraid the activities there will be too exciting for me until I cannot even sleep! =X~
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Here are some random photos I taken! (if my hp did not die off before the BBQ starts! LET ME TELL YOU! My blog will be filled with pics la! =(( Alrights, nvr mind! The others will upload on their blog then! Still the same la!)
The pic taken on 196 double deck bus. Just the view of dear Esplanade.
Closer view. BORED.
My dear FABS Gang (only three members there, still lack of CK and me in the pic), really gonna miss you guys. Sorry that I cannot join you all for the overnight thing. =)) Enjoy yourselves! And must miss me okays! SOB*
Sorry readers, I did not intend to take the pic of the chalet because it may ka jiao (disturb) any unknown stuffs there if I take photo. So yupp. =)) Hope you guys understand. =))
*I feel this time de class chalet is so not fruitful. Because I did not enjoy the full thing. I didn't even stayover! =( Stayover is the thing that is the most fun one lar! And plus, I didn't want to take pics of parts of chalet that we stayed in due to reasons. And IN ADDITION (so many reasons hor?), my hp died off due to low battery! OMG! *screams* And I wasn't able to take pics at all when ppl started coming la! =( *cries* So not fruitful today!
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Alrights, was supposed to blog what I did today. Went to the class chalet. Before that had to prepare and buy all those food mahhs. So in the morning, went to Bukit Timah Plaza to meet up with Kieron kor so that he can pass something to his superior or something lyk tt, then we chiong to Clementi Int. to meet yuyans darling. Then we rotted on 196 until we could no longer rot! HAHA!~ And yuyans darling was funny at the interchange la! 196 can be read as "ONE NIGHT SEX" (OMG! CHOY CHOY! Ppl under 18 dun anyhow say this outside publicly and loudly with pride ok! Ppl will look at u de hor! =x) Oh yahs, then reach the duno whr I was (HAHA! because I just followed there) I tink it was Parkway Parade or wadd de la... meet up with ahh xiia galfriend and her fren. Then we went to Giant and shop for the food. Then went to the BBQ Wholesale Centre to buy the remaining stuffs that we needed to buy.
And then finally, went to the chalet to check-in. On the way, because I was sitting behind (in the middle), sandwiched between Kieron kor and yuyans darling, I was kind of squashed when the car turned! OMG! SO POOR THING ME! But then it was super fun! HEES. Then reached the chalet, explored and checked the chalet and bleahs bleahs. Then started preparing and slack until ppl came. Then played some Ice-breaking games by just self-intro-ing. Then we went to eat liaos. While eating, in the middle, a prank (two students started quarreling in the chalet) happened and the lecturers were like shocked. LOLS~
After eating, went to play Truth or Dare. But never kena me! Maybe because I was the one who wrote the words on the papers and I knew the questions already, so perhaps fate didn't want me to kena or wadd. muhahas. =P Then abt 9 sth, I took the last shuttle bus with Janah, Fatimah and Nadhirah. =))
Reached home at 11.40 like that lor. hees.
It was a really long way from the chalet back home =( with no music la! My hp! SIGH!
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It's still as fragile as it seems.
It's just the way how you see things.
I don't like the way you see things. It's just simply biased.
I will only believe it when I see it with my own eyes.
Just a substitue, just a someone who is remembered only when people are TOTALLY BORED with nothing to do, then they will tink of me. Or else normally, they won't. At all.
My absence or presence, sometimes don't make any difference.
I think people mistaken me too. At least one of them, I'm really clear. It's really nothing. Nothing will happen. Miracle won't occur.
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Miss FABS Gang and many others at the chalet, wondering what they doing now.
Miss Mr. SUPERMAN. =))
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@12:14 AM
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
While waiting for my hair to dry, and let everything fall in place before I sleep. I shall blog some stuffs!~ =DD HAHA!~
Today started work. One word. TIRED. Nothing more to say. =X~
1. The phone rings, who do you want it to be?
Someone that I shld not disclose. I miss his voice lots. =))~~ Love his voice to bits la!
2. When shopping at the grocery store,do you return the cart?
cart ar? tink so? LOL!~ HEES. gt la. i vr guai one k
3. If you had to kiss the last person you kissed again, would you?
- *ponders hard* hmmmmm... dun tink so? no feeling at all. hees! =)) In the dreams, tt last person, definitely a yes! =DD
4. Do you take compliments well?
not sure?
5. Do you play Sudoku?
it's really a brain teaser, but i dun feel lyk playing it.
6. If abandoned alone in the wilderness what will you wish for?
if i can NEVER be saved, let me die instantly, please. haha!~
7. If your house were on fire,what would be the first thing you would save?
- MONEY! And my valuables lor! =)) my favs as well.
8.Who was the last person you slept in the bed with?
hmmm. i really forgotten le. haha!~ =X~ with my jie bahs? I oso duno leh. lols~ =XXXX
9. Are you taken?
nope. I'm abandoned. haha!~
10. Favorite child book?
anything tt's interesting to me.
11. Eye colour?
u mean my fav eye color or my eye color? duhs. fav eye color, purple. eye color shld be dark brown or duno wadd la. nvr really look at my eyes (and plus my eyes so small lols =X)
12. How tall are you? 161cm? (i claim myself as that la! shld be more or less there lor!)
13. If you could do it over again,start from scratch,would you?
hmmm. yupp. i tink i will lehs. hees.
14. Any secret admirers?
i dun tink so la! i noee so little guys only. lols~ and i not attractive oso lor! HAHA!~
15. When was the last time you were at the toilet?
30 mins ago
16. Favorite ex..?
aiyo choy! siao ar. not going to say here. =X~ i like them for a certain reason, so there's no fav amongst them. =X~
17. Where was the furthest place you traveled?
i not sure leh. haha!~ =X~
18.Do you like mustard?
hmmm. not sure?
19.Do you prefer to sleep or eat?
if eat really good and my fav food, i want this! So that I can gain weight! If I sleep le can become super energetic and in good mood, I will take sleeping. haha!~ BOTH LA!
20. Do you miss anyone?
yes, Mr. Superman! =)) *grins*
22. Can you do splits?
aiyo? wadd split? which one. haha!~
23. What movie do you want to see right now?
look lyk ah ham de movie. haha!~
24. What did you do for your date?
normal things. HAHAHAHAHAA~
25. Do you think The Grudge was crappy?
dun even have any idea about what's it all about.
26. Do you own a camera phone?
yupp yupp. for my blog purpose. =X~
27. Was your mom a cheerleader?
definitely not. and it's so hard to imagine her as a cheerleader. She's gonna be such a COOL cheerleader with great attitude if she's same age as me la! =))
28. What's the last letter of your middle name?
A? i duno la. whatever.
29. Are you Hispanic?
not sure.
31. Do you like care bears?
argh! survey getting boring. i dun lyk ppl give me bears. but i find them jus cute. for deco purpose and collect dust only.
32.What do you buy at the Movies?
movie tickets. usually dun lyk to eat popcorns or drink soft drink while watching. i prefer drinking warm mineral water and eating my own fav. food! XD
33. Do you know how to play poker?
i duno leh! =(
34. Do you wear your seatbelt?
yupp. for safety purpose. =))
35. What do you wear to sleep?
my clothes. HAHA!~
36. Anything big ever happen in your life?
at that moment, you feel that it's big but after sometime, when you look back again, you will find the issue actually very small. so none.
37. Is your hair straight or curly?
just normal .
38. Is your tongue pierced?
nope. and not going to do that.
39. Do you like Liver and Onions?
NOPE.
40.Do you like funny or serious people better?
of course funny la! Can make my mood better, this is so much more impt than anything else. lols~ or if ppl looks darn shuai when they serious, i oso dun mind la... *grins evilly* JUST KIDDING LA!
41. Ever been to L.A.?
No leh. u going to sponsor me ar? see la, no question to ask then ask this kind of questions liaos. *tsk tsk*
42. Who is on your mind right now?
Mr. Superman! Dearr! And my class! =))
43. Any plans 4 tonight?
let me tell you, if my hair is dry now, i will be sleeping straight away. i dun feel lyk online-ing de. but then sians, my hair haven dry. muhahas.
44. What's your favourite song at the moment?
bu neng shuo de mi mi, jue jiang.
45. Do you hate chocolate?
i dun hate, i jus dun lyk. haha! the sweetness bahs. haha!~ =X
46. What do you and your parents fight about the most?
we dun fight, we argue over insignificant stuffs sometimes.
48. Do you need a boyfriend to be happy?-
i'm not sure leh? i duno if someone closer exist next to me, i will be happier a not. i tink i will have to experience it then i can tell u lor.
49. If you could have any job where would it be?
somewhere where i could sit and do my job, blasting my fav. music in my ears without anyone complaining or disturbing me. =)) SHIOK!~ And dun need to talk or stand de! WOW!
50. Are you easy to get along with?
it actually depends on my mood.
51. What is your favorite time of day?
the time when i'm going to slp. haha!~ SHIOK!
52. Are you generally a happy person?
so hard to say. neutral.
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You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@9:56 PM
Monday, September 10, 2007
After reading some blogs, I just realized my blog is not as interesting as ever anymore. And, it kind of demoralized me in continuing this blog! However, I will still continue it!! =)) LOLS~ Everyone have got their style! Whether is it interesting or not, it's just my life. I admit my life is just plain and normal. And I'm not those kind who always goes out and meet a lot of interesting stuffs. =)) Only meaningful and "memorable" stuffs then I will blog! =DD So yupp!! =)) *cheers*
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Nowadays I have been having A TYPE OF DREAM. It's really weird and surprising.
The day before, I cried.
Today, I longed for the dream to continue. Because I saw someone in the dream. I didn't know I wanted to see that person so much. And I didn't know I wouldn't mind if it was that particular person. I really didn't know. And I was so honest in the dream, which in real life, I won't even show.
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Spoiled my original plan le.
Jacket, I'm coming one day! =))
Starting work tml. =(
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@10:24 PM
Sunday, September 09, 2007
"It's such a long way from here..." You commented before you started walking the long street.
After sometime,
"Oh wah lau! I walk so far already ar?" You exclaimed, without even realizing you actually already walked a long way.
But when you are tired, you seem to find the way getting even longer and never-ending as you continue dragging your feet...
It's akin to the length of a relationship.
1 year, 2 years, 3 years.... 10 years...
It seems like it's going to be long, but with the blink of the eye, it gets over fast without realizing...
But when you are tired of the relationship, you will find it so hard to maintain the relationship... and you will think 1 year is really an impossible and seems so far away...
Isn't it true?
If you are attached now, treasure your relationship more. Love them more. Concern them more. And show your love once a while, they will be touched de. =))
If you are single now, many people are single too! Enjoy your singlehood before you get attached and start to miss your life being a single!
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Nowadays have been really moody and I can't really remember the really funny things that my family and many others mentioned... but at least, I knew I smiled, I laughed at it.
Stop the moodiness.
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@11:07 PM
You see the cute cute de big toy (it looks a little hard but seems so huggable to me! =X~) HEES.
Reminds me about my bf, ah ham!! =)) Miss him lots! Esp. *Ahem* LOL!~ HEES ^.^ Btw, this was taken outside the arcade there (because we cannot go in)
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A few days ago, we happily thought we were able to play the arcade for free and for unlimited plays for perhaps the whole arcade (or for some machines only) but then, today then we know, one person need to have one card to get through the arcade entrance. OMG la, six person need to have six cards leh?! We only have one pathetic card. *sighs* So halfway, changed our plan to singing kbox (which I long time nvr do le) =)) SUPER HAPPY DE!!! =DD
Today counted as enjoyed myself le bahs, jus kind of feel really regretted than I need to go home early or else I tink we have more free extensions! =)) HEES. ^^. But nvr mind la, quite satisfied le!
Listening to the songs, I thought through lots of things. I realized I dun need so much things in my life. Just enjoy what you have now.
That experience just will make me more mature. =))
It happened. Thank you.
It's time to stop everything.
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@9:55 PM
Saturday, September 08, 2007
Now, what I ask for is just a part-time job for a month and a stable mood.
With no sadness or extreme worries.
I just don't wish to cry or worry anymore. I really had enough.
Give me a break. Please.
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@11:17 PM
Friday, September 07, 2007
RAINIE'S NEW SONG!! REN YI MEN!! =DD SHE GOT DANCE DE!! =)) This is the only MV found on youtube! So pardon the quality! =DD
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SHOW'S MV!! =DD Bi Sha Ji Bet On It! This song I have to listen many times, then I will fall in love with it! =)) HEEHEE!! =DD Enjoy!
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@9:54 PM
This month is a month for me to cry hard .
For that continuous two weeks, things have been going wrong .
Don't you know it's hurting to hurt my pride?
Already hate myself and yet you said such stuffs. Are you being too selfish?
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Today Rainie released her album le.
Waiting for her dancing MV to be out. She looks really flexible man! =))
Quite a few good songs to listen. =)
haoting.com, do go and find the songs there.
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I WANT TO GET OUT.
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@7:06 PM
Thursday, September 06, 2007
Whatever it is, dun anyhow accuse me things that I never do and assume your way okays! That simply sucks!
Stop nagging!
Darn it. GRR.
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A really bad day .
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@6:54 PM
Wednesday, September 05, 2007
PICS UP!! =DD
For those new readers of my blog who doesn't know how my workplace looks like, this is another pic of the pharmacy storeroom! =)) We just stood there and continuously pack powders, crapping and laughing and many other things... haha! =DD
People there very nice la! Still treated us biscuits and chocolates and stuffs like that... haha! And I took a pic of what I eaten (actually I didn't want to eat, but then because yuyan cannot eat due to sore throat, so I helped her eat and tell her the feel of eating the chocolate the uncle treated us)..
I unwrapped the thing and it looks like this... And then halfway, Kieron kor called me and halfway thru', when I bite the chocolate, I thought my teeth drop le... haha! The chocolate is very hard (and I didn't expect it) so I kind of duno how much strength I shld use... lol!~ Then I bite too hard. LOL!~ =X But the chocolate is nice de lor!! =)) Not too sweet!!~
My fav bag and plus my hand of course!! =DD
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@10:26 PM
I love Mr. S!!! =DDD
I love blasting music!! =DD
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Today finally completed my job at AH. Today was the last day and we spent only 2 hrs to pack finish the remaining bottles. So, in total we worked for 16 hrs only! HAHA! =D HEES.
I'm going to carry out my plan soon, when I'm free!!!
Looking forward to this Sunday!! OH YAY! =D
LOLx.
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"I love you," said in person decides THE ONE.
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Move on.
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@10:05 PM
Tuesday, September 04, 2007
Today is just some fine day, working.
I still couldn't possibly lift the muscles to make myself smile. It seemed so difficult.
Today, is definitely not a day for me. Definitely.
This morning, I almost fainted in the bus on the way to Clementi station. The bus had a sudden break, and I almost flew to the front (because I happen to not hold the metal thing) but then fortunately someone was right in front of me, and I just managed to bump against her only. However, I think I strained somewhere or injure one of my major veins at the hand there, and I could feel a searing pain all over my hand at first, then later I could feel the pain spreading to my chest. And my eyes could no longer see clearly (I see black and white stuffs) and the surrounding sounds almost became muted. My world became really scary. I thought I was going to faint in the bus. But luckily, I "recovered" to the original state and everything became clear again. And I was relieved and headed towards AH le. =( SO SCARED.
Today actually before I slept, something emotional happened. So yupp, kind of release my feelings in the middle of the night. After the swelling subside, then I went to slp. Or else I should have been asleep long time ago.
Was kind of emo once I thought of what happened yest or when I listened to the emo songs.
I just realized JAY CHOU SING UNTIL SUPER SAD DE! Esp. the Bu Neng Shuo De Mi Mi! OMG!~ Love him lots la! =DD HE SUPER GOT FEEL.
I specifially took a long bus journey from Clementi Interchange back to my home.. On the way, I forced myself to think about what happened yesterday while listening to Jay Chou's songs... but in the end, I thought of nothing but began to admire Jay Chou. =PP
But still, I promised myself, one day I shall go drink and emo for a while and cry all I want. I kept my feelings for long le. I need to reflect le.
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This song is specially for people who are HEARTBROKEN OVER PEOPLE NOT WORTHY THEIR LOVE. =)) This song healed my <33
Bu Zhi De (Not Worthy)
Chu le xiang ni, chu le ai ni
Besides thinking of you, besides loving you
hu ~ wo shen me shen me dou yuan yihu ~
I’m willing to do anything
Fan kai ri ji zheng li xin qing
Flipping through the diary, straightening up my mood
hu ~ Wo zhen de zhen de xiang fang qi
hu ~ I really, really think of giving up
Ni shi zhong mei you ai guo
All along, you have never loved [me] before
Ni zai fu yan wo
You are patronizing me
Yi ci yi ci hu lüe wo de gan shou
Every time [you always] neglected my feelings
Wo zhen de gan dao li bu cong xin
I finally feel helpless
Wu li ji xu
No more strength to continue
Zhe gan qing bu zhi de wo you yu
This feeling, is not worth it for me to hesitate
Bu zhi de wo kao lü
Not worth for me to think over
Bu zhi de wo ai guo ni
It’s not worth it that I once loved you
Zhe zhong hui yi bu zhi de wo ti qi
This piece of memory is not worth for me to mention
Bu zhi de xiang qi
Not worth to think about
Bu zhi de ku qi
Not worth crying for
Zhe duan gan qing zao jiu ying gai fang qi
This feeling should be given up earlier
Zao jiu bu gai rang wo lang fei shi jian zhao qi ji
That way, early on it would have not wasted my time looking for a miracle
Zhe yang de ni bu zhi de wo hen ni
Having you like this, is not worth for me to hate you
Bu zhi de wo wei ni er huai le xin qing
Not worth for me to ruin my mood because of you
Wo jue ding bu wei ni er hui le xin
I’ve decided not to let my heart break because of you
Fang qi ai ni
[I’ve] Given up loving you
http://chinesemusicblog.com/lyrics/bu-zhi-de-not-worthy/ (CREDITS)
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@8:33 PM
Everything happens for a reason .
Sometimes in life, one may realize that some happenings in life causes a drastic change in someone's thinking and emotions to the extremes, and unable to turn it back forever. Perhaps by then, a miracle is needed to happen to change this deeply-embedded mindset before everything becomes too late.
A little hope still shining, hopefully not fading. =))
Sometimes, one could suppress their emotional feelings all at once for a long time. However, during a unspecified time, all the kept emotional feelings may suddenly burst out without warning, causing that person to cry in agony.
When a thing is said too many times, it turns out to be meaningless, trust me. It holds nothing. It becomes transparent and useless.
Sometimes one turns emotional, oversensitive occurs.
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Thought through. It was kind of stupid.
With so much experience, should have been cleverer.
Forever a friend. Impossible blurred relationships.
Because one is just so useless. That's me.
See from another angle, it was just too easy to fall into the trap...
And yes, this time fell again. But found another alternative way to climb back.
You know what you mind now. Two things.
Thank you to yourself, the optimistic self.
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@1:01 AM
Monday, September 03, 2007
Dear readers, I know you are looking forward and are waiting for the co-written story to be updated asap. But I will try to update asap! =)) It's quite a long chap, and I'm one-quarter through the chapter! Plus, I'm working currently for 3 days. So please pardon me! =) Sorry for the waiting!
Take cares!
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@11:47 PM
Today actually learnt quite a few life meanings, but then I forgotten when I fall asleep! DARN IT! =X
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Today started work with yuyan darling at AH lers! =DD HAHA!~ I'm so happy that I can see $$ flying into my pocket lers... and I'm preparing to see $$ flying out again after sometime... haha! =XX~
At AH, we are doing the same job as temp. packer of powders. And as usual, we made jokes and chatted while working. A pleasant time together!! =)) DARN FUNNY!~ =D
Because too tired and too many detailed things to mention about what we actually chatted, so might as well dun mention much things here!!! =))
But then, I going to do an experiment (yuyan darling have to remind me about) to enhance the attractiveness of my blog. LOLx.
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One part, during lunch time, we were talking about if you are living in the west area, while your boyfriend is living in the east area, what inconvenience will it cause? Wah, a lot of bu fang bian lor! =X~
When this question was asked, then we realized most of the relationships normally happened in the vicinity de (so true lah!) due to a psychology theory.
So I was wondering...
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Yesterday had a really enjoyable time with SOMEONE (this person dun wish THE name to be mentioned) so should be kept private. LOLx.
I promised this person that I will sing 3 songs. haha!~ And this person will sing back to me! =DD
LOLS~
And this person sang 1 and a half song to me! =)) But I really love it la!~ And at the same time, it's funny at some of the parts in the ending part too! =DD
MUHAHAS. But I love it, really.
=))
*must blog down so that I will rmb for life =)*
SOMEONE sing Superwoman and a mixture of songs to make up 1 and a half songs! =))
That SOMEONE, my Mr. Jay c.u.m Mr. Show =D
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Eggyolk, PLEASE DUN MENTION ABOUT IT.
KEEP IT AS A SECRET.
BECAUSE Eggyolk is reading.
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I wish that happiness can last. =))
I wish I can do it one more time... (sounds so A)
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@9:45 PM
Sunday, September 02, 2007
I duno how long this kind of relationship is going to last .
Neither do I want to do anything to it .
I'm just afraid the more I care, the more I will be hurt .
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Went to change my blogskin even though I love that previous emo de blogskin! But then some told me they cannot view my blogskin properly so I decided to change my blogskin! =)) Hope more readers can read my blog liaos! =D
Today I didn't go out so decided to do the survey from Xin Yi's blog. My answer is not as interesting and humorous as hers, but then my ans-es are kind of true la, but not very detailed. If you see, near the end, I'm lazy to type in detail liaos! HAHA!~ =DD
Oh yes, today I dyed my hair to purple brown but it seems like red to me leh. All thanks to mum who helped me dye! =)) Love mum!~ HEES.
And then tml going to start my work at AH liaos. =)) Money is going to come in liaos! OH YES!!
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INSPIRATIONS PLEASE!!! =((
Hopefully can update Impeccable Assassin by this Friday if my inspiration is smooth-flowing! =))
Feel free to tag me!~
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@5:49 PM
1. Name: Code 1261 (dun feel like disclosing my real name) LOLs. =D Sometimes I hope my real name is Code 1261. It sounds so cool la, when I look so uncool. lols~ =X~
2. Birthday: 26th May 1989! Remember to give me present or wishes! =D
3. School: Bukit Ho Swee Primary School, Bukit View Primary School, Henderson Secondary School, Ngee Ann Poly (clear enough?)
4. Address: West area of Singapore! =))
5. Relationship with family: <33
6. Character: Moody girl . and many more . with a lot of imperfections .
7. Strong points: Being a person with a lot of imperfections
8. Weak points: Too many imperfections .
9. Hobby: Blogging, singing, online, crapping . =))
10. Special talent: Doing nothing. =X
11. Religion: Buddhism
12. Height: 161
13. Weight: 44-46kg! But I tink currently I'm 46kg! Aiming for 48kg! =))
14. Blood type: O+
15. Shoe size: 5?
16. Favourite type of music: songs tt are nice lor. i love all those songs that have really nice drum rhythm as bg music. =))
17. Favourite singers: Jay Chou (definitely!), S.H.E (love Hebe the most from the grp), Show Luo Zhi Xiang, Rainie Yang Cheng Lin
18. Favourite season: Autumn bahs? (but then Singapore doesn't have autumn de leh...) for Singapore case, just not too hot or too cold de temp can liaos... then I will super <33
19. Favourite food: Melted cheese pizza! Ice cream and many more... oh my god! *drools*
20. Favourite actor/ actress: None. Those that act well in the show and has got looks *grins evilly* NO LA!
21. What are the things that you wanted: MONEY, new stuffs and many more..... the list goes on... =)) But the most I want is that, I want to lead a happy and satisfied life all the way, with people (whether I know them or not) to be happy too! And not being emo in any way! *smiles*
22. Your ideal guy: There's quite a lot of qualifications for my IDEAL GUY, but my IDEAL GUY can never appear because he's seemed too perfect in my eyes. haha!~ And the qualifications always change with time... so forget about it la... =P
23. Your worries now: Can I find a job that I like or not...
24. When is your first love: Hmmm... primary school times... hahaha!~ That one not counted boyfriend and girlfriend yet... haha!~
25. Your definition of love: A complicated thing that almost everyone longs to have. It has the magical power to lust for it and feel lonely. It also has the power to make someone depressed and feel useless in life. L-O-V-E, a term that cannot be easily described by mere words. One is to experience it on their own to know its meaning (oh my god, I sound so profound! =x)
26. Your capacity for liquor: ermm... not sure?
27. Your habit when drinking: I duno what habit I have... haha!~ maybe I love to drink and emo at the same time, trying hard to think hard about the past... normally when i drink, i will tend to tink back abt my past and try to reflect... =)) I miss drinking... =X
28. How many important friends do you have?: A lot~ As long as they had made a great difference in my life. They are.
29. Your No.1 precious: my family, tt's for sure.
30. When do you think that you are the most pretty: When the lights are off! MUHAHAHAH!!
31. When do you think that you are the most sexy: Same, when the lights are off, you can't see my face at all... that's the sexiest part... =X
32. Your hairstyle right now: short hair le!! a failure case... =(
33. The clothes that you are wearing right now: green t and black shorts. haha!
34. Your pose right now: sit not vr straight. but normally i wun sit in this pose... lols~
35. Things in your packet: dust with microorganisms. haha!~ and perhaps hair. haha!~
36. The first time when you drank liquor: I not sure leh. when I was still young.
37. What do you wanna do right now: shaking a bottle.. lol...
38. Favourite colour: dark purple, black, rosybrown
39. What kind of gift do you want to get from your lover: Love, care, concern, no neglience.
40. Favourite brand: Duno lehs. haha!~ Can be brandless.
41. When will you get married: Not sure? Life cannot be predicted.
42. What would you do when you are alone at home: Blog, online, slack, watch tv, sing song! (the house is mine!)
43. Average sleeping hours: ehh.... 7 hrs?
44. Clothes style: Not sure leh... i still haven't find my clothes style... anything that I like and looks nice on me can liaos... =)
45. Habit: duno wadd habit to say... haha...
46. The best rank in school: not sure.
47. The difference between a female and a male: so many. LOL!~ which part u wan me to talk abt?: *grins evilly*
48. If you had a next life: I want to be a guy! HAHA!~
49. What are you in your last life?: I not sure. =)) Anyone can tell me?
50. If your lover had an affair: I not sure what I will do to them... haha!~
51. Like to go to KTV?: I dun like, I LOVE!! But money pls... haha!~
52. What would you like to do during rainy days: Becoming emo, looking at the rain. =)) Enjoying the cool wind. =D
53. Your health status now: Weaker than normal.
54. What are the 3 things that you would bring to a deserted island: water, myself, handphone
55. How many kids do you want after you married: not sure whether i will get married a not lor!
56. Who would you like to meet now: someone
57. Favourite snack: not sure. sour stuffs bahs (but not spoiled food)
58. Your monthly allowance: no allowance de... i give myself allowance... =X
59. Where do you go often to have your meals: schs canteens.
60. What would you normally play: Normally dun play much games, only play when I feel like it. some yahoo!games bahs.
61. What kind of person will get dumped? Or what kind of person will dumped other people: Both oso not gd and saddening.
62. What is the reason for the answer of Qus 61: Based on experience.
63. What do you wanted most: A job now to kill my boredom. And money!
64. Your next life?: Is that supposed to be a repeated question? I wanna be a flirty boy! HAHA! =DD
65. When do you think that you are the most matured: Not sure? I always tink I'm never mature enough.
66. The country that you wanted to go: Taiwan! Hong Kong! TO SHOP! Anywhr I can shop and dun have to learn another new lang de. =X
67. The 3 basic point in evaluating a person: Not sure, depends on the feel de. =X
68. The most romantic propose: I have to go and think for a long time before I can ans... haha! Because I've never thought of it... haha!~
69. The place that you wanted to go with your lover: Not sure. Somewhere nice with sea view. haha!~ And can see stars and all kinds of beautiful stuffs de. =)
70. Your phone bill: my jiee pay de. =X But then I dun dare to exceed or she will nag. =X
71. Where would you like to have your vacation in: A quiet place with beautiful sceneries! =D
72. Favourite show: anything that can keep me laughing and totally entertaining. Best is I can rmb the show and laugh when I recall the show.
73. Nationality: Singapore de.
74. Who would you think of if you are drenched in the rain: The person who sells the umbrella Agree with Xin Yi! ^^. )
75. When is your happiest moment: I not sure. haha!~ Enjoying the moment with the ppl I treasure and love bahs? LOL!~
76. The recent movie that you had watch: 881! =D
77. The most touching movie you had watched: a lot of touching movies... i duno how to figure which is the most touching one... I easily will tear de... =X
78. What do you think of homosexual: Neutral feeling? Nothing to object about. It's also a kind of love.
79. Can you married someone just for the one you loved: Not sure bahs.
80. What would you want to do to the one you loved: HAHA. SECRET.
81. Do you think that you are flirty: I don't think I am... I would think myself as conservative.
82. When do you feel like dying: When mood super down or depressed that time lor. Negative thoughts will just come all together.
83. If you found 10 billion: Erm, give some to charity, half of it to my parents. and the rest see how lor. =)
84. When you felt the most heartbroken: A lot of things in life, depending on how detail you see...
85. The most indecent guy: Not sure.
86. The most indecent lady: Not sure.
87. If you become invisible: Do the daring stuffs that I dun dare to do. The specific things I gonna keep it secret. =)
88. Favourite liquor: drank not much variety so duno yet. haha!
89. Favourite dish to go with liquor: Not sure? Normally i dun eat while drinking... haha! I just do pure drinking to go emo... lols~
90. What would you do when you are angry: Try to cool down myself and normally go to slp to forget and neutralize the feelings.
91. Your motto: Some profound motto.
92. If someone whom you met for the first time ask for your address: i wun give. so sorry.
93. Your nickname: Code 1261 (the most approved nickname), payaya milkkx, yaya (my close frens call me that), muachee (my dearr give me de name), yunton noodle, yytellmi, y square and lots more...
94. What is the first thing that you do when you wake up: Open my eyes while breathing.
95. The most confident part of you: None
96. Do you have any jinx: Nope
97. The most important things in your life: There's a lot.
98. When you felt the most happy: when...
99. When you felt the most sad: depends on my current mood
100. Lastly, what would you like to say: it killed my time. thanks.
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@12:00 AM
Saturday, September 01, 2007
Today went out somewhat the whole day...
Early in the morning, I actually woke up late and rushed down to near Plaza Singapura there... just to meet up with friends to sign a form for a job... Then halfway, my sister called me and then asked me whether I wanna watch 881... then I agreed lor... after writing the form, I went back to West Mall all alone (supposed to meet my jie and mum at 2 at West Mall but then I reached West Mall at 12.30! HAHA!)
So, you know what? I went shopping all alone and then went to play arcade too! LOL!~ I played the racing games all alone (sounds so lonely la!) But then in the end, omg! I tink I dun have the right mood to play racing game today. I lost badly =X~
And then later, I went to buy some food and sat somewhere to eat while waiting, at the same time, blasting music in my ears all the way. WOOHOO~~ SHIOK!~
Then when my jiee and mum reached West Mall from IMM, then we went to buy movie tickets for 2.50pm de. then we went to shop for a while before going to watch. =))
Anyways, the recommendations for 881 movie is really true. It's realistic (for most of the parts) and I cried like hell for so many parts. OMG. I can't pretend tears never flow down because can say my entire face was kind of wet and the tears flowed down to my body liaos... haha! FUNNYT SEH~ LOL!~ And then I had to SILENTLY take out the tissue to wipe away my tears, but no matter how, my mum and jiee still saw it. (not fun de =P *pouts*) LOL!~ But then overall, it really made a lot of ppl cry! And we purposely stood behind until the movie totally ended. LOLS!! To stop the swelling of eyes. haha!~ =DDD
Then after watchin movie, then went to shop together and bought some stuffs! =DD HEES.
Then went home lers. =))
yays!
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I can't crave anything from you.
Impossible.
Let it be bahs.
I can't.....
You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@9:24 PM
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