Monday, April 30, 2007



Does love fade?

Does the warmth of someone's hug fades?

Do you feel the feeling of smiling at that specific someone getting lesser and lesser?

Did you find out that you felt that your muscles for smiling was not longer exercising that often like how you did in the past when you see him?

One day, will you stop smiling into his eyes?

Everything fades. Things further from me.

Like how undefinite things happen on me.

*

Just let my imaginations go wild, just let me fulfill all my impossible wishes and dreams in that short-lived dream. Let me feel the happiness, the love from you in the dream because I knew I will not feel anything from you in real life.

Because perhaps, I'm played...

once again.

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@6:05 PM





I'm just a hiding normal-looking girl whom no one will fall in love with me at the very first sight. I'm just hidden in the crowd.

*

I just realized I have so many white emoticons that looked like me! ^^

*

Social psychology module is making me mad, I'm just afraid of everything about it. I'm tired of doing it. I regretted so much on this choice man. It's so darn tough.

Our social experiment looked so wrong.

*

Yesterday I gazed up at the stars, you came into my mind once again. I changed my location of looking at stars from ROOM WINDOW to KITCHEN WINDOW liaos. ROOM WINDOW only gt one pathetic non-shiny star, and KITCHEN WINDOW gt quite a few when I just came out from bath. =) That's a good thing, I took a small chair and sat there listening to HIS songs... =(

Tears almost appeared at the corner of my already small eyes, yet I held back. Because I remembered I still have to walk past my parents at the living room before I reach my dear room. =/ LOL!

*

I need a hug badly. HAHA. A kind of silent console.

*

Life is so stressful. I miss my first year life. So slacky. Or did I choose the wrong module. I think I did. =(

*

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@9:01 AM

Sunday, April 29, 2007



Is it so hard to forget our first? The first, it can be anything.

The answer probably is 98% yes.

Today I cleaned up my desktop and laptop stuffs to make more space for everything and I discovered more music from my very old desktop... and I transferred quite a few songs over my desktop... darn happy... but then old memories came back... that desktop is where most of sad memories were.... haha... the place where I cried the most... the desktop had accompanied me thru' my down times... haha!

And HE came back into my mind once again when I listened to the songs he introduced me... =(

HAIZ~

I'm irritated already, and he still came into my mind.

We are the impossibles, yet I do miss him now.

*

Looking at the people around me, people are starting to go for looks already. And they want to woo all the pretty people (for the boys ard me la). Are boys always like that? I tend to smile at all those shuai ge-s who go for normal looking girls lehh. As long as they look at ppl according to their characters, not looks, I will like that person that way from far. =) "This guy vr nice... dun mind looks de.." (but hopefully this shuai ge is not betting with his friends whether he can woo and cheat that normal-looking girl or not).

I'm happy I'm not the pretty people. HAHA.

At least my this kind of looks test ppl's love for me.

And I really hope they are not going for looks on me. I dun have looks. so probably nothing to go for. Just love me for who I am. Not looks, not thin figure, not butt, not anything but who I am.

Love is getting superficial day by day.

As I look back, I look around.

I'm so very the happy no one like me now. No one is wooing me. No one I'm going for.

Leading a simple love life, no one interfering my life too much, SO OFTEN. =)

I believe one day, I will forget them temporarily.

Yes, I will.

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@4:28 PM

Saturday, April 28, 2007



My running thought are here and there, I can't really capture my thoughts. All were darn random!

=(

I just realized, I really cannot feel nothing from him. I can't really pretend that I felt nothing. The thing is, I don't even know who I'm referring to now. How contradicting.

No one practically knows, only I know what exactly I'm thinking and feeling now.

I was just testing.

*

Now, I need to find another way to relax myself, other than drinking. Because I'm scared I'm addicted.

*

Your face have been appearing ever since you disrupted my life in your way. And I really hate the way it is now. You are distracting me.

I felt so happy when I heard the compliment. =))

Currently, I don't have the mood for anything. Not even homework. It's piling up. =(

I hate the things that's happening around me.

*

Can someone love me for who I am? Not the pretending me? The pretending me, is starting to bleed...

If we inched closer, what exactly will happen to us now? Will it be the same? Will we change? Or will we not?

Why did so many faces appeared...

Why did you do this...

Why did I avoid..

Why did I tighten...

Why did I let go...

*

I doubt I will be able to understand my entries if I read it again in future. But these few days, I should noee what I'm feeling right now. =)

Alrights, take care ppl! I'm tiredd.

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@11:33 PM

Friday, April 27, 2007



I just realized my this year of being 17 years old, I experienced many things in one shot.

But there are some things I cannot reveal to everyone, that I had experienced and changed the thoughts about some stuffs.

The start of sch for just simply two weeks, the pressure is going up like nobody's business, all because of the social psychology module. =( I thought I will love it, but in the end, I doubt myself too~

*sighs*

And on the bus, I was tinking thru' what I experienced purely this year. a little too much, the feeling too overwhelming. And I felt like stopping what I'm doing, what I'm thinking now.

Probably what I want to do now, is really to lead an even simple life.

I felt like drinking all of a sudden, and I finally understood why when ppl are stressed or depressed, they wanted to drink and smoke. I have the exact feel now. It cannot be described, you have to feel it to know. You just felt like relieving stress out of nowhere. Or I shall spend one night crying my hearts out. HAHA.

I'm really tired. I'm really busy. Why can't I have a peaceful rest even during the weekends?

*

Now I realized so many things...

I was blinded by something that's why I never see your usual outcoming until today. I was so blind, so hopeless.

Why are you filled in my mind. Why do I still look at you, despite....

And you are so cute today!! You changed a hairstyle!! =DD It suits your cuteness! =DD HAHA. So cute! *melts*

I realized, I changed unknowingly. I'm more quiet now. Less lame now.

Where's my true self? Where's the funny me?

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@11:11 PM





I finally went through yest, a special day. Not going to elaborate further.

Now having breaks again. lol!~~ =DD

HEES. And at night, I'm going to post another chap liaos! Readers muz take note ok!!

Afternoon, after sch I'm going for group discussion on the same old psycho project again. I'm sian of it liaos. =( But then my group members are quite nice lars. so i dun reli mind... hees!! =DD

Alrights, i gtg liaos!! =)))))

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@1:52 PM

Thursday, April 26, 2007



While waiting for the transfer, I read through some love stuffs. And I would like to ask every reader this question.

When you are in a relationship, and it's going to end soon, will you still want to try your best to patch up or you will just respect the other half's decision.

I know some answers will be "Depends."

Hmmm...

I read through the love stuffs in chinese, and I'm going to translate to english for easy reading for other non-chinese readers.

When a relationship is going to end, you can't really stop it from ending.
When you are hesitating to end this relationship yourself, it means you can't bear to end this relationship and you really treasure it very much.
However, usually in life, we having so many ends to a relationship, and sometimes it's inevitable.

So when you read this, will you choose to respect the other half's decision and not try your best to patch things up again because you have the mindset that probably when we force things to go on, things won't go any better. Or, you think that you should respect the other half's decision because you personally think that what's yours, will eventually be yours. If fate wants you all to leave, maybe a better choice is in the future, waiting for you.

So when you know that the relationship will end soon one day, will you respect the decision or patch?

*

Why do I still miss him despite all the things he did and say?

Why is he still on my mind?

I wasn't even sure whether my list is empty, or filled with just him.

I wonder sometimes.

Why I like him.

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@5:58 PM





Currently in sch transferring files....

I'm really sian and tired now... haiz~~ Go home still have to rush to finish up the observations worksheet stuffs and collect all the information and things before really sending it to the leader, and also I have to get all the videos and edit the videos and stuffs. wah kaox. omg!

Hopefully the page is not due tomorrow, or I have to wake up very early for the stupid editing of the web pages, and I have to do it alone because, all my members starting class at 9. and i'm starting at 11. and the page is due probably at friday 12 noon sharp. and its like so darn. GRR. second week already so stressed, I so hate it lorr. =(

LOL!~ Alrights, gtg le. BYE.

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@5:28 PM

Wednesday, April 25, 2007



Finally I have time to blog already!! *sweats*

It's just the second week, and in the middle of the week only, and I'm tired of stuffs around me. I just felt like sleeping, resting and all.

I'm dying in the piles of homework and project I'm currently dealing with. Darn.

The homework seemed to be never-ending. Looks nice, but difficult to finish.

Today was just kind of a normal day, with nothing much to laugh about. But I saw yanyan's maomao today! She super beautiful de lor!! Eyes like crystals like that!!! I suddenly miss my ah ham bf a lot!!! HAHA! Ah ham bf is really a hamster, it's my dearr's pet lai de! =D LOL!~ I love him lots! HEES. Of course I <33 dearr too! muackx! LOL~

Today stayed back from 3 to 5 with xinyi and CK till almost 5 then i rushed down to library under the small drizzle. and went for a incompleted group discussion, with the absence of two girls. And I was so-called forced to discuss with the remaining two guys until 7 plus. haha~ But I'm quite used to talking to guys liaos. Last time used to group with them, so it's going to be fine as long as they don't do anything strange, I'm fine with it. haha~ And we had quite a fruitful and active discussion on the assignment and I have to complete all the assignment stuffs and also to cut my videos and so on de. I'm going to be busy these days. I'm tired!! =(

Alrights, gtg lers. BYE.

Take care!!


*

Life is never definite.

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@11:29 PM

Tuesday, April 24, 2007



I find him more and more irritating, I don't know why. I just felt a change towards HIM.

What's wrong.

Just another boring and short day, with jokes here and there. lala~ Stressed with project. haix~ =(

Not vr happy now. LOL!~

Tons of homeworks. tons of things to worry about. =(

Even though we are together almost everyday, but this person in my heart cannot be replaced, because I always share my secrets with this particular person. It seems like no matter what they do, they wun get to know more about me. Just that particular people, I will disclose.

I <33 dearr! =D

<33 my bosom friends. =)

<3 ah ham! He's forever my bf! Even though we haven't co-habit yet, but probably soon. haha!

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@4:43 PM

Monday, April 23, 2007



"Hello miss, do you want to hug me?"

"Sorry miss, can you hug with me?"

"Why?"

"What for?"

"For anything, for... *hesitates* peace..."

"Oh okay, alright."

*hugs*

*

Doing was doing some social experiement, our idea is quite siao. lol~ and the responds were okays. hmmmm.. and you know what signage was hung around me? "Look here" (in front), "Hug Me" (Behind). LOL!

i tiink my dearr will be lyk "OMG" with her mouth wide open. haha! She knew I won't wear such OPEN stuffs in the public like that. haha! =D

LOL!~ And you know what, the conversation about me asking the ladies to hug me, it's all my initiative to go hug them (which is such an impossible thing for me la!)... haha... i dun hug ppl tt easily... and i dun take initiative to hug ppl... and because of this, i opened up... hahahaha! And asked for hugs... what the hell... lol!~ But it was rather fun at the first successful attempt of hug from a lady! =DD HEES. So happy!! Later I was hugged by another lady who was doing an interview, and another was a westerner!! =D They are all so warm and sweet to me!! GEES. haha! I'm so so happy! HAHA!

Alrights, anyone wan hugs? I have free ones here!! Hug me if you wan! =)) HEES.

I'm a warm person *pukes myself*

LOL!~

HEES.

Alrights bye!

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@3:57 PM

Sunday, April 22, 2007



From today onwards,

I'll promise myself that I'll concentrate on you and not distract myself other than for you.

I'll try to love you amap. =DD

*

Please don't force me to do things that I really don't want.

Please don't convince anymore, once it's a no. It's a no.

*

Targets. FIRST years. Second years. Third years.

*

*grinning away*

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@5:48 PM

Saturday, April 21, 2007



Warning!

This is going to be a FRANK post. Not 100% of course, but still I assure it's at least 98% frank. haha!

-

Being single for rather long, I think it's already 3 years from now. (it's rather long for me now). And I'm beginning to feel I'm UNWANTED.

HAHA. But very often, I just consoled myself that fate/ love is not around me yet, I'm still queuing in that long queue, waiting for someone to come love me. Or if not, fate was trying to let me have lesser chance of getting heartbreaks.

In turn, I felt better after consoling myself, and hearing consoles from my bosom friends and mother as well. =)

HAHA. But of course, at this kind of age, some kind of feelings (e.g. lust, inflatuation) will somehow dwell one LONELY day for sure. I do admit that I have it too. I just felt like going online and just grab one to be my boyfriend for at least one decent day. But I knew I wouldn't do it. Because character plays a very important part for me to fall in love with one person. Yes, I may not mind looks (from the evidence of the past crushes for the past few years, or okays, my whole life), but I do mind characters, personalities, the way we interact, the way the both of us feel. So eventually I felt online dating was kind of a OFF thing to me. LOL! So, during lonely days, I just consoled myself and went on with my life for these 3 years. Because there are more people who are like me, lonely for perhaps their own life of 18+ years, always single. So I felt I was blissful that I made some people on my love way. HAHA.

And I don't know what happened to this month, this month should be a LOVE-loathe month to me. haha! I began to loathe LOVE! People around me are starting to distrust each other in couples, breaking up, quarrelling and stuffs like that. And hearing new stories again from nearbys, I felt love is just temporary, just a reason for another heartbreak, at least to me. I feel love hurts.

I distrust the people around me, I distrust the people who love.

Just kind of pathetic.

So at least, let me be single for the time being, until I had cleared my barrier of having LOVE once again. Because I'm not easily opened up to anybody so easily. Even after a few attempts, I may not open up my heart and talk to you freely like my true self...

Probably meet it when I'm not aware of it. Or, in the next few years. Or, a never. I don't mind it.

I can't force love anyway. No one likes me, then that's it.

Just endure the tears, the pain. The singlehood, the loneliness.

*

Just read ice-angel's blog on students behaving intimately at public places. And further on, she talked about losing virginity at young age.

Virginity is not a thing you should be influenced by your peers of. Losing virginity is a ONE-TIME kind of thing. Once it's gone, it's forever gone (unless you go do surgery and make a fake one la). Treasure your days of being a virgin. (I'm sounding really wrong now).

I don't know what to say now, so I'm going to keep the sentences that I WANTED to say in my heart about virginity.

*

Yesterday was GREY region, today is in WHITE region. I cleared everything.
We are simply nothing to each other.
Not even a ambiguous relationship.
Not even a like.

What's more. I'm free from everything! =DD

Targetting!*

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@7:12 PM





Today is a rather confusing day for me. I had all kinds of mixed feelings which is making me feeling rather terrible.

However, my mother enlightened about some stuffs when she told me random things.

I have to promise myself, not to follow their pathways.

And yes, I will say no, no matter how you convince me to do it. No matter how much I feel.

I must never follow them.

Not a life example.

I had done too much bad stuffs in my life, for now.

I feel bad.

If I could have a choice...

I really want to turn back time.

Be a different person.

*

Another secret kept in the treasure box.

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@4:22 PM

Friday, April 20, 2007



*voice fades off*

Tell you something, I don't like to watch taiwan dramas as much as I do in the past already!! And you know what? Don't people always say (in hokkien), people who are acting in the show is crazy and people watching the show is stupid? But then my mum and I disagree totally now. Because we are not stupid! We look at detail stuffs!!

HAHA! Currently there's this repeated show at Channel U about Dolphin Bay stuff de. A taiwan show and then we were watching attentively. Some stuffs, obviously was too fake when the male lead and the female lead HAPPENED to kiss each other on the lips as they turned around at the same time (but it's DARN OBVIOUS the guy tilted his head slightly to kiss the girl lorr!) aiyohs. abit... fake leh... haha!

And then the female lead is very poor in the show mahh and the male lead is a super rich guy working at some taiwan TV station and stuff. And then the male lead just gave her a handphone, and asked her to contact him when she needs him. Then my mother asked something that made me burst out laughing, "Then what if the handphone no battery already, then how the girl call the guy?" HAHA! Very true huh! If I were the one to write the story, I told my mother, I will give her the handphone ROMANTICALLY as what usual shows will do. Then later, give her the handphone charger and says, "Remember to charge the phone or else the phone will have no battery power..." LOL!!!

Alrights, always lame. lol!~

Somw shows' standards had gone down. They are not looking after the small details liaos, or are the audience trying to find imperfection from a show, like what we are doing now? But obviously, it was fake mahh *pouts* HAHA.

Today have quite a few inspirations! Super happy de! =))

Yes, my day started really nicely with the sweet dream I had last night *drools* but then in the middle, some stuffs affected my mood... and later at night, it kept me normal! =D HEES.

*

Whatever it is, thanks for constantly reminding me that I had to stop everything when I see you.

Your actions said everything to me.

Mothball.

LOL!~

Suddenly had the urge of drinking. I siao liaos. haha. cuz moody now mahh. can't help it. haha!

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@10:38 PM





I had a really really sweet dream yest! =))

And I haven't told anyone YET!! And not going to tell anyone what's it all about! Of course it's not all those A stuffs. I shall keep it as a one of the secrets in my treasure box for the time being! =)

LOL!~

So happy! HAHA!

And the dream was super sweet, even though it CAN NEVER HAPPEN in real life, but I totally melted in the dream!! =)

I didn't dream of celebrity, it's sweeter than that.

*

LOL!~ Hope I rmb the dream! muhahas. not for long though`

nowadays have been having all those.... sweet until cannot sweet de dreams, that kept me grinning from ear to ear... muhahas! so proud of it! LOL~ =DD

The feel was DARN REAL! WOOHOO!!

*

It feels really great when you dreamt of someone impossible to be near you; yet doing something sweet with that someone in the dream, without caring the future consequences! =DD
*beams*

muhahas! =))

*

For the time being, I shall not worry about what's happening between us. When the thing comes, then I will react accordingly, depending on my feel.

*

I love such dreams, anymore? LOL!~ With all those ppl I want please! =)

MUHAHAS!

SWEET!!!!!!!

*

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@7:36 PM





This is the 600th entry!!! =DDDD

So happy muhahas! =))

Currently I'm in sch now, having break until 2 pm! yays! =DD

LOL!~

Not having a very nice day too... mood still unstable but then overall its quite fine... muhahas!

Alrights, I'd updated one chap of Assassin =)) @ www.winglin.net/fanfic/lunar1261

LOL!~ Updated during my lesson! Naughty hor!!! =X

Alrights, gtg lers. Love everyone!!~

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@1:55 PM

Thursday, April 19, 2007



After the long passage of time, you began to realize someone's shortcomings, that made you loathe someone even more, in one way or another.

So do I.

And I'm so happy I realized it early. =)

I realized the answer to that question,

I had it.

The both of us changed.

When will I meet the old you again?

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@8:25 PM

Wednesday, April 18, 2007



I'm so in love with Mazda 3! I'm so in love with rosybrown, purple and black! =DDDDDD

*screams*

*

Today is quite my happy day until the day almost ended. lol!~

=D

Was having a lot of fun laughing with yanyan darling on the mothball-lised songs... haha! All were funny! =D LOL!~ And lots more de la...

Today had a very funny microbiology class too!~ LOL! muhahas. can't take it. I plainly laughed to tears when naming the microorganisms. All kinds of weird names.

Gondii, pronounced as "Go and Die"

HAHA!

And so on de... lala~

And peii CK go IS block to find our previous IS lecturer but she's not in. and bleahs. then we split our ways and I went to the library to blow air-con... then ltr, I went to the engineering block (if i'm not wrong) then went toilet, and I napped a little outside the toilet where there's empty benches and quiet. =)) Very nice place leh there! HAHA!

HEES.

*

I hope nothing had happened to us initially, that had caused such drastic change on us.

I imagined a miracle happened when it didn't at all.

Whatever character you have that I loathe about, whatever cold attitude you are going to give me, I'm going to neglect everything about you. I'm going to turn oblivious over everything near you.

Because I'm tired of everything.

Everything about you.

I feel so bad...

*

First year, I agree quite a few shuai ge-s I saw. LOL!~ =DD YAYS! HAHA!

But still no one caught my eyes yet! LOL~ =))

Love my bf always ok! HAHA! =D *sticks to ah ham!* LOL!

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@8:19 PM

Tuesday, April 17, 2007



My eyes are gonna be puffy once again! Darn, I shouldn't have read all those blog entries man! It's so saddening! =(

GRR.

*

I like the wrong person at the wrong time, in the wrong life.

EVERY SINGLE THING turned out to be SUPER WRONG.

Looking at the past crushes, I realized why I liked about them. =) Which is a good thing, but yet I still couldn't see any similarity in them. Okays, perhaps one thing, I dun mind looks. haha! =D

Looks actually dun play a part in my "deeper" crushes, stuffs like that. LOL!~ It's somehow HARD and EASY for me to like someone... so... haha! It's unpredictable!! LALA!

Those temp. inflatuation over shuai ge-s dun count at all la! HAHA! I just like their looks. haha! =D HEES.

What if, my feelings are back?

LOL!

They are attractive in their ways.
I realize.
I trust my taste in the past.
But not now.

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@10:54 PM





Today was basically a fine day for me. I have got nothing to talk about, seriously. haha!

Was back to the crazy sch days when our group starts laughing over stupid and lame stuffs, once again. haha! Haven't grow tired of it yet. haha!~

Yet, I was still worried with my juniors, whether they came or not. They were rather obedient, most of them came. =) But then during the announcement of the results, they burst out crying at the parade square, once again. HAIZ~ Heng i was not there, or else I will be crying too! =( But of course, some of my juniors refused to come... I can understand their feelings but then remember, studies very impt k! Esp. for those juniors who are taking Os this yr! Dun let it affect you... it will fade one day, I believe...

For those who still stands a chance, practise even more! =D And have fun at the same time!

HAHA. Let's maintain our band as a place where we have fun, we have laughters, jokes and everything from that small, old music room, which always tired us out cuz its at high high de level 4, without lifts! HAHA! =))

Hope to get back to sch when I'm free!

<33 you guys.

I'm trying to accept the reality too...

My heart still aches a little when I heard my sch's name so many times today... haiz~

=DD

Jia you HSSband! HSSband jia you!!

Great to know all the cute juniors! =)) You guys rocks! HAHA! Vr cute and nice and chattable! HAHA!

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@5:59 PM

Monday, April 16, 2007



Today is the SYF Day....

Firstly I will talk about my first day of sch for my second year... and taking IS for the first day of sch (how pathetic) and then I was finding for block 72 when i saw kieron, we were both very high when we saw each other and he helped me find my classroom at level 5, which was nowhere to be found. It's a business block, so it's a kind of new world to life science students. haha! Thanks kor for helping me find the classroom, but eventually we were both late for IS... I told him to go for his class, while I go find the classroom alone before he becomes too late for class... haha! In the end, I found it! yays!

Had a rather nice 4 hrs lecture with activities here and there. =) LOL!~ And learnt quite a few concepts... and watched funny videos here and there... and answered some weird questions... muhahas! =DD

LOL!~

Alrights, the 4 hrs was fast, seriously speaking even though my neck was aching. but then I enjoyed the lesson. Will be going to Raffles Place Mrt station for outdoor teaching for next class!! yay! We will be looking at ppl liaos! HAHA!

And then I rushed over to LSCT to join the others, when there's only a few people of our class. =( And then I went to buy lunch with kor and in the end, we kena PS. HAHA~ Then we walked down to blk 56 because he had class at 1, while i will go straight to henderson after eating and peii-ing kor till 1... haha~ Then I rushed down to henderson to peii band... the weather was fcuking hot... haha! See the vul. there? It's really, really hot. I was sweating like hell man. I hate myself today! HAHA!

And then reached there at about 2 sth, the band got ready of everything and headed straight to SCH. And we waited and rotted. lol!~

Initially, some alumnis with no tix were not able to go in... but then the alumnis inside combine their used tix and call another alumnis and pass to it all... to smuggle everyone inside... muhahas... but then unsuccessful... because the hall was somehow full... and then our sch teacher, Ms Evelyn Wu, came out and took us in... haha! Was so happy when we got in... and then our sch band was walking in too... =))

Listened to their pieces... And the flight of valor, I was moved to tears, seriously. From what I told them, show your utmost confidence you can try to show, show the great muscianship, united as one. =) They did really well. Goosebumps erupted, hot tears streamed down, and everything turned out nice. =)) I love the second piece to bits.

And once they were out, some people were crying as usual, some because they had finally finished this stressful thing that made them feel sleepless for days and finally relieved after the 15 mins of performance was over, if not, some were crying over their mistakes, some were crying that they played better...

Due to past experiences of remaining at SCH, crying over the sad results that we got silver in year 2005 for 2 hrs there... our teacher-in-charge told us to go back to sch and wait for the results... which is so darn sad... but good la... lol~ They wun see us burst out crying... lol!~

And went back to sch, I was slacking ard while the juniors pack their stuffs and sat on the floor, sticking close to each other, praying that they could get as much as they could hope; a gold.

I also sat amongst the juniors, together with my meii. just in case she needs me or something. lol~

Mr Salleh, one of our ex teacher-in-charge, was engaged on the phone, the other side was Sir Badrul, and he told him the results over the phone... and Mr Salleh said, "Band No. 123, Henderson Secondary School..." Everything seemed to freeze, and he mouthed silently, "Bronze". Everyone thought he was just kidding, we waited for more, when he gave a more definite answer with a stern face, we knew it's true.

And people around me burst out crying... it's not all those sobbing sounds... it's those with crying sounds, very loud de... it's so-called crying your hearts out... what's more shocking was, I saw guys crying too, some with sounds. And my di was crying... so hard to see him cry, seriously. I felt worse than year 2005... Bronze wasn't anyone had expected; we thought they played well. They thought they played well too. The alumni shocked, Sirs shocked, Sirs' friends shocked, teacher-in-charges shocked. everyone shocked.

And they cried for really long, and I somehow regretted sitting with the juniors, they look so poor thing, and I somehow cried with them here and there. Getting emotional when I reminded myself about year 2005, how our efforts paid off. *sighs*

And as always, Sir rushed back to sch and told us his thoughts, which will always set people crying once again. His every word was so powerful, every single year. I always cried over his words, don't know why. Even though I heard it for years. But then it still worked, on me, on everyone in the band.

The band room was crowded with alumni, Sirs, supporters from classmates, other CCAs, teachers-in-charge and so on... I really feel warm this time round, as compared to year 2005... they showed support through their eyes... They supported the band, they believed the band... =)) And they waited from the start to the very end when everyone ended up crying, and embracing each other as they sobbed continuously...

Seen from other teachers (other teachers oso came to support them), I'm moved to tears man. They are really great. Those moltivation are just so...cannot be described... in the past, they never talked about band in any way, but now, they believed in band and wished them luck, isn't that sweet?

Today managed to hug quite a lot of people... I feel so wanted for hugs today!! I love hugs <33 So that's good for me!! =DD

LOL!~

Hugged may meii, liyana tu-di, rita nu-er, eddy di, maii...

some hugged me quite a few times... so... haha! And I got to know some cute juniors too!! HAHA! It's really a big surprise that they actually know my name without me telling them! Surprised! =) LOL!~ Anyways, nice to meet you all, you all are cute! =D LOL! And funny too! LOL!~

*

This year, I really believed the standard had been risen up to greater heights, and many good bands were seen as bronze bands, unfortunately. I had seen true examples and heard examples from Sir Faizal as he tried to console the crying members. So probably like what the teachers had said, we have to move on. The only thing we have to do is to remember this day, this moment when we got bronze... and give even more efforts..."

=))

To me, HSSband really sounds like a at least SILVER band to me! =D Serious! =))

Probably that's what Sir said, "Probably today is not our day.."

dear juniors, try not to cry anything. It really hurts your health. And also, pls go to sch the next morning. I know it's a torture to listen to the SYF results, once again. But then, I really hope you all don't skip sch for this. =)

All the best in your studies for mid-year! =))

As for Sir Badrul, he's always the cutest and humorous band conductor I had ever seen. =)) He sent flying kisses to the crying members, I should have caught it though. LOL!~ =D HSSband loves Sir! Sir loves HSSband.

Band keep us united. Band disciplines us. Band made us passionate towards music. Band gave us the opportunities to make friends.

Band is our everything. =DD

<33 HSSband, <33 Henderson.

Never regretted on my secondary days in band! Never! I'd made the right choice ever since I stepped into the band room....

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@11:03 PM

Sunday, April 15, 2007



Define LOVE.

Ans : There's no definite answer to this question. There's probably no right or wrong either.

Purely these few months, ever since the start of this year 2007, I saw so many people's relationship going on rocks... facing obstacles, giving up and continuing on...

I didn't know what to say, because I don't have much experience in it. And all the more, don't try to ask someone who doesn't trust love, how to do. I don't trust love, what could I say?

Sighs*

I saw so many overly-used lines in sweet-nothings, began to grow tired with TOO SWEET love stories...

Began to think they are so unrealistic...

So impossible...

What's more on fashion is ambiguous relationship.

Isn't it?

Seeing one guy and a girl walking together, people starts to gossip about them, being in a AI MEI relationship, wasn't it?

Sweet-nothings I had seen and somehow distrust...

"Today went out with her, I really enjoyed being with her.... I feel so sweet, so happy..."
-- saw so many of these, it turn out to be unrealistic to me. probably i dun have this experience at all, seriously, from all my ex. I've never enjoyed their company before. Or to specifically say, I'm happy and sweet with them. I don't feel so. I wonder if I will feel it in future, or was it just a kind of mere description?

"I will never let you go...."
-- 'NEVER', a strong word. You sure you will never let me go? A 'never'? Never means forever wun let go.... wait till a breakup, then think twice about this word.

"I will love you forever...."
-- same goes to this, forever. Firstly, there's no such thing as forever. I will still SOMEHOW trust you if you say, I will love you till my last breath fades away... probably i will still weep a little...

And so on.

*

I really wonder how would I turn out to be if I have a long-run relationship, will I be able to tahan? Or turn out to be someone who is more impatient and pushing on the relationship....? Or the one who is giving a lot?

I don't know.

Love does fade. Fade in many ways.

Love grows, in many ways too.

Sometimes it's the way how you look at things, the way how you feel about something...

Love dearr. Love FABS Gang. Love BYW Team. Love Ah Ham Bf! =DD

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@9:15 PM





Today went shopping with my parents at Jurong Point... hmmm... quite okae lorr... bought a pencil case from yellow... lalala~ still okae la... lol!~ Feel like having a change... lol~

Tomorrow is the day for HSSband liao!

16th April 2007, 4.30PM...

Bus leaving at 2.45PM, if I'm not wrong...

Hopefully HSSband get as high as they could achieve for this year 2007, even better than last year.

Seriously, I felt like hiding myself from them, after I recalled what had happened in year 2005... totally ashamed... totally guilty-striken... but hope this time, i will try to pluck out all my courage, take myself as a life example for them to learn from... and hopefully, fiona dun fall into the trap like I did last year.

=))

Jia yous to all my percussionists! Jia yous to all HSSband members! Even though I duno every single of you. But at least, I knew all the sec 4s... haha! And my ex-section de ppl... =D

Really love you guys.

Light up the stage with utmost confidence, great muscianship. Enjoy yourselves.

Just try your best.

Every band blog are saying the same overly-used lines, but I will still gonna say it!

=)

HSSband shi tou! (Hssband rocks)!! <33

My second home, no matter how... I won't forget my times there! =)

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@6:06 PM

Saturday, April 14, 2007



1. WHAT IS YOUR FULL NAME
## (ask me) call me yunzi. haha!

2.What colour pants are you wearing?
## Greeny-brown (weird color yar) Hard to describe. haha!

3. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
## Biao Han By Joey Yung and Xiao Zhu Luo Zhi Xiang

4. ARE YOUR LEGS CROSSED?
## abit

5. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?
## cold dinner (i vr late then eat dinner, so the food became cold liaos)

6. IF YOU WHERE A CRAYON WHAT COLOUR WOULD YOU BE?
## purple, wanna be unique so that children will treasure me if they use me. haha!

7. HOW IS THE WEATHER RIGHT NOW?
## Cooling! =D The rain stopped. =)

8. LAST PERSON YOU TAlKED TO ON THE PHONE??
## Mummy?

9. FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX?
## Hands

10. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT YOU THIS?
## xinying

11. HOW ARE YOU TODAY?
## haha. a kind of happy mood is filling me... perhaps I'm quite happy after work!! HAHA! Mixed kind of happiness.. just feel unusually happy... haha!

12. FAVOURITE DRINK?
## warm mineral water! Most healthy de! HAHA!

13. FAVOURITE ALCOHOLIC DRINK?
## ehhh... i haven't try all so I cannot say which one i love most... =X Bad girl! HAHA! hees... SHH!

14.What is your favourite sport?
## if water dun get into my ears, i will love swimming. haha!

15. HAIR COLOUR?
## black, highlighted red.

16.EYE COLOUR?
## abit brown

17. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?
## no

18. SIBLINGS
## 1 jie

19.FAVOURITE MONTH?
## November (Dun ask me why) LOL! I oso duno... i just love that month de name bahs... long long de... haha!

20.FAVOURITE FOOD?
## cheesy stuffs... haha! But not cold cheese... melted cheese!! *melts*

21. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED?
## 200 pounds beauty! =D

22. FAVOURITE DAY OF THE YEAR
## Not sure lehh... haha! like none leh~ HAHA! every year different bahs... haha!

23. SATURDAY OR SUNDAY?
## Saturday.

24. ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT?
## Yeah. haha! I'm always so shy *saw some people began vomitting* LOL!

25. DO YOU LIKE MARMITE?
## nothing... not much feel .

26. SUMMER OR WINTER?
## WINTER!

27. HUGS OR KISSES?
## BOTH LA! HAHAHA! =XXX~ *blushes completely*

28. CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA?
## Vanilla

29. DO YOU WANT YOUR FRIENDS TO WRITE BACK?
## anything

30. Who's most LIKELY TO RESPOND?
## anyone

31. WHO IS LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
## anyone

32. LIVING ARRANGEMENTS?
## nah. i live for today. haha!

33. WHAT BOOKS ARE YOU READING?
## read finish liaos. haha!

34. DID YOU WAKE UP BEFORE YOUR ALARM WENT OFF ?
## yup

36. DO YOU MISS BIG BROTHER YET?
## huh? no big brother neh.

37. FAVOURITE SMELLS?
## sweet smell

38. WHAT INSPIRES YOU?
## sometimes it can be anything out of the blue

39. BUTTERED, PLAIN, OR SALTED POPCORN?
## i wan sweet de!

40. FAVOURITE CRISPS?
## duno

41. FAVOURITE CAR?
## mazda3, mazda 6, toyota vio.

42. FAVOURITE FLOWER?
## ehhhh... none?

43. How MANY KEYS ON YOUR KEY RING?
## about 3

44. CAN YOU JUGGLE?
## dun tink so.

45. FAVOURITE DAY OF THE WEEK
## fri

46. RED OR WHITE WINE?
## i tink i drank red wine before. but white wine, i duno wadd's the taste. so i duno which one i prefer.

47. WHAT DID YOU DO FOR YOUR LAST BIRTHDAY?
## ehhh... haha... somewhat celebrated with my class ppl... haha... and then I slacked at home all day... then cut birthday cake at home lorr... haha!

48. DO YOU OWN A DONOR CARD?
## no

49. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING?
# what's the time now.

50. WHAT ARE YOU DOING ONCE YOU HAVE FINISHED THIS ?
## not sure. nvr plan. probably bathe bahs.

Extra stuff:

51. WHO IS YOUR FAV ACTOR?
## dun have. haha!

52. WHAT IS YOUR FAV SONG?
## a lot. emotional chinese songs for most. haha! Jay Chou hits!

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@9:15 PM





I'm falling in love with ROSYBROWN.

Nice color! =D

HEES.

It's easy to be in inflatuation. But it's hard to be really in love, loving that particular someone for as long as you can.

Sometimes when you are touched, or see the good points of someone, it's easy to love that someone deeper.

But when you see the bad sides of that person, and you really mind and turn you totally off, probably it's beginning to be hard to maintain the love for him/her.

*

It's easy for her to like someone, yet it's so hard and unreachable to turn it into love for someone.

Because she long lost the security about love.

She distrust love, totally, completely, utterly.

No matter how she tried to change her own mind, she couldn't.

She veiled her distrust, she veiled insecurity, she veiled her everything so that she could prevent ruthless heartbreaks.

Because love's just an excuse for a heartbreak.

Who says saying "I'm okay" really meant I'm okay?

Everything takes time.

Even scars....

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@9:07 PM





2 and a half way working days at Alexandra Hospital (AH)!! Pics not in sequence. =)


Took this pic just today, and these are adjustable cupboards that practically saves space. And it looks very high-tech for typical storerooms! =) We were mountain tortoise over there! =) muhahas.
This is my lunch today with yanyan darling and her bf! =) It's sweet and sour fish + rice. But then, it should be renamed as Spicy and Sour Fish + Rice. It's darn spicy. And I put off fire repeatedly by drinking the soup. lol! And according to yanyan's bf, it's small chili. darn, i dun eat chili de leh, still give me such powerful one worr! =(


You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@6:57 PM

Friday, April 13, 2007



Updated Assassin. www.winglin.net/fanfic/lunar1261

Do comment.

=D

I'm tiredd. yet still cannot slp. and something's haunting my mind.

get away.

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@10:15 PM

Thursday, April 12, 2007



The more he continues, the more you will suffer.

The more you breed, the more you will bleed.

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@11:35 PM





Conservative or distrust?

Distrust or rejecting feigning of feelings?

*

I FINALLY WORKED FOR THE HOLIDAY!! =DD

Today went to work with yanyan at AH Hospital de Pharmacy Storeroom... I took some pics... but then I will probably upload it on saturday or sth, when I'm not so tired...

=) We packed powders stuff... lol!~ =D Had a fun time joking while working... haha! =))

ALrights, then we ran in the rain from the canteen till the storeroom there. we were so darn cute! =X LOL!~ Two ah siaos running in the rain... haha!

HEES. Went home by shuttle bus to queenstown, take mrt to clementi. from clementi interchange take 173 back home. =) *lazy to walk, I just sat a longer bus route* LOL! =X

*

Let the feelings be more definite.

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@8:47 PM

Wednesday, April 11, 2007



Am I craving for RED WINE?

I realized from the dream I had yesterday.

I had two dreams yesterday.

In one of the dreams, I realized, I always asked a question with similar format, before I really do anything...

Why don't I just do it without asking?

To give it a kind of surprise... and make it unforgettable?

Useless.

Today I looked at SYF band results. I was very stunned over it. Plainly today, many bands got bronze!! Which is a big shock to me!! The standard is so much higher! =( Oh my god!!

All the best to HSSband! =D

http://sgbandfusion.com/syf/results.htm --> view the results of ur sch too! =)

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@11:05 PM





Credits from camii's blogg

LIFE SITUATIONS

1. If you were to find out you were pregnant right now what would you do and from who will it be? duhx. impossible la! i dun ahem* LOL! ya... *blush*

2. Do you trust your friends? some not all.

3. Would you move to another state or country to be with the person you love?-> oh. probably. PROBABLY only.

4. Do you believe that everythinghappens for a reason?-> yes. every single thing happens for a reason. i tink so? *blurs*

5. Name one thing you would not tolerate well in a relationship.-> ehhhh... nt too sure... nt in a relationship for rather long... duno wadd i want now too...

6. Which of your friends do you think would make the best roommate for you?-> probably my bosom friends bahs.

7. Are you afraid of falling in love?-> yes, very.

8. Is there someone who pops into yourmind at random times?-> LOL! not someone. is some PEOPLE. HAHA! the same person dun always pop out unless something special happened *winks* LOL!

9. Would you stop talking to yourfriends because you hooked up with anew guy/girl?-> dun tink so? I will just say some stuffs about a new guy with my friends. haha!!!!! =D

10. Do you delete people on friendsterwhen you're mad at them?-> ehhh... for certain very serious reasons then I will delete them. mad, i wun. i noee its temporary.

11. From your friends list, who canyou call in the middle of the night?-> ehhhh.. quite a few la... but mostly dun call me... my fone is always quiet and safe... haha! =X

12. Fill in the blank. I will NEVER_____.-> be perfect.

13. What are your goals in life?-> hmmm. stable career w/ nice pay, hopefully with someone I love and so on de... if i can, i wanna drive my own dark purple car! =D

14. Would you make a good parent?-> not sure.

15. What is your middle name?-> dun tink i have? duno leh.

16. Hotmail or AOL?-> hotmail. dun even noee wadd's AOL lorr... LOL! Mountain turtle la me...

17.What's on your mind right now?-> work tml, social psy. class no one peii me! =(

18. Best place to go for a date:-> not sure leh. nvr date... *blush*

19. Favorite kind of pants:-> ehhhhh... duno lehh.... no feel about pants....

20. Do you wear contact lenses orglasses?-> none

Obsessive Compulsive?-> dun understand. lazy to check dictionary too. haha!

22. What was your dream about lastnight?-> oh my god. tt's an impossible dream. but i dreamt i hugged my sec sch mate... haha!!!!!! not going to elaborate any further!! LALALA~~

*

I got the AH job! But then, I had to in turn, turn down dearr's offer of going out tml. I'm really sorry dearr. But I can still go out after I'm off work. probably we catch up during dinner or for a movie or something. love u lots. sorry.

And then I checked on my social psy. class liaos, no one I know in the class! Oh my god!! *prays*

Hope I know someone previously....

Or probably....

*grins*

*starts to smirk*

*walks away*

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@1:34 PM

Tuesday, April 10, 2007



He is sure what he wants from her. She is very sure of that.

However,

She is not sure what she really wanted eventually from him.

A heartbreak? A confusion?

Nothing came into her mind.

She kept pondering...

Hoping one day, something comes to her mind, and remains there until the next sweet moment comes.

She knew she couldn't continue any longer, yet something kept her hesitating.

She hoped to be loved, but unfortunately, she was not genuinely loved by anybody.

Because she is just an extra to call on....

One day, she will be able to walk out of the blues, and be herself, once again.

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@11:19 PM

Monday, April 09, 2007



Today is a nt bad de day.

I did not do anything much but I did go out with my mummy! She went to do facial and I sat there, waiting. haha! And I was listening to the radio...

There is always once when you are totally confused over the things that looked simple from the outside, but is complicated on the inside.

From what I heard,

"XXX, now we going up to 8000 dollars, and the question is..."

Qn : what exactly are XXX and YYY relations now?

1) Friends
2) Good Friends
3) Lovers
4) Not sure

You are still left with the help of 50-50, or you can ask for help from the audience...

Like taking "Who wants to be a millionaire?" question lyk tt...

[ Taken from 9.33 Radio ]

I giggled at it... LOL!~ It was so funny~ LOL!~

I was wondering about some relations too...

It's hard to give up, to resist when you have feelings for that person.... but you can't help but to reject, and not let it go on.

Because it's just so terrible to get on.

And perhaps we won't even be friends, anymore, I can confirm that.

Today is a day still as troubled as yest. but then didn't have the mood to drink YET. HAHA! =DD

Will make my day to the fullest...

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@9:25 PM

Sunday, April 08, 2007



I was chatting happily with my primary school classmate about our past times and also what we currently are doing now... HAHA!

And I didn't know I was so naughty when I was young!! =X

LOL!~ I even tried to prank call him when I moved house after 1 year!! Which I clearly forgotten everything!! =D

And from what I know from my mum (I just asked her what I was like when I'm young), then she commented, I was too active in activities and wanted to be involved in everything. HAHA! I didn't know I'm so active and cheerful!! =))

But then it seems like I had changed a lot these years..... I mean ever since secondary school started... I became less cheery... HAHA! And less active... however still passionate towards band, which now I'm still passionate about... haha! But then I'm not going to join NPband I suppose... just didn't feel like it... lol!~

Now I hope to go back to my past, and find more about myself... I look so cute when I'm young... shooting all those ALMOST explicit contents in photos... haha! HEES. Not going to elaborate more! And I was more of a ZI LIAN when I was young than now. HAHA! I love walking ard with cameras! HAHA! =DD

I changed a lot really.

LOL!~

Today supposedly I wanted to drink the Jolly Shandy inside my study desk drawer de... But then I ate ice cream today and I was too full for drinks... so I will postpone it to other day... even though today I'm utterly troubled, and wasn't feeling too good after yest... haha! =))

However, I had a fine day today!!

School is starting soon~ *sighs*

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@11:47 PM





Today I begged my mother constantly that I wanted to drink red wine, which other adults are drinking but my mother refused because I'm still young and looks "non-good-drinker" LOL!~ which is true xD

And the adult, sitting beside me, was swirling the wine in the glass, trying to make the wine "wake up", trying to test the thickness of the wine by seeing if there's some kind of 'stains' at the sides of the cup... and the fragnance of the red wine breeze past my nose, attracting me...

*

That kind of addiction is like smelling red wine.

You knew you couldn't touch it. Becuase it's addictive.

It can give you temporary enjoyment but then somehow you will regret about it.

The fragnance tried to attract you to it, you could hardly resist it.

The red wine. The addiction.

*

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@1:52 AM





Today I had a really nice day, attending other people's wedding!! =D

Firstly, we took my mother's fren's free ride at about 5 sth... so as to attend early for the priest's prayers and stuffs. Wasn't interested but then hmmmm, if we dun go with them, we wun have free ride liaos =(

So on the way, mummy and her fren was chatting happily away with her fren's family too! =D

Then we reached Raffles Hotel... and we went up to Stamford Ballroom first to settle ourselves and enjoy some free drinks before we walk into the ballroom... and when we went near the ballroom, there were crowds of people there... and I didn't dare take pics there... they all look like business people going for a dance ball or something... all looked so damn formal... sians... I looked so out of place... and I was forced to take a drink from the waitress... haha... and I took the fruit punch... it's nice... but too bad, I didn't take pic of it... ='(

And then we went in and rotted for super long until the ceremony finally started. and bleahs. the boring parts I gonna skip.

We had our dinner after the priest's talks, and all the vows, and signing of stuffs. =)

And in between, there were videos which set us laughing away...

HAHA!

There was one part I remember very clearly about was...

The groom was standing outside the bride's house with his mates and they weren't allowed to get in unless they do something SPECIAL outside the corridor... and they were given expectedly, sexy bikinis and bras... haha! And they wore it... and all were laughing and laughing... haha!

One funny thing I caught was, one GUY scolded another GUY, "You don't know how to wear bra is it!" (because he wear until too slow, gt time limit de)

Then the GUY retorted back, "Of course I don't know how to wear bra la!"

And everyone at the ballroom burst out laughing!! HAHA! That part was darn funny!

And ltr, in between, groom and bride sang duet, which was super nice and sweet!! They should have joined superstar or singapore idol!! They are eligible man!! Their voice super nice!! =D Oh, they are from choir, btw! HAHA! That's why! HAHA!

And then there were other videos about their past too! And bride and groom gave their speech to their friends and family. when the bride gave her speech to her mother (the auntie that I know about, but dun talk to her much though), it was simply touching! And the groom was SUPER CARING DE LA! The bride said halfway, she sobbed and the whole ballroom was like silent and awkward for the bride to continue... then the groom quickly called everyone to clap and encourage her to say on... and we smiled at her and expected her to continue her touching speech... Nice move lor!! *loves the groom*

"Mum, even though you are a single-mother, but then you had made so much effort in taking care and nurturing me into the person I am now. Without you, I wouldn't be standing here today. If God were to ask me to choose which family I want to be in my next life, I will still choose to be in this family. Because in this family, there's you, mum. I love you, mum." I remembered these sentences so clearly!! Because I cried... haha~ =DD Vr well-said even though it sounds overly used... but it's still touching though!! =)) Those kind of emotions cannot be imitated... =DD

And so on de... hmmmm... then it ended well... and when we were about to leave, we even shake their hands (all the in-laws, the relatives of theirs, and of course the groom and bride), I said "congrats" and blessed them personally when I shake their hands!! Because they look so good together!! =D They made me feel like getting married... haha...

=))

And I'm so darn happy with the gift I've got!! HAHA! =D Esp the well wrapped gift!! =D HAHA. Inside the well-wrapped gift, there were two person hugging. The white one signifies the man, the pink purplish one signifies the girl. And when they are individual by itself, they are unstable, only when they embrace each other, then they will be stable as a whole! This tells us that as a couple, we could rely on each other for a better future, to withstand any obstacles coming their way. =D HOW CREATIVE RIGHT!! I shall bring it to sch to let ppl see it! =D HEES.

LOL!~ =DD I had a nice day!!

*

We are still friends yar? I hope I can reject everything that's happening, before it's all too late.

Don't push me too far, because you wouldn't know what's waiting for you behind.

If you force me, we won't even be friends.

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@1:11 AM





WEDDING DINNER AT RAFFLES HOTEL!! =DD

Photos in random ( lazy to arrange, 20+ pics leh!)



taken when i was standing and waiting for the others to come in and tell us what no. we should be sitting at. It's all nice, and empty. haha!
This the reception counter at Raffles Hotel!! =DD Cool cool~ It's nice there... and full of tourists of course... I was trying to listen to the Korean people talking... I'm always interested in them! =X


You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@12:36 AM

Saturday, April 07, 2007



For some things in life...

When there's a start to it, it's really hard to find an end to it..

Like addictive stuffs.

This time, I was taught how to learn... how to say no.

I regretted very deeply sometimes.

Bewildered expression sometimes still creep up my face, pondering deeply whether am I really doing the right thing, or was I going the wrong way? How to stop it, myself? How to stop myself from thinking about it? How to not regret what had NOT happened to me....

Because I knew I didn't want it in my heart.... I only wanted it in my mind...

I was just...

I need a lot of courage to move on.....

Without thinking about it......

To pretend I went past that history...

It was a kind of retribution to something I did in the past, I knew it all along....

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@3:38 PM





Actually, today I had a really long chat with my mother during breakfast time today, without feeling irritated by her constant nagging. And I was agreeing to what she was saying..

We were talking about wedding stuffs, business and even emotions that we previously had over stuffs that happened around us... and even we touched on topics like "People who are immature, say that they are absolutely mature.."

Both of us had a lot to say, and we had a lot to learn from each other.

I really wished so much that I can keep this kind of "LISTENING MOOD" when she starts to nag at me.

It's a bless to be nagged at. It shows that parents are concerning you, instead of putting you at one corner and not asking you this and that. whether are you okay or not.

And that they have lots of patience listening to us, grumbling about what happened during sch and stuffs, but we had no time and patience listening to things that happened to them when they were outside. That's really, really contradicting. Sometimes, I'm even guilty of myself. Why am I so selfish.

I was watching living with Lydia the day before. And Lydia wanted her son to teach her how to use computer. When Lydia started asking "What's that thing? (Which was supposed to be the mouse)" and Lydia started asking all kinds of weird questions about PLAINLY THE MOUSE PARTS and their functions... her son got irritated and he said he didn't want to teach anymore... And Lydia started shouting into his ears, "When you learn how to pee, I had a lot of PATIENCE teaching you how to pee...", "When you eat, I had a lot of PATIENCE to teach you to eat! And now, your dear mother use you how to use a computer, you didn't have any patience to teach me at all!"

And I was nodding my head. I'm that son, she's referring to, in real life.

I don't have patience, honestly speaking.

I don't fit to be a teacher. haha!

And what's more, from that, I learnt actually parents are really, really noble without anyone trying so hard to influence me that parents are REALLY NOBLE in their way. You know what, children learn the best when they get to try themselves and learn it their way. Sometimes, it's no use teaching and forcing them to digest some stuffs. They would probably discover and realize it on their own so that they will remember it. Like life quotes, life meanings.

And here, I'm going to share the e-mail, sent by my dearr. I sent to some of my frens that I treasured. But now, I'm going to share with everyone reading my blog, and treasure your parents.

I would probably put the credits for my dearr and to hotmail.com cos' I duno who's the starter. haha!

*

An 80 year old man was sitting on the sofa in his house along with his 45 years old highly educated son.

Suddenly a crow perched on their window. The Father asked his Son, "What is this?" The Son replied "It is a crow".

After a few minutes, the Father asked his Son the 2nd time, "What is this?"The Son said "Father, I have just now told you "It's a crow".

After a little while, the old Father again asked his Son the 3rd time, What is this?At this time some expression of irritation was felt in the Son's tone when he said to his Father with a rebuff.."It's a crow, a crow".

A little after, the Father again asked his Son the 4th time, "What is this?"This time the Son shouted at his Father,"Why do you keep asking me the same question again and again, although I have told you so many times 'IT IS A CROW'. Are you not able to understand this?"

A little later the Father went to his room and came back with an old tattered diary, which he had maintained since his Son was born. On opening a page, he asked his Son to read that page. When the son read it, the following words were written in the diary :-"Today my little son aged three was sitting with me on the sofa, when a crow wassitting on the window. My Son asked me 23 times what it was, and I replied to himall 23 times that it was a Crow. I hugged him lovingly each time he asked me the same question again and again for 23 times.I did not at all feel irritated I rather felt affection for my innocent child".While the little child asked him 23 times "What is this", the Father had felt no irritation in replying to the same question all 23 times and When today the Father asked his Son thesame question just 4 times, the Son felt irritated and annoyed.

So.. If your parents attain old age, do not repulse them or look at them as a burden, but speak tothem a gracious word, be cool, obedient, humble And kind to them. Be considerate to your parents.From today say this aloud,"I want to see my parents happy forever. They have cared for me ever since I was a littlechild.They have always showered their selfless love on me. They crossed all mountains and valleys without seeing the storm and heat to make me aperson presentable in the society today".

*

Yes, and predictably, I cried on this particular article. My face was filled with guilty tears. =(

So I hope I can remember this article in my heart and treasure my parents. And always listen to them, which I always wanted to and try not to raise my voice or deepen down my mood when listening to them.

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@3:20 PM

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