Wednesday, February 28, 2007



Yesterday just before I closed my eyes...

A thought suddenly struck my mind, that almost made me unable to sleep....

I was thinking through about the past... Something that I vaguely remembered now... it's a kind of sweet move between us but then I was rather surprised that I almost forgotten everything until yesterday it suddenly came back [ I WAS VR SHOCKED ]. And I could rmb what it happened somehow.

There was once I told myself... that soul mate... or that someone I was finding, whom I can be most comfortable and chat anything under the sun & moon [HAHA] and hiding weakness of myself... someone in the past popped out in my mind... How come I didn't realize...

We were once so similar... even the horoscope matched the same.... our characters are so alike... and lots more.... thinking about how stupidly but somehow sweelty we behaved when we went out.... hmmm...

I was sure.... if we have the affinity, perhaps we could last....

HAHA~

Not that I want to turn back now or do any action because I don't have any feeling of love for anyone now.. but that I'm relieved that I had found this 'soulmate' that I was finding...

And now, I'm rather hopeful that I could perhaps meet some similar guys out there, once again, creating perhaps a miracle in life again, making me believe in love...

Love hasn't been on my side these years....

haha... i miss those days when love was too on my side... hahahaha...

and i'm glad i gave dearr the inspirations when i told her abt sth... haha! =D I dun mind u using it!!! =))

Love dearr, ah ham, ABS gang~!! Miss you all lots!!

and of course, my class! =D

You guys rocks! *old-fashioned saying*

HAHA!

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@10:10 PM





I was wondering...

Who will be my pillow for me to hug.. that I could hug close and tight without any restrictions and worries....

Who will be my jacket, who always hugs me from behind, not letting a single inch of my skin from shivering in cold......

Probably this person has yet to come...........................

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@2:30 AM





PICTURES NOT IN SEQUENCE ONCE AGAIN!! (I'm just lazy. and once I adjust all gonna be mixed up. sians) LOL!~


I'm a lazy blogger... haha!


This was taken when we were eating the Korean food at the entertainment centre there... and it shows how to cook the food yourself before you really eat the whole thing..... rather nice thing... creative... haha! DIY~~ LOL! But I dun haf it. hur~ LOL! *learns from yanyan* LOL!~ NO la... haha~
This was yanyan's share... if i'm nt wrong... aiyahs... anything... haha~ She ordered beef something something ders... haha!
This was mine. Hmmmm... wasn't eating too deliciously... perhaps due to my decreasing appetite (because i was sick plus throat still haven't recover, i couldn't take such little bit of spicy yet) so i really had a hard time getting the food down. And I was having a slight headache during the last part when I really tried not to waste food... but i felt the headache was stronger.... so I jus gave up totally.... haha! And lao ren helped me clearr my dish... thx lots kor! HAHA! =D hees... lol~
HAHA. The spoon special ritee... lol!~ curvy curvy de... lol~ didn't want to take initially... but then i jus took it... lol~ in case i was short of foto to say anything... haha! =P
This was our food territory! HAHA! All the food we have here... plus the side dishes... the side dishes were nice... haha~ LOL! =) I feel mine was rather nice even though i was abit full... and still abit headache... dun dare to eat too much... scared the headache will go on longer... so i stopped.. and it stopped too~ duno wadd happen to me...
This is sure kieron's share... i rmb taking one pic of hands moving away... while he stirred and cooked the meat... lol~ =P
This is the Korean shop... hmmm... super orange i tell you... almost went orange-blinded when I entered the shop... and I look extra radiant in that shop I guess... forgot to borrow yanyan's mirror to see the radiant side of me!! =x LOL!~ It looks nice here. haha! =D
Wait. i dun rmb this is whose share. shld be..... yanyan's one? HAHA! heck lars. haha! i take pic until blur liaos. too many dishes. lol!~ the table was rather full. haha!
This was taken when I went kbox w/ my gang w/o CK. lol!~ and i was rather sians... and i decided to take some pics for my blogging purpose... lol~ that time was singing jay chou's song bahs... see from the reflection... lol~
This was taken about the other side of the corridor... hmmm... was slanted... lol~ artistic *vomits* LOL!~



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Today had outing with ABS Gang minus CK... haha~


Firstly met up w/ yanyan darlingg n ahh xiia galfriendd and we ate at the food junction there... as usual, i ate my minced meat noodles... everytime i work there i will eat just that... plainly that... i dun have to tink... i have no temptation... and plus i sickk... i gonna restrict myself... haha! so i ate that... and galfriend ate prata while yanyan was rather full and ate nothing... and we stayed and talked a lot and laughed a lot... and yanyan was ka jiao-ing me about the minced meat noodles... haha... Mr. Brown show tt one... haha! "Now we talk about bahh coh mee (whatever)" LOL!~ then we went up slowly up one level by one level... to drag our time while waiting for lao ren to come... then we suddenly stood in front of the VCD shop when a mahjong HK movie caught our eyes... and we watched the movie until the end... and i was distracting myself w/ another show, Hua Yang Shao Nan Shao Nu when i find the mahjong show part wasn't too entertaining for me.. haha! lol~~~ then after the movie ended, we went up to kbox... then went in and sang first.. then kieron came.... then we sang lorr... yupp... from abt 2 to 7... woohoo~ today didn't sing much cuz my throat is not a good side.... lol~! so tried not to sing too much too~ LOL! And i ended up admiring my long nails while they were singing... haha! This time the nails was my longest.. so i love it to bits... lol!~ Today memories came back flowing when we get into Jay Chou's part... haha!


Jay Chou, is someone whom many people are crazy and idolised about.

Jay Chou, can be someone I hate and love.


I love because his songs are really addictive. It gives you the greatness singing his song, unknowingly. And it touches your heart sometimes... haha~ Some lyrics really went straight into my heart... it was singing so like my story.. lol~


I hate Jay Chou in a way... because he reminded me about my rather sad past... haha~ How he sang... ahem* LOL!~ And what I was listening when something bad happened... hmmmm... and today happened to have all these songs appearing... went moody abit la... haha~ these few days have been recollecting the sad past... a vr long ago de past.... that still hurts....


But overall, I gonna love Jay Chou! LOL~! =)) I'm not going to hate poor Jay Chou for that person.


Never will I.


Btw, in the midst of singing, we still continued on joking... haha... some big actions and also we changed the lyrics... one song was on me, kena blew away by the summer days.... haha! You got tink of it on your own... haha! It's a duet song.. haha! It was rather funny~ LOL! And we sang "You make me wanna" and lao ren was laughing away when he reminded himself about last time how we changed the lyrics of this song during sch times... lol~


after singing... went ard.... bleahs... nt going into details... rather bored... lol~ then decided to go entertainment centre and eat our dinner! yay! And on the mrt, wel called and he asked me to listen to something.. And he sang 'Xiao Chou Yu' to me!! Oh gosh, and I almost wanted to shout "I love you lots" in the train... haha! I so love the song! HAHA! =D Love you lots, wel. lol!~


Then we reached the entertainment centre at jurong east... then went to eat the korean shop there de food... hmmm... yahhs... but i nvr finish the food even though the food look rather appetizing to me... hmmm... but too bad, firstly i didn't like even a tingle bit of spicy... and oso my throat was nice to me during the dinner and i coughed when i felt itchy when i touched the spicy food... and plus lots of stuffs... and i suddenly gt headache when I was already forcing food down my throat liaos... i didn't want to waste food... but my headache was getting stronger... so i decided to stop.... haiz~ Thanks lao ren for helping me clear!! =))


Then ltr we decided whether we wanted to go whr.. lao ren had to settle his work stuffs. and galfriend was feeling too well so she wanted to go home no matter how. and yanyan was rather worried about her maomao even though she wanted to peii lao ren n moii. hmmm.. then finally, galfriend n yanyan went back home while mii peii lao ren go back tiong to settle his work stuffs and find CK down to talk about YEP project bahs. hmmm. i dun wan to go home so early (i dun really wanna waste my outing) so decided to peii lao renn.. maybe gt some stuffs to write.. haha! =))


bleahs. reached tiong liaos. lao ren wasn't able to find that person he wanted to talk to so he called CK down lorr. then he updated CK w/ wadd happened during the meeting for YEP project and stuffs while i looked at the skies... and the sky was super nice... decorated with stars... how come BB's scenery wasn't as nice as tiong de? hmph... nt fair de! HAHA! LOL! but nvm~~ so lao ren went on talking abt his work stuffs and CK crapped and talked coarsely (in his style, our gang and class shld noee how he talks) and i continued to look around... then look up at the sky... then occasionally listen to their conversation... haha! when CK starts to swear, i jus shut my ears and looked elsewhere... pretend i nvr hear it... tt doesn't sound too nice... haha! so i jus shut it! =P Then suddenly we decided to go somewhr and talk... in the end, went under one block (which was near one of my god-dis' block) and they went on talking... and we chatted for a while.... until about 11 sth... then they decided to send me off before i cannot catch the last train... haha... thanks lots guys! =))


And that ended the day!


Had a wonderful day!! =)) Crapping and joking and laughing (for almost no reason) HAHA!


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Today had quite some inspirations flowing into my mind about my this current story which is a good sign.. haha! =))


And I came up with the nail theory..


To me, growing nails is just like love getting deeper and deeper...


The longer the nails, it means the more love you have towards this particular person. And for me right, or perhaps to some people, when you have long nails, you will wan to go ka jiao that nail... often go and touch and admire that nails... and it applies to love in a 'somewhat' way. It's like the more you love this person, the closer you wanna stand next to him.. the more you wanna concern him... the more you wanna touch him (*not to the A side) or even the more you wanna admire that person.... LOL!~


And I gonna cut my nails tomorrow! i mean serious. I gonna cut my nails short tml... i cannot bear long nails anymore... it's ka jiao-ing me for vr long... lol~


I'm more definite of my answer liaos...


I feel lyk a loner... more of a loner... and what my cousin said... it's still ringing in my mind.... that made me conscious about what i was doing....


Why was it wobbling away? When has it been stable?


I've decided I want to sing for once, being alone.


And I promised dearr that I will peii her one of these days. Miss her lots. haha~ =))


Love you all~

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@12:43 AM

Monday, February 26, 2007



A tear finally leapt from my eyes when I finally realized I was simply nothing to you but for ONE USELESS REASON.

I couldn't pretend anymore.

I'm really tired.

I finally broke down.

You probably still want it, but I probably wouldn't want again, when I think about my worthiness to you..

Love philosphers said, love is said to be only sweet for once, the others filled with tragic.

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Today I had a fun-filled day, and ended with a crying day. LOL~

Supposedly, I should be enjoying my loneliness in the library, burying my head into the stacks of detective books and so on... or perhaps if i'm lucky, I gonna touch on Harry Potter series.... to finish up before the final book is out... haha~ OR even the next movie is out... lol!~

But in the end, due to my laziness, I decided to stay at home... and waited for my relatives to come visit my house... I counted..... 14 relatives came to my house... wow.. when they came, my house was BLASTED with NOISE! LOL!~ Was uber noisy! LOLx. esp. w/ my small cousins... I tink there were... *counts* 5 of them... its enough of it... ALL ARE LOUD! LOL~! But they r SUPER DUPER CUTE!!! LOL!~ Had lots of fun playing w/ them even though the biggest 'small cousin' i have is jus 12 yrs old... haha~ =)) But I had fun w/ them... i tink i shldn't grow up so soon... so tt i can continuously play w/ them... they do have a mature mind too~~ HAHA! =D

Initially, they were messing my room lyk duno wadd... which is a part when I dun reli lyk... cuz i scared they spoil my stuffs... esp. when I ON MY LAPTOP... and when they lie their dear fingers on my laptop, oh my god... I CAN'T IMAGINE!! HAHA~ But then I quickly shut off after feeling sians, and started chatting away w/ them... and they played modelling and playing w/ words... haha... Their answers were super funny... haha~ =))

Not going into details... supposedly they shld form words from a word that I given them... then they form a ENGLISH word on their own... not limiting the no. of words... haha~ Then they gave me words lyk "la... gui... gam...mati...ba..." LOL!~ Then i was lyk, "Are you all writing english?" Then they tittered, "Heeheehee..." THEY ARE JUST SO CUTE!!! And I just ended up laughing with them... I'm a child today!!! LOL! And the modelling was... haha! I'm the judge... because they say I'm the eldest of all... lol!~ Then the other cousins started walking and I observed... LOL!~ They are just so cute when they partnered up and posed... lol!~ I was chuckling away... lol~

Then ltr we were really bored, so we decided to go out watch ppl gamble on blackjack... haha... it was 50 cents to 1 dollar... LOL!~ I decided to go down and bet a little, but nt using my money... i was using my sister's money initially... haha! And I partner with one of my cousin (eldest one) LOL!~ Then we were lyk praying so hard tt we get 21 points... LOL! then we can win some money... lol~ All kinds of tactics of praying we tried... drinking some "lucky water" (which was just some normal water,HAHA) and eating sweets... haha... trying hard to change our luck...lol~ Then when we gt 21 points by just 2 cards... we happy until we cheered vr loudly... haha! We still high fived! LOL!~ muhahas... then halfway, jiefu came and joined us and he became the banker... haha! Many parts were really funny~~~ LOL!

Today played this 21 points thing (duno how to spell in hokkien oso) LOL! Then my daddy was the first banker... then there was once he grumbled to my mum, "I can't really see..." and at that point of time, it was abt evening and he was losing... lol~ Then my mummy switched on two lights, and my daddy began to win... then one of my small cousin exclaimed, "LIGHTS OFF! LIGHTS OFF!! Not nice one, third uncle start to win liaos!! LIGHTS OFF!" Then the others followed suit and started shouting too! HAHA!~ Was super funny when I saw daddy shrugging his shoulders and let out a laugh. lol!~ And many parts when everyone wanted one player to get ober 21 points... LOL!~ SO FUNNY LA!~! I enjoyed so much!!~ HAHA! =D

Then ltr, went to eat w/ the small cousins... the small ones have to eat first before the adults eat... lol~ and the small cousins pulled me to eat w/ them... my stomach has gt no feeling so i decided to eat too! ^^ Then they wanted me to sit w/ them... haha~ I almost split into parts... lol!~ And they said I eat so slow... haha... of course, i eat half more than they do... lol~ and when i asked them whether they wanted desserts, wah... all came shouting to my ears they wanted longans... and my ear drums almost burst... but then i was laughing away... lol~ then after eating, because cannot play or run ard so decided to do some chatting over sch stuffs... haha~ And one of cousins even asked me abt stuffs regarding menstruation... haha!

They were super fun!! I'm missing them noww~~ HAHA!

I didn't regret not going library today! Or else I will miss all the fun and cuteness I will see! HAHA! =))

Today watched "Blood type B Boyfriend" [something lyk tt] and i cried during the show. haven't been so emotional and sentimental over shows lyk this liaos. i was lyk running tap when i watched the show when the female lead said how useless she was. and how the male lead still selfishly sell her girlfriend to another guy for money.. hmmmm... and how they finally get back together... that part i was crying so hard but silently... haha~ and i thought of something... that made me cried even more... muhaha~ But I was happy crying away.. i mean over the show... lol!~ It was a nice show! =)) Long time nvr watch nice movies from tv liaos! =D

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Let me decide whether i wanna go library tml a not... haha~ =))

If you are treating me as a treasure as you wish or desire... then just treat me as a trash all the way.. don't say you need me only when you need me..

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@12:15 AM

Saturday, February 24, 2007



What are you doing right now? this, listening to music and chatting w/ my dearr. =D

What's it like outside? normal? Hopefully more cooling..

What should you be doing? I shld b slping now... haha~ Nowadays have been staying up late.. lol~! Bad... lol~

You get pulled over, what do you do? duno? depends.

What do you say? hmmm.

Do you keep your room clean? TRY my best.

What about your car? dun have one and dun wish to have one. LOL!~

What's your favorite song right now? Duno.. lol~

Does anything hurt on your body? no?

Do you have unexplainable bruises? nope?

Do you have muscles? haha.. who dun?

Do you work out on a regular basis? NOPE LOL! ^^

Do you eat healthy? NOPE. But I TRY to.. =P

Are you happy being your gender? Or do you wish you were another? perhaps I need to be a les. haha! Not that I like girls. But that I want to do some romantic stuffs to my another half but I always dun have the chance to. lol!~ Okays, I'm happy being a girl. Wait till I have a bf... lol~!!

Who's on your mind right now? ahh... no one? LOL~ but everytime someone onlines, i will tink... lol!~

What are your plans for tomorrow? if I feel lyk it, I will go library alone to rot... if not, I will just slack at home and wait for my relatives come and mess my house.... haha~

Do you try to live each day like its your last? nope.. I'm not treasuring my life...

Do you own cowboy boots? nahh...

Do you count your chickens before they are hatched? ohh. i dun own a farm. so who cares... i jus buy from supermarket... lol~ I can't even see the chicken lay eggs... lol!~

Some random guy hits on you with a cheesy pick up line, what do you do? hmmmmm... duno lehs.... it depends on he looks like.. lol!~

Do you tell your significant other everything? probably not EVERYTHING. but most of the things. haha!

Do you wish things were different with them? wadd thing different?

Are you a normal happy person? still okays.

Are you a procrastinator? hahaha... YUP! LOL~!

What makes you happy? a lot of stuffs... but usually depends on my mood... lol~

How much money do you have in the bank? hmmmm.. nt going to reveal... lala

Does money burn a hole in your pocket? hahaha... yupp...

Are you organized? sad to say, nope.

What tv channel do you watch the most? U... i dun really support channel 8 because of some personal reasons... haha~

Can you sing the national anthem? yupp... laz time... now dun have this habit already... but during national day, i still sing PROUDLY!!! I'm proud to be a SINGAPOREAN!!!

A cop asks you to recite your ABCs backward, what do you do? ehhhh... wadd if i can recite backwards, r u going to catch me?

Have you talked to any ex's lately? hmmm... lately, how lately... haha~ yes bahs.. lol~

Honestly, do you like to blow bubbles in your milk? last time. now i dun drink milk and i find it abit yucky to blow bubbles in liaos, even though its my own air, own saliva. but its food, i can't play. =x

Do you know table manners? yupp.

Do you see yourself successful in the future? hmmm... nt sure...

What do you do in your free time? blog, rot at home, if possible, i wanna read some books.. lol~ fall in love w/ books liaos... haha~

Ever own any weird animals that no one else would have? nope

Honestly, do you cry during the notebook? during the notebook? duhs?

What movie makes you cry? ehhh...quite a lot... haha i'm rather useless.. or to say, sentimental... haha~

Do you talk a lot on aim? hmmm.... nt really?

Are you always signed on? signed on? duno...

Why is myspace so addictive? nt addictive.... i jus do for fun only... haha~

Is your bed made? hmmm? dun understand. but its all tidied by me! LOL~

Are you an angry, happy, sloppy, silly, or skanky drunk? silly.

Do you think marijuana is that bad for you? dunos... i dun find it good... LOL~ i duno...

Do you think it should be legalized? nt sure.. dun ask me.

Why or why not? hmmm... nt sure of e effect.... skip the qn..

Do you think the drinking age should be lowered? hmmm... nope even though I do sometimes =P

Why or why not? HAHAs. ppl can drink anyhow they wan... lol~

What song reminds you of your significant other? hmmmm... nw dun have other half.... so NO SONG!! YAY!

Where is your life going? nt sure????

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@11:22 PM





GONNA BORE YOU PEOPLE W/ MY USUAL STYLE ONCE AGAIN!~ =X~

L is for the way you look at me...

The kind of person you're first attracted to.: Definitely boys w/ nice hands. LOL!~

Do you believe in love at first sight?: nt really. Even if the ans is yes, my ans gonna continue w/ "Not going to last long for me.." haha~

How do you show someone you're interested?: it depends on me... if I really wan to settle down. I will hint. If no, haha. I will just treat you as a bit more of a normal friend that's all. LOL!~ ^^

Is there such thing as a perfect relationship?: No.

How do you know when someone thinks you're attractive?: i dun even tink i'm attractive. so I wun believe that... lol!~ I wun even tink someone tinks i'm attractive *pukes while i write* HAHA!

How do you know 'it's right'?: nt sure. I haven experience it. I just knew the feeling gonna be mostly experienced perhaps once or twice in a lifetime. It's rare and special. haha~ So my this kinda of age, perhaps not so fast... =P

Could you date someone who has been only your friend for a long time?: yupp... as long as i lyk tt person... lol~

What do you wear to attract the opposite sex?: as naturally as possible... but trying to be a little impressive in a way... haha~ But I prefer the natural me... I dun feel lyk acting anymore... haha!

What makes someone sexy?: Confidence.

Are you uncomfortable staring in to someone's eyes who likes you?: HAHA. yupp. lol!~

Do you come across as confident, sexy, friendly, subtle, or innocent?: perhaps i duno. haha. it seems like none of it... lol~ =x it depends on my mood... kinda mixed feel... lol~ vr hard to side to one side... lol!~

When someone catches your eye, do you try to make eye contact or avoid it?: avoid it mostly... lol~ I'm a shy person... muhahahaha!

Your favorite colors of eyes in the opposite sex...: It's alright. As long as it's nice when I look into his eyes... and fits him... muhaha!

What makes you sexy?: Confidence too? LOL!~ And style... lol!~

O is for the only one I see...

Describe your signifcant other or crush.: none in particular. lol!~

When are you the most happy in a relationship?: hmmmm, when i could feel his love n concern, perhaps. its been long since i was in a relationship. lol!~ =D

Do you believe in soul mates? Have you found yours?: haha. I believe but I haven find one that's even near to it. lol!~

How many people have broken your heart?: perhaps 1? LOL!~ =)

Would you ever cheat or have you ever cheated?: hmmmm... cheat ppl's love definitely not... but other means... haha... perhaps yes... i mean nt cheating money... lol!~

Have you ever loved someone who didn't love you back?: yes... lol!~

Have you ever given someone your entire heart?: not... partially only... it's hard... lol!~

What kind of things do you do to show someone you are theirs?: duno? LOL!~ this qn is challenging... lol~ *ponders*

Is there ever a 'happily ever after'?: nt vr sure... lol~

Do you want to grow old with someone or be single?: grow one w/ someone perhaps... but need not be married... lol~

Are you a hopeless romantic?: hopefully not. lol~ I'm nt vr sure myself too~ LOL!

What's the most romantic thing anyone's ever done for you?: i NEVER done anything romantic for anyone before... so that first person gonna b honored... haha~ perhaps you can ask me what kind of romantic things do i write in my ff bahs... haha! =P

What are you like when you're in love?: I'm not very sure... Perhaps I will act like I'm normal while I feel all sweet and blissful inside? That's what I experienced when I was in sec sch. haha~

Describe your dream person.: HAHA! XIAO ZHU!!! HAHA~ No la... lol!~ No one leh... lol!~

V is very, very extraordinary...

What has been the weirdest date you've ever been on?: nothing weird. hardly go on date. lol~

And the very best?: haha... still okay la... just the normal stuffs.. *sian off* LOL!~

What's the most money a boyfriend or girlfriend has spent on you?: sad to say, perhaps the cost of a $28 top up card... haha~

And the most you've spent on them?: none =x

Which one of your relationships was the shortest?: second.

Which was the longest?: i don't know. richard? first

Are you friends with any of your exes?: hmmmmm... 3 of them... the other one I will always eye as enemy from what he had done to me... (not talking about my first)

Do you wish you were back together with any of your exes?: haha... nope. (So happy that I'm nt wanting anyone nw) LOL!

Do you ever have dreams about your exes?: yea... lol!~

If you want to get married, what age?: preferably not... lol!~ Now, I dun feel lyk marrying in future. But in future, who noes? Thinking may change... lol!~

Are you open or closed because of past hurt?: Currently SEALED

What is your philosophy on love?: Simple yet complicated

Who would you die for?: My family

Who do you secretly yearn for?: No one? LOL!~

E is even more than anyone that you adore...

The reason you love your signficant other or crush.: nothing?
Would you change yourself for someone you loved?: i will tink of it. nt anything major can liaos.
Would you give up a dream for someone you loved?: depends.
Would you quit a job for someone you loved?: depends.
The thing you love about relationships.: HAHA. nt gonna say. lol!~
The thing you love about being single.: freedom
The person who's on your mind right now...: Hmmm.. no one bahs? LOL!~

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LALALALA!!! I gonna go type another chap out liaos!!! Take care!!! =D

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@4:14 PM





yesh!! I finished another 'book'!!! LOL~ which is :

HARRY POTTER AND THE STORY OF ELIZA!!!

HAHA!! It's a really great achievement!!! HAHA! I'm not vr sure if there's this story that's selling outside... or was it just some online stories that i happen to luckily tumble upon... cuz it's a really great story... and I realized, the english turned simple in a way... haha~ duno... perhaps the author was changed that's why... previously I rmb i had a really hard time understanding the harry potter story initially but then now, it's so easy! =D

And I love the way it was written and I was touched to tears!!! =)) It was a rather sad ending!!

For those ppl who read Harry Potter series, I'm sure you hate Draco Malfoy to the core, yar? but then in this story, he fall in love with the pretty Eliza and totally changed and became somehow good friends with Harry, Ron and Hermione!! =)) That's rare. HAHA! But then in the end, Eliza died... haiz~~ Super sad for Draco.. I find him vr handsome now... even though I can't see his face... I only saw words.. but it touched me so much~~~ I love Draco Malfoy in this book!! =D It's said to be book 7 (I read in random)... lol~ I oso forgotten whr I stopped... probably I stopped at book 4 tt time... i still rmb I love reading harry potter's story... and I didn't want to slp... even though I had class the nxt day during my sec sch times... when I was sec 1 or 2... haha... sec 3 n 4, i'm a book hater... haha~ LOL!! Now, I'm once again book lover!!! =)) More books pls~~~ HAHA!

Book nerds forming soon!~

I love books~~

Sorry to those who dun read harry potter, and you have to see me spouting nonsense here!! =x

HAHA!

Reading really avoids me from tinking from other stuffs... some kind of avoiding.... haha~

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@1:19 AM

Friday, February 23, 2007



What is the final outcome of sitting in front of the laptop, reading a 'police-kinda' type of story for numerous hours almost non-stop??

HAHA! Falls in love with english and lurvess speaking in english all of a sudden with all those chim chim terms coming in! =D Tt's wadd i love when I finish reading one long story! I feel as if I'm somehow inspired... or perhaps I THOUGHT my english improved by that tingle bit... even if it's not too obvious... =x

Seriously, I love the story that I finished today to bits.. LOL!~ I finished the '46' chapters in one go... lol~ I count it as one day la horr... even though it's over 12... but then I started in the evening... tt's a great achievement!!! =))

Finish reading that story... my eyes are itching with tiredness liaos... n no motivation for writing my chap for friday... LOL!~ But I going to chiong!!!~ LOL!! ^^ I mean when I got enough of rest... lol!~

Then what about the final outcome of playing games for many hours?

Becomes a game freak, addicted to games. and being siao over games *gong xi fa cai* LOL!~

*

I need to cool down, seriously and ponder really thoroughly on what exactly do I want..

I love the library, except about the noises made by the students.... how I wish I have those kind of skills whereby I could mute those students temporarily... without disturbing my views. muhaha! =))

BOOKS, I'm COMING!!!

Becoming book nerd, once again. haha~

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@12:34 AM

Thursday, February 22, 2007

yahoo!!~ Today went to the Jurong regional library today!!! Was super sians... haha~ nothing to do... lol~! WOW! This pic is nice, I realize. haha! =D LOL!~

Afternoon woke up, is because my jie came into my room and said kor kor is just sitting in the living room, he asked whether wanna go anywhere... duhs... haha... then i said i dun have the feel for shopping... and finally decided, i go library on my own while jie n jiefu go shop IMM which is just nearby... muhahahs! =)) And today my parents went to six aunt's house to pray... so everyone not ard at home... lalala~

And today being alone in the library, I read thru' some detective stories... haha.... was rather interesting... and then ltr i read thru' some inspiration books... muhaha... learnt quite a lot of interesting stuffs... heez! =D It brighten my mood totally!! I was super happy when I left the library!! HAHA~ And when I was browsing thru' some books on the chair, outside started raining... then the sound sounds lyk ppl typing on a keyboard and the sound was surrounding my ears... it sounds soothing anyway... haha~ But ppl ard me are really noisy... I couldn't really concentrate... many inconsiderate after-school students chit-chatting and laughing loud away... and one person was listening to music, I guess he was blasting his music, and he tapped his fingers on the books continously... and he sniffed so loudly... haiz~~~ I duno wadd to say... but I made myself lyk I'm at home when I read the books... haha... super comfy... nxt time i gonna go there alone for some cooling down there... super nice... hahahaha~ =D heez...

Alrights, mood good. today going to eat yu sheng liaos!!! HAHA~ We make it earlier! =D

And, muhahahas. I wan to go out! Anyone wanna book me? LOL!~

*

How I wish I can hold onto a hand, and fall into a deep slumber... with a blissful smile plastered on my face...

How I wish when my lips curved, someone would have the strong tendency to embrace tightly close to his chest...

How I wish I have the chance to bathe under the sea of stars, together with someone I love, and him whispering sweet-nothings into my ears......

That was just some wishful thinking.... haha~

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@7:00 PM

Wednesday, February 21, 2007






You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@8:40 PM





Everyone wears a mask and lies for a different reason

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It's just that leeting go would make things easier

The most beautiful love is to be continued in my memory

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The wind has dispersed the image of you

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After the rain, it becomes harder to forget

To forget that I still love you

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I accelerate to escape the lingering sadness

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This is just a random entry... The above sentence are not from me... I'm not so poetic... those Jay's fans... should noee these sentence are from his songs... and it's super nice de... haha~ I picked all these sentence because some applied to me in the past, if not, it lingered in my heart with a deep impact.

Today was listening to Jay Chou's sad and slow songs, and I realized all of a sudden, I love his voice like crazy!! Quite a few people ard me whom didn't know how to appreciate Jay Chou's song always says he mumbles when he sings, who understands, who will feel touched when he sing. My answer is definitely the people who loves him, and i'm one of them. I'm utterly touched. He sings with feel okay! And his mumbles, I can still hear super clearly when I slow down the whole music, tt time i was stunned tt he sing too clearly when I really slowed down the tempo. oh gosh!! HAHA! =D

And, at the same time, I was reading the forewords for the new story that I going to work with my dearr... haha! I still cannot reveal the title yet... going to be as secretive as possible... haha! It's gonna be a fresh plot... I mean, I've not tried this genre before... abit scared.... and its rare in winglin.... haha! =)) Hopefully we can start and end this story successfully... lol!~ It sure takes a lot of research work done.... lol~ I was racking my brains when I wrote the forewords.... was taking a hard time..... lol~ And I finally finished the forewords.. LOL~! Super happy~

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My mind is flustered with confused thoughts. If I knew what I can decide on, then things wouldn't be so complicated.

If I have a choice, let me just turn back time....

Even though now I'm feeling better by heart.......

Am I really forgetting........

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@1:38 AM

Tuesday, February 20, 2007



If you are under 16, perhaps it's not advised to read this entry!!

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I came across this interesting entry and I find it nice... haha! =D

LOL!~

If you see the notice up there, u sure know its about something not vr open... lol~!! =))

LOL!!

I went to surf net on some taiwan news and came across this entry by someone famous (but then I duno her, muhaha).

And her title was, "I'm hymen (wadd i call as 'Virgin membrane', how vague! HAHA!). I'm going up to heaven."

::

Hi, I'm about 30+ years old, and finally one day, in the hospital, I died accidentally and went up to heaven. Actually, I didn't know what exactly happened to me. Since young, I always think I'm the most useless 'organ' amongst all; I don't own a mouth, I can't eat, I don't have legs, I can't walk, I don't have eyes, I can't even see anything. And, I just live my life in a very dark and isolated area, since I can't even see. It's okay to be living in an area which is dark and isolated, but I still have got feelings, and all I felt is 'stuck'; I'm always stuck at that area, never motile.

What functions do I have? What can I do? I totally have no idea. When I was born, I was said to be the most useless 'organ' of all. At least nose can still help breathe, even the most similar organ, hair, almost as useless as me, can alter in length and change one person's image and impression, but what can I do then?

I could only be 'stuck' to that area forever, occasionally feeling some fluids flowing thru' me, and I just live my life on like this for more than 30 years... perhaps I dun even know the exact years because I know utterly nothing.

Until I'm up in the heaven, then I know the importance of myself, because I knew sued someone because of me, for being too careless and make me go up to heaven without a valid reason. She was very frustrated because she really treasured me a lot, she thought that I should not just die like that, perhaps I would only die only when my owner got married and give her another half as a 'present' during the first night of marriage.

I'm very happy to see my owner thinking in this way, at least I knew I am still important but, when I went up to heaven, I saw many who looked like me, they all looked so young and when they looked at me, they just gave me weird glances, they began to be curious why such an old face would appear here............ and they began to ask about my background..........

Credits : : http://tw.fashion.yahoo.com/blog/puOWOppJcv8stpl49Aj0og--/article/?mid=4

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Taking a hard time translating... just taking out some stuffs... read the actual one better.. .haha... i jus translated for those who cannot read chinese and those lazy like me, dun lyk to press on links de... muhahah~ =x

LOL! Enjoy the new year!! =))

Take care ppl!




You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@12:52 PM

Sunday, February 18, 2007



YAY!! HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO ALL!!! =D I'm super super happy today! Because I enjoyed my lorry trip from my house (BB) to Ang Mo Kio, which is super far away from my house, then later from there went back to clementi. WOOHOO!! That was super cool~!!

Btw this is my 502th entry liaos!! HAHA! =D heez... all the more I'm happy!!! *jumps up into the air*

This yr's shou ye thing, I won once again, all thanks to my laptop. Without my laptop, I tink I slept long ago... haha! And I managed to update another new chapter on [ Veiled Ambiguity ], after that chatted with dearr and some others and plus watching some videos to kill my time... haha! And almost 6 then i dozed off to sleep... yay! =D Then I woke up at about 10... haha! =))

And then yest jiee told me there's sofa behind for us to sit the next day when we go pai nian... then today, i gt the golden chance to really sit on the sofa and enjoy the trip!!! =D It is super super comfy de la!!! All the way I was really crazy, exclaiming, "Very comfy!!! Very comfy!!! I nvr tried sitting on a sofa, on a moving lorry!!! This is my first time!!! SO EXCITED!!!" HAHA! And all the way I was saying its super comfy... until we reached the expressway... haha~ Then I blasted music all the way... haha! And on the way, on the expressway, many people in the other cars look at us with a weird look, haha. It's really weird and crazy sitting on a sofa on the lorry! HAHA! So, anybody who had see two girls sitting on a light green sofa on a blue lorry, the younger one is ME!! HAHA! Super high noww... haha! And my jiee still told me, sure a lot of ppl blog about seeing us doing crazy stuffs lyk tt... haha~

And all the way, weird glances were on us... but we were happy about it because we brought smiles up their faces!!! =D I saw them smiling!! I love making ppl smile, even if I had done some crazy stuffs. haha! A crazy thought went up my jie's mind and she asked whether do we wanna pai nian to the people inside other cars. haha. but in the end, we didn't do tt. lol!~ too crazy liaos. dun dare. lol!~ ^^

Firstly we visited Ah ma's house... hmmm... the house was rather empty... my aunt and uncle and their four children were already out.... no hong baos liaos... haha~ But then nvm, nxt time if they gt come, muz give!!! HAHA! LOL!~ Visited ah ma... she's still as cute... haha.. but then everytime she talk, i dun understand... haha! so dun dare talk too much too!~ But hopefully she's healthy and live up to 100 yrs old!! =)) And during lunch time w/ ah ma... ah ma asked me why I never eat anymore (today i ate very little because I scared I will spread my virus to my family or jie-fu..) then my daddy quickly answered, "She's trying to slim down.." Then my eyes immediately widened... Ah ma exclaimed and grabbed my hand, "You so skinny already still wanna slim down ar?!" I quickly gave a killer face to daddy and daddy n others jus burst out laughing... haha... and all the way, ah ma kept tinking i really trying to slim down seh!! And kept asking me to eat... so pai seh and funny... haha!

Okae, then after tt, went to my six aunt's house there to pai nian... not many ppl were there... but i managed to get quite a lot of hong baos gt mummy gt a lot of siblings... so i vr happy~~ LOL!

Hmmmm... and one last thing, I have to zip my mouth on vulgarities now... going to be replaced by gong xi fa cai.. haha~ LOL! And many other good words... I laughed at myself when I said all those unnatural words... unlike my real me... hahah! =)) But it's for the sake of a brand new year... haha! =D

Okaes, =)) Wish everyone happy chinese new year!! Hopefully I can chiong another new chapter out!

Take care!!

If you are lucky, we will get the chance to improve on something.....

If not, there's not going to be a second time....

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@5:24 PM

Saturday, February 17, 2007



Harlowie!!!

Happy new year to everyone!! Advanced wishes!!

MUHAHA!!

I finally finished all my spring cleaning all in one go... and swept the floor on my own... hmmm... but still the standard i'm still nt satisified at all... not clean enough... because i'm rather sick, and i caught flu.... so i tiink its still not clean enuff... and the med was acting up, i was rather drowsy when I was cleaning, walking and eating the reunion dinner...haha~ I looked darn blur today... sians... but then no choice, ltr i going to sleep for a while to get ready to stay up for the whole night liaos... muhaha!

Today i enjoyed the reunion dinner... even though i was rather sleepy and weak when i ate.... but then the atmosphere was nt bad... heez! =))

Wish everyone a happy new year!!! =D

Yes, you are the closest to me...

I should say I wun miss you instead of asking you nt to miss me. haha~

=x

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@8:23 PM





yay! I forgot to say I updated [ Veiled Ambiguity ] liaos!! I updated at unearthy hour of 3plus leh... haha~ I siao liaos... but its quite a weird chap btw... haha! Do read it, and comment, if you are interested. haha! =D

Okays, see ya. Today i have to chiong on spring cleaning liaos. same as last year... haha! I oso chiong on the laz day... lazy ppl ishh lyk tt de.. muhaha! =x

www.winglin.net/fanfic/1266

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@12:39 PM





Today I was observing couples on the bus when I was on the way home..... and I just realized this special thing....

When the guy placed his hand over the girls' shoulder and the girl just inched closer towards the source of warmth from her boyfriend... it feels very sweet to me...

I think the God has made us in a way that the girls are meant to those people who needs protection, love, care and more sensitive in emotions and feelings while guys are the ones that gives all those protection, love, care and concern. Boys and girls get together to balance up and neutralize the things. No wonder there's this kind of legend that says, when you were born, you are said to have only the first half of yourself... and it's destined to find your another half for the rest of your life other than experiencing the sweets and bitters in life. HAHA! TRUE LEH!! LOL~

And, I always tink that one person's existence, or specifically saying myself, I dun find my existence is really special in a way. I find that without my existence perhaps nothing will change in this world. But then, through some kind of looking ard..... and past experience, perhaps one's existence makes a change... lyk example when someone feels down, your shoulder is there for people to lean on, and actually your word of console or plainly just your action of giving a shoulder for ppl to lean on, a very big move that touches ppl's heart and makes a very big change in another person's life unknowingly.

So, what I want to say is...

your warm big hands, can really make someone remember for life...

your actions, can make the memories deeply embedded.....

your word of console, can stop someone from thinking negatively....

your shoulder, can brighten someone's day....

your presence is really important...

That's what I learnt from what I seen today. =))

Today in a good mood ma.

Now new year eve liaos!! HAHA! Happy advanced new year!! =))

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@1:18 AM





ABS Gang small outing!!! =D counted as small cuz not all ppl are there... haha~ =D


Too bad all the pics nt in sequence... so i gonna roughly touch on the pics... lol~ we all saw a big fish tank... then saw many fishes inside... then saw clown fish at first, then when we walked closer, we saw this nt kena cloned vr successfully de clown fish... haha~ It's in a kind of weird shape. Long long de.. hmmm...
This pic i took because the design of love, i feel its quite nice... so i decided to took it down when i walked into marina square w/ yanyan... haha! =D Nice horr! LOL! a little closer will be even better!! =D *winkz*
Oh yes! "Lady, lady one more try..." HAHA! This clown fish actually reminds us about Xiao Zhu's song.... haha! But weird leh, its swimming in a very weird manner... and it looks rather unhappy... hahaha!! =D But no matter how, it's still cute!! HAHA! (nothing in this world seems to be uncute to me! =x)
Yah, many people at bugis... and the lights above... vr nice... hahaha~ =D LOL!!

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My leg is really splitting.. haha~ because today shopped for almost 8 hrs... haha~ really can break a kind of record liaos... wearing some kind of heels some more... wahh... i really wanted to salute myself so much~~ LOL! ^^

Initially, we wanted to chiong K today... but then, aiyohs, sians, kieron and ahh xiia nvr go...... so... lala~ It's announced to be cancelled... but nvm~ In the end, we decided to change our plan to "helping CK buy new year clothes plan" LOL! funny sehh! LOL!~ Then we meet up with CK at City Hall station lorr... but in the end, CK was late la... haha~ And I was late too, because of wrong estimation of time, made yanyan waited for vr long... so sorry yanyan...

then we went to headed towards marina square and shopped inside for a while while waiting for CK to come... then in the end, yanyan hungry liaos, i oso hungry but i cannot eat so i peii her eat SHILIN!! (I MISS SHILIN SO MUCH, BUT I SORE THROAT CANNOT EAT MY FAV FOOD!! *cries*) I just missed shi lin lyk tt!! ='( then halfway eating, CK finally come liaos... and we jus started our shopping trip lyk this... halfway peii CK eat burger king... i didn't eat again despite being rather hungry.. lol~ Marina square, nothing bought bahs... then we went into 7-eleven...
and finally, i vr pathetically took the cup noodles and ate it as my simple lunch, yanyan and CK peii-ing me at outside to eat... thanks lots... haha... so pai sehh! =)) then we decided to go chiong bugis junction and street... actually we wanted to chiong street first or sth la... but then outside was raining, then we chiong the bugis junction first.... hmmm.... nothing much la.... haha~ jus gt a lot of ppl.... and we kept walking.... bought pants from S & K and we finally went across to bugis street, and slowly CK gt wadd he wan liaos... another pants... haha~ then after coming out of street with sour legs (HAHA!), kieron finally called then decided to go vivocity and meet him lor... but because yanyan have to peii her bf to do some stuffs and at nite need to peii her mum go chiong Giant.. haha... so she went boon lay lorr... leaving me and CK only... then me and CK went to vivocity straight away.... halfway we were seriously talking crapp... haha~ And kieron couldn't meet us straight away cuz he had to help his mum do sth... then lyk tt, i jus peii CK walk ard shops.... then sometimes i jus stood outside the shop, looking ard aimlessly.... and bleahs, when i have the chance, i will jus sit down.... haha~ But I was wearing a rather sian and 'painful' face.. cuz the heels are really killing me.... then continued to chiong.... until finally ate at yoshinoya (dun care if i spell wrong k), but i didn't eat cuz they are all fried food... darnn.... and i had to endure my hunger lor.... sians..... denn finally kieron came.... but then when CK eating halfway, he found out he lost his bus card.. woohoo~ siao liaos... then looked ard lorr, then halfway kieron 'disappeared' and walked to the information counter... and he called us to go there.... so CK's card is at the lost & found there..... haha~ he heng seh!!! or else ar..... aiyohs... siao liaos.... then continue chionging, both guys chiong together. i have no target on clothes, i was jus plainly peii-ing them.. haha~ but heng la, both guys bought new clothes for themselves. so still worth it. muhaha! =D

then went down to B1 to the Vivomart there... lao ren say he wanted to buy chocolates and stuffs... hmmm.... and bleahs la.... not going into details.... then lao ren treated me a fried food... initially i didn't want to eat any fried food.... but then my stomach growl liaos.... cannot dun eat liaos..... then i ate it lorr.... thanks lao ren!! =D

haha! Then when go home, we split ways lorr. CK went home by MRT himself while lao ren peii me go interchange there to take 963... thanks once again, i'm a road idiot, always need you peii me go interchange... super pai seh de!! HAHA! =))

so we bought 2 pants, 1 button shirt, 1 t-shirt, 1 carton of drinks, 1 herbal drink, 2 fried food, 1 bar of chocolate (i tink) and more la.... can't rmb so many.... even though i nvr buy anything for myself.... but feel still worth it.... but jus tt my legs are killing me.... and i'm feeling a little worse for my health.. feel lyk i'm having fever.. sians..... but jus ate the med... shld b ok.... haha~

had a fun day with them.... hahaha!

Miss my ABS gang always~~

HAHA! Miss my dearr of course!! =)) Ah ham too!! *grins at the balls* LOL!!!

Take care ppl! New year is ard the corner!! I already had my wish ready!! =D

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@12:35 AM

Thursday, February 15, 2007



yay! *weakens*

finally bought myself a pair of new year shoes, using my mother's $$. lol!! ^^

Thanks mummy! you are super nice to me!! HAHA! =D

Today went to IMM to shop with mummy... i was super busy..... chatting with mummy, sms-ing a new fren, looking for shoes... sms-ing my dearr halfway... bleahs.... busy de la!

then had lunch with jiee.... cuz she working near IMM then we meet up lorr.... she came with her supervisor... hmmm..... lyk tt lorr..... then went to shop and bleahs.... nt much to describe about too.... cuz nothing surprising about.. haha~

went to west mall to shop for my shoes.... and finally i bought one.... even though i didn't LOVE tt shoe lyk how i did for the last two pairs of shoes bought at IMM DMK there..... but then still it's a new kind of design.... its quite nice la..... haha~ =) for new year, aiyahs, anything. haha!

after tt, accompanied my mum go deposit money... hmmm... halfway we decided which route to take.... haha... i stubbornly wanted her to walk a longer way.. without tt ong staircase... cuz her leg not vr good.. so dun wan her to stress walking up the staircase.... go home need to climb tt long flight of stairs liaos..... so we decided to walk a maybe longer abit de way to the bank lorr.... haha~ =))

Alrites, take care! I'm in a good mood today, even though I'm drowsy from all the medd. haha! =D

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@9:54 PM

Wednesday, February 14, 2007



Today went to SIM de grand hall to have our final exam taken... went in... the rows seem to be a bit "never-ending" to me... i vr pity yanyan, i tink she's the last one..... haha! she have to walk so far... haha... but if i were her, i vr happy... cuz i love to walk a long way back..... and a long way front..... haha~ i dun lyk to walk short short..... nt fun de.... haha.... i siao liaos..... haha!

and today our invigilator (duno spell correct a not, heck care) gt one main one... hahaha... who is in charge of the mike.... sounds so like my fav and most hate physics teacher!! HAHA! And when I stepped into the grand hall, I felt like having O's again... hahaha! And with his voice, oh my god... I thought I having prelims in my old sec sch once again... the lecturer's voice is totally the same as Mr. Chua's one la!! Esp. the "Alright, time's up. Pens down. Check that you have writtenn..." wah!! HAHA! SUPER ALIKE DE LA!!! HAHA!

And it reminds me about me n dearr always talking bad about him. For him setting tough physics paper for us to die, and we always wanted to burn down his car. 3544G, I still rmb his car plate no. and the car is bright red in color... muhaha! =D

LOL! Of course, he's a really great teacher, and he teaches well in physics... and he tells us a lot of his life stories and his theories in life... which I find it meaningful now.... and I really wish to go back to sec sch again.... I wish to see this kind of teacher again.... can inspire me to go further and be a better person...

I miss henderson sec, i miss Mr. Chua. =))

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And today I'm super touched by my family de moves nowadays when I'm sick..... I'm always touched by their moves when I'm sick..... because I can see that they truly truly cares..... they are darn nice people! Today I sick, they kept asking me go see doc... then ask me drink more water... then give me this sweet... and that... then they help me wash plate.... bleahs.... they help me take this and that de.... these vr small and maybe meaningless actions seen everyday, made me totally touched! =x Almost touched to tears....

From here, I can see horr.... when people are weak, when they see people around caring them and concerning them, they begin to be more optimisitic and more treasure the caring people around them.

No wonder when girls are weak from their heartbreaks, girls are most easily touched during these down moments la! No wonder girls accept guys so easily when they just broke up la... hmmmm... when people are weak, everything turns weak too, even vr small things can touch out to be super touching.... i agree totally on that.....

hmmmm.... tt's something we can ponder about.....

my family is cute and funny and caring. =))

I love my family..!

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@11:24 PM





yay!

I just came back from the clinic... it was darnn crowded... and unhygenic... cuz gt ppl cough and sneeze here and there... but not too exaggerating la... all those silent killers ard... haha~ Then horr, they nvr show no. de lehh... then I have guage when I need to come back... cuz its at no.4 when i'm the no.13 patient.. i gonna wait until my teeth drop.. haha~

at first, i sat outside on the bench and played my game, and chatted with my new net friend *ahem* and then... haha... after some time, i decided to go into the "heaven" clinic... haha... with heaven coughing and sneezing sensations..... sians.... haha! =D

but in the middle, i still joked with my mother and her friend... hahaha.... LOL! =)

Then when I finally go in to see the doctor... the doctor is rather friendly... but too bad, not too shuai ok... haha! And I even joked with him... wadd the hell..... the exam mood happiness is acting up on me....... and I almost going to say, why you never go out during V day....? HAHA! No la, jus kidding. muhaha. I gt viral infection for my throat. tt's y so sexy de voice. haha! =D

muhahaha.... i rather happy now... cuz after one day of long waiting for the doctor thing.... i finally ate the med liaos..... and feeling better.... and abit of giddy now.... haha! =D Hopefully I can type a chapter out of my giddy mind....

BYE!! Take care!!

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@9:36 PM





*groans*

"Yay~ Exam finally over~~ *weakens*"

If I wasn't sick and have such a "sexy" voice I think I will be alive jumping lyk mad woman for finishing my exam everytime. sians. today i juss sounds lyk emo when i'm nt. I wanted to be high but then my throat is killing me. Seriously. Even when I talk, the throat is lyk so pain la... sians... I wanna laugh oso muz have the second thought... sians... haha~

I'm so sorry to my dears, darlings, my galfriends, my lao po and my bf (ah ham) for nt buying presents....

And thanks Angie for giving me one present! =D Greatly appreciated! =)

Supposed wanted to give hugs to my ABS gang de... but then I sick (abit no mood seriously) and plus galfriend nt around, i decided to drop off the crazy thought. haha! =)) But anyway, I can always hug u all anytime. haha! No la! Just kidding! HAHA!

Hopefully my throat heals by friday! =D

I gonna be resting until about 7 and see doctor later... lalala~~

Meanwhile, I going to whack my story liaos... haha! =D Continue! YAY!

www.winglin.net/fanfic/1266

NOT on HIATUS LIAO! ^^

And hopefully, I can start another mystery story, co-writing with dearr =))

Dearr, I really miss you a lot. Where have you been? When I online, nvr see u leh. miss u nehh. aiyohss~

Love dearr, love bf, love BYW team & ABS gang~! =D

I gonna go enjoy my singlehood now~

=)) I'm going to wait for THE ONE to appear... one day..

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@5:37 PM





Happy V Day to everyone!!!

Hopefully u all have ppl to peii k! =D

Even if no lover oso its ok! Have friends, it will be alright!

muhaha. but i sick lers.. sians.. new year eve then siick... sians... but then going to see doc today...

hopefully i can still go for singing tml! =D

And, perhaps after seeing doc, I going to continue writing on [ Veiled Ambiguity ] liao! Miss the story! I going to whack my story thru' during new year session! Hopefully can update a lot. haha! =D

Must take care okays! New year is coming! Great food is coming!

My appetite is somehow back but then, i'm sick again, and my throat is feeling very horrible. Super dry. haix. =(

Gtg lers. BYE!

*gives kisses*

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@10:35 AM

Monday, February 12, 2007



HAHA! yay! my purple pencil gift..!! for the Open House!! Initially, I gt a blue one... then I saw Ms Wu gt a purple one... of course I took the purple one!!! Darn nice!!! =D Syringe leh! Vr creative lorr... haha! muackx~~~ LOL! ^^
This was taken during when I was studying wadd la, shld be maths. haha! u see, still gt Eye Mo looking at me do the revision thing. haha! And I was darn bo liaos, and I took the pic of my hand doing victory sign... I can be more lame than that... haha! =D

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Today finally finished my second ppr... all the way i was writing, and I didn't have time to check... haiz~ But hopefully everything will turn out fine.. lala~ Left with IPC liao!! Final one! =D

After the ppr, went to look for Ms Wu for the gift thing, and check our prac marks...

Then ltr lao ren, galfriend, CK n me went to SIM to eat our lunch.. was darn hungry after talking to Ms Wu for soooooo... long... haha~

Then after eating, went up to lvl 4 to see the grand hall... indeed vr grand... we took a peek from outside... and it's lyk the row is super super long... haha! =D But I still ok... I'm at the front dun have to walk too much... lol~! ^^ But looks grand lehh... hee!

Then ltr went home lorr... haha~

Was having a bit of headache cuz didn't sleep well last night... haha~ =))

Alright, gtg lers. =D

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@5:36 PM

Saturday, February 10, 2007



POPIAH DAY!!! HAHA! =D

Oops... this view not too good... the hand abit fat... lol! But its nt my hand, nt my mother's hand... hee~ LOL! =D It reminds me about the Jewel in the Palace (*the music comes in* "A ah... B ah...") *clears thorat* haha! Hmmm.... of course, having a nice popiah is to have the good preparation of veggys mahhs... lol!~ ^^ And my jie is cutting it! =D She vr tired after all the chopping and cutting! haha! I could help her abit, but I haven eat anything yet, so when i chop no strength... haha! xP I nt helping at all lors... i only noee how to eat...
This my daddy's hand... u all see in the ancient times, when ppl wanna make their knives sharper, they go rub against rock or put in fire rite... then daddy is doing the sharpening of knives using this small machine leh! Super miracal de la... I noee I shua gu... but then really stunns me... and haha! I playful, I hinted my daddy i wanna play with it... then he let me play... lol!~ Really stunn and fun! =D
Oh yeah babe, this is the final thing... all the colorful veggy and abit of meat... lol~ The fruits seen in the pic not counted... just tt i happen to to shoot it... lol~! =D The table cloth oso nt going to be cooked ok... *lame* HAH!
Another pic, how we shed the veggy. This need a lot of strength... so I cannot do... I do rite, only the water came out, the veggy did not come out in strips... juice come out only... pathetic... nvr eat rice lorr... haha! =x

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Today's happy popiah day is brought to you by jie jie!! HAHA! All credits goes to her!!! HAHA! I didn't help out, i guilty sehh! But it's okay! It turned out to be nicer than the last time one! YAY! HAHA! Vr nice la... but still, I dun have the appetite, but nt bad la!! =D But dun always cook popiah k... lol~! =))

Gonna try to blog as much as possible! yay!

take care!

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@5:12 PM

Friday, February 09, 2007



Today was a rather poorly-done ppr... super difficult de... haiz~ die liaos... hopefully can still get a B+... i vr satisfied liaos... haiz~~

Today hardly had stuffs happening, but i losing my appetite nowadays... and I'm getting thinner... and I'm crying over my weight... from 48... it became 45... its darn scary la... nowadays have been weighing myself... and it's getting lower and lower... and I could feel my hand super skinny de... i dun lyk myself so skinny! AIYOH!

SOOOOOO SAD!!! HAIZ~~

Alrites, then hmmm. after e ppr, I walked to another bus stop with some others, galfren, raheelah, wanwan and xinyi! haha! Cuz there were too many people crowding at the bus stop liaos... then the bus is lyk darn full la... then we decided to walk to another bus stop, which is vr far away... but then with my class ppl pei me, haha. the route is nt vr long actually. was rather fun! and galfriend and raheelah walk so fast! Why so feast(fast)? HAHA! LOL! Then i took 66 back home.. lalala~ =D So happy~

LOL!

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I really have no mood to think about you...

Hopefully everything ends fast.... I dun wan to be bothered anymore.....

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Love dearr n ah ham bf! =D

Love ABS gang~ LOL! ^^

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@6:31 PM





I could somehow let go of one now...

I didn't know I almost going to...

If I could, I want to turn back time..

And let me know less things..

Thanks dearr for tt lovely mail... muhahaha!! love u lots lots lots~~~ And I miss bf! =D Hopefully he's still as cute with the new furr... miss him lots too! =))

Love dearr. muackx.

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@10:58 AM

Thursday, February 08, 2007



Sometimes I really find it super weird...

Initially two persons who dun get along at all, eventually get together happily, stuck together till eternity, no matter what happens in future...

And me and my dearr is lyk wadd its described above... to say, our characters are rather different... except that we are both can be part-time jokers, and we can talk and crap quite a lot too. The styles we have are really different but we are stuck together... and best friends for so many years.... haha~ that's a big miracle to say.

loves* dearr! =D *muackz*

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I was still tinking, I'm really someone who wun take the initiative in doing anything, even in friendship, even in love, honestly speaking. haha! It's really too rare to see me buying stuffs for somebody taking my own initiative.

So V day, haha! I always let down my dearr ders. haha! always nvr buy stuffs for her. I always have the surprise face as her present only. muhaha! Tt time she made the cookies for me! SUPER NICE DE!! And the wrapping darn nice la! My fav color some more!! HAHA! =D *drools at the thought of it* Then I bought it to band, band ppl tot my bf gave me... muhaha... i still said yes.. *winkz* LOL!! ^^ Of course, my dearr leh~ LOL! hahahaha!

Duno this yr... lalalala~

*skips away*

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Frankly speaking, during my primary school days, holding hands hold a very big meaning to me. As what everyone have seen in the show, when the girl feels her hand being held by someone she likes, she will blush and look at tt someone and smile unconsciously. And holding hands always hold the sweetest memories I ever had. LOL!~ I still rmb how I heng heng, everytime can hold hands with tt someone I like, how I thanked my teacher in my heart countless for 'helping' choose tt someone i like as my partner for the rest of the year.

All the while, I regarded 'holding hands' as what lovers would do...

But slowly, from what I had seen, from what I experienced, holding hands slowly holds no meaning to me. It lost its initial meaning, it doesn't mean just love, just crush, it can also means friendship, just playing purpose. It can mean so many things. And I found out, I had accepted this fact, unknowingly. I dun mind it because I knew all the meaning is already gone.

For now, the new definition of actions of lovers..... has differed....

Hold hands means nothing.

Resting on your shoulder means nothing.

Hugging can mean nothing.

But a very tight and long embrace means something.

That's what I learnt through these years... my years of ambiguous relationships.... lol~ (sounds so experienced, while I'm not; only experienced abt 2) LOL!

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I rmb how I took his hands for warmth.. and in my heart, I knew nothing was going to change... and I was just trying to make my heart feel a little better, just for a short period of time... because my heart missed him too badly until it aches..

I knew I wasn't going to regret..... I knew things are going to change after my departure...

And thanks for not going overboard... thanks for teaching me so many things.....

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I dun wanna be too mature in thinking can.. can my expectations be lower.. I can't even find someone I truly like now...

It's all so hard...

Affinity.... where are you....

hahaha...

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@12:34 AM

Wednesday, February 07, 2007



I wonder how long can I keep my inner secrets... that hardly anyone knows....

I'm sometimes so tired of acting...

And perhaps I really need to totally give up on something....

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I was just wondering, how I got over something......so many somebody...

Even though may have 'unforgettable' memories, but as time goes by, I could still somehow erase it off my mind..... and for now, I can't even rmb what happened to me anymore.... why is it so magical...

On the bus, I gave the ranking on something in my relationship stuffs. haha! This is what happens when I have so many crushes in the past, I can give rankings liaos! For current results for best feel, most comfortable crush,etc. the recent ones are of course quite near to the top of the list..... but then the most comfortable crush, no one is occupying the first position... I still dun have anyone in my mind.... no one is occupying my heart.... I'm loving no one.. I'm not acting my very true self in front of tt person... I'm not comfortable with any crush I had on.... lol!~ Not even the past ones... lol!

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Why did I focus on such details?

Why did I remember the warmth of your hands, your hand texture..

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Got so much inspirations..... and I wrote them down!!! yay!!!!! LOL! ^^

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Yesterday watched Xiao Zhu and Da S de show... lol~ They finally kissed so perfectly... lol!~ I mean it was rather romantic... hahahahahahahahahaha~~

Alriites, and I dreamt of Fei Lun Hai today!! LALA! =D

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@4:35 PM

Tuesday, February 06, 2007



hahaha... yanyan and me changed the lyrics of another song once again with the niao niao version... muhahaha! =D

you make me wanna niao niao in the middle of the night,
you make me wanna camp in the toilet all night,
you make me wanna shit,
you make me wanna niao,
you make wanna go toilet now.

HAHA!

Original version:
you make me wanna hold you in the middle of the night
you make me wanna hold you till the morning light
you make me wanna xiang
you make me wanna shuo
you make wanna yong bu fen kai

LOL!!!!!

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@12:15 AM

Monday, February 05, 2007



True love is like ghosts.

It's rare. Hardly a bunch of people can meet such encounters. You may not have met it, but it doesn't mean that ghost doesn't exist.

Only when you meet it, you will then truly experience the feel......

It can come silently... it can go away without you noticing too~~~~~

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Is it really true that the more ambiguous the relationship, the more romantic it is??????

.......

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@9:27 PM





YAY!!! Finally we ate our fav. 'floppy' jelly ice cream liaos!! Even though all four nvr eat at the same time, halfway lao ren went to keep his share then when we came back with our prac books, then he decided he wanted to eat the jelly ice cream. but in the end, our ABS group ate the ice cream all in the same day!! HAHA!! NICE!!! =D
This was taken, when I window shopping with my mummy... she love looking at the jewellery stuffs... then I dun lyk such things because it hurts my eyes so much~~ Duno they put the thing until so shiny for wadd... haha! Then because its too bright, in the end, there were lines in pic... darnn... but it was still quite nice... cuz gt a lot of roses... darn romantic... Valentine's Day is coming!!! Suddenly remember about how dearr baked her home-made cookies for me and ah bee!! =D Love you lots!!! HAHA! ^^

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Today went to sch for a revision thing.

I forgot to bring my prac book, so i had to go back home and bring it here agains. darnn sianss. haha~ But lao ren pei me!! HAHA, so in the end, we met up with each other at SIM bus stop there and walk to LSCT and hand up the prac book lorrs. then in the end, we split our ways because lao ren gt his daddy come fetch him... and I going to pei my mummy go west mall shop... and do my new year shopping too~~

But in the end, I gt back nothing... lol~ =x

LOL! one thing darn funny i feel about. She took 173 to the BB interchange, then I took 61 to the same interchange. And our bus heng heng met the junction near the interchange before turning into the interchange, and I could clearly see my mother inside (I have a feel tt's she's inside, and I saw her cute blurr face in the bus, trying to look for me too!) HAHA! Her blur face super cute de la!!! And on the bus, I still kept laughing until I gt down the bus and saw her... haha~ She's super cute!!! =D And I told her about it, she said she can't really see me because the window is a little dark... then I said I can clearly see your cute blurr blurr face!!! SUPER CUTE!!! I exclaimed. And she laughed. haha! =D Where to get such a cute mummy! HAHA!

HAHA!!! Then shopped, met my sec sch de ppl... vr miracle... haha~ But still waved to him even though I dun talk to him for more than once... bleahs...

Then laughed on so many things...

Today I was admiring myself in the mirror in some shops today.... some lights really make me feel so good... hahahaha!!!!!!! So darn thick-skinned today... LOL!!! I told my mummy, my mum laughed. haha! =x

that's all. my mum called me to lie to my dad tt i nvr pei her go shop at west mall, and she called me to go home first while she go give the stuff to her fren tt her fren wanted her to buy. lol~

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Yesterday watched PSS2.. Daren won, not too unexpectedly... but no matter how, still feel sad for diya... because she really has the ability...

The news says, Daren is 59% while Diya is 41%... hmmm... in my opinion, Daren perhaps won her in the album sector... Who knows rite? No matter how, the show has ended, I'm looking forward to Campus Superstar 2 now... haha~ Hopefully I see my best friends inside too!! =D LOL!! ^^

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Why do you remember the word that someone you like even after a very long time, why are the words so deeply embedded while the words said by a "nobody", you could hardly recall anything?

Why is love so magical? Why people crave for love? Why do people crave for passion in love? Why do people crave to kiss when both of them are alone?

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Gtg lers!! =D

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@8:43 PM

Sunday, February 04, 2007



I was laughing when I watched Fei Lun Hai + Tank de Kang Xi Lai Le de episode. They were talking about their love stories, how they fell out of love. HAHA! But some parts I really cried, because I was reminded about my past. haha!

Girls sometimes are really a little stubborn and duno how to describe la, they just say "Let's break up," so easily...

And they didn't know this sentence can actually break the relationship apart so easily.....

I thought through my past... how he was worried for me when I was sick.. but then.... haiz~~

But why did he change so much? Or did he not change at all?

I don't know.. years passed yet, my heart is never unstable...

I'm left with no choice because he was once someone I really liked a lot.. and hurt me so deeply...

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It is so clear that I've not loved anyone before.

I think I could felt your hug vaguely... I didn't know if you were in my dream yesterday..

When breaking up, a last hug can be still a very sweet thing...

Love is going more and more further from me now.... It's getting more impossible...

Don't anyhow voice out your unhappiness or harsh words, you wouldn't noee what consequences you will get at the end....

Like some people did......

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@1:59 AM

Friday, February 02, 2007



Initially, I always cannot forget wadd I wanted to say.

Today on the bus, I was tinking thru' some stuffs about wadd I watched on tv nowadays... haha!

People really doesn't know how to treasure their lives. And they don't really know that they are blessed to be in such a good family when they feel that they are not.

Hmmm... about the tv thing, one girl talked to her mother-in-law not to ill-treat her and try to accept her. Then she started talking about her poor past, how she managed to survive despite of all the obstacles with her late mother. That girl told her that, even though they were poor, but simple things like chatting with her late mother, doing chores with her mother could be a very blissful thing to her. But a very rich mother-in-law can never understand that, because the mother-in-law is darn rich, and she wouldn't really know the true meaning and happiness behind family happiness, doing simple things together harmoniously...

So it's like what we are experiencing now... We may find that chatting with your mother can be a nuisance.... or doing chores with your mother can be very troublesome and time-wasting but afterall, in some families, this is counted as good and blissful and rare to them. And, why didn't we treasure things and people around us now?

Till now, I still didn't learn how to really treasure my family...

Perhaps we are all used to having good life.... and everything....

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Another thing, today at the bus stop, I saw so 'disabled' people... perhaps they had something wrong with their nervous system stuffs when they were born... and it was after sch time, so there were quite a few... and while I waited for my bus, I observed their faces... and all look so familiar... and I questioned myself why.. but duno the ans leh... hmmm... then I looked their 'mothers' taking care of them... and I suddenly find that I really admire such people, because perhaps for me, I dun have so much patience guiding them and teaching them (even though I've not tried before, but I don't have the confidence if I could guide them). So perhaps these people are really kind-hearted people who offered to adopt them and take good care of them. And the teachers too, may be kind-hearted too, to take care of these people.

All of a sudden, I find that I'm really fortunate enough to be in a family.

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When you noee that your feelings are made clear, you feel so relaxed.

Don't forget that, we can only be just friends.

Reminded me about the sweet primary school memories. hahaha~ =D That was really sweet when holding hands with a guy... muhahahahahahahaha~~~~ =P

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@10:42 PM





HAHA! This was taken today after IPC practical! The final practical test, and I can finally take a break for the time being... and I took this pic secretly from above cher's head... muhaha... she's marking straight after we given her the pprs!! HAHA~ Previously, I failed my practical test... but heng only 5% counted in the total mark... this time is 15%! HAHA, and I PASSED!!! YAY!!! HAHAHA! =D Does it look lyk I'm marking the work? LOL!~ not reli la horr... haha~ =)
Ask you something, 14 x 5 = 70 isn't it? Got one student, wrote 14+14+14+14+14 in one vertical row... then firstly this student added the '4s' on the right row... then add up to 24... then still gt 5 '1s' haven count yet... then this student just add up the 5 '1s' into the value 24... which ends up with 29!! Did anyone understand wadd I said? HAHA!
Alright, this is the present we shared money among our class, to give Mrs. Lee our IPC practical cher!! HAHA! And not forgetting our TSO (the kind lab helper), we wrote our messages on a piece of ppr =) Hopefully we are under him on of the future two years again!! He's so cute and kind! Dun bear to raise voice too! =D
u saw it? THANK YOU for Mrs. Lee!! She's being a wonderful and funny cher!!! HAHA! =D She made our practical so fun, as compared to previous practicals. This is the only practical lesson that I dun feel bored at all! =D Great teaching!! HAHA! =D

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I have almost 5 days not blogging already! I really miss blogging, but I really have nothing to blog about... nowadays have been studying lyk duno wadd... wed had APS quiz, thurs had APS practical, and today had IPC practical... hmmm... super busy de~~ I going to slp early today! YAY!

HAHA!

And, today dun have much to say too! HAHA~ still okay la. Still wanna comment that Dr. Kueh is too cute!!! HAHA today he smile, he made me smile too!! HAHA, and he talk on the fone in front of the class, is darn natural!!! AND CUTE!!! HAHA!!

'Layter (Later) I will be going upstays (upstairs)' I heard that when he was talking on the fone... haha... we still ka jiao him and asked whether was it his wife... muhaha! We bad rite!!! HAHAHAH! ^^

And bleahs..... muhahaha....

During practical test, the KIND TSO gave us the hint on one of the questions, without our IPC cher knowing!! HAHA! Thanks for that! You know we duno hor!! HAHA! =D Love you lots!!! HAHAHA !

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Hey, ABS gang, we must eat the jelly ice-cream k on monday k!! HAHA! =D

And, Kieron dun forget you owe us something. haha. especially me. You promised me!! HAHA! =P

Bye ppl!! =D

You've got the poison, I've got the remedy.
@8:16 PM

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