As of now I feel horribly vindictive; and yet I feel like I'm entitled to it.

Labels: m/ pissed off as fuck, t/ one-liner

is it
strange
to want to someone
to hug
and to hold your hand
and tell you that you are amazing
and lie down next to you
and watch the stars
and keep your dreams alive
and keep you alive
and
and
and
is it strange?

Labels: t/ honne

This place needs a makeover and white would be appropriate; like a shroud used to cover the bodies of the dead.



(was that too morbid?)

Labels: m/ nothing

How dare you.

You don't know me.

We've been friends for a year and you know nothing about me.

You think you have me sussed out, you think I'm as shallow and as airheaded as you are, but no. I am nothing like you.

Don't you dare call me names. I used to think it was all fun and games when you insisted on giving me that nickname when we first met, and I was a fool to let myself act like it embarassed me. I wish I could turn back time; if I could I wouldn't even have entertained you.

Because you think it's funny, don't you? You think we're friends so it's okay to degrade me and call me whatever you want to call me, don't you?

Well let me tell you this asshole; calling me a 'lazy bitch' won't make me do the work. Saying that I've been 'slacking off lately' will not make me work any harder. What do you know about what is going on inside my head? What do you know about the real reasons behind my lack of interest?

Absolutely nothing.

You have no right to call me things that are so far from the truth it's unbelievable. You have no right to assume that I am like this because you think I am. You don't even know the most basic information about me. You don't know my skills, what I like, what I don't like because you never took the time to learn.

And now I don't even want you to learn.

Just leave me alone.

Labels: m/ infuriated, m/ pissed off as fuck, t/ friends yo, t/ uni life

I'm sad you no longer have the capacity to tell me things like you used to; I'm sad you no longer think of me as your best friend.

Labels: m/ brooding, t/ friends yo, t/ one-liner

7 years ago I would have forced you to talk to her, to mend your friendship because you had something that you might not have ever again. I would have done anything to sew that broken link back together, even if it meant making myself unhappy.

I once physically fought with a friend to make her talk to another friend again. It was useless and fruitless but I had some semblance of responsibility to make things right, even if it was what she didn't want.

Now, 7 years on, I wouldn't even try.

I'm glad that I've matured enough to see that nothing lasts forever. I'm glad that I can now respect people's decisions, that I can see their side of the picture. It might come off as uncaring, but the truth is I wouldn't force anyone now because I care.

It's strange and complicated but it works.

Yeah, I don't know what has become of this blog either.

Labels: m/ nothing, t/ 2013, t/ friends yo

If this is what it's like to have best friends then I want to be best friends with you guys forever - or at least until the world ends.

Labels: t/ 2013, t/ friends yo, t/ one-liner