_Saturday, April 24, 2004*

-ChEeNa PaPeR FiNaLly OvEr-
ooh yeah!!! i can't believe tt dis cheena paper's over haha.. i wrote a hell lot of crap in dere.. woohoo!! e tch is gonna hv such a fun time readin my lijiewenda.. she's gonna b laffing her head off.. u noe wad i wrote 4 tt question which dey asked whether money could buy happiness or sth liddat?? yah.. my ans was crappy n i agree n disagree.. i wrote ttif one day e pet fish which u've kept 4 a veri long time dies, u can't buy e dead fish back wif money............................ but u can buy use ur money 2 buy another fish 2 give u happiness.. can anybody pls tell mi how not 2 b crappy when 3/4 of e paper is onli asking 4 ur opinion??? haha.. i'm so crapped up man.. whahaha..

WHEEEE!!!! haha..I GOT E DEUTER BAG 4 20% OFF!!! whahaha.. my daddy pay somemore.. haha u noe wad.. on fri, mi n llama were walking 2 macpherson.. we were rushing la.. coz llama had 2 reach hme early 4 tuition.. den dunno y we juz walked by pp.. n i din realize until we walked 2 e church dere.. i was like:"eh?? y r we walking by pp??" den llama suddenly stopped.. n turned back.. haha her expression was damn farni.. lol.. den while walking 2 macpherson we sorta lost our sense of direction.. wrong turning but turned back in time.. anw.. my bag strap snapped!! haha.. tt's y my dad bought mi a new bag!! whee!!!! hahaha.. $55 onli lor.. so cheap.. :) haha

okie gtg write julia's testi.. oh yah!! thx bella 4 tt realli SHORT N SWEET testi u wrote moi on hi5 haha.. i luv u 2!!

*- amanda scribbled at 4/24/2004 10:45:00 PM

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_Friday, April 16, 2004*

Sometimes I feel that I should go and play with the thunder
Somehow I just don't wanna stay and wait for a wonder

Chemistry is HOPELESS...bad, beyond recall, cynical, dead duck, dejected, demoralized, despairing, desperate, despondent, disconsolate, discouraging, downhearted, fatal, forlorn, futile, gone, goner, helpless, ill-fated, impossible, impracticable, incurable, irredeemable, irreparable, irreversible, irrevocable, lost, menacing, no-win, past hope, pointless, sad, shot down, sinister, sunk, threatening, tragic, unachievable, unavailing, unfortunate, unmitigable, up creek, useless, vain, woebegone, worsening. haha yah i took tt frm a thesaurus.. in my own words"LHB made chem suck like nv b4" e recent chem test realli broke my all my records.. *7/25* 7?? yeah 7!! 28%!! UNGRADED!! wadeva.. oh btw, **t***e sux bigtime.. crazy person still wanna go 4 u-noe-wad. no comments.. (-_-); actualli i've got lotsa comments but i dun wanna put dem up here.. okie NEXT!!

10x50 heats.. we rock man!! got 2nd!! though 3/O dropped e baton n still got 1st*jaw drop* we got 4th 4 e finals.. kinda sad coz it was so close 2 getting 3rd. anw 3Z rox!! i went 4 e discus heats wif weed n ahma @ serangoon stadium.. wanru,vivo,auds,poach,evadne,etc. were oso dere.. n evrybody was like.. "AMANDA!! u throwing discus????" *eyes wide open wif disbelief* yeah.. sigh.... wad 2 do.. wanna participate in other events but all snapped up.. yeah anw each person had 3 tries.. and i definately maluated myself during all 3 throws.. yah.. so y bother?? at least u get pts 4 comin :) during e heats e coach mr sim was damn pissed off.. dunno wad's his prob.. kept scolding wanru though she tried.. he was saying stuff like if u continue throwing dis way, u might as well go home. we're juz doin dis not coz we wanna go dere n embarrass oursleves deliberately.. e least u cld do was keep quiet.. i'm definately not doin discus nxt yr.. deena rox man!! tt gal took part in 7events!! eh? wassup wif e no 7?? yeah anw.. she got 2nd 4 200m heats 0_0 ..jealous.. yep oh yah thx a lot 4 sub-ing all those who din turn up.. u're e best gal!!

DIE... mid yr's start nxt wk.. i m so dead.. been so stressed up e past few wks.. "WELCOME 2 SEC3 LIFE IN CEDAR" quoted from mrs ong.. yeah.. 'great' welcome.. okie gtg..

no matter wad.. 3Z rox on!! let's keep 3Z's spirit high in e sky!! *wad am i saying??*

*- amanda scribbled at 4/16/2004 07:35:00 PM

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_Friday, April 09, 2004*

one of my sucky moods again...

sigh..sometimes i dunno wad's wrong wif mi.one min i'm so crazily insanely happy n i'm back 2 earth e next.. am i juz being pmsy or wad?maeb i'm juz being moody.again.maeb i'm juz realli pissed wif myself.y can't i eva score gd marks 4 maths or sci.y do i keep screwing up?!sometimes i juz feel so useless.my life sux.tink i'm suffering frm some kinda on-off depression.4 those who noe mi realli well.tink u already noticed my weird moods.most of e time i'll juz suddenly turn unexpectedly nuts or i can get realli quiet n withdrawn.unbalanced emotional equation??sometimes i dun even noe wad i'm tinking.is dere anybody out dere who can tell mi wad's goin on??i doubt it's got anything 2 do wif bein in e teenage phase or hving pms la.coz it juz doesn't fit.dorts.yeah dere isn't any logical scientific explanation.i can blame it on dis or tt.i dunno.i juz can't figure anything out. i dun wanna think abt anything. e more i tink abt anything e further my imagination runs n come 2 tink abt it.. i keep getting e same conclusion.. it's either dis world sux like hell or i'm not up 2 it. i'm living in a make belief world.. full of bias-ness.. like wad auds said in her speech.. superficial.. evrything abt dis world is.u're judged by others n wad dey tink of u.everybody puts up a false front.infront of u some pple may seem all nice n frenly but bhind ur back e same pple juz luv bitching abt u.blardi hypocrite..if u've got a problem wif mi juz tell mi la.. face it k?! u can't change e way i am by bitching n talking bhind my back.. u're juz making things worse..wadeva it is juz tell mi.dun tink u'll like it if i tell someone u noe abt something private abt u. anw if u still wanna b e way u r.. tt's ur prob.. not mine..

Singapore's screwed education system is killing e fun of learning... evryone wants 2 get gd grades n earn big bucks. but in real life who actualli gets wad dey want??pple can work their butt off n still b in e same corperate position 4eva while those who r crafty n hv connections shoot up 2 e top even if dey hv no real outstanding qualifications.. students spends at least 12 yrs of their lives doin sch work n memorizing crap.. all dis 4 wat?? juz a piece of paper sometimes laminated sometimes not which states whether dey've been through all e trouble n torture of being a student.. singpore's system isn't based on equality or meritocracy.. it's all propaganda.. dey dun practice wad dey preach.. not evrybody is equal.. some pple r born smart.. some r juz average. some r below average.. some aren't anywhere. nobody's able 2 decide how dey wanna b. it's whether u hv it or u dun. wad happened to e part in life where e young r able 2 enjoy their childhood. kids as young as 5 start suffering frm depression.. y? coz dey're scared tt dey can't live up 2 their parents' expectations, scared dey'll end up like some homeless person wandering arnd e streets.. isn't dis wad parents tell their kids?? --- u c tt road sweeper/rubbish collecter over dere? u wanna grow up like him? *typically, e poor kid will sae no or shake dey're head* u betta study hard n get gd marks other wise u'll end up like him. wad nonsense r parents telling their kids?! wad's wrong wif being a road sweeper/rubbish collecter?? it's still a job ain't it?.. how r we 2 survive w/o dem?? empty e trash ourselves?? it's e type of mentality tt parents instil in their kids even b4 dey're even able 2 form their own opinions.. it's so manipulative.. parents pass it 2 their kids n their kids pass it 2 their kids n dey pass it on.. over e yrs of constant repetition,it moulds an innocent child in2 an opinionated and biased person. i can't say tt i'm not one of these pple but will dere eva b a break in e chain? aiya.. dis world juz sux la..

*- amanda scribbled at 4/09/2004 11:22:00 PM

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_Friday, April 02, 2004*

FATE-FELL-SHORT-DIS-TIME
okie.. updated.. again.. argh feel like del my blog.. hee.. getting bored of updating.. mah fan lor.. anw whee!! i finally reached 100 frenz 4 frenster!!

hmm, i've been feeling so sick of sch life dis past few daes. dere's like so much freaking hmw n i hv no idea how on earth 2 do. ask mrs lim 2 explain n after numerous times i've still no idea.. mr chua n mrs chew oso.. dunno wad e hell dey talking abt.. wad's e use of tchin so fast? wad kinda train are dey trying 2 catch?? i'm in dire, desperate need 4 tuition!! anybody who noes any near sch or near e north part of sg pls sae sth!! thx.. haha.. i'm so bored of lookin 4 tuition centres.. haha which brings mi 2 wed's SEARCH 4 E TUITION CENTRE:episode2.. Dhoby Ghaut-Peace Centre..when we reached dhoby ghaut, we din noe where 2 go..ended walking in n outta e station instead.. kinda pity weedy haha.. dragged her dere when she had no business goin.. lemmie c.. tink we spent approximately 15 -30mins figuring how on earth 2 get 2 tt stoopid place coz all we knew was tt it was at peace centre n tt it was somewhere near dhoby ghaut mrt. we din even hv any idea abt e name of e centre. haha we looked at e map n estimated e dist frm dg.. almost 1.6km!! den we decided 2 take bus dere instead.now... we din noe which buses out of dunno how many countless more went dere. den finally used huiyi's hp 2 call e LTA information hotline. whee!! den we managed 2 find out how 2 get dere even though e operator gave mi e correct bus no but wrong no of stops..den e nxt 1 hr or so was spent looking 4 tt blardi tuition centre.. n u noe wad e name of e centre was?? "Leow's Trg Ctre" ... n e outer appearence was so darn freaky lor.. mi n huiyi din even wanna step in.. so we went dere 4 nth.. anw e whole shopping centre was creepy.. dun wanna go dere anymore!!

thur's hb prac was horrible esp 4 grp2 prac.. screwed up so much coz mrs aw kept staring.. so much pressure.. cldn't play well.. but at least grp1 was a lot betta la.. when we were walking outta sch, weirdly pam n pris walked rather slowly haha.. den stupid weed keep bullying e twins squirted water at e twins n mi.. mean pig.. i got wet 4 nth.. argh.. den 2dae kenna squirted by tracy.. n e classrm was freezing!! coz of e rain n e temp of e aircon... i was freezing e whole dae lor..yah anw tracy!! c ah.. i updated liao hor!!

*- amanda scribbled at 4/02/2004 09:36:00 PM

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