Sunday, December 15, 2013

General Conference October 2013

General Conference at out house is a time for forts and quiet activities.  I have found that I focus better for 8 hours of church over two days if my hands are busy.  This year I volunteered to help with Festival of Trees (a fundraiser for Primary Children's Medical Center).  So, I spent most of the two days working on craft projects to be sold in the gift shop.  Luckily I had found tons of past projects that I hadn't finished or that people hadn't paid me for, so I was able to use all of those and buy very little to add to my collection.  :)  Corry worked on his puzzle and Fuzzy helped me some of the time.  






It was a beautiful two days.  My favorite talk though came from Saturday when Elder Holland spoke on depression.  I loved it because he acknowledged that in the past, he had struggled and that it was ok.   I think my favorite quote was this one…

"Believe in miracles. I have seen so many of them come when every other indication would say that hope was lost. Hope is never lost. If those miracles do not come soon or fully or seemingly at all, remember the Savior’s own anguished example: if the bitter cup does not pass, drink it and be strong, trusting in happier days ahead."

To read the whole talk, go here.

Anyway, I love conference.  I love how it makes me feel and how it helps me to want to do better.  To watch or listen to all the talks, click here.  I like to download them to my iPod and listen to them while I drive or exercise.

Tuesday, December 10, 2013

Catch Up

I have a lot of blogging to catch up on, both writing my own and reading my friend's blogs!  My computer crashed two months ago because of a faulty hard drive (I had bought a new one in March).  Then I couldn't access my pictures or files for awhile, then once all that was working again, now I can't print anything!  It has been a bit frustrating and eye opening to how much I rely on all that.  Thankfully I have a fantastic neighbor that has been helping solve the problems, and his wife is amazing and keeps printing things out for me that I need!  At least the pictures are back on, that would have made me so sad to loose all those pictures!

I wish I just got on here and blogged everyday, with or without pictures, but I rarely do it.  The last few months have been very full.  There have been highs and lows and just normal days.  Somehow I feel like life is getting a bit harder.  That the trials and issues my children are facing are getting more difficult and serious.

The hardest thing right now has been watching some of my kids feel like they don't fit in anywhere, including at home.  That breaks my heart.  I want my home to be a place that no matter what goes on around my children in the world, they can always come home and feel loved.  I felt like a complete failure when one of my kids told me that the other night.  All my best efforts to talk to them, send them messages, take them places, do things for them, do things with them, teach them responsibility and all the other things I try every day to do, either I am not doing, or they are not seeing what I do.

I have one child that keeps doing poorly in school, not because it is too hard, but because they are not turning in assignments or not working hard.  I know it is not too hard for them because I see the difference when I get after them versus when I don't.  I just want them to be successful!

Add to that Corry has been gone a ton, so I feel like I am doing a lot of the parenting on my own.

I read this article the other day that just had me unnerved.  It had me questioning my beliefs just a bit.  I felt so strongly the day after I read it that I needed to go to the temple.  So I did and I was able to sit and just read my scriptures for a long time.  This scripture really stood out to me in Ether 4:15,  "Behold, when ye shall rend that veil of unbelief which doth cause you to remain in your awful state of wickedness, and hardness of heart, and blindness of mind, then shall the great and marvelous things which have been hid up from the foundation of the world from you—yea, when ye shall call upon the Father in my name, with a broken heart and a contrite spirit, then shall ye know that the Father hath remembered the covenant which he made unto your fathers, O house of Israel." I probably read that verse 20 times that day.  I felt like I had a veil of unbelief and it was awful. Then as I sat there in that beautiful place and let go of that unbelief, I felt like my Father remembered me.  It was such a beautiful experience. 

Yesterday a friend of mine posted this on Facebook and I felt that same feeling of being watched over.  This was exactly the quote I needed to share with a few of my children.  “We live in a day when the adversary stresses on every hand the philosophy of instant gratification. We seem to demand instant everything, including instant solutions to our problems. . .It was meant to be that life would be a challenge. To suffer some anxiety, some depression, some disappointment, even some failure is normal.” ― Boyd K. Packer.  I loved this for my children who were struggling, but the more I thought about it through the day, the more I knew I needed it for me too.  

Then this morning I had a chance to visit with a few of my friends and we were able to talk about our struggles as moms and guess what - WE ALL FEEL THE SAME WAY!!!  That was the thing I loved about this quote form Elder Packer is that sometimes I feel like I am messed up because I am struggling with something.  Then I read that and remembered that all these things are part of life.  For everyone.  

Ah, life is good.  It is hard sometimes, but life is good.  The Lord is good.  He looks out for us and helps us when we ask and listen.  

Monday, October 7, 2013

Cloward Family Pictures 2013

Corry's parents had a wild spring when they were unexpectedly asked to serve a mission for our church in Madagascar!  Crazy!!!  They ended up leaving in July, but before they left we had family pictures and were able to spend time with the whole family together for the first time in over 5 years.  We were even able to take some family names to the temple all as a family.  

My family pictures aren't my favorite, but here they are!

















Fall Activities

Probably my favorite thing that I have been able to do since the kids are back in school again, is go to the temple more often.  I try to get there every week.  It is so wonderful to be able to spend my time doing that!

The kids are back into reading.  I love that Scotty has finally discovered a love of reading.  Alli is getting there, but still would rather read picture books than something on her level.  It will come.  :)


Temple with Corry though, is way better!

Paint fights at a young womens activity

Red Party for Fuzzy at Olive Garden and Shopping!
So when Missy started her exciting journey through womanhood, I kept her home from school.  We went to lunch, shopped for supplies, and had a great day off from school.  When Fuzzy began her journey, it was picture day at school last year and she had tests.  She reminded me that she had never had her day off.  Then our friend told us about where she used to live, they had a big "Red Party" for the girls.  Everyone dressed in red and brought a red gift and celebrated this change.  So, Fuzzy and I set up her Red Party for a day she could miss a class.  Between the class she could miss, flex, and lunch, we ended up with a little over 2 hours to eat and shop.  SO MUCH FUN!!!  Love this tradition!

Soccer has started up again for Scotty.  His team is good this year and I love to watch him play (except at goalie, that still scares me - although he dies well at that too).  He is a great defender and runner.  Not many people can get the ball past him.  Love that we have friends on the team too this year again.  It always make the experience so much more enjoyable!


Football season is among us again.  The morning of the Utah vs BYU game our Utah fan friends stuck this Utah flag in our yard.  I got out our BYU flag, hung it up and then updated the Utah flag.  Don't you think it looks better?  Sadly we lost the game, but it was still fun!

Fuzzy had this crazy bite thing on her arm!  How come she is so sweet to insects?

More yard work and moving rocks.  Thanks to my husband for moving this one to make my steps I have been asking for!

I finally felt at home when a toilet showed up on my porch!  Hopefully I won't drop this one when I try to paint it!
Most BYU games we have had a big party at our house.  We love our Cougars and love to watch games with friends and family.
During one of the games, Alli drew this picture of Holden.  He had a bike crash that week, so this is her picture of him broken.  So cute!

Thursday, October 3, 2013

How I get to spend Sunday afternoons...

Listening to Missy play piano.  Click here to view a piece by Jon Schmidt that she has been working on.

Since School Started...

I've been filling my days as much as possible on my bike!  I love it!  We live really close to a great trail that I can jump on in .25 miles and be gone for a long time!  

My days also consist of teaching dance, teaching art in Scotty and Alli's classes, selling suckers at the junior high, running the elementary fitness program, organizing craft days, lunch with friends, babysitting when needed, running the reflections program at the junior high, saying yes to most anything people ask me to do, and just keeping up with housework.  I love it!

Here is a typical week right now for me to remember, since now I am tired, but one day I will be lonely!

6:30 AM Wake up and walk with Corry
7:15 AM Prayers
7:25 AM Missy leaves for school
8 AM Fuzzy leaves for school
8:40 AM walk Scotty and Alli to school
11:20-12:20 (1st Monday of Month) I teach Art in Scotty's class
2:15 PM Missy home (1:15 PM Mondays)
2:45 PM Fuzzy home (1:45 PM Mondays)
3:30 PM Alli and Scotty home (2:30 PM Mondays)
9 PM Scriptures and Prayers

Mondays:
8 AM Scotty Ballroom 
1:45-4 PM Extra Kids
3-3:30 PM Missy Guitar
3:15-4 PM Alli ballet
3:15-4:45 PM Fuzzy teach ballet 
4:45-5:45 PM Missy teach piano
6-7 PM Scotty Football Practice
6-9 PM Dinner and family night

Tuesdays:
9:15-10:30 AM I teach dance
11:15-1:30 (1st Tuesday of Month) I do Sucker sales at the Junior High
11:30-1:30 (2nd Tuesday of Month) I do recess fitness at elementary
3:45-6:30 PM Fuzzy take dance
4:30-5:30 (2nd and 4th weeks) Alli activity days
6:45-7:45 PM Scotty scouts
7-? PM Me Primary Presidency Meeting
7-8:30 PM Missy and Fuzzy Young Womens
7-? Corry Bishopric Meeting
8-9 PM Scotty Football game

Wednesday:
7-7:45 AM Fuzzy Piano
7:45-8:30 AM Alli Piano
8 AM Scotty Ballroom
2:30-3:15 PM Missy Takes Piano Lessons
3:30-7:45 PM Fuzzy Takes Dance
3:30-4:30 Missy Teaches Piano Lessons
4:45-5:30 PM Alli Takes and Missy Teaches Jazz
6-7:15 PM Scotty Soccer Practice

Thursdays:
8 AM Scotty Piano
4-5:30 PM Missy Teaches Piano
4:15-7 PM Fuzzy Takes Dance (30 minutes away)
6-7:15 PM Scotty Soccer Practice
7-8 PM Alli Gymnastics

Fridays:
9 AM I Teach Art in Alli's Class (1st Friday of month)
2:15-? PM Missy Temple
2:45-? PM Fuzzy Temple

Saturdays:
10-12 AM Scotty Football Practice
9:30-12:30 Fuzzy Dance (2nd and 3rd weeks 30 minutes away)
Soccer games, football games, dances, yard work...

Sundays (day of rest, right):
7 AM Corry leaves
9-12 Church
12:10 PM Alli Primary Choir
1-2 PM I Have Primary Visits (1st and 3rd Sundays)
1:30-2:30 PM Fuzzy and I Ward Choir
3-5 PM Corry finally shows up.

I love my very full life!

Tuesday, October 1, 2013

Hanging with friends

Sometimes Fuzzy gets to hang out with friends too!  I am glad she is building up a good network of friends!

Even if they hide and don't like their pictures taken!

There was a whole lot of screaming going on as they slid down the stairs on a sleeping bag and then played all sorts of games.  I even took my turn going down.  :)

Homecoming 2013

The fist day of school Missy got asked to Homecoming by one of her very best friends, McKay.  Scotty and Alli and I got to help him ask her by wrapping her bedroom in plastic.  Scotty is so excited to ask girls to dances, I think more for the fun of trashing a room more than anything else!





I even wrapped a few treasures in her backpack for her to find later!  Hahaha!

Since Corry was gone the day of the dance, I figured I had better do my part and meet McKay on the porch with my "shotgun"

Watch-out boys this mama has a gun and isn't afraid to use it....


Sadly, the gun didn't work.  :(

They headed off to shoot guns for their day date.  Missy was so excited (and a little nervous)!


Then she came home and got into her steal of a deal $20 dress.  Yup I am super proud of myself for that one!

Photo shoot for these two beautiful ladies!









Pinning the boutonniere on... always an adventure!









FINALLY SHE GOT IT!!!!


At least his turn was easier!




She had the best time.  Aren't they so cute!