I had a chance to go to my church's woman's organization's world wide broadcast on Saturday night. Boy did I need it!!!! One of my all-time favorite speakers spoke! Hurray! Dieter F Uchtdorf!
Anyway, do you ever have those moments when you just feel totally overwhelmed with life? Like no one likes you? Like you are so busy trying to do all the things you need to do that you are not doing anything well? Like you are trying to do your best, just to find out someone is offended with your best efforts? Like you work so hard to not judge others, but just because you are trying to live your life the way you feel is best, others take that as judging them? Or like one day when "this" happens, then I can relax or be happy?
I was kinda in that place (honestly I still am a bit) last Saturday. The kids had been fighting/disobeying more than normal. I had made an effort to do some extended family things with little response back. Corry has been gone or working incredibly insane hours or doing his calling most of the time and I barely see him. I was overwhelmed on Saturday - sitting in my car, crying and praying for help. Well, help came in the form of Elder Uchtdorf. He is a truly inspired servant of the Lord, because he spoke to me that night after I uttered that prayer to my Father. The funny thing was, as I have talked to other woman, they think he spoke to them!
You can find his whole talk here, but the part that hit me the most and has helped me the most this week as other things have happened, was that we need to not forget to be happy NOW. He talked about "Charlie and the Chocolate Factory" and how everyone would throw out those amazing chocolate bars just looking for their "Golden Ticket". There are many things that have been my Golden Tickets - getting married, having a family, buying a house, the kids all in school, buying a new house, the kids all grown (then you can relax because your parenting is done - right? ;) ), financial stability, kids making right choices, extended family liking me and being close like other families I see, really the list could go on. Some Golden Tickets have come, but they have gone and been replaced by others and although they are righteous desires, sometimes I find myself hoping for that so I can have joy, peace, and happiness. Elder Uchtdorf said, "The happiest people I know are not those who find their golden ticket; they are those who, while in pursuit of worthy goals, discover and treasure the beauty and sweetness of the everyday moments. They are the ones who, thread by daily thread, weave a tapestry of gratitude and wonder throughout their lives. These are they who are truly happy."
This talk was beautiful! It wasn't anything new I didn't know before, not much is new at Conferences. It was just what I needed to remember this time. It was what I needed to hear on that hard day, it is what I needed to carry with me throughout my week and throughout my life. My life is good. I need to see more of the beauty and good around me, while I am striving for those golden tickets. The journey can be good and beautiful too, on our way to those things we desire, regardless if we achieve them in this life. I am grateful for this reminder and grateful that every six months I get edified at General Conference.









