I don't have any pictures this year!!! :( Anyway, it was a very busy day. We started off in our ward at 9 AM were I had to give a talk. Can I just say I don't think women should have to speak on Mother's Day. That should be our gift, but no, I have spoken at least 3 times now on this day. (Corry thinks it was the 4th time - I must have blocked out the other one!)
Let me just say that the week leading up to speaking was a rough one! The Bishopric member called and I just laughed. Anyway, it was a rough week because of some family issues. On Thursday night I was informed about all the things a certain family member did not like about me. I was heart-borken. I have tried so hard to unify our families and to create great memories and to find out where I really fit in the family (according to this family member) was hard to handle. I have felt for awhile like I needed to realize my place as an in-law instead of as a blood relative, but I always thought that was wrong. If I have and idea, a problem or whatever, why on earth should Corry bring it up instead of me. First of all he is usually way too busy and second, I like to solve my own problems. But, many believe that it is the place of the family member to handle it. So I began thinking my views on family were warped. Anyway, back to this situation... I was committed to follow-through with a few family things and then Corry and I talked about it and decided maybe it would be best if I did back off. So I am going to, at least for now.
Back to the talk. I was REALLY low at that point. The
talk, by Sheri Dew, I was supposed to use was fabulous though and gave me a lot of hope and comfort during the week. Then I went to my regular temple trip on Friday morning. I came away feeling like the Lord knew my heart and that was what really mattered. I felt so much like that was the message I was supposed to leave with the ward on Sunday above all else. Heavenly Father knows us, loves us and He knows our heart, even when others do not. Anyway, so I learned that there was a reason for this to happen, because I needed to learn that lesson and share it.
I also talked about why Mother's Day can be such a hard day for so many women. My sister in law lost 3 babies and I know Mother's Day is a tough day for her. My mom has a Mother who has some mental illness and hasn't always been very nice. I think that makes it a hard day for my mom sometimes. I know so many great woman who would love to be mothers and are not. (Read the talk! It is fabulous talking about how we are divinely appointed mothers and we are all mothers - to those we have borne and those whom we bare with.) I watched Kyler and Carter's birth mother give up all her rights to her sons and do a most unselfish act and I am sure Mother's Day was a tough one for her! A few of my best friends have lost their mom's and I know that is a hard day for them. I struggle, as I am sure many other moms struggle, feeling like I am not as good of a mom as I should be or as others are. I know it can be a hard day. I have been there, but the last few years I have chosen to focus on others instead of myself and I feel better and LOVE the day! (Please don't tell my Bishop that giving a talk on that day really has helped me to have a great day!) Anyway, I felt good about the talk, not that I said anything from me, but that my Father had prepared me to say what he wanted me to say that day.
After that we traveled to Lindon for cute little Ford Clayton Anderson's blessing. I was in tears again. What a beautiful little boy and how sad his Grandfather was not able to be there in body to hold him and love on him that day.
After that it was back to our ward so Corry could teach the Priests and I could teach the primary children music.
After that it was back to Julie's for lunch. How blessed I am to have her in my life and what an amazing woman she is through her trials. I know the Lord inspired her to help me get a job at her office 16 years ago so we could grow closer. I just love her and her family and how they always make us feel like we are apart. Clay always did that too. In fact yesterday Alli said when I picked her up from school, "I wish Clay was still alive so he could wrestle me. I would have liked that!"
After that it was home to finish dinner and call my mom before Corry's family came over. We had a great time together. I love being surrounded by family and friends. It is a great blessing. This day I felt blessed to be a daughter of a wonderful mother but mostly I felt so blessed to have a wonderful husband and to have 4 beautiful children to love, to teach and to be taught by. I love being a mom. If I didn't believe in the public education system so much and them needing those experiences, I would totally home school my children. I love them so much and the more I get to be around them, the more I want to be around them. Don't get me wrong they drive me a little crazy sometimes, but mostly I just really love who they are and take great joy in the best job in the world! I wouldn't trade being a mom for anything!