a dedication to God for all and is to come

wanna juz stay close to You, that's all.

everyone to know my Savior

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I'm beginning a new chapter with Jesus now.
Not trying to resist but with His help, I'll be able to get through,
After all, He say He is the one that keeps me from stumbling.
And I believe :D

Today was remarkable!
He actually given me the strength and determination not to msg stolen water.
I'm so so so grateful,
Coz after so long, finally the fruit manifested.
I mean it's not fully yet, which will be very soon,
But at least there is a glimpse of the budding of the fruit.

Praise Jesus! He indeed keep me from stumbling!!

Now to Him who is able to keep you from stumbling, 
And to present  you  faultless 
Before the presence of His glory with exceeding joy,  To God our Savior, 
Who alone is wise, 
Be glory and majesty, 
Dominion and power, 
Both now and forever. 
Amen. (Jude 1:24, 25 NKJV)

Again I'm back to square one..
in circles I'm running like a wild hammy,
Lord Jesus, seriously when will I ever be able to put an end to this?

Angry that you didn't care..
Angry that I took too much care..
Angry that why my feelings are not reciprocated,
But yet again, if they were, I'm won't take it.
Haix. Again this whole flesh thing...
Jesus.. Please save me..

Here I am in the hotel room, back in Taiwan for the second time,
With my Sis sleep beside me, and I'm wide awake, lay beside.
My heart is thinking not of the man I'm going to marry,
But of the stolen water that taste sweet inside.
Yet this stolen water is only but one sided flow,
And it was all just in my mind.

It's been off and on this had happen,
I agreed I was too confident that I'm better than the last.
Yet everytime I fail, hands down, but I'm shaken again, sieve around.
Jesus, I'm really tired of being Romeo,
Cause I know this just ain't right.
But the more I put this law in me,
the more my determination fails me.

Lord save me from being Romeo.
My flesh dwells nothing but rot and corruption...
I'm letting go to fall into the eagle's trap,
But I know You wont let me.
My trust in You Lord Jesus,
Is in Your love that You showed in the beginning.
The cross..

many people talk the talk... but omit the walk,
there's others walk the walk... but omit the talk..
but i think no one can ever achieve both the talking and the walking...
can we?
have you ever wonder what would the world be, if we just..
Talk the talk and walk the talk?
i mean wad will life be?

Well, there's positive and negative effects to this:
Positive: is when people do this, we get assure of what the other party feels, and also know that he definitely will carry it out..
Negative: is when people are angry, they say foolish things like "i'm going to murder him!", and the next thing you know.. the person is D.E.A.D..
But i guess a mixture of both talk and walk and lies are part and parcel of balancing the world...
then there's this sad thing... lies in the human communication world...

I think human basically is just so sad...
we lie to get others comforted,
we sweet talk to get things done in life...
we put a front face so that everyone will just feel good about us,
but seriously, come to think about it, how much minutes that that particular person have in our lives?
why are impressions so darn important?
since when is it important?
Have everyone forgotten about how they are when they are a child?
they are.......... A CHILD! they are they themselves... so when does all this acting, lying, and impressions all take place?
weird isn''t it?
Of coz, i'm can't omit out "the world is changing" stuff,
but letting that statement rule us... hahaha, so where have our stand went?

Basically, what is happening in my world, i totally am not understanding it...
money becomes top priority in my parent eyes...
distrust, hurt and insecurity,temptrant, well...
i am getting tired of alot of what's going on at home..
everyday i'm counting the minutes, and just kinda can't breathe in here...
people don't talk anymore..
it's command and conquer..
people don't smile anymore..
it's who pull the longest face win...
people don't laugh anymore...

wow~

I actually forgot what is it like to just R.E.S.T at home~
my house is just like a war zone~

But i still like to hide in this tiny room of mine..
and like to shut the door...
coz there's always a Someone waiting for me..
to always hold me in His arm and never let go...

I could breathe again in this room,
in this little place He has called home..
and i'm satisfy coz of Him,
coz He is the Name above them all..
Praise the Name of Jesus Christ...
Coz at the very end...
I still have Him by my side..
*Smiles*

-Falling in love every minute with Jesus!-

i just like the way You brush through my hair,
i just like the way You smile...
i just like the way You keep quiet when i'm throwing tantrums...
I just love Your ways...

In the midst of my worries...
In the midst of my laughter...
In the midst of my boredom...
there You are...

You are more than a friend,
more than a brother,
more than a lover,
more than anyone and anything in this world..

I love to just spread my hands up high,
and raise my head up,
with a deep breathe...
There!
Your embrace... is just so amazingly... good.

So let me be abit selfish..
let me have all of Your love..
let me taste You,
let my eyes see You only,
and let me melt in Your gentleness...

For Your love is better than life..
and Your kiss, is so much better than anything else in this world...

I love You Lord, because You first love me...

Forever Yours,
Deborah

I believe now, at a time like this, everyone's first tot is yup, it's goin to be end of world..
but is it really the end of the world?

This is only just the beginning,
and beloved child of God , if u are feeling afraid right now,
Don'T!
Stand and believe in the awesome Love of God for you, and trust me, The Lord is not behind these disasters.
Let the world say wad they like,
after all they are blind, and they want Us, the light of God to be as blind as them..
but nevertheless,
be alert, and watch, how the Lord is going to bring forth His light in us.
And rejoice!

Praise God!

I'm a super traditional girl, living in a too fast going world, and couldn't understand it any sooner.
Very funnily, i used to tot i was a outgoing girl, those that can adapt fast to the surrounding, but now, guess not. i couldn't accept changes, or rather since when i couldn't accept them?

I dun like the world honestly.
it's either the world has changed, or i have changed.
my old friend said that i had changed,
some prefer the old me, and others prefer the new. but when it boils down to me, i prefer the new me, coz i m liketa. jus liketa.

I cry to the Lord yesterday.
i mean, i wasn't honest with Him, and Pastor Prince words just shook me up last sunday.
I try to be someone i'm not, and all the while, Abba knows, and He just continues to love. Then just yesterday, i cried. I said, "Lord, it's not for ur benefit that i'm doing this, after all, You know me better than i do. So here's what, I'm just goin to lay all my cards on the table, and i'm just goin to be me, in front of you." As i list up just one by one, me, in all shape and sizes, i just look at those "cards" and cry. i have more than a deck in my hand, but when i look at Him, my dealer, i was always afraid to just throw my cards out, scare that He will look at me with another face.

Finally, i asked Him the most forbidden question that i know i shouldn't ask. "Do you still love me?", i asked, just so ashamed to look Him in the eye, so afraid to be thrown away. feeling the tension in my heart, i hurry changed my question, telling Abba that it was not Him that i'm upset with. it's me. Then He replied, nothing but a hug, and push my head to His bosom. and just that, i knew, that was all i need.

Sometimes, i just dunno why i asked myself so much question, when the answer is very simple.
i m stubborn.
I m arrogant.
I look down on people.
I like my own style.
I hate changes.
I like to be with myself.
I don't like to go out.
I like to just sleep my time away.
I don't like to read the bible.
I like people to like me.
I like respect.
I like statues.
I like position.
I m not willing to bow my head.
But...
All in all,
This is who i m,
And He is who He is.
He is more than enough, and the more blessed One lives in me,
and He's abundance completes my lack.
therefore,
He is the One living in me.
And His grace and love swallows up all my nonsense.
So that i can stand in the presence of my Abba and shout Father! Abba!
that it is Jesus I m relying on now.
Not meiyun, not Deborah, not my knowledge or smartness.
But to the One who die and rise up for my sake,
I shall boast in my weakness,
coz that's where His strength is made perfect!

Forever Yours and Yours alone,
Deborah