Friday, August 19

i am too blessed....

i used and still used to thinking I am so blessed....

hope that i will not be so blessed, hehee....silly thot right, so that I can be "viewed" not as a "protected, too blessed girl", so that I can let pple view me as been thro' a lot.....so that I share gospel, pple know n convinced GOD is real !

sigh, I can't pretend (tho I do hv my share of coming across evil pple, have bad frens and experiences in life).....indeed I am so blessed.

IF i am too blessed, I give to others.

If I am deemed as too blessed, can't be "viewed" as a person who share abt God, it is ok. I believe God will speak positively to the pple !

pple in my life

i realise 24/7 i get in touch with pple.
colleagues, frens, church mates, new pple, family...

people relationships are fragile
colleagues and i are ok
frens and i are ok

just when i get so confused why some pple dont seem to understd
tho i try my best to communicate,
i realise i lack the personal touch

sometimes i 'talk' on the email too much
just need to see and talk to the person FACE to FACE !


fast from computers....
fast from making too many frens
JUST a few frens are good !!!!!!!!!!!

Dun need to care so much too...
just care for the pple who are in my path daily
a little bit of the sense of God's timing
seasoned with love and thought for them !

Frens.....are treasures

for those thinking of the issue of TRUST

For those who are looking for help in their time of crisis . . . TrustGo back to Trust web site

What Trust Looks Like
What does trust look like when we can’t explain our trouble, or see beyond it?
Listening to others as they try to show faith in crisis can be confusing. Some say they are “believing God” for a job, restored health, a reconciled marriage, or the return of a prodigal. Others say reliance on Him means accepting that His ways are not necessarily our ways.
In the waiting room of prayer and helplessness, I’ve concluded that questions about what it means to trust God can be almost as troubling as the problem itself. I’ve also discovered that it is for those struggles that the wisdom of the Bible has been given to us.
Don’t be too hard on yourself. The most godly men and women of the past were deeply disturbed by the crises of their lives. King David wouldn’t eat or be comforted as he pleaded with God for the life of his dying child (2 Samuel 12:16-17). Even though David was a man after God’s own heart, the songs and groans of his life reflect recurring fear and despair (Psalm 6:1-7). Job’s experience was similar. In the dark nights of his loss, his first expressions of trust turned to bitter anguish (Job 3:1-26). Then there was childless Hannah. Her prayers for a baby were so deep and emotional that her priest accused her of being drunk (1 Samuel 1:13-15). Even the apostle Paul had “great heaviness and continual grief” for unsaved family and friends (Romans 9:2). Together they show us that trust can cry, and groan, and even doubt.
Expect to be misunderstood by others. In times of profound loss and concern, even our best friends will try to make sense of what has happened to us. They may forget that people do not suffer in proportion to their wrongs. Some pay quickly for their mistakes. Others do not. Some suffer for being foolish while others are punished for being wise (Psalm 73:1-14).
Such irony complicated the ancient tragedy of Job. When his friends heard him express bitterness and despair, they wrongly assumed that he was suffering for a secret sin (Job 4:1-9). Although they came to his side to divide his pain, they ended up multiplying it (Job 16:2).
Don’t be afraid to be honest with God. An elderly Abraham laughed at the absurdity of God’s promise to make him the father of many nations. Jacob wrestled with his Lord over the uncertainty of what lay ahead. David openly expressed his despair and helplessness in circumstances beyond his control. Job accused God of being unfair.
When heaven seemed to be ignoring them, they said so. When they thought they had an argument, they expressed it. They learned to trust God in the dark valleys of their doubts.
Take one step at a time. Sometimes it helps to break the journey down into small steps. Jesus encouraged us not to worry about tomorrow since today has enough of its own problems (Matthew 6:34). In the weakness of turbulent and unsteady emotions we may need to settle for short steps, the wisdom of the moment (James 1:6), and the present reassurance of the one who says, “I will never leave you nor forsake you” (Hebrews 13:5).
Don’t be self-destructive. In times of disappointment or distress we need to avoid quick fixes that are harmful or self-destructive. None of us can afford addictions that kill the pain for the moment but complicate our problems in the long run. While there is a time for sedatives and pain killers (Proverbs 31:6-7), they can be abused at great risk to ourselves and others (Proverbs 31:4-5; 20:1). We also need to ask God to help us avoid taking out our anxiety, anger, or despair on those around us. Lashing out can be its own kind of addiction.
Don’t underestimate God. One of the great truths of the Bible is that when we are helpless, God is not. A wise person has said, “Of this I am sure: There is a God. And it’s not me.” If God doesn’t answer our prayers in the time and manner that we’ve asked, it’s because He can see what we cannot.
Joseph learned to trust God after being sold into slavery by his older brothers. When he was reunited with them later in life, he was able to say, “As for you, you meant evil against me; but God meant it for good” (Genesis 50:20).
Ask but don’t demand. In desperate circumstances we are apt to think we know what we need from God. Like a small child who cannot be consoled, we are inclined to beg Him for what we want, when we want it. In those moments God understands our weakness and fear. Yet He is also the One who uses the depth of the Grand Canyon, the power of Niagara, or the wonder of the night sky to calm us in His presence (Job 38–41). Christian philosopher Francis Schaeffer observes, “When I am in the presence of God, it seems profoundly unbecoming to demand anything” (see Job 42).
Doubt yourself. Job finally got to the place of doubting himself more than he doubted God. After being reminded of the eternal power and infinite genius of the God of creation, he fell to his knees. From a heart that was both broken and relieved, Job said, “I know that You can do everything, and that no purpose of Yours can be withheld from You. You asked ‘who is this who hides counsel without knowledge?’ Therefore I have uttered what I did not understand, things too wonderful for me, which I did not know . . . . I have heard of You by the hearing of the ear, but now my eye sees You” (Job 42:2-6).

Father in heaven, we want to trust You. But sometimes we get so confused. Please forgive us for wanting answers so that we don’t have to trust You. Thank You for being so patient with us. Please help us to have the same patience with You, as we wait to see that Your plans and timing are better than our own.

Tuesday, August 9

love my family, my frens and myself !

so happy.............
life is beautiful.
work is tough but I see God's grace unfold in my life, esp when I have many colleagues who are down, I can sense the grace and strength of God in my life even more.

Like being so serene and safe. Hope is blossoming in the workplace tho boss and clients can be tough

Monday, August 1

it's cool to be me

finally,
growing to an extent, being comfortable in my own skin....i.e. who I am
and also,
what else I wish to see in my life....change, grow, 'throw away'

------------shining !!!!!!!! ----------------

not being perfect

Sorry, i can't be PERFECT! says:
you not sensitive to ppl?
Sorry, i can't be PERFECT! says:
haha
Esther-Huijun ~ Jia You. may I be more sensitive to other people ! says:

E:
i want to b more sensitive ma. Shine for Jesus
E:
btw Cathleen and I met wif Jo yest
E:
praise God
S:
i see hows cat?
S:
wanted to ask you for awhile but kept forgetting
S:
btw did someone says that you are not sensitive towards ppl?
E:
she is good
E:
no, nobody said
E:
i just wana be more sensitive, not that I am not already sensitive
S:
haha
S:
i always believe that no wind no waves..
S:
so if you do think that you wanna be more sensitive meaning you do think you are not sensitive enough
S:
hee

S:
so i see that there is a reason for your conviction
S:
man do things with a reason
E:
i believe in a step at a time
E:
and thus, it is not abt being perfect
E:
but growing into perfection
S:
but you may just be an exception'
S:
haha
S:
hmmmmm you reading my nick ain't you
S:
haha
E:
we are only perfect (in Christlikeness) only the day we meet Jesus face to face