=0) naughty

haha
i hv been naughty recently

scolded some colleagues, quarrelled with two frens....frustrated easily and almost wanted to scream at some pple in the MRT !
......
goodness

MC, at rest today at home !!!!!!

yippeeeee.... at rest at home...the doc is good, the medicine prescribed is really appropriate and effective.

Wrapped the remaining of presents... cleared my email...yeah, packed my luggage ! joy JOY Joy joy JOY JoY....Going to sleep soon

a mistake at work

forgot to post this....
last week, i was incharge of a launch at work. Becoz I didnt delegate sufficiently for the launch's RSVP, and was too occupied signing the prospects, the turn-out for that day was very poor.
VERY very jia lat

I was praying throughout for more pple, yet i knew that it was my mistake, I hve to bear the consequences...

was quite sad for a while, but after tat ok, coz i learnt my mistake. MOVE on then.

very stressed at work

had been very stressed at work......coz lotsa to do....but completed a few stuffs all these while.......hehe, lagging behind in my postings....

God is good, He helped me survive the tedious "going-arounds" to look for clients and get back the cheques ~! actually I really dun know much abt the pricing and terms, so during negotiation, trying my best ---relying on God as my "seventh sense" !!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i ran so fast..........

very very very happy this month, ran the Std Marathon quarter marathon in good timing.........7.14min for per km on average !!!!!!!!!! =0) i am pleased with the result and the hard work I put in is worth in, and definitely, the amazing strength and power fr God, who multiplied the energy within me, coz I never ran so fast/consistently....
=0)

Will try training for the 21kim in 2006 and aim for it end of 2006 !!!!!!!!

a miracle happend today. out of my stressful work/cold/others

=0)
tasted God's goodness again today.....

there are too many stuff to do, my life too routine and packed too, job not satisfying as I have wished....etc. Haha, even quarrelled with one fren.

What's wrong with me/ life ? !

=p Think I going to 'collapse' sort of again. But thank God, He is that invisible 'force'/person again, who pieces in the missing jigsaw and tho i still hv a headache (becoz of the cold temperature in office/Spore...yucks), work still hv to do, job still the same......but I found the overcoming strength to deal with the mundane, to keep going.

if you understd wat i mean.
=0)
AND positively I know I do not make great decisions all the time nor excel in wat I do (as in people's standards)...but the LIGHT is at the every darkness tat appears.

Cheers !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

remembered 2 verses earlier on:
a) "........and I am sure of this, that He who began a good work in you will be faithful to bring it onto completion..."

b) "...do any of you lack wisdom? for if you do, ask God who gives generously. However if you doubt, you will be tossed back and forth like the waves"

Jesus - He was born to demonstrate for us His love

God Becomes Flesh by Ron Rose

Matthew 1:18-25; Luke 2:1-21
Mary and Joseph were in Bethlehem when Jesus was born. Due to crowded conditions in the town, they were forced to stay in a stable. In fact, Jesus spent his first night in human form sleeping in a hay-filled feed trough. While God was getting used to breathing on his own and learning to cry, Bethlehem slept. The Son of the Almighty was now wrapped in human skin — fragile, hungry, dependent; the Father had placed his only Son in the loving care of a young novice mother, living among everyday folks.
Christ himself was like God in everything. But he did not think that being equal with God was something to be used for his own benefit. But he gave up his place with God and made himself nothing. He was born to be a man and became like a servant. And when he was living as a man, he humbled himself and was fully obedient to God, even when that caused his death — death on a cross. So God raised him to the highest place. God made his name greater than every other name so that every knee will bow to the name of Jesus — everyone in heaven, on earth, and under the earth. And everyone will confess that Jesus Christ is Lord and bring glory to God the Father. PHILIPPIANS 2:6-11 Mary and Joseph were in Bethlehem when Jesus was born. Due to crowded conditions in the town, they were forced to stay in a stable. In fact, Jesus spent his first night in human form sleeping in a hay-filled feed trough. While God was getting used to breathing on his own and learning to cry, Bethlehem slept. The Son of the Almighty was now wrapped in human skin — fragile, hungry, dependent; the Father had placed his only Son in the loving care of a young novice mother, living among everyday folks.
The people of Bethlehem were unaware that the Savior of the world, the Messiah, the Christ, the Prince of Peace, the Son of God, was sleeping in an ordinary stable just up the street and around the corner. They didn’t hear the angels bursting forth in song, announcing his birth. They weren’t looking for a star leading heaven and earth to the back alleys of Bethlehem.
But the shepherds were awake, tending their sheep, possibly on the very hillsides David roamed with his flocks centuries before. Suddenly the shepherds were surrounded by dazzling brightness as an angel brought the announcement that had been anticipated for centuries. These nameless men were the first to hear God’s incredible news — the birth of the Messiah.
God had opened the windows of heaven, and for a moment the shepherds could see the glory of the Lord and hear the praises of the angels. Jesus had traded his home in the presence of God for the loving arms of an ordinary couple, from an ordinary town, in an ordinary corner of the world.
Reflection: Jesus voluntarily left the glory of heaven for the vulnerable, helpless confines of a newborn human body. He came to earth, not with the demands of a tyrant king, but as a gift. As Mary rejoiced, angels sang, and shepherds marveled, God presented the divine to humanity in a form it could understand — its own frail form.

an article from www.drybonesdenver.org

"Hello Officer Johnson, this is Captain Black. ... Yeah, we've got a D.O.A. here by the river ... Yep, I'm sure he's dead ... some kid ... these ministers came and told me that there was a dead guy in the park ... they led me down there, we searched through the bushes, and we found him."
Tonight was one of the toughest nights on the streets yet for me. Every Thursday night, for the past four years, we've rented out a pool hall. We invite all of our friends, the street kids, to come inside for free pool and an opportunity to feel normal. Nothing about tonight felt normal for me.
It was one of those "first-ever-experiences" that I would just rather not ever have had.
Three street kids, all of them good friends, came running up to Robbie and me at the pool hall. "We were just down by the Platte River walking on our way over here and we found a dead guy."
These kids were scared out of their minds. Scared because they didn't know what to do. Scared because they were afraid that they were somehow going to get in trouble. And scared mostly because, well, it could have been one of them. "I think he must have overdosed or something ... we touched him and he was ... cold," said one of the kids.
Robbie and I offered to go and handle the situation. We knew that there was an off-duty police officer working security at some apartments nearby. We told the kids that we would go talk to him. From here, the night only seemed to get darker.
The three kids took us to a lookout and pointed in the general direction of the body. Robbie and I then went by ourselves and found the off-duty policeman. Captain Black drove us through the park down to the river. We got out and began walking towards the water through the tall dead grass and overgrown bushes.
With a lump in my throat, butterflies in my stomach, and adrenaline flowing through my body, I said, "Don't think that he will be here on the trail. I think he's probably up in the bushes. The kids said that he was in his squat."
After a few minutes of searching, the beam of light from the officer's MagLight lit a small pile of clothing. When we rounded the big bush and looked down, there he was. He was no old "homebum" like I thought he would be. He was a young kid. He was a street kid. I knew his face. I'd seen him walking down the street within the past month at least twice; though I never even knew his name.
His face was now white, his lips purple, his body curled up into a tiny ball.
So THIS is where life ends? Beside a nasty dirty river? In a squat uninhabitable for human life? Overdosed on heroine? Dark? Alone?
We made our way back up to Captain Black's car. We called on-duty police officers. The fire department, ambulance, and homicide showed up. The atmosphere soon lit up like an episode of C.S.I. ... only real. We filed our reports and left the scene. I'm sure there will be no murder conviction. It's hard in a court of law to convict absentee and abusive parents, drug lords, heroine itself, and even the Prince of Darkness.
We met back up with our 80 plus street kids, now at our weekly meal in that very same park; the flashing police lights just in the distance. The mood was somber. The kids asked quiet questions.
One of the kids who had found the body pulled me aside. I asked him if he was okay. Staring at the ground, he said, "Yeah." He was not telling the truth. I asked him what he was thinking. He said, "I'm tired of my friends dying."
I asked, "Did you know that kid?" He said that he didn't, but could have so easily. He knew that that kid hadn't been in town long enough for him to know him. He began listing the names of his friends that he knew were "next." I asked him if that could have been him. He looked up at me and said nothing. This time, his eyes spoke the truth.
He walked away. My teammates surrounded me. I cried.
I, too, am tired of my friends dying. It's a part of the business I'm in. In four years, I know of at least 10 of my street friends that have died. I've been a part of one of their funerals. But I've never even seen a single body. Tonight ... Tonight this was too real. The image of his face will be with me forever.
Back at the pool hall, Nikki was having a conversation with a young girl. She was crying. It had been another bad day. She says to Nikki, "I'm tired of people being [expletive] ... I guess it doesn't really get better for people like me."
I so desperately want these kids to know:
There is a LIFE where your friends aren't killing themselves slowly and taking you with them.
I feel the gravity of living in desperate times.
There is a LIFE where love is real and is not dependant on sex or filled with abuse.
There is a LIFE where everyone around you isn't held captive by drugs.
There is a LIFE where you don't have to sleep beside a river or underneath a bridge or in a storm drain.
There is a LIFE where you really can trust people.
A LIFE where people don't stab you in the back day after day.
There is a LIFE that begins NOW and goes on forever.
There is a LIFE that is filled with a supernatural LOVE.
There is a LIFE that doesn't end in the cold, dark, bushes beside the Platte River.
There is more than this so-called living.
There is LIFE.
Tonight I feel the gravity of living in desperate times. LIFE must be lived. And we have got to show the way to LIFE.
"The Spirit of the Lord is upon me, for he has appointed me to preach Good News to the poor. He has sent me to proclaim that captives will be released,
that the blind will see, that the downtrodden will be freed from their oppressors, and that the time of the Lord's favor has come." (Luke 4:18-19 NLT as Jesus explains his mission.)

Rejoice ! His banner over you is LOVE

The LORD your God is with you, he is mighty to save. He will take great delight in you, he will quiet you with his love, he will rejoice over you with singing.
Zephaniah 3:17,

so stressed at work...

never been so stressed at work before....maybe had work to rush/reports to submit/politics in office...but this time is the clients....so incorrigible. They dun have much to offer but want to bargain for us till we are dry...

I gotta to be tough and ask God for extra wisdom !

Patience !!!!!!!!!

"trying" patience haha....
during the waiting time !

intersting article

Paul Harvey made the phrase "The rest of the story" famous by taking a well-known story or personality and filling in the blanks or background with "the rest of the story." Getting "the rest of the story" is becoming more and more important to me as I seek to understand individuals and help them find their way along life's journey. I have learned that for most people, what you see is only part of the story. If we can ever get beneath the surface with them, we can move toward "the rest of the story." When we do, then we often see a different person and we will have a more complete understanding of who they are.
I was heading home from the office and passed by a man mowing his lawn near the street. I noticed that as cars passed he stopped mowing and turned the mower away from the street. I surmised that there was a reason for what he did. Perhaps he had been in a car that was hit by debris from a mower. Or, perhaps he had been mowing when a rock flew from the mower and hit a passing car, or a child, or a window in the house. I wonder about "the rest of the story."
I had always received good service at this particular restaurant, but this day was different. The young lady who seated me was quiet and distracted. The woman who waited on me was abrupt and impatient. Even the man sweeping the floor seemed unusually unpleasant. Something was wrong. Something must have happened. There must be something more to this story.
The family had attended our church for quite sometime, but a few months ago they stopped. Several calls and visits were made. Concern was expressed. They politely thanked us for our concern, but offered no explanation for why they left. I later learned that there was trouble in the home — alcohol, drugs, and an affair. They had been too ashamed to come back. Most will never know "the rest of the story."
We were not close to the family, but we saw them regularly and had visited with them a few times. We noticed that the last few times we saw them that the husband was not with them. The reasons varied. "He is at work." "He has gone fishing." "He is not feeling well." There was always a reasonable explanation. However, I later learned that he was no longer in the home. That is part of "the rest of the story."
To get the real story, we must look deeper.The man had been a dependable worker for years. He seldom missed a day without a very good reason. He was almost always on time. He always had a positive attitude. His patterns changed. He was coming in late. He looked as if he had not slept. The quality of his work was declining. There was talk that he might lose his job if things continued. We later discovered that his wife was very sick. "The rest of the story" makes a big difference.
So what? What difference does knowing "the rest of the story" make? As we go though our day, we meet many people who tell us their stories. Each person will send a message. Sometimes we get it, sometimes we don't. Many times we miss the real story because we are satisfied with what's on the surface. We often see only what our eyes can see and what our ears can hear. To get the real story, we must look deeper. We must listen with our heart. We must see what most others will not see.
When we know the real story, we can respond differently. When we know the whole story we can understand — we can be sympathetic and we can be empathetic. We can respond to the real person instead of the person he or she presents to the public.
Jesus was able to see beyond the surface. He knew what the disciples were thinking even when they could not admit their selfish ambitions. He knew what His critics were thinking, and spoke to the heart of their issues. When the Spirit lives in us and we are willing to listen with our hearts, we will be able to see and hear beneath the surface, behind the façades, and beyond the barriers. We will be able to respond like Jesus would have us respond because we care about "the rest of the story"!

cOmmuniCate !

We all need to communicate more, face to face in times when we have unforgiveness, misunderstanding, etc. And esp. when we are down, we need to rest.

Esp. since relationships are fragile and as we grow older, we have misgivings (bad experience) and personal conceptions....

Indeed many of us have many schedules, sometimes we neglect communication. Also, sometimes the styles of communication can be so different that the receiving party forgets the problem is style of communication; not negative/ personal attack.

We all need to listen more too, listening is part of a positive communication. This is necessary for everybody, especially so in families - which we often take for granted that we will always be around. Don't you see that we only miss our family fondly if they die-pass away ?

Last but not the least, I rem my fren telling me the problem she had, that if she opens her heart, pple will judge her. True, we need to share with wisdom, not to everybody. Slowly, we all know the kinds of pple to avoid. And, the styles of communication in different stages of our relationships ( when we can have mutual understandin and space to 'express' instead of just superficial sharing due to doubt/fear ) Meanwhile, we need to put away past/ present bad experiences to truly communicate and listen.

dreaming with faith and reality

dreaming new dreams for myself, wif GOD

Courage -to change the things I can;
Serenity - to accept the things I can't; n
WISDOM -to know the difference.

Somethg I learnt abt love (thru stubborn periods now awake) - it does not work e way I thot... had the courage to try, the serenity now is waiting n the wisdom as in self-control.

Love really takes a lot. Are u ready ? Is the person ready ? Waiting is not futile. Trying can hurt if rush/ loneliness/fear is the factor. HOWEVer, being a perfectionist means u r jus waiting for ur love to be like a white-horse-prince/ princess. I guess we all wait for some kind of match...looks do matter but in the long term, we want someone comfy, same values and wavelength....plus faithfulness. He or she shouldnt be jus someone who comes along.

Rem: Mars n Venus meet n dun know they r actually a match-made in heaven ? He/she ready, u ready....hmm... don't fix ur eyes on love. Ask me abt Jesus who is LOVE & the creator of LOVE !

U can see by know i am 'chong hey' , I am fun-loVing, sensible, VeRi k-po, sincere, not funny...haha. Loves f00d, dAnCE (ballet or jazz--even tho I am not v good at them yet), explore, drive.

To cherish my family, good frens, ok job, terrific God. Enjoy friends n doing new things. I thank God! I love children and hope to be a missionary next time.
Work towards present goal for 2005 : run a mini-marathon. Other interests which I hope to invest more time in --climbing one mountain soon, a New Job/ passion in job...and more ballet/dance.

James 1 --starting from verse 6 "
If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives....

a book to recommend

new finding !

This book talks the lingo we know in our lostness, bewilderment and search for ans. I was stuck, coz the first two chapters are ridiculous. but come to 3rd and 4th chapters, they struck a mysteriously real chord in me.

If you are walking somewhat lost in the world -- even as a christian, saying something like " I am a small, small girl in a big, big world...." ; perhaps " my heart is losing faith " or even something like " I am hanging on, God, I am hanging on - why is it.......".

Or simply NOT satisfied by the canned answers you get from the sermons/ christian frens....dunno why....

The title of the book : "The Sacred Romance"
co-authored by 2 men, Brent Curtis & John Eldredge.
Not whimpy, not moaning, not (just) about quoting bible verses....

explosive but revealing. The irony; the extreme pulls from God and "real life" aka ......
There are inserts of examples fr movies and Shakesphere....
refreshing.

HAPPYeeeeeeeeee

FinALLY.......
praise God, a very tedious and long negotiation process is coming to an end soon.

THANK GOD for His divine intervention. NEED to rest, focus, and continue on. Especially i know some weird stuff may crop up or difficulty comes along.
THIS is an encouragement for the work put in these weeks and months.

排队篇
·选择一：乖乖排队
没什么特别，就是拿了号码牌，乖乖排队上阵，中规中矩。
·选择二：插队
想一步登天？就得先拿出看家本领上擂台先露一“口”，如果你的伶牙俐齿能够让台下三位评审信服，就可直接上楼挑战，不需排队。
挑战篇
·选择一：淘汰
残酷一叮之后，摸摸鼻子，认输回家去。

·选择二：上诉
不服气？到楼下的擂台再“单挑”一次，挑战成功的话将再获面试机会；失败了，就当作是多个经验嘛！

选择多了，机会也多了；却还是状况百出，有的参赛者表演绕口令、相声、朗诵诗歌，还有人连七月歌台也搬来了；更有人搞不清楚状况，一上唱就大开金口演唱自编歌曲；甚至有人搞不清楚亮“红”灯是OUT还是IN，站着发愣不肯离去……种种“奇特”的表演让现场的评审、记者和工作人员傻眼。 轻松一下，先来看参赛者的精彩录像：·相声，句句精彩－－可惜评审一致认为他的打扮、表演都太老气了。OUT！ << 点击看录像·颁奖礼－－有模有样，可惜太严肃拘谨。OUT！ << 点击看录像
·正牌空服员上场教你做机舱安全示范，这都想得到，算你狠！IN！ << 点击看录像
·精通双语的参赛者，不是华语和英语；而是淡米尔语哦。多才多艺，IN！ << 点击看录像

·用说的还不够，还要加上唱的才行！可惜……评判不赏脸。OUT！ << 点击看录像

·明星脸？老套的招数了。没创意，OUT！ << 点击看录像

·新加坡版NONO和吴宗宪插队成功！ << 点击看录像

·我要超越小S…可惜我OUT了！ << 点击看录像

接着，看看以下几位“出位”的参赛者。

“星级”支持者
“明星偶像”参赛者“小眼睛”谢春汉到场为两位好朋友蔡玲枫（17岁，学生）以及傅国荣（17岁，学生）加油。他在现场站了整整一个下午，毫无怨言，一路挺到底。

经过好几个小时的外场“观战”，谢春汉认为两位好朋友绝对有机会，原因无他∶“他们比较活泼又有实力。”
谢春汉对丰富的奖金奖品完全无动于衷，也不想“跳槽”。他说：“这个比赛比较难啦。奖金这么丰富，门槛当然也会比较高。”果然有见地。
龅牙男独领风骚
外表差一点没有关系，我们不是征求“偶像” 主持人。（你看人家李国煌虽不是偶像派，还是那么吃得开。）就算你其貌不扬，但是口才、反应能够让王禄江刮目相看，你就成功了。
在场记者一致看好龅牙男。

龅牙男真实身份是∶
陈玉能（21岁）国大中文系一年级学生，担任“联合早报”学生通讯员7年，曾上过8次由权怡凤主持的【有话就说】，口才了得。
陈玉能出奇制胜，自制了一个看板，看板上贴着7 个号码牌，号码牌下则写着不同艺人。评审可以随选一个号码，陈玉能将模仿属于该号码的艺人。

“评审看了这么多人的表演，一定会麻木了，所以我设计了一些有趣的游戏。”

可惜……
“我要你模仿权怡凤。”王禄江刁钻要求。
“好！可以！我就料到会有这个，我给你权怡凤。”二话不说，毫不怯场，立即来一段即兴演出。维妙维肖。

陈玉能成功晋级。有惊无险。

记者好奇要求他掀开底牌，有∶台湾名模林志玲、闪亮三姐妹、甜蜜教主王心凌、名模摆Pose16连拍、一人分饰二角演唱“屋顶”…可惜，好料沉底，都没有机会“现”。来日方长，不怕没有机会。

Wisdom

“ Listen to advice and accept instruction, and in the end you will be wise. Many are the plans in a man's heart, but it is the LORD's purpose that prevails. ”- Proverbs 19:20-21

something on christianity, buddhism & hinduism

Something I discover in last Sun - this word in Chinese called ' qun ' - I wish I can write in Chinese here.
The Chinese characters with two parts --Left side is a 'jun' [gentleman - lefthand side] and Right side is a 'yang' [goat- righthand side] .

Its meaning is herd/ group.

Realised its meaning is also King ( as 'jun' in Chinese also means 'wang' ) -as in Jesus and 'yang' in the bible is referred to humans; us. We are meant to be together side by side with Jesus ! 'Qun' - also means we are meant to be in a community.
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Also understood more abt buddhism and hinduism from a fren who attended classes. Briefly - in true buddhism and hinduism, there is no idols.

In buddhism, in the calling of spirits, there is a priest involved. In taoist, in connecting with the spirits, there is a medium involved.
Buddhism, there is buddha and he points the way, believes in enlightment. There is also a difference for the Tibetan buddhism, as there is a Dharma.

In Hinduism, there r three gods representing creator, destroyer and ...Just share a bit....as there are practices that r practiced by Indians which are religious, hindus know them as their way of life. Whereas for other Indians, that are just customs.
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If one day you are curious to read abt the bible, can go to www.biblegateway.com

Especially with regards to my first part on ' qun ' Chinese character, can type in key words 'JOHN 10', i.e. book of John chapter 10. Talks about God and us, and somebody else who only steals, kills and destroys.

office Politics

sharing a bit on office politics here.
Recently, I had the 'privilege' of going thro and surviving office politics. My dept is undergoing turmoil, getting very stifling. Xxx says this, Yyy says that. There are many issues each person has (esp. the senior staff).

The Head in charge wants to take control and prevent anybody else from leaving, etc.

Communication is positive and also deadly. Two persons (who are leaving) can say so much that they affect others positively OR negatively.... In short, everybody was guessing and trying to gain some support for their perspective. Haha, I was very sad and affected. However, also very glad today, as I saw a different perspective, that God was helping me to grow wiser.

Indeed God did mention, 'be as gentle as a dove, but also wise as a serpant' in this world.

So, just as another colleague and I wanted to do our jobs, we get hit too somehow. Thank God, I was hit very minimum. I shared with her, to just focus on her job. She really had a-near 'being blamed' situation. Very hard for her to not be angry.

Then I realise as I was sharing with her, it is okay to be angry as humans have feelings and in this case, as she was innocent. However, we all have to put in check our emotions from going hay-wire.
In her case, she checked her attitude (and herself acknowledged was wrong) thus she said sorry to the person who is blaming her. However, the person who is 'blaming' her cannot take the confrontational style of thrashing things out, thus I suggested to her, maybe email or talk face to face when cooled down (I learnt this fr fren- who shared face to face provides a PERSONAL TOUCH).
We both recognise that we cannot change anything, but just focus on the job. And when we are angry, resolve it, don't let it be overnight (i.e. before the sun goes down).

The office situation is stabilising. The Head probably still wants changes or rather, to squeeze each of us. But it is okay, most bosses are hard on cost-cutting and seldom think of employees' welfare.

Of the few issues that are happening, I find that most of my colleagues are troubled becoz Head is not paying the bonus etc. And becoz they work hard, it is quite reasonable to want to be appreciated by $.

I learnt that to be wise and not be bullied, it is good to think abt the situation before reacting.
Taking a break, say short walk along the corridor, or to the toilet, helps. Helps me not to react, not to part-take in the gossips.
Of coz, maybe Head will not change, and will not be objective, but at least I do my part being a good worker, OF COURSE, also wise, not being bullied (just be responsible for my part) and help when I can.

Words are very powerful, and I came to realise, if I can communicate positively or constructively, it really helps. If not, I should speak less. When I can contribute, God will help me and prompt me to do it wisely. Speak With Thought, not rashness.

God bless you all with strength, joy and wisdom, esp. during tough situations.

I learnt work is still just work. I make sure I do my work and help colleagues and fulfil what Boss requires. Other than that, I move on.
When I start looking for my next job, I need to know it is not just becoz of moving on.
I have to know what I am heading towards, is it the right direction ? Am I applying for a job for $/ fulfilling my passions/ reaching out to pple in the next job ?
And, I have other areas of my life worth developing too. I have pple like my family and frens, interests like dancing and jogging and trying out new interests....

I have the opportunity to talk to some male frens recently too, and I realise the kind of guy I really like have to be sincere, big-hearted and faithful. With the same vision and similar values.

On an ending note, it was a tough 2-3weeks going through the process. Process isn't easy, but I always GROW as I know there is always something (really) good.

I thank for putting me in two jobs so far that are challenging and the people are quite nice, not so bad.
Bosses can be tough or neglecting staff's welfare, but I get a chance to talk to them in the midst of the silly turmoils. As I was thinking of where to go next...I will try applying only for the jobs I know I really can fulfil the potential I have, if not, GOOD to stay where I am to learn meanwhile.
Just sharing.....(became a habit, sorry for the long email) update family/frens like you.

Regards,

i am too blessed....

i used and still used to thinking I am so blessed....

hope that i will not be so blessed, hehee....silly thot right, so that I can be "viewed" not as a "protected, too blessed girl", so that I can let pple view me as been thro' a lot.....so that I share gospel, pple know n convinced GOD is real !

sigh, I can't pretend (tho I do hv my share of coming across evil pple, have bad frens and experiences in life).....indeed I am so blessed.

IF i am too blessed, I give to others.

If I am deemed as too blessed, can't be "viewed" as a person who share abt God, it is ok. I believe God will speak positively to the pple !

pple in my life

i realise 24/7 i get in touch with pple.
colleagues, frens, church mates, new pple, family...

people relationships are fragile
colleagues and i are ok
frens and i are ok

just when i get so confused why some pple dont seem to understd
tho i try my best to communicate,
i realise i lack the personal touch

sometimes i 'talk' on the email too much
just need to see and talk to the person FACE to FACE !


fast from computers....
fast from making too many frens
JUST a few frens are good !!!!!!!!!!!

Dun need to care so much too...
just care for the pple who are in my path daily
a little bit of the sense of God's timing
seasoned with love and thought for them !

Frens.....are treasures

for those thinking of the issue of TRUST

For those who are looking for help in their time of crisis . . . TrustGo back to Trust web site

What Trust Looks Like
What does trust look like when we can’t explain our trouble, or see beyond it?
Listening to others as they try to show faith in crisis can be confusing. Some say they are “believing God” for a job, restored health, a reconciled marriage, or the return of a prodigal. Others say reliance on Him means accepting that His ways are not necessarily our ways.
In the waiting room of prayer and helplessness, I’ve concluded that questions about what it means to trust God can be almost as troubling as the problem itself. I’ve also discovered that it is for those struggles that the wisdom of the Bible has been given to us.
Don’t be too hard on yourself. The most godly men and women of the past were deeply disturbed by the crises of their lives. King David wouldn’t eat or be comforted as he pleaded with God for the life of his dying child (2 Samuel 12:16-17). Even though David was a man after God’s own heart, the songs and groans of his life reflect recurring fear and despair (Psalm 6:1-7). Job’s experience was similar. In the dark nights of his loss, his first expressions of trust turned to bitter anguish (Job 3:1-26). Then there was childless Hannah. Her prayers for a baby were so deep and emotional that her priest accused her of being drunk (1 Samuel 1:13-15). Even the apostle Paul had “great heaviness and continual grief” for unsaved family and friends (Romans 9:2). Together they show us that trust can cry, and groan, and even doubt.
Expect to be misunderstood by others. In times of profound loss and concern, even our best friends will try to make sense of what has happened to us. They may forget that people do not suffer in proportion to their wrongs. Some pay quickly for their mistakes. Others do not. Some suffer for being foolish while others are punished for being wise (Psalm 73:1-14).
Such irony complicated the ancient tragedy of Job. When his friends heard him express bitterness and despair, they wrongly assumed that he was suffering for a secret sin (Job 4:1-9). Although they came to his side to divide his pain, they ended up multiplying it (Job 16:2).
Don’t be afraid to be honest with God. An elderly Abraham laughed at the absurdity of God’s promise to make him the father of many nations. Jacob wrestled with his Lord over the uncertainty of what lay ahead. David openly expressed his despair and helplessness in circumstances beyond his control. Job accused God of being unfair.
When heaven seemed to be ignoring them, they said so. When they thought they had an argument, they expressed it. They learned to trust God in the dark valleys of their doubts.
Take one step at a time. Sometimes it helps to break the journey down into small steps. Jesus encouraged us not to worry about tomorrow since today has enough of its own problems (Matthew 6:34). In the weakness of turbulent and unsteady emotions we may need to settle for short steps, the wisdom of the moment (James 1:6), and the present reassurance of the one who says, “I will never leave you nor forsake you” (Hebrews 13:5).
Don’t be self-destructive. In times of disappointment or distress we need to avoid quick fixes that are harmful or self-destructive. None of us can afford addictions that kill the pain for the moment but complicate our problems in the long run. While there is a time for sedatives and pain killers (Proverbs 31:6-7), they can be abused at great risk to ourselves and others (Proverbs 31:4-5; 20:1). We also need to ask God to help us avoid taking out our anxiety, anger, or despair on those around us. Lashing out can be its own kind of addiction.
Don’t underestimate God. One of the great truths of the Bible is that when we are helpless, God is not. A wise person has said, “Of this I am sure: There is a God. And it’s not me.” If God doesn’t answer our prayers in the time and manner that we’ve asked, it’s because He can see what we cannot.
Joseph learned to trust God after being sold into slavery by his older brothers. When he was reunited with them later in life, he was able to say, “As for you, you meant evil against me; but God meant it for good” (Genesis 50:20).
Ask but don’t demand. In desperate circumstances we are apt to think we know what we need from God. Like a small child who cannot be consoled, we are inclined to beg Him for what we want, when we want it. In those moments God understands our weakness and fear. Yet He is also the One who uses the depth of the Grand Canyon, the power of Niagara, or the wonder of the night sky to calm us in His presence (Job 38–41). Christian philosopher Francis Schaeffer observes, “When I am in the presence of God, it seems profoundly unbecoming to demand anything” (see Job 42).
Doubt yourself. Job finally got to the place of doubting himself more than he doubted God. After being reminded of the eternal power and infinite genius of the God of creation, he fell to his knees. From a heart that was both broken and relieved, Job said, “I know that You can do everything, and that no purpose of Yours can be withheld from You. You asked ‘who is this who hides counsel without knowledge?’ Therefore I have uttered what I did not understand, things too wonderful for me, which I did not know . . . . I have heard of You by the hearing of the ear, but now my eye sees You” (Job 42:2-6).

Father in heaven, we want to trust You. But sometimes we get so confused. Please forgive us for wanting answers so that we don’t have to trust You. Thank You for being so patient with us. Please help us to have the same patience with You, as we wait to see that Your plans and timing are better than our own.

love my family, my frens and myself !

so happy.............
life is beautiful.
work is tough but I see God's grace unfold in my life, esp when I have many colleagues who are down, I can sense the grace and strength of God in my life even more.

Like being so serene and safe. Hope is blossoming in the workplace tho boss and clients can be tough

it's cool to be me

finally,
growing to an extent, being comfortable in my own skin....i.e. who I am
and also,
what else I wish to see in my life....change, grow, 'throw away'

------------shining !!!!!!!! ----------------

not being perfect

Sorry, i can't be PERFECT! says:
you not sensitive to ppl?
Sorry, i can't be PERFECT! says:
haha
Esther-Huijun ~ Jia You. may I be more sensitive to other people ! says:

E:
i want to b more sensitive ma. Shine for Jesus
E:
btw Cathleen and I met wif Jo yest
E:
praise God
S:
i see hows cat?
S:
wanted to ask you for awhile but kept forgetting
S:
btw did someone says that you are not sensitive towards ppl?
E:
she is good
E:
no, nobody said
E:
i just wana be more sensitive, not that I am not already sensitive
S:
haha
S:
i always believe that no wind no waves..
S:
so if you do think that you wanna be more sensitive meaning you do think you are not sensitive enough
S:
hee

S:
so i see that there is a reason for your conviction
S:
man do things with a reason
E:
i believe in a step at a time
E:
and thus, it is not abt being perfect
E:
but growing into perfection
S:
but you may just be an exception'
S:
haha
S:
hmmmmm you reading my nick ain't you
S:
haha
E:
we are only perfect (in Christlikeness) only the day we meet Jesus face to face

raining dragons and dinosaurs

it is not raining cats and dogs, it is raining dragons and dinosaurs now near my workplc !!!!!!!!!!!!! these 2 weeks, really bored at work....sigh

trying to do some constructive learning at work now....and yes, building up good relationships with fellow colleagues

welcome dear Aw family !!!!!

whoas !

welcome....
by the way,
I am bored at work last week and so, but so free, can write this now. That is all, dun worry, also work hard to clear all my stuff and do extra reading. Have to look at the right to click on the old postings (from last yr till this yr).

Btw, Sanshu, the pic which I posted of Abigail in my Friendster is her Chinese New Yr pic, cheery and cute !

sped like wind !!!!!! whoa, shiok

went jogging just now.....havent jogged for abt 9 days !!!!! and missed dance for the last THuR...so felt a bit guilty.

Yes, aiming towards the 5km SAF Benjamin Shears Bridge in Sept and 10km of Std Ch in Dec....

The acts of the sinful nature are obvious: sexual immorality, impurity and debauchery; 20idolatry and witchcraft; hatred, discord, jealousy, fits of rage, selfish ambition, dissensions, factions 21and envy; drunkenness, orgies, and the like...

But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23gentleness and self-control.

2nd post...following the previous one

E:
God is not like a vending machine
E:
thus many pple have a "mental block" why God is God
E:
rem the movie Bruce Almighty ?
E:
(did you watch ? starring Jim Carey)
M:
man can juz cheated on the gal & walked away ...like nobody biz...continue to enjoy his blessed life
E:
ya you mentioned that before
M:
yes..hv watch it
E:
maybe you will understand better if you realise men (includes women) are no longer pure

---> explanation, i.e. in our times, actually since many thousands yrs ago, Man (generic) has fallen, i.e. tendency to do bad
we can scheme
slander
kill
destroy
anything for own consumption, glory, desire, satisfaction etc.

Do we blame God for these ? Do we ask of Him to bless us in every way where it /the stuff may not be beneficial actually.
He can see the whole life we are going to live, just that He reveals to us day by day.....
yet we do not appreciate and always desire more, more, others......
What do we want actually,... we want to be god ?

when you really come to knoe God as who He is

an extract...
realise there can be/are misconceptions
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M says:
honestly i dun hv the faith in god right now
M says:
i very much wanted to trust him ...but i feel being let down by him
Esther-HuiJun - where is God when it hurts ? He is everywhere. Life can be unfair but GOD is gd says:
why
M says:
in term of relationship & work
Esther-HuiJun - where is God when it hurts ? He is everywhere. Life can be unfair but GOD is gd says:
and why is it attributed to God ?
M says:
wat is attributed to God , wat is not
M says:
is such a grey area
E:
huh
E:
for eg
E:
we fail our exams
E:
before our exams we prayed
E:
so if we fail, does that mean God is not gd / real ?

jus when I am feeling so sianz

Esther-HuiJun - Jesus loves the little children, all the children of the world says:
feeling zuo bo
God is good says:
use ur zuo bo time to do something else which u think meaningful
God is good says:

God is good says:
my job also quite zuo bo
God is good says:
busy time.only more work.not using the brain at all
God is good says:
then i read bible online
God is good says:
try not to think negatively
God is good says:

Prayer, Praise & Promises Daily Devotional
Warren Wiersbe walks us through the Psalms - updated daily
Title: Thanksgiving Message
Author: Warren Wiersbe

Read Psalm 73:1-28


Asaph begins by standing true in what he believes about God, but he slips because he starts to look at neighbors and becomes envious. He wonders why the wicked prosper. When he loses his praise, he starts stumbling and suffe
God is good says:
He should have sought answers by looking up, not by looking around or within.

Asaph understands the end of the evil ones. The key question is not "Where are you" but "Where are you going" Are you taking the broad road that leads to destruction or the narrow road that leads to life (v. 20) The psalmist looks to God and makes several discoveries. First, he discovers that we can be thankful for
God is good says:
the guarantee of His presence. His name is Immanuel, which means "God with us" (Matt. 1:23; Isa. 41:10; 43:2; Ps. 23:4).

God is good says:
Second, we have the grasp of His hand. We see God's powerful hand in creation. We see His gentle hand lead us beside the still waters. And we see His pierced hands on the cross as He dies for us.



God is good says:
Third, we have the guidance of His counsel. God's commands and commissions are for everyone, but He knows each of us personally. He knew us in the womb and has arranged for us the lives He wants us to live. Live one day at a time and walk one step at a time (Prov. 4:18). That counsel comes from the Word of God and through prayer.



God is good says:
Finally, we will have the glory of His heaven. As Christians, we know we are going to heaven because of the price Jesus paid on the cross (I Thess. 5:10), the promise He made (John 14:2,3) and the prayer He prayed (John 17:24). We may not understand completely today, but we have a future glory (I Pet. 1:3; II Pet. 1:11; Phil 4:4).

something nice to share

i suddenly rem something which I saw in new Zealand during tour
there was a christian sculptor artist and he made many creations and displayed during the art show.
there was a wooden sculptor and he described the love of Christ that led Him to die on the Cross for us....
and after three days, He resurrected, indeed to give us life !

God made each of us so SPECIAL.
We do not know yet His love and He first loved us.

Recently, the dance seminar I went re-ignited a love for God in me. AND, to know that God has given us much talents for EACH of us.
We do not have same talents, but we have sufficient talents in each of us. Talents which we are to be gd stewards of. Talents, when displayed, we go out to show others, what God has made us to be, born thru our parents on earth.
Passion - a tiny bit of demonstrating Christ has done in His passion !

I am so happy to dance and at the same time learnt so much from the dance professionals. They are really gd, and they also love God a lot.

dance was great and so was the past week

dear diary

DANCE COLLECTIVE was a great time for many who tries or loves dance to come together.
There were quite a no. of professional dancers who participated and also wana do something for God together.

It was really such a gd time the past week, meeting up with dancer NEW frens and some old frens,
and i celebrated my 26th birthday...quite quietly but amazing...
amazing love and grace from God fills my life again.

GOD BLESS YOU

www.dancecollective.net DANCE !

Hi !
have time this Sat ?

visit us dancing at ACS Barker Road Arts Centre Auditorium
www.dancecollective.net

THIS SAT 25 june 4:30pm to 6:30pm concert. $15

extract of a MSN conversation wif fren

Divine Exchange says:
i think i am too extreme too negative and too weak in praising and caring
Divine Exchange says:
recently i am struggling again
Divine Exchange says:
on my negativeness
Divine Exchange says:
and my extremism
Divine Exchange says:
because of that and a comment from a friend
Divine Exchange says:
i felt that i stood lowly
Divine Exchange says:
i realised and recognised that i am indeed made of those few qualities
Divine Exchange says:
and wish to change
Divine Exchange says:
for man, for God or for myself
Divine Exchange says:
haha
Esther-HuiJun - I am successful because of God who cares for me says:
i learnt
Esther-HuiJun - I am successful because of God who cares for me says:
that emotions
Esther-HuiJun - I am successful because of God who cares for me says:
are gd and bad
Esther-HuiJun - I am successful because of God who cares for me says:
extremists
Esther-HuiJun - I am successful because of God who cares for me says:
come from emotions
Esther-HuiJun - I am successful because of God who cares for me says:
i recently had a divine revelation, sharing fr the ballet teacher, a he
Esther-HuiJun - I am successful because of God who cares for me says:
he said that tho we can be emotional
Esther-HuiJun - I am successful because of God who cares for me says:
i.e. full of emotions
(esp gd for arts and artistic doings)

we must learn to control our emotions

by the Holy Spirit (this part you are right on track)

in periods where we are in the dark/lost

i.e. don't know where we are heading

or nothing seems to be happening,

we must learn to trust

wait upon God and continue to be faithful stewards

and contented

and God also told me we will have talents but we must learn to use talents accordingly , sometimes waiting for the timing fr God and of course when we are doing things which we do not excel and not happy/ excited/ happening, we continue doing, be happy and doing our best as we can

When I ask God -do You know ?

God,
do you know that I am just unhappy
and tired and sick and anger pent-up in me

When others want something
they try their means and demand from me
not enough, not enough

When I just say something which exposes
the superficial level of 'unity' and peace
they say i wreak the 'unity' and peace

Do they ever think they have any right to say that,
when they didnt stop to care for me
I gave up all my rights to love them

I tried so hard and waited so long
none of them came to me and sincerely by actions
When they said "I love you and thus will support you"

If really what they want from me
is just SMILE smile, listen listen
UNDERSTANDING,

Why don't they give that too
Yes, it is more blessed to give than to receive
coz they expect beyond that - unlimited

If only pple in authority can say words of discipline/rebuke
they shd already shown the credibility
or build towards that

I am not God
indeed I am not

God can see the hearts of men
He can see mine too

Why is it when I am wrong,
I can say sorry and admit and change
but when others are wrong,
they say I am wrong
and I shd be the one who change?

I find it unacceptable and ridiculous

Actually I am a hermit crab who came out of my shell
to live with community
despite all fears and un-naturality
I gave it a shot

Yes, to be honest,
I tried only for a while,
to be fair to them.

But, I admitted my wrong
and tried again

Is it because
when i tried again,
I gave too little time ?

Really so, God ?
I failed to see more better

God, it has been raining for ages
I feel refreshed.

It is as if You were crying together with me
But, is it crying coz You are sad that I am like this
or, You are crying
coz You know how sad I am ?

Anyway,
I am determined not to dwell in the past
nor to be rooted in bitterness.

God, clear my thoughts,
that the thoughts not from You
will not take root in me.

It is beyond me
totally blowing my mind.

Thoughts are confusing
and angry
and sad
and very depressing.

I was wallowing in them
and trying NOT to forget
doesn't help.


God, You know
if I have wrong,
You have disciplined me
now be my spokesperson
and defend me
grant me vindication
swiftly please.

hoW ?

dear God,
if one day I realise I can't get along with a person, so different from me, HOW ???? never realise I can be so irritated by one person.

I try not to think abt her

2 Corinthians 4
Treasures in Jars of Clay 1Therefore, since through God's mercy we have this ministry, we do not lose heart. 2Rather, we have renounced secret and shameful ways; we do not use deception, nor do we distort the word of God. On the contrary, by setting forth the truth plainly we commend ourselves to every man's conscience in the sight of God. 3And even if our gospel is veiled, it is veiled to those who are perishing. 4The god of this age has blinded the minds of unbelievers, so that they cannot see the light of the gospel of the glory of Christ, who is the image of God. 5For we do not preach ourselves, but Jesus Christ as Lord, and ourselves as your servants for Jesus' sake. 6For God, who said, "Let light shine out of darkness,"[a]made his light shine in our hearts to give us the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Christ.
7But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us. 8We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; 9persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. 10We always carry around in our body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be revealed in our body. 11For we who are alive are always being given over to death for Jesus' sake, so that his life may be revealed in our mortal body. 12So then, death is at work in us, but life is at work in you.
13It is written: "I believed; therefore I have spoken."[b]With that same spirit of faith we also believe and therefore speak, 14because we know that the one who raised the Lord Jesus from the dead will also raise us with Jesus and present us with you in his presence. 15All this is for your benefit, so that the grace that is reaching more and more people may cause thanksgiving to overflow to the glory of God.
16Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. 17For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. 18So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.

so tiring at work

Hi pals....
so tiring at work today.
=0) maybe didnt sleep well last night....
did an amazingly silly thing last nite but I had peace....
sigh, maybe God is thinking, why Huijun always so silly...

maybe He is shaking His head, but I know He still loves me.
but dun wana take His grace for granted, always make mistakes, opps...oo-OO then aask Him for help

havent BLOg for AGes !!!!!!!!

sigh
havent come in to blog for ages....
been veri busy. work, work, work....then rest, then work, meet frens, frens, frens.....

wish that I could rest for a long, long time. Got to say NO to meeting too many frens for this while, coz I am weary.

Work is ok, colleagues are the ones I look forward to when I go to work....Sucks, the trip to Bangkok during the May Day long weekend didnt get me suff. rest, want more.

TOday is alreadi 24 May, very near end May. So, i feel a sense of ' time really flies '........
Wat do I really want to do ?!!!!!!
want to not work and rest, not work and be involved in something meaningful. This is not possible at the moment....work is necessary as I am in the 'training', a moulding process, UNSEEN, now very painful and sometimes leaving me in a bewildered stage...but necessary, that I will GROW up and be able to undertake greater tasks, or rather, dreams come true when I really wait.

i am a procrastinate QUEEN

i realise i am getting older
not becoz i celebrated my birthday this yr...haaha.
but becoz i felt so different in that many situations are happening and many frenships start to either blossom or going towards a stage of conflict. AND, also, i realise i have much more responsibilities...yucks.

by now, i realise i cant dodge the process of growing up no matter how much i wish to procrastinate.
haahaa, queen Esther in the bible also procrastinate till she finally was touched to save her pple.
it's a bad habit

i am writing in horrible English today....haha, not just today
ACTUALLY, i have yet written for v v v v vv longggggggg

i was busy at work and yes, i went to BANGKOK !!!!!!!!!!!!!
haahaa, usu not many pple read my blog, so if you do, do leave a note.

I realise my present job is so cool, in the sense that I can learn so so so much, fr a boss who is v sharp eyed and sometimes quite a pain.
Sigh coz she is a career minded woman. But i really appreciate her, coz she really is gd and takes time too to mentor me.
THANK GOD.
haha, i really thank God coz He gave me the courage to ask my boss two qns in Mar -a. wat is my direction in the dept and b. will my renumeration be adjusted.
I never felt the peace after i entered coz i felt i was 'under-utilised' and not doing well.

Still adjusting to corporate culture and keeping my self.

Cant be so careless wif my words anymore liao. It is childish.

Haha, yes, GROWING uP !
there is no perfect working world. At least my colleagues are nice !
and there is someone whom I can share wif.

I really wish to be a presenter or adventurer, sometimes i dream of going to MediaCorp, being a presenter....
and nowadays dream of going overseas for holidays/work/study
jia lat
need to concentrate and focus on work again !

LASTLY, wana share 1 'achievement'. I cooked for my mama on SUN ! whoa, she finally got me to cook.....fulfilling her dream of me being a xian qi liang mu (virtuous wife)...wat's next?
heehez

Ciao

today is mum's birthday

my friends, this week has been busy. Have not been able to get proper rest.
what should I do ? rest rest res
but fortunately, everything that ought to be done and people whom I shd meet I have met !
yeah, today is my mum's birthday, did a very nice photo album for her. Simple one but sincerely for her......all our memories of her since growing up

when tiredness sets in

there were many downs this week, i nearly succumbed to feeling sad.... BUT i chose to ignore some, and let go of the rest.

I have long realised and recognised that when tiredness is there, i will feel very stressed....emotionally down. So, thinking does NOT help at all. Dwelling on it worsens the day.

Encouragement for all : the rainbow is there when we thot it isn't

encouragement for the weary n not well

1 Thessalonians 5
16Be joyful always; 17pray continually; 18give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus.

Psalm 34
Of David. When he pretended to be insane before Abimelech, who drove him away, and he left. 1 [a] I will extol the LORD at all times;
his praise will always be on my lips.
2 My soul will boast in the LORD ;
let the afflicted hear and rejoice.
3 Glorify the LORD with me;
let us exalt his name together.

4 I sought the LORD , and he answered me;
he delivered me from all my fears.
5 Those who look to him are radiant;
their faces are never covered with shame.
6 This poor man called, and the LORD heard him;
he saved him out of all his troubles.
7 The angel of the LORD encamps around those who fear him,
and he delivers them.

8 Taste and see that the LORD is good;
blessed is the man who takes refuge in him.
9 Fear the LORD , you his saints,
for those who fear him lack nothing.
10 The lions may grow weak and hungry,
but those who seek the LORD lack no good thing.

11 Come, my children, listen to me;
I will teach you the fear of the LORD .
12 Whoever of you loves life
and desires to see many good days,
13 keep your tongue from evil
and your lips from speaking lies.
14 Turn from evil and do good;
seek peace and pursue it.

15 The eyes of the LORD are on the righteous
and his ears are attentive to their cry;
16 the face of the LORD is against those who do evil,
to cut off the memory of them from the earth.

17 The righteous cry out, and the LORD hears them;
he delivers them from all their troubles.
18 The LORD is close to the brokenhearted
and saves those who are crushed in spirit.

19 A righteous man may have many troubles,
but the LORD delivers him from them all;
20 he protects all his bones,
not one of them will be broken.

21 Evil will slay the wicked;
the foes of the righteous will be condemned.
22 The LORD redeems his servants;
no one will be condemned who takes refuge in him.

sharing some verses

Living to Please God 1Finally, brothers, we instructed you how to live in order to please God, as in fact you are living. Now we ask you and urge you in the Lord Jesus to do this more and more. 2For you know what instructions we gave you by the authority of the Lord Jesus.
3It is God's will that you should be sanctified: that you should avoid sexual immorality; 4that each of you should learn to control his own body[a] in a way that is holy and honorable, 5not in passionate lust like the heathen, who do not know God; 6and that in this matter no one should wrong his brother or take advantage of him. The Lord will punish men for all such sins, as we have already told you and warned you. 7For God did not call us to be impure, but to live a holy life. 8Therefore, he who rejects this instruction does not reject man but God, who gives you his Holy Spirit.
9Now about brotherly love we do not need to write to you, for you yourselves have been taught by God to love each other. 10And in fact, you do love all the brothers throughout Macedonia. Yet we urge you, brothers, to do so more and more.
11Make it your ambition to lead a quiet life, to mind your own business and to work with your hands, just as we told you, 12so that your daily life may win the respect of outsiders and so that you will not be dependent on anybody.

tiring week just passed....phew

sigh.....lotsa things happened over the past week. Thank God for the strength, and that it's over. He always protects me !!!!!!!!! yeah

last week there was this guy whom i went out wif for lunch. Prev. i didnt realise he really like to m.s.m.j (mao shou mao jiao)-means a bit touchy. The little actions like touch head, tap shoulder/brush the arms while walking near to you. At first i thot was ok, but on hindsight, wa -he may be trying to be intimate. YUCKS. i am going to tell him off the next time IF i ever see him or have to walk next to him.
He is a nice person, but still, he should watch his actions, and respect gals, even gals whom he noes are nice enuff not to tick him off. Ya, I must be out of my mind, or blown off by his charisma to realise that he is up to funny business somehow.

office matters

working life is difficult but not necessary a killer

tired!

it was a very good week during Good Fri and Easter. Many people came to know Jesus!
As for myself, my heart feels so much refreshment and though many times I was tired, I was strengthened mentally, physically and spiritually by God. It is a time of rememberance how Jesus died.

Today, Tue, hmm....'suffering' from tiredness over the weekend....hahaha, not just to church, caught up wif a 'long-lost' church fren, also went out wif frens to 'play', watched Miss Congenality 2 (personally i dun think it's tat great). Also went to gym and jogging more over the last 2 weeeks. Last nite was the 2nd fitness consultation wif the trainer Chris and he helped introduce 4 weights training for me.
It would take discipline....he says to train for marathon -the runner needs (i) proper body composition; (ii) muscle strength; (iii) muscle resistance; and (iv) endurance.

All the way!!!!!!!!!!!!!

it was from God

i was ministering to a few gal frens recently....I realised God always has a purpose for each of us for all the things we go through, that when we minister, truly we minister wif God's heart, with a deeper sense of compassion, leaning on His grace, and truly they will be touched becoz of Him, and sense the compassion and reality of God.

At many times, I really cant...really cant liao, it is God. All glory and thanks to Him.

yeah!!!!!!!!!!!

happy happy!

not becoz I drank Margarita last nite, not becoz somebody said I was pretty (same gal fren)....not becoz I have lotsa frens.........
haha, not becoz I can change (some of my frens know I love to change, overcome weaknesses)...
but becoz I know God really protected me all the way.....every day, every nite, through all the problems I encountered, doubts which i voiced out LOUDly to Him.

I experienced so much of God's blessings....I wana be a blessing to others...
going church doesnt make a christian, it is knowing God that is the point.
No point saying at times......listening is definitely better!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
We are all sinners saved by grace.......

"He has madeth my heart glad"
in all circumstances, through the ups ups, downs downs, DOWNS, ups.ups.downs downs

disturbed

i think i am in the mood of love....haha
ya, paying more attention to colours, listening to colleagues' advice to dress younger; act younger (instd of being so aunty)

praying and going out wif wide open eyes! haha, been so "at home" wif my gal frens, meeting up old frens, nuan-ing at home....so so comfy.

Going to go out more wif frens isnt helping as many of them are females... =p
but I ask them to look out for me and introduce.
Some pple say i very high expectations, haha, maybe 60 yrs old also never get married.
I dun think i really high expectations.
Expectations yes, but not high, but maybe a bit perfectionist....
but still, marriage is for a lifetime, even tho 40%+ divorce rate nowadays, I dun wish to be a statistic, tho I can't prevent it fr helping, I can at least aim not to go towards it.

Had a gd lunch today!

good day and lunch today!!!!!!!!!

had a mighty gd lunch today wif a very nice ex-colleague! she introduced me to a new semi-restaurant in Novena Sq, 3rd level, near the Magic Wok (new).
The prices, atmosphere and quality like Crystal Jade style....
we ate Tianjin "gou bu li" bun

She had shrimp noodles and I had beef porridge. yummy yummy!
hehehe, she also accompanied me to 2 showflats.
Really enjoyed my day!!!!!!!!!!!!
also had chance to tok to her....and she pointed one of my biggest weakness. WHOA!
=0)

so happy.....feeling more and more joyful as I really feel the good work God is doing in me and all around me!
yeah!

jogged again !

whew, finally started to jog again.
Am going to start again, after a long break of 3-weeks, without any exercise, yucks. Fortunately, somehow I cut down on my food intake (less carbo) since last Mon...dunno why, perhaps it's becoz my body went from fit to super-lethargic state. I was feeling sleepy often....

withdrawal symptoms from no exercise?

going to gym later for a gauge of my health/cardio rate.....a free session given by the gym as I had bought a 9-mth membership fr my senior colleague (she's pregnant...going to give birth soon).

Just this yr for the training of the Marathon...still keeping it in view!

shivering cold

hehehe
went on a 'date' last Fri....quite nice guy, boyish though 33 yrs old....met him together wif another gal fren for lunch.
was shivering cold before I met him, I guess it's stepping into unknown grounds. Have not dated for very very very long.

he likes to try new things, I think it is a early-30s kinda crisis for many guys...I rem my uncle tried roller-blading at that age then

he is not very handsome or watsoever, I guess it's just a nice feeling to have someone ask you out.

It was a nice lunch.....
that's all

don't dock the boat!

"Now when he had left speaking, he said unto Simon, launch out into the deep, and let down your nets for a draught." Luke 5:4, KJV
Many of us prefer to keep our boats safely tied to the pier rather than launch out into the deep with Christ. To be sure, when a boat is tied to the pier it is sheltered within the harbor; the wind is calm and the water is smooth. But boats are designed for sailing, not docking. The real boating adventure begins out in the open sea with the wind and the salty ocean spray in your face.
The same is true of your spiritual journey with the Lord. If, like most people, you are content to stay in port, tied to the dock, then you will have limited opportunity to know Him better. However, if you intend to discover who He truly is and your destiny in Him, then cast off your moorings by faith and launch out into the deep with Him. If you will forsake your fears and risk a deeper intimacy with Jesus, then you will learn more about Him and in the vast ocean of His Spirit you will find the very desire of your heart.
Simon Peter was so anxious to experience the supernatural power of Christ that when he and the other disciples who were in a boat, saw Jesus walking toward them on water tossed by waves from a contrary wind, he asked:
Lord, if it be thou, bid me come unto thee on the water. And he said, Come. And when Peter was come down out of the ship, he walked on the water, to go to Jesus (Matt. 14:28-29, KJV).
But something happened to Peter in the process. The text tells us:
But when he [Peter] saw the wind boisterous, he was afraid; and beginning to sink, he cried, saying, Lord, save me. And immediately Jesus stretched forth his hand, and caught him, and said unto him, O thou of little faith, wherefore didst thou doubt? (Matt 14:30-31, KJV).
Facing life's trials is a lot like launching out into the deep or stepping out of the boat. When we've finally risked enough to step out and then find ourselves confronted with overwhelming odds, we immediately cry out for Jesus to deliver us. But the Lord is saying, "I want to do more than deliver you. I want to develop you."
Even in the test that Satan prepared for Peter we can see how Jesus was trying to develop Peter's character. "And the Lord said, Simon, Simon, behold, Satan hath desired to have you, that he may sift you as wheat: But I have prayed for thee" (Luke 22:31-32, KJV). Surely Peter must have been shocked to hear of Satan's plan to sift him; but I'm sure he was relieved that Jesus had prayed for him. By now Simon Peter knew that the Father always heard and answered Jesus' prayers. What could Peter have possibly thought when he discovered that Jesus had not prayed for the relief of sifting? Rather, Jesus said, "I have prayed for thee, that thy faith fail not: and when thou art converted, strengthen thy brethren" (Luke 22:32, KJV). Jesus prayed only that Simon Peter's faith would stand the test and that the test would strengthen him.
You, too, will be tested. The wind and the waves of the open sea are designed to test your commitment to the Lord. He wants you to have more than a shallow experience with Him; He wants you to know His depths. A deep relationship with God requires deep testing, and deep testing requires deep faith. The Lord designs and tailors our testing so that we might earn the right of passage to walk with Him at deeper levels.
The psalmist said, "O God of my righteousness: thou hast enlarged me when I was in distress" (Ps. 4:1, KJV). If the Lord harbored you at the same, safe place all your life, you would never grow. Periodically He calls you to launch out into the deep, to step out of the boat and face life's storms with Him. If you refuse to trust Jesus and risk the journey, then you will never know the joy of deep intimacy with Him. In this untested condition you may remain unfit for service and possibly never reach your destiny.
Yet, if you will step out of the boat and test the water, you will learn who God is and who you are, and your faith will grow under the pressure. These experiences will develop a Christ-like sensitivity and sympathy for others who are facing life's hardships. You know what they are going through, for you have been there, too.
(Exerpted from Alice Smith's Book:40 Days Beyond the Veil

lunch time now

now is lunch time....
gd for a break
--:O)--

have a person who "attacked" me this morn. Sigh, tried to help him but he sort of backstabbed. BUt nevermind, God is my protector and my boss knows what is going on.

entry I took from ORIGINAL COPIES !

Pastor's preaching a 4-part sermon about Easter, and he shared a really poignant anecdote that struck a chord deep within my hardened, decaying soul:The mother of a nine-year-old boy named Mark received a phone call in the middle of the afternoon. It was the teacher from her son's school."Mrs. Smith, something unusual happened today in your son's third grade class. Your son did something that surprised me so much that I thought you should know about it immediately."The mother began to grow worried.The teacher continued,"Nothing like this has happened in all my years of teaching. This morning I was teaching a lesson on creative writing. And as I always do, I tell the story of the ant and the grasshopper:The ant works hard all summer and stores up plenty of food. But the grasshopper plays all summer and does no work.Then winter comes.The grasshopper begins to starve because he has no food. So he begins to beg, 'Please Mr. Ant, you have much food. Please let me eat, too.'Then I said, "Boys and girls, your job is to write the ending to the story."Your son, Mark, raised his hand. 'Teacher, may I draw a picture?''Well, yes, Mark, if you like, you may draw a picture. But first, you must write the ending to the story.'"As in all the past years, most of the students said the ant shared his food through the winter,and both the ant and the grasshopper lived.A few children wrote, 'No, Mr. Grasshopper. You should have worked in the summer. Now, I have just enough food for myself.' So the ant lived and the grasshopper died."But your son ended the story in a way different from any other child, ever.He wrote, 'So the ant gave all of his food to the grasshopper; the grasshopper lived through the winter.But the ant died.'And the picture?At the bottom of the page, Mark had drawn three crosses."

more over the weekend

and I realise over the weekend, some more things began to clear up. I didnt really read a lot of the bible over the past 1 year nor was I beri rooted in church....
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guess when I came to struggle over the issues that are overwhelming, I let go at points in time. It's really by God's grace. And haha, due to my father's strong genes to me, I am still quite disciplined...go to church and keep asking why why why. However, my incessant spirit of restlessness and easily distracted from the basics of prayer and reading the WORD (devotional time) lessen lessen lessen, thus I strayed. anyways, God keep working in lives. Truly, deeply, daily. Esp. when I feel most down, some stuff would shine as a light, somebody would appear and say hi, something would draw me back to Jesus....it is Shepherd calling the sheep. Me, a strong-headed, rebellious sheep.
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SO yest., i did not go for a prayer and praise which initially i intended to go. And i went to visit my mum's fren (aunt). Along the road, I saw many lights, many sales, many pple...walking on the streets, many devotees going to temples - i understd it's Buddhists "returning to god something they asked for"
******

I like fast things, cars-driving, adrenaline-pumping such as wakeboarding, mountain-climbing, exploring, roller-coaster and sports such as roller-blading, windsurfing...ya, so that's where my restlessness is, easily distracted. Thank God He saved me before I started to really pursue $ $ $ and fame fame fame ! =p

over the weekend !

I am very happy today...
actually was zapped out over the weekend....

i constantly remind myself not to "get involved" in activities....coz I so "like to be involved in activities" and goal-oriented. When will I ever get to be like my mum--stay at home and be a gd housewife and etc....?

as I write the above, I really want to, to learn how to cook, to clean; to iron. These are so impt, in setting up a home and caring for the family.

Yest. I visited an "aunt", actually my mum's fren. She just had a major op last year and now have a shop. She worked hard,to "raise funds" for herself next time when old. I enjoyed visitng her. Actually I had fun just helping her arrange the clothes on the mannequins and giving suggestions abt retail.

Then I went to the Orch library....actually God is doing so much moulding work in my life that I seldom like to stay at home or be doing nothing as my mind (which I "trained" slowly not to dwell on things, worry, etc) would wander. It is painful and lonely at times.
But I know it is a process. How to explain? In counselling terms I suppose, it is relief, temporary relief. In the long term, I would succeed in getting the breakthrough as I finally RUN to God again!!!!!!!
Which is what I felt last nite and this morn. Finally, the moulding process sees a new "fruit"--i.e. breakthrough in an area (two actually) God was helping me with.

Steady steady pom pipi

so much last nite too, got bombarded by three pre-believing frens abt life, love, finding a partner etc. I was actually zapped by them, coz I know them on and off in the Uni and then now we met up to catch up. It is good, hehe, but the two of them are guys, non-attached and like to question me why I dont choose non-christians....

Seriously, God has done a deep work in my life and continues to, so I try to explain but no debate, I know it is a personal thing and one day they will come to experience the depth and height of His love and the answers to all the questions they have !!!!!!!!!!!!!

GOD BLESS yoU!

sighhhhhh.....

today, is not a day at work at all.....doing nothing much, my colleagues not doing much too.... except one lady doing something for a case
yucks... sigh

some say all work places are like this, I refuse to believe, I believe many places are like this, but not all.

I wana get out!!!!!!!!!!!!

sigh, didnt get to exercise for 9 days liao!!!!!!!!!!!!
ill now wif very bad sore throat....
must have eaten too much, rubbish, but good stuff, lavished too much....Sigh, it is actually too much meeting up of frens/other appointments after CNY period (ironic that during CNY i didnt eat much).

I NEED to EXERCISE again!!!!!!!!!!!!

when you don't feel like you like today

when the clouds cover the sky n your day ahead seems dreary,
lift your eyes that are weary...
up, up, up to the sky.

when things go wrong and you feel like giving up,
lift up your voice and try to hum...
little, little, little song number.

when many people let you down,
lift your heart and let go now...
bit, bit, bit unbound.

when we face(d) ups and downs yest., today and yet to come,
God, grant more strength and wisdom...
joy, joy, joy come!

Women Part II

and then I continue...

(i) Submission Does NOT = passivity and inferiority.
Tho men are the head of the household, women are complementing as their helpers, making decisions together.
(more detailed in the previous posting)

So, what does SubMiSSion really mean?
He mentioned that it really means RESPECT; HONOUR thy husband; ReCOGniSIng the role he has in the family as the head, leader, provider.
The woman has been gifted with all the natural gifts to support and complement the husband.
He did reveal-men, they can be very vulnerable. DO NOT PUT your husband down nor trample upon him. RESPECT him, HoNOUR him, LOVE him.

He also mentioned that women likes to "RESTRUCTURE" their husbands...i.e. trying to change him. THUS, in the process of "restructuring" the husband, often nag, nag, nag, or forget about respecting/honouring him.
DO NOT NAG. The best weapon is not saying much. God can change him. "REstruCtuRing" thy husband is truly not submission. Except from abuse and adultery, God has provided such a blessing that women will be protected if they learn to submit. "Reflect" your husband positively--i.e. when with frens, etc., use all the talents and gifts you have to help thy husbands to succeed. Be it in his career, ministry or at home (e.g. building up the home and bringing up the kids).

Pastor noted that women like to play the game--TELEPATHY with their husbands. Say when their husbands wana buy somethg for them, ask them to GUESS, if guess wrongly and bought somethg which they does not like, "blame" the husbands for not loving them thus not knowing wat they like.
When the husbands ask, the wives shd tell them.....(in my perception: appreciate them when they buy wrongly)

As men would tend to "stray"....pastor also asked women to learn how to cook, do the hsehold chores...manage the house, etc. If really no time and have the means to employ a maid, the woman shd at least know what it is like, how to manage the home. The maid cannot substitute her duties.

To add on the (ii) point that Submission brings blessing, pastor pointed out 1 Peter 3:1 and 1 Peter chapter 2 verses 13-25. JUST AS IN other areas such as work, government, etc... submission to the boss/leader also brings blessing.
Have a read.
The ultimate blessing and source of joy comes from God, not from the husbands (as many who r in a husband-wife relationship would share). There can be sorrow, deep sorrow. Dare to submit and see how God protects thy as wife. In the cases of broken marriages:
If your husband is bad, God loves you.
If your husband is not earning to support the family, God provides.
Lastly, let God change your man.
Pray for him.
THE (iii) point: Women are transformed more and more beautiful through submission.
Men, if worth your love, would noe that a 16 or 18 gal is not worth it. Looks are attracting but they would not last. Eventually the good husband would remember a virtuous wife, gentle and quiet spirit, using her talents and gifts in all the ways she can, respecting and honoring him. Men can see the inner beauty. HOWEVER, do not need to "make" urself ugly.
Reference: Proverbs 31
I believe so, if the guy truly seeks God. If he is shallow, pray for him.

Women Part I

i am sharing the pastor's message for women during the last weekend. have a look!

First, pastor shared abt the concept of submission, as it is well-known in the christian context that women are told to submit to their husbands. NOTE: pastor shared, at least 5 times, that WOMEN are NOT inferior to men. SUbMiSSion is NOT equal to inferiority nor passivity.

At first, I wondered why he reiterated that again and again....then I realised that he wanted to bring across the point that women shd have a right, biblical perspective of themselves, NOT to be misled that being submissive means timidity nor passivity.

The scripture verses quoted are Ephesians 5:22-33 (the main reference) and then Galatians 3:28, Proverbs 31, 1 Corinthians 11:7 (you can check via www.biblegateway.com)

tho women are called to be submissive, it does not mean giving up work...career...studies...talents...etc.

He gave an example of an interview betw. a social worker and a farmer from El Savador. The social worker asked him what does his wife do. Does she work? He ans no, that she stays at home. (read on...) He added that she has given birth to 16 children, 9 live. She does many tasks and routine stuff at home.
She buys groceries (lotsa) by herself, prepares the meals for him, brings his lunch to him daily (abt 6km back and fro)..... Then she goes back home, does chores, looks after the kids....when he comes hm, she does not get to rest. When he sleeps, she continues wif her chores.

"Catch" it again--> Does she work? He replied no.... Actually she works so much, vigorously! Pastor points to Proverbs 31. Indeed, the women are often hard at work, taking care of many stuff in the household. He said that men, who are insecure and ignorant, often use the "submissive" virtue on women wrongly. Submissive does NOT mean not voicing out, not having any part in the decision-making.
He said that importantly, women as we learn to submit to our husbands, we are protected, bringing on God's blessing (natural law of protection). NOTE that a legal means of resolution is definitely allowed when abused by husbands.
Submission does NOT mean silent suffering.

work is crazy today

..............ahhhh
gotta rectify something....and sometimes sandwiched bet. boss in my dept and the boss in the other dept.

Nevermind, all is still very fine...Gotta work hard. Learnt a 'new' thing (rather revision of wat I learnt in Uni) and had chance to practise it just yesterday. =0) Great, now I can do more and help the colleague when she goes on leave, on boss would let me take up even greater tasks! Plus the new take-ups, yeah, the project is going on well.
I think the March and April mths would be more xiong, thus do more while I can whenever I am free, spread the stress out

V-day today

today is V-day and I have no date. It is alrite. Half of me have gotten used to the fact that I have no date, half of me am happy that I have no date....coz I do not want any guy to come to me/to love me only on V-day.......

anyways, most of my gal frens have been attached for so long, they say they no longer celebrate, perhaps just a dinner....
and my colleague, who received a bouquet of nice garden flowers (her husband is in the biz) was happy, but commented--is it he who sent or the sis who sent (her sis-in-law also works in it, family biz) ?

Everyday shd be a V-day for couples ! Just like Christmas, everyday is meaningful wif Christmas.

Couples shd keep the romance going.....thro' little gifts, cards, flowers, foods, going-out-togethers, movies, picnics.....etc.
Keep the romantic spark of fire burning! =0) ....

the training is going! geez........

haha,

anyway, i jogged on Sat, tried my first go at MacRitchie's boardwalk...snaking around the fringe of the lake. Sometimes quite dangerous, coz the boardwalk's made up of strips of wood, when more than 1 jog, the sound "way way" comes on.

Sun, i think my body aching for some exercise, thus i swam!!!!!!! mua-haha-ha, I tried after so long....the strokes are still there, but I trying to improve the left hand of freestyle.....

Good for me, coz i think i enjoy food more now, gonna read up on the healthy diet and eating to build up strength....cny is on tmr!!!!!!!!
=0)

Hotel Rwanda

I went to watch the show on Tue, it was different from the usual show.
The show reflects how the South African people were, in the times when some Hutus started the "campaign" of killing their own people but of another tribe---Tutsi.

The show showed how the male lead, a Hutu, began to have compassion for the Tutsi. He did not have compassion on them initially. He was just a simple, diligent man being the hotel manager, minding his own business.
Perhaps it was becoz he was a family-loving man....he loved his wife and family members very, very much.
Through the series of events, he began to feel for the Hutus and miraculously through wisdom from God, he managed to get help on the line of fire, to stop even more massacre of the Tutsi....
interesting...
have a watch!

end of day...

today quite relaxed....colleagues all like on holiday mode, much chatting took place....probably it's becoz big bosses are all out and thank God, the marketing launch on Mon went well!
Almst all units are gone.

this afternoon, just before I typed this, my colleagues and I shared abt the abbreviations we noe...haha, it is really good, the bonding is gradually forming and we share more, like my supervisor's getting excited abt her pregnancy, another wanting to get pregnant, shares her desire to hv a child......we go for lunches more and more often too!

Cheers
=0)

made a wrong decision last week

yucks....made too many appointments last week, cant 'dong' this week coz go out almost every nite, now very tired....

=p Almost didnt get to exercise, fortunately tonite going for dance. Ballet part II ! =0) if not, the plan to exercise not getting on-going. Gotta keep it going! =0)

so good!

i am very happy recently.....not because i strike toto or got a pay raise....hahaa, but because I feel God's grace is upon me.

I recently realised why I undergone depression and some sort of struggles and was not able to get "out" of it. It is because I hated a lot of the things I can't change and was angry, with myself, with God and with people.

In short, nothing seems beautiful nor positive.
Haha, was talking to a friend just yest. and realise she was going thru a hard time overcoming certain stuff in her life. She felt so low about herself and wanted to give up. We both agreed it is gd to know abt some weak points we have....she is not a believer of Jesus yet.

Anyway, I just overflow with new faith this week....duno how to explain. Somehow God seemed to have brought my "changing" period to a certain full-stop. I asked a lot, alot, alot, alot of questions for the past 2.5 yrs.

I did not get any ans but I got back myself, but renewed, more mature. A lot of things have happened, a lot tested my confidence, my level of thinking, my behaviours....etc.

It is good. Every thing has a season.
I am also glad I met up with old frens, frens whom I seldom see, frens whom I thot I have lost the friendship....frens whom I know are dear to my heart but dun get to meet up coz we are all so occupied....
It is vvery cool....coz God is in my life....note, I am no naive person/crazy, fanatic person but I really get to taste of God's goodness more and more each day!

To add on, I have a brand new year ahead.......I believe God will save the depressed people, I can be a blessing! Thank God for bringing me thru....truly, that I may be a tweeny weeny bit closer to being an understanding person too. To the ones whom i will get to meet on the street, in my workplace, in church, in my extended family, etc.

I like to share because I believe being a christian may probably be like walking against the flow many times. Not many times we will be strong, thus we all need to hold one another up.....CHEERS!

started jogging on tue and dance!

yeah! danced today...a little bit, coz I just returned, they are practising other stuff for performance, I was with a few others learning basics--ballet. SO COOL!!!!!!!!!!!! really enjoyed....had wanted to do it since long long long long ago....finally got the chance. yeah!

one day -today's Thaipusam

was on the bus this morn....saw the Thaipusam people with all the head gear and needles....Also saw them again in the evening after work.....
was thinking abt them on and off when i saw them--Why do they want to pierce themselves?
it is said (from a colleague) tat they believe the pain is suffered as for their god.
i believe so, it is their kind of worship.

however, it is wrong, god who is loving wouldnt ask us to pierce ourselves, not in any case would it atone our sins too....
i wonder why the years went by like these.
Some pple says it is alike to Jesus, why christians say Jesus died on the cross to save people. Those who do not read the bible would not know.
Initially all God commanded was to keep laws and sacrifice ANIMALS. then He had to die on the cross for us not becoz He likes to torture Himself, but as an atonement for ALL people, because people would not believe such a God exists (i.e. loving enuff yet holy enuff to judge sin-which requires atonement)....

it is also part of the mystery people do not believe why God can come as man many many years ago as Jesus, why Jesus, God are one.

starting First DAY....

heezzzzzzz
today will be the starting for the jogging...
am going home directly after work. Feeling a bit tired now...but will do it! Yeh yeh yeh

also going to start tennis, as soon as the coach returns from Penang ...
yeah
Plus the jogging at Botanics Gdn, while wif my grandma---good for both of us! she likes to go wif me, i jog and also accompany her .......heez......

about wisdom

for the word 'she', refers to wisdom


Further Benefits of Wisdom 1 My son, do not forget my teaching,
but keep my commands in your heart,
2 for they will prolong your life many years
and bring you prosperity.

3 Let love and faithfulness never leave you;
bind them around your neck,
write them on the tablet of your heart.
4 Then you will win favor and a good name
in the sight of God and man.

5 Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;
6 in all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make your paths straight. [a]

7 Do not be wise in your own eyes;
fear the LORD and shun evil.
8 This will bring health to your body
and nourishment to your bones.

9 Honor the LORD with your wealth,
with the firstfruits of all your crops;
10 then your barns will be filled to overflowing,
and your vats will brim over with new wine.

11 My son, do not despise the LORD's discipline
and do not resent his rebuke,
12 because the LORD disciplines those he loves,
as a father [b] the son he delights in.

13 Blessed is the man who finds wisdom,
the man who gains understanding,
14 for she is more profitable than silver
and yields better returns than gold.
15 She is more precious than rubies;
nothing you desire can compare with her.
16 Long life is in her right hand;
in her left hand are riches and honor.
17 Her ways are pleasant ways,
and all her paths are peace.
18 She is a tree of life to those who embrace her;
those who lay hold of her will be blessed.

19 By wisdom the LORD laid the earth's foundations,
by understanding he set the heavens in place;
20 by his knowledge the deeps were divided,
and the clouds let drop the dew.

21 My son, preserve sound judgment and discernment,
do not let them out of your sight;
22 they will be life for you,
an ornament to grace your neck.
23 Then you will go on your way in safety,
and your foot will not stumble;
24 when you lie down, you will not be afraid;
when you lie down, your sleep will be sweet.
25 Have no fear of sudden disaster
or of the ruin that overtakes the wicked,
26 for the LORD will be your confidence
and will keep your foot from being snared.

27 Do not withhold good from those who deserve it,
when it is in your power to act.
28 Do not say to your neighbor,
"Come back later; I'll give it tomorrow"-
when you now have it with you.

29 Do not plot harm against your neighbor,
who lives trustfully near you.
30 Do not accuse a man for no reason-
when he has done you no harm.

31 Do not envy a violent man
or choose any of his ways,
32 for the LORD detests a perverse man
but takes the upright into his confidence.

33 The LORD's curse is on the house of the wicked,
but he blesses the home of the righteous.
34 He mocks proud mockers
but gives grace to the humble.
35 The wise inherit honor,
but fools he holds up to shame.

do not blame yourself

i guess i wrote this entry becoz i realised a lot of pple blame a lot on themselves once they find something goes wrong... not many people get out of such a state when they are in it, i am like that at times.
sometimes caused by traumatic experiences, unhealthy family background or even influences from peers. unconsciously, it seems to be the usual way of getting comfort from themselves.
it seems tat a person is humble or even very 'wei da', but actually it stems from low self-esteem.....the person who suffers from such usu. feel even worse if a friend tries to talk him/her out of it. Perhaps only through continuous care and loving concern from genuine friends that he/she will get out of it. Patience needed.....
i think for myself, it is becoz of mentors and He, my God who sets me free from the anxiety and pleaser-mode. The low self-awarded, so-called 'esteem' is defeated.

a blessed life....nine years

I thank God for every single one of my frens, family and colleagues.
I thank God for every single event in my life, good and bad.

(i) came to know Christ
(ii) things good happening in family
(iii) bad patches in school, did not concentrate...did not do well
(iv) did not understd some things which happened, why God allowed...xxx....yy...
(v) issue of pride surfaced, fell from high position....
(vi) cannot believe God for blessing anymore, very sad, etc....
(vii) things got better, but from then on up and down....
(viii)blame many people 4 many things, cannot comprehend, asked y, y, y, low-esteem, depression, emotional entanglement
(ix) picking up, very slowly, so slowly i got very very impatient
(x) process of unwinding began and recognition of God's faithfulness though He is unseen
quarrelled with many people in the process....though
(xi) celebrating new processes that happened and are happening though I still question (i am v stubborn and have lotsa questionsss..... =0))
(xii) 2005, more complete healing, esp. in terms of emotions and growth in maturity, thinking less (in terms of anxiety), loving more....less inhibitions coz I know i am weak but HE is strong in my weakness(es)!

Praise God, We are BlessEd in SINGAPORE! We can be a blessing to many.....